#everything is going wrong latelly in my life
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#.#vent bellow#im... so tired#everything is going wrong latelly in my life#and it doesnt help how blatantly im being shown that im the least favorite kid all the time#ive been asking for therapy URGENTLY since i was 16#ive had to live with the worst thoughts for even lonher#longer*#even contemplating offing many times and almost doing it 3 during (terrible) highschool#even after showing them a way to get it free bc we were in poverty#they never even tried sending an application#now my brother is going to one full price bc he is struggling with the same depression i had at the same age#while im having to fight my way through to even get help with getting stuff that i medically need#im getting harrassed to get a job/study while im still BEGGING to get therapy bc the free healthcare one is an absolute moron and only see#him every 4-6 months#and i just... i feel so unwanted#my brother straight up refused to get any more gifts (cause he even got a 1k laptop..) until they gave me something#cause he's the only one in my family that gives a shit most of the time#and i just...I wish to be comforted so badly#but latelly I straight up cant when i most need it#i dont even have the confidency to ask anymore bc i just feel unwated#and i know it's not those pwople's fault#but i just wish i could be emotionally vulnerable with them#cause i havent been able to since...april? maybe more#and i know its bc they got their own issues to deal with and that stuff has been super rough lately#but i feel so alone#i feel like im falling back down because I cant get better wothout help#i feel like im just annoying anyone i talk to#and doesnt help that im struggling bc the hospital i need to call is legit not answering back#cause im getting extreme anxiety
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