#genuinely the consult yesterday (where the guy just like did the points test and whatever) made me melt fucking down | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

barnbridges · 7 months

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human condition: i have lower back pain that will Not go away, but the only way for it to is massage therapy, which i will not do because i'm autistic and it would literally render me immobile and braindead to have someone touch me for more than 2 seconds.

#im DEEPLY touch adversed #and it shuts me down #genuinely the consult yesterday (where the guy just like did the points test and whatever) made me melt fucking down #and all i did all day was read my friends' fic to fucking cope #im nOT about to fucking give up my thesis and my mobility and my social life for my back #i can endure physical pain #i will literally die #i will literally kill myself #if someone touches me for an hour every day #so yeah the disability disables me whooptie fucking do #this is what people say when it comes down to “autism is a superpower” its a disability and it it disables me #and makes me unwantable and hard for me to live

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