#granted the shit i write when i'm doing extremely poorly is uh. coloured by this fact. shall we say | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

rackartyg · 1 month

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i haven't written anything substantive since, oof, march and it feels bad. but i've been monstrously stressed about my thesis and that's probably why and it's understandable and reasonable and blah.

it's mostly just that i like writing and i'm sad i've not done it. but it's a little bit performance anxiety.

#which is ridiculous of course but #idk can't stop thinking about october-ish last year when i was also mega stressed #and dad was asking me if i was writing anything and i was like no i'm too stressed and depressed #and he was like 'really? [his favourite artist who he admires greatly & has dysthymia] says she's most creative when she's not doing well'#this meant absolutely nothing it was just free association falling out of his mouth as per usual but GOD did it stick #i have this sweet spot where moderate life stress blocks me completely but severe does not #granted the shit i write when i'm doing extremely poorly is uh. coloured by this fact. shall we say #but my therapist says ripping the heads off the barbie dolls is a good coping skill so #she speaks #writing woes #bad brains blogging #familyposting

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