#for both of our health man im like rly happy about it

[chaos-and-cookies]

Turns out u CAN in fact take a nap w.o feeling like u got hit by a truck waking up

U just need a new pricy mattress and even pricier pillows, but its possible!

[lifeoflucylou]

Sorry about the previous q, it's ungrateful to ask anyone to pick just one person. Could you name some people who influenced you in a positive way and how they did so?

PS you're pretty, hope I see more of your face on my feed :)

Thanks for the kind compliment :) You dont gotta apologize cause Im happy just to get questions here cause I never did before! In a positive way only?

I think Im gonna start with my big sis Amy. I think its clear why she is my #1! Shes always there for me ever since i was born & the only person who never gave up on me or left me even when my health & mental illnesses & attitude got real bad. Yeh we fight sometimes but we dont stay mad for long at eachother. Shes the only person in my life who forgives & forgets like 3 minutes later & the only one who i know will fight for me no matter what. She has the sweetest kiddos & i know her kids & my kids would of been the bestest friends.

Next is Adam. He has been my rock & my biggest support since we first dated (online) in spring 2023 & moving to the UK in July 2023 with Lay to live with him was the best decision i ever made. He is just the kindest, most loving man & the best daddy to Lay. He aint her bio dad but he treats her like his own & Lay just loves him so much! Im always gonna be grateful to meet him & that he can love someone so broken like me & be ready & willing to help fix.

Next is my bestie Fleur. We met as lil kids at the lake behind our house. She was the only happiness in my life & i secretly fell in love with her but she never knew cause I was always too scared 2 tell her. We even made a tumblr together but she has the email & PW so i cant even log into it. And now shes disappeared from the face of earth & i want nothin' more then to have her back in my life cause I miss her so much. She was my first love & first best friend who wasnt family.

Next are (in no order) Blake, Abi, Cali, Leanna, Jamie, Aiden, Cal, Dana, Missy, Hailey, Liz, Aiden, Chantal. We all had our hard times & big ass fights but I learnt so much from each one of these humans. Weve had good times, we went thru real bad times but we all grew. They tought me so much & I just wish they were online more so we could talk every day like we used to cause i miss them.

And last but not least my big sis Tay. Our relationship is complcated but i never stopped loving her as a sister. I rly hate that we used to fight so much but we are just so diffrent & we both were/are very stubborn & opinionatted. We stopped talking in 2018 but recently we got back to talking & Im so happy that Tay decided to inbox me & try reuniting. We only talked a few times since then but I hope we can talk more & become close again like we were as kids. She has the cutest daughters & i hope one day i can fly to the States to see them or they come see us here in UK.

[pxrxmoore]

ohhhh anna’s lil tag game is very cute i love these questions! thank u @ashtcnirwin 🥰

feel free to answer all of them or just some of them or just ignore this all together, whatever you’re comfortable with, and then tag however many people you want!

1. what was your first encounter with fanfiction? asjdfk god it was atl fic on livejournal and mibba in like 2010 maybe?? idek but it was all slash fic like had literally not heard of reader insert until i joined the sos fam properly in 2018. also don’t remember what my reaction to it was?? reading slash fic has been so normal for me for like 10 yrs i dont know how the fcuk it started 😂 this was before i got tumblr but i used to keep up to date with some of the bigger atl blogs like it was the morning news or sumat and like 90% of them wrote amazing fic so 🤷‍♀️

2. your favourite creation of your own of all time if you create stuff (feel free to link it)?

