#expect the most random ass kpop rants from me from now on

[hanjsquokka]

this is probably the most random thing but none of my friends like kpop and don't acknowledge it 💔 so i'm ranting here (the day i find irl kpop friends is the day its over for everyone) and i just wanted to tell someone :')

i'm recently getting into enhypen + seventeen and my only question is why haven't i listened to them sooner????

probably the only person in the room, but i started liking seventeen because of seungkwan since he was in the devil's plan (on netflix!) which is one of my favorite shows ever and i watched the8's antifragile cover during one of their concerts (one where i think he was injured because one of his hands were in his pockets i believe) and they became my two favorites (as of now). my first seventeen song is i believe left and right but i'm addicted to hot (sue me).

i've been a listener of enhypen since their debut but only as of late i've been starting to stan them. my favorites have to be jake, niki and heesung but it's very difficult to choose since i like all of them 😭. i even learnt the bite me choreo because it looked so fun. my first song was drunk dazed. i loved the music video so much.

another group is ateez. i've only listened to their super trending songs like bouncy/k-hot chilli peppers (is that the name? help) and crazy form but my favorite is wonderland!! it's so powerful, i get so much work done after i listen to it.

and newjeans!! since they're pretty new, i've already listened to their full discography (in a single walk home??). honestly their songs are so cute but they're so short 💔. i can't stop tapping my feet whenever i listen to attention or eta or hype boy (since i learnt the main choreo for those 😭).

le sserafim!!!!! yunjin can step on me <3 honesty all five of them could and i'd thank them :D

g-idle and twice and red velvet — hwasa! nct 127, wayV (i'm obsessed with lovetalk), kard, itzy, exo, aespa, everglow (i listen to them whenever i need to get shit done), ive and mave — i should stop.

anyways, that's that. if you read all of that, i love you 🥺💗

[deobienthusiast]

surviving the worst....

i meant to post this before january 1, but my wifi went out and i had no data so here we are. i’m not sure how long this will be so get comfortable.

this year has been quite the whirlwind. with everything that happened, it was hard to say positive. speaking upon my behalf, the virus coupled with the fear of being african american, to finally coming out to my parents that i am bisexual, it’s been a crazy ass year. not to mention the constant lockdowns and quarantines that have been put in place, it’s definitely been hard for me to keep a positive mindset.

i’m out of school, so i’m either at home or at work. this year hasn’t been very good to me. my mental health hit an all time low, i gained more weight than i would’ve imagined (even after losing all of it to get to my target weight). i wasn’t happy. this journey has been one of the hardest i’ve ever been through, but i did get through it because of my escape. this blog.

i’m not going to lie, when i started this blog, i didn’t expect to blow up like this. i started it in june during probably the worst time of the year as a way to cope with everything that was going on outside. a fresh start, something to distract me. however, what started as a distraction grew into something so much more beautiful. through this blog, i’ve interacted/encountered some of the most beautiful, kind, heartwarming people i’ve ever had the pleasure to talk to. i was welcomed into a writing community with which i knew nothing of with open arms. my hobby of writing grew into a passion due to everyone’s kind words. and for this, i want to thank each and every one of you from the bottom of my heart.

my bby moots💙

@lilla-prinsen - theo, my sweet sweet theo. i don’t think i’ve ever met a person i connect with so much. a friendship that i never would have expected grew so much that i don’t think i’ll ever be able to live without you. the boost of happiness i get just from having casual conversations with you is absolutely amazing. you’ve helped me grow into a better person. you let me rant and you allow me to see deeper into your life that i know you wouldn’t just open up and tell anyone about. you’ve allowed me to just see you as a person. your personality shines when you talk about the things you love or are passionate about (like your love for yoongi which has made me change my bias ((i’m sorry rm😖)) i hope to have you in my life forever. i love you so so much🤍

@you-did-well-moon -evelyn, where do i start? i think you were my very first friend i made on tumblr. despite being so much younger than me, you are so mature. sometimes i think you are more mature than i am. you’ve entrusted in me the time to help broaden your horizons in the kpop world. i’ve seen you fall in love with some idols that have changed my life, and cry over idols that have touched everyone’s hearts. you’re so funny, and your random messages about flying cockroaches early in the morning never fail to make me smile. one day i know you won’t choose death and instead kill the cockroaches. anyway, despite you saying you were extremely shy, you’ve managed to open up to me in ways i’m sure we’re hard for you to do, and i’m so glad you did. i love you so evilyn🖤

@sankyeom / @sankyeoms-replies - my baby belle, i’m not going to lie, you are probably like my celebrity crush on here. you’re an absolute light that shines with your amazing talent. i was so scared to even talk to you when i started reading your works because they are so incredible. you always leave me wanting more, and i can never get enough of seeing you lose it over changmin. you are the most influential person on here for me and i look up to you so much. thank you for everything. i love you💖 #teambomin

@moondeobis - my sweetie, we haven’t known each other long, but your talent speaks for itself, and you radiate such amazing energy. from being able to talk about the things that stress the both of us out to talking about tbz or just changmin, you never fail to make me smile. i love you🖤

@lsangyeons - YU, where do i start with you? i think it was our mutual love for cix (mainly seunghun) that brought us together. i knew from the moment you brought up his lisp that we were meant to be friends! your reactions to anything and everything he does, along with everyone else we just go crazy over is something i always enjoy. i so love seeing your crazy inboxes when i check my asks. where there’s cix, there’s a seunghun thread. (now a mashiho and hyunsuk thread and every other thread we’ve started). i love you sweet yu⭐️

@atbzkingdom - dee, we don’t talk much, but the interactions we have had have been so wholesome that i always feel at home when we talk. you mention how you were so shy to talk to me in the beginning and the truth is, i was the exact same way. you always support me and my work even when i feel it’s not my best and i couldn’t be more grateful for that. you’re an absolute beauty. i love you big🐤

honorable mentions🤍

i know i have more mutuals that i’ve never interacted with or have but it’s been very minimal and that’s because i’m either too intimidated or too shy, but i hope that we become close over this new year and grow as people together in this beautiful community.

@httpsohnpouts | @mae-gi-writes | @experimentalwrites | @ever1astinglove | @fairyoftbz | @chaoticdeobi | @channiewoo | @sunlightwoo | @stealerz | @kyujcm | @sunwoosgf | @hyeyoonwrites | @big-uwu-stan | @juyoens