#grecy attempt some poetry 📖

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Neverland

Once upon a time, I visited Neverland I ran with Peter Pan, was young and carefree Never had a worry in the world.  but then he left, like a father running, like the leaves fall from the tree.  I was forced to leave Neverland, grow up take these memories with me I had to face the world alone, "you're on your own kid" becoming mantra.  anxiety and fear hiding in the shadows, like monsters following around a little girl that grew up too soon I wished I could go back in time To the days when I could fly and laugh and play and never having to worry but was no longer an option. So I took a breath, and I faced the world, I kept on going Epiphanies of who I can be plague my mind, ghosts of who I used to be plague my nights  wishing I could escape to Neverland once again 

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scared of being lonely yet scared of being in love, scared of never finding my person. I sit here, at my computer, thinking about how I should be out there looking for love. suddenly I remember how much love can hurt And so I stay here, in the safety of my own home. But what if never find someone to share mulife with? What if am destined to be alone forever? These thoughts keep me up at night, and they reinforce my fear of being lonely…lonely and in love it's a paradox that consumes me: wanting something that is also scaring the life out or me. Maybe that is why, I have not been able to find anyone yet; because deep down inside, part of me does not want to open myself up only to have it shattered into pieces like a stained glass window on the floor.

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ghost of you

i spent my whole life wishing you were a better man now i spent all of april wishing heaven had visiting hours just to be able to hug you one more time i try not to miss you but the hospital was your favorite place and every time i step foot here my mind brings the ghost of you back, painting you in rose-colored folklore erasing the bad and leaving the purple pink skies of a wonderland

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All Too Well 

so I wrote this back when I was 16/17 and ATW was in a constant replay...

Edit: this had a different title but I was not feeling what 17 year old me chose 😂

i remember it all too well

i was the princess

you slayed the dragon

you promised to never leave my side

i remember it all too well

driving down the road to my favorite park

you sit me down and say "I'm sorry you will understand when you are older"

i'm turning 17 now and I still don't understand

why you didn't slay the biggest dragon of them all

you left the princess in a room surrounded by darkness

the only company left was the dragon screaming

"you are not enough"

"you are unloveable"

"who would ever dare to stay with you?"

no knight in shinning armor to save me

i remember it all too well

how I lost my happiness but found my strength

how I found how to be moth happy and strong and accept the scars you left

how the princess befriended the dragon under her bed

now I remember it all too well

how the dragon became my best friend

i lost you but I found who I really am

i found all that I was capable of

i realized what my strengths were

and somehow that was everything I needed

now you just became a distant memory- a memory that

i remember all too well

taglist i guess: @writingquillsandpainpills @sadgirlml @leftoverenvy @reidselle

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“I’m fine” is the biggest lie I’ve ever told

“I’m fine” is the best poker face I’ve ever put on

“I’m fine” until in the darkness the ghosts surrounding me remind me I’m not.

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scared of lonely

so many things I have going against me so many scars so many fears so many ghosts screaming I am so scared of lonely but, who could ever want to be with me? who could ever love me? I have been sent to the graveyard. so I sit here in the darkness, waiting for make peace with the darkness because I am done living for the hope of it all waiting for love to knock on my door.

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grecy

main blog : @reidsbookclub

side nsfw blog : @drreidslittlesecret <- 18+ only

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- grecy attempts some poetry 📖 -> my poems

- grecy reads some poetry 📖 -> poems I like

- grecy’s inner ghost 👻 -> my anxieties