3. what vibe are you going for with your home decor (or what vibe do you wanna go for one day, if you don’t have your own place atm)? oh man, unfortunately i dont have my own place right now, but my room is full of plants and i also just spent half an hour looking at witchy occult cat figurines on amazon sooooo ig those are my vibes rn 😌 but i feel like it changes all the time tbh

4. first fandom you ever joined? what was it like? on what platform did it happen? paramore was the first band i was a massive fan of but i didnt rly get into the fandom ig i just was my own lil bubble of pmore. i had a massive kpop phase when i was like 13 and my fave band was UKiss - i joined a forum (cannot remember what it’s called rn) and met a few people thru that! i met this rly sweet girl and we used to message every day and we like designed our own merch ackskrkr so ig that must’ve been my first fandom! i also taught myself basic korean and this is gonna sound Very Weird but instead of like knowing celebs zodiac signs it was rly common to know blood types like it was kind of the same deal apparently ur blood type says a lot about ur personality ajxjkskf so i knew like kpop idols blood types ajsjjfjjcjfjjf ahhhhhh so wild

5. what are your sun, moon and rising signs, and do you think they make sense in relation to how you know yourself? aries sun, leo moon, cancer rising - i am an absolute disgrace of an aries LMAO i do not fit my sun sign in the slightest its the complete opposite of me, leo is kinda similar tbh i feel like its kinda close to aries? so yeah i dont fit those at all. ig i kind of am more cancer bc im emotional as all hell LOL but yeah i never put a lot of thought into my signs for a rly long time bc i always felt they were a completely wrong description of me

6. if you write and/or read fiction (original or fanfiction), do the tropes/plots/character types you typically seek out to read and/or write about reflect something about you as a being or how you see the world? i don’t write but uhhh i usually go for like hurt/comfort which??? ig i could relate to me LMAO how emo 😌 i’m not sure tbh, i deff don’t feel the characters i read reflect anything about me?? tbh i have never rly thought about this thats super interesting.... i feel like i love a good angsty fic but it has to have a happy ending asdksnidfg and im a pretty emo person but like ig im tryna be hopeful in the end?? so maybe?? yeah ig its how i would see the world!

7. what is the hardest obstacle you’ve had to overcome so far in life? holy shit uhhhhhhh man thts a tough one but idk if i wanna think about it in too much detail tbh 😌 ig recently i spoke to a dr about my mental health after years of pretending i wasnt depressed so 🤷‍♀️

8. what is your all time favourite song(s)? brighter by paramore - first song i fell in love with by them and ive been hooked ever since. before i listened to them i only listened to chart music lmfao literally had never listened to anything else and then after listening to paramore i started listening to rock/pop punk music and discovered all the bands that i listen to now!

9. what do you look for in a person you wanna keep in your life, be it a friend or a romantic partner or anything in between? hm ig recently ive realised its gotta be someone who has the same kinds views and values as me (i mean not down to a t but like generally the same kinda views and like respect for others u know) uhh someone i feel comfortable around to act my true chaotic self 😌✌️and also comfortable to know we can both talk about anything with no judgement no matter what it is. but also someone that respects like having seperate lives from each other? like not needing to be in each others pockets and knowing even if it’s been a lil while u can still message and it’s like no time has passed

10. this is a bit of a difficult one, but have you ever had a moment of clarity, a conversation with someone that made you go “oh!”, or anything along those lines? ooh i mean in 2018 i was working an office job in engineering and had a moment of like wow ive always wanted to work in events and especially live music and ive wanted to since i was like 13 and here i am 10 years later still considering that as a potential career path so ig it means something pretty significant and i decided to leave my perm job last year and go temp but then. yeah. this year happened so 🥴🤷‍♀️

i tag: @superbloomirwin @kindahoping4forever @spookydaddycal @pinkbubbles-and-bigtroubles @reveriesofawriter @mastasof-ravenkroft @rebelwith0utacause @karajaynetoday 💛

[everythingmustgo]

Cancer sun, Capricorn moon, virgo rising with Leo sun, Pisces moon, libra rising ?? ((If I got ur riding wrong LOL AWKS)) but do us

