#hamjam and laulau

[furorsopher]

In short Laurens I am disgusted with every thing in this world but yourself and very few more honest fellows and I have no other wish than as soon as possible to make a brilliant exit. 'Tis a weakness; but I feel I am not fit for this terrestreal Country.

jan 8th 1780 - H to L

my favourite thing hamjam wrote. he just like me fr. the intense hatred of everything and everybody that comes with mania and depression is something you have to experience to understand. this could have been written by 14 year old me except it wasn’t, that was a 24 (soon 25) year old guy 244 years ago-

I hate Congress—I hate the army—I hate the world—I hate myself. The whole is a mass of fools and knaves; I could almost except you and Meade. || Adieu || A Hamilton || My ravings are for your own bosom.

sept 12th 1780 - H to L

paraphrased: “i hate everything and everybody, you maybe included, [no usual “yrs. affectionate” or smth to speak of, just adieu] also i need u (in more ways than one)”

hilarious. relatable. somebody get this man therapy and his husband immediately. that can’t be healthy.

hey @transmascmarypoppins here’s a hamjam post, i have to tag you