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#especially since they cut my shift to 5 hrs and 45 mins instead of just 6 hours
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#1. i crave stimulation so bad im practically buzzing in my seat
#but at the same time im so tired i could knock out rn
#and tomorrow marks another full week of work.......2 jobsssssss lololol
#i really really really hate starbucks. like. really.
#it is the worst job imaginable for someone w adhd
#especially since they cut my shift to 5 hrs and 45 mins instead of just 6 hours
#so i cant take a lunch
#dude 10 minutes is not enough. it takes 3 just to get my food
#i really hate starbucks.hate it so much
#and ups has been rough just because we dropped our seasonal workers so. more work for a smaller team
#2. I wish martin hadnt been the way he had. the sex was so fucking good and now im back to being touch starved
#i dont want to deal with finding another person right now.way too busy and way too fucked mentally
#since lauren ditched me ive just been exhausting myself picking up the pieces.
#dealing with my anger my sadness and my guilt
#yo she really fucking hurt me. idk if i can ever rly forgive her for how she hurt me.
#at the very least though i am free finally. and growing so nicely because she was holding me back
#but growing takes energy and effort so its just exhausting. being positive and hopeful and kind to myself
#sometimes i wish i expected less of myself.
#anyway off to bed I go.
#just needed a place to vent
#idk I just dont want to connect with any one person atm. safe to say i dont rly trust close relationships anymore
#sometimes i have to wonder at all the times ive been screwed over and ask why. like whats wrong with me.
#i think maybe i just love too much and it scares people. its natural to detest a mirror of a person i guess
#it really sucks how lauren turned out. i loved her so much. why would she lie to my face for so long?
#oh thank god I'm crying. ive needed this. ive been under a lot of stress and in a lot of pain lol
#i have this whole life ahead of me waiting to get going but when i stop for too long it feels like im not grown enough for it yet
#im in a lot of pain huh. she really hurt me. i think about it every night when im at work.
#im alive. and progressing. but a part of me is still in that phone call in october sobbing and blubbering while she hangs up in pity.
#i think I forgive myself though.
#anyway off to bed. fr this time
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