#eventually 'elyss is bad at introspection and putting her feelings into words' breaks under the pressure of 'I want it out there' | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

blujayonthewing · 1 year

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one problem with dnd is that, to some extent, you kinda have to do Getting A Good Grade In Therapy conversations sometimes because you don't get to control the entire narrative or anyone else's characters, so if you want people to know what your character is really thinking or feeling then eventually you kinda just have to say it out loud, and the problem with that is that sometimes you're playing a character who is really not very good at even knowing what they are thinking or feeling themselves in the first place

#eventually 'elyss is bad at introspection and putting her feelings into words' breaks under the pressure of 'I want it out there'#melliwyk? doesn't even recognize the Problems #like elyss will Become Distressed (or whatever) and need to chew on why for preferably seven to eight business weeks #and is bad at communication in general and worse at articulating her feelings #but I've recently realized how much of the stress mel is under is EXPONENTIALLY multiplied by the fact that #until Now her field of study was essentially a dead end. and like she's always worked tirelessly and enthusiastically but #especially in the last decade or so there was just straight up a lot less she COULD work on #she spent a lot of time reading and theorizing and honestly had a lot of downtime #and now she very suddenly has to work on EVERY PROBLEM AND PROJECT ON EARTH. RIGHT NOW. WITH INCOMPREHENSIBLY HIGH STAKES.#she would never! complain about this!! SHE feels like this is EXCITING and a GREAT THING!! she has no IDEA how burned out she is #like yes I have to bend character a little bit to get elyss or aubree or idri opening up about their issues #I'd have to break character to even get melliwyk to notice she HAS some of hers in the first place :')#about me #my OCs #melliwyk #elyss

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