OK so our sun signs r (despite what some ppl say lol) good together!!! so much love here!!!cancers need someone who will look after nd emotionally support then nd leos invest sooo much time nd energy into people they care abt. like we have a reputation for being self centred (which…….ya) but ppl look over the fact that leos r some of the most generous nd caring ppl nd will make u feel loved, which cancers need. cancers r ofc ALSO intent on caring for their partner but not in so much of a Shower Them In Affection And Gifts And Adoration way like more of a maternal, I care about u and ur wellbeing and I will Protect u !!! to sum that up I think leos r more intent on giving their partner IMMEDIATE happiness w BIG gestures all at once whereas cancers r more concerned w ur long term health nd happiness nd want to look after u nd care for u !!! HOWEVER that being said. we’re deeeeefinitely not entirely selfless lol a leo is a leo nd if ya dont treat them the way they treat u theyre like FUCK well guess they dont love me??? they wanna b treated like royalty nd its easy for them to overlook the way cancers love bc it’s more focused on maintaining their long term happiness nd leos r so. SELF INDULGENT HEDONISTIC INSTANT GRATIFICATION like we gotta calm tha fuck down nd recognise love in other forms (not to call myself the FUCKKK out). cancers and leos both love very deeply, and both need to be reminded often that they are love bc while they r similar in a lot of ways, the ways they express love is not one of them. cancers r also…….selfish lol theyre loving nd caring nd compassionate but they need sm emotional support man when they feel things they feel em DEEP and theres not rly room for anyone elses emotions in their mind when their own feelings r so strong. if ur both upset, the cancer comes First. leos might feel like their own feelings r often unnoticed. tbh I think other than both of us being inherently Needy and Selfish leo + cancer is good man we r so Loving nd caring nd good for eachother cuz different ways of showing love r important in relationships. as for our moon signs GDJAKAKFLS we could NOT be more difficult pisces nd capricorn CHRIST pisces moons r v emotional and empathetic and deal w problems and their feelings internally cap moons r v practical and balanced and deal w problems thru action and processed planning like our inner selves r so Wildly different ??? but its funny bc obvs from a personal point of view we hav a v deep connection w eachother which is odd when our moon signs r sooo different BUT my theory on this is that 1. we compliment eachother w it. pisces need someone to get them out of their shell, look at the issues realistically and put it into perspective, and solve their problems thru practical means. w/o an earth sign theres no WAYYY a pisces would do that lol. and a pisces will encourage a cap to take a more intuitive approach to the issues they hav that r emotion based. while a cap usually doesnt let their emotions “get in the way”, a pisces will encourage them to let their feelings guide them when necessary: sometimes even when smth seems logically the right thing to do, if ur gut says no it’s probably right, and caps need a water sign to help them see this. my 2nd reason is that u hav a water sun sign so while my inner self may relate less to ur less emotional inner self, ur core personality nd outward self hav more similarities which a pisces moon will pick up on Right Away. water moon signs w a water sun sign r GOOD combos, better than 2 water suns or 2 water moons. they r generally drawn to eachother. I cant say ur cap moon would b particularly drawn to my dumb leo personality but I do think that generally cancers do like leos nd leos do like cancers cuz they see a lot of themselves in eachother nd a lot thats also new and exciting. we’re not so similar it’s boring but not so different it doesnt work, we compliment eachother well!!! there will def b times we do NOT understand eachother whatsoever emotionally, but theres enough love in the relationship to just. give eachother the support we need nd do what we can. as for rising tbh I think this becomes less important the closer u get to someone so ukno, ur my gf of 3 years its not such a defining feature of u BUT the way u express urself when u want me to b impressed by u is by achieving ur own standards of perfection so ill think ur flawless and u have an appreciation of all things beautiful. u want ppl to think ur organised and have it together. u WORRY a LOT. ur always worried what ppl think of u. ur especially worried ur not good enough for me. im a libra rising so I just. want u to like me at All Costs what a massive suck up whatever u like I say I like too im terrified of ppl thinking im in some way outrageous I just want ppl to think im fair nd good. cuz we’re so close tho these r less important in our relationship? we’ve already made our impressions ukno we kno eachother so well its rly our suns nd moons (nd venuses) that count lol. at first u might have been annoyed by my Eager To Pleaseness nd not thinking for myself nd I might hav felt intimidated by ur high standards but ? these r things of the past ukno? anyway heres my #analysis do w it what u will

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