#have a wonderful day sweetpea and stay safe n hydrated!!

[inkykeiji]

tomura’s the type to buy his princess a squishmellow but still get jealous over a stuffed animal lmao i love him

LITERALLYYYYY LMAO no he so is tho like 100%. he’d be like, begrudgingly excited about it at first; your favourite holiday is coming up, which means that the company just released their newest line of limited edition squishes, and you’re practically vibrating with desperation to own one.

the department store is busy, and you’re unbelievably indecisive, humming and hushing as you bounce from one stuffie, to the next, to the next, then back again, dragging him along with you.

with a furrowed brow and a steady stream of breathy grumbles, he’s trying to act so annoyed and so exasperated and so grumpy but you are just so fucking cute—eyes glittering and smile dazzling with one of your hands wrapped tightly around his wrist as the other reaches, fingers curling and vying in a little grabby hand that grasps at all of the different plushies, each procuring a sweet little gasp or giggle—that he just can’t quell the love tugging at the corners of his mouth or the adoration melting his glare or the fondness smoothing out his crunched forehead.

it‘s a treat to see you like this, innocent and authentic with buzzing excitement that thrums through your veins and radiates off your skin in delicate little droves, infectious as it seeps into his own and snuggles into his soul, warming his core. teeth sunk into your bottom lip, hesitancies are gnawed out in a self-conscious murmur, and tomura frowns, giving a little yank on your arm and scanning the toys warily. 

“i don’t understand what the problem is.”

“i just—i can’t decide! i want to get the best one, my favourite one, but i just—” turning towards him, your eyes are wide with worry, forehead creasing under the concern of making the wrong choice. “i want them all!” 

tomura sighs, rolls his eyes like you’re so silly, so stupid, but that fondness is back again, tender and warm and doting as it spreads unruly across his cheeks, ruby gaze syrupy with affection. 

“then i will get them all for you,” he says, simple and final.

and so, he does.

you’re still cute afterward, of course, when you’re cuddling one of the stupid things to your chest, palm rhythmically petting it’s tummy, or when you’re giggling and whispering to yourself as you hug it tighter to your sweet lil heart, lips spilling secrets and hopes and dreams into silky plush. but no matter how cute you are, tomura is unable to soothe the twinge in his chest as envy drags it’s claws slowly, steadily, almost gently down the inside of his ribcage. it’s never long before the sting becomes unbearable, before the sting has him ripping the dumb squishmallow from your hands and replacing it with himself, arms wrapped firmly around your form, your body pressed hard against his chest, lips grumbling low and rough into your hair about how he feels left out and he missed you and isn’t he a much better cuddle buddy than that foolish little stuffed animal?

of course, you’re telling him as soft palms stroke his forearms and sweet lips scatter precious kisses across his collarbone. of course he is; he always is, he always will be. 

and yet, despite all of it, he repeats this process every single time a new limited edition line-up is released that he’s sure you just have to own. because even though he dreads the bitter jealousy he knows will inevitably begin corroding his lungs the moment the two of you arrive home, it is nothing compared to the sunshine that pours from your smile when you gaze upon these silly little puffs of plush, or the bubbles of warmth that froth in your throat and out your mouth when you coddle one in your arms, or the look you give him when he gifts you another one, eyes overflowing with pure, unadulterated love, so much so it scalds his skin and singes his envy, snuffs out all of those acrid feelings and replaces them with a tender heat that glows pleasantly in your presence. 

and that, well, that will always be worth it. 

[inkykeiji]

honestly touya coming home to you in a nice pressed suit but gangster as hell with blood drops on his collar, fucking you on the kitchen counter for being sucha good girl for never asking questions about his job, only asking "but are you safe?"

ANON ANON LISTEN oh my GOD A VERY SIMILAR THOUGHT HAS BEEN LIVING IN MY MIND EVER SINCE THAT PHOTO CAME OUT LIKE UGH YES YES YES EXACTLY FUCKING EXACTLY!!!!

and he looks pristine, looks perfect except for those few specks of crimson, the smattering almost artful across that crisp white collar—sharp and stark and specific, no doubt the artistry of a precise splice from one ear to the other, or a polished point-blank head shot—their presence indicating that he hasn't exactly been virtuous, even if he is safe, always safe for his baby <3

but u know what else drives me crazy about that photo????? the haphazardly rolled up sleeves + the loosened tie <3

[inkykeiji]

I read the post about spamming and now I feel really bad because I tend to blow up your inbox with asks (I'd say a good 40-50% of your recent answered Touya-nii asks have been from me-) so I was just wondering, is there anything I can do to make you feel less spammed? Other than the obvious messaging you less, should I start putting a signature name or something so you can tell when an ask is from me? I don't want you to feel pressured to answer mine specifically, I feel bad ;-;

no no no don’t feel bad!!! aw anon bb that isn’t what i meant at all!!! i just meant in that specific case, with that specific tone (ie demanding) it upset me. i know exactly who you are hehehe you’re the anon that sends like, REALLY good touya-nii questions, usually three or four at a time (each question being a separate ask right?) and i want you to know that i absolutely don’t mind that at all. i actually like that you separate them because it makes it easier for me to answer them & it allows me to spend more time on each ask!! it doesn’t bother me in the slightest; you can send me as many questions about him as you’d like to!!! i can’t guarantee that i’ll be able to answer ALL of them hehehe but i will try my very best!! please, please know that i do not feel spammed by you or by any other anon at all, in any way <3 i literally love your questions so much!!!! they’re always all so GOOD 😩😩 i appreciate you sending them in!! <333 i never feel pressured by you!

[inkykeiji]

sweet sweet clari !! hello !!

life has been absolutely fcking me and not in the good way 😢 so i thought i’d pop in and see how things are going for you. good i hope? not too awful? augh things kinda really suck for me rn but i don’t rlly wanna just dump it all on you,, but seeing you post/answer asks n stuff always makes me smile !! so i wanted to check in <33 i rlly hope you’re doing well rn, or at the very least better than bad y’know?

just wanted to hear from you 💞 love love !!

- 🐝<3

AH my precious bumble babie!!!!! <333

tw: mental health ramblings

oh luvbug i’m so sorry to hear that :( things for me are weird! chaotic! my mood’s all over the place and i kinda never know what the next day is gonna bring, BUT i am seeking help and constructing treatment plans and all of that good stuff and i’m quite proud of myself for it!

still, in all honesty, it makes my heart ache to know that you’re going through such a rough time right now. i hate knowing that you’re in pain (or that any of my sweet anons are in pain!) and i so desperately wish i could take it from you, because you do not deserve it at all. in times like these, i try very hard to keep my optimistic nature and attempt to find silver linings in the situation. usually, for me, these silver linings are that whatever hardship i’m experiencing, it will make me a better person in the future; it will enable me to grow, to endure, to build strength; it will add character and help remind me to appreciate the good times: there is no good without the bad, right?

i don’t know what you’re going through, so i don’t know if any of those will help, but i sincerely hope they do, even if it’s just a teensy tiny bit <3 i want you to know that i genuinely, deeply appreciate your messages. so much. so so so much, i can’t even describe it. it really means the world to me that you stop by to say hello and send me such lovely things <33 and i am overjoyed to hear that at least my blog can bring a smile to your face; even if it’s small, even if it’s fleeting. that is so special to me, and i am so honoured <3

whatever it is you’re going through right now, you are going to make it through this, and come out the other side even stronger and more radiant than you are right now (more radiant!!! you’re already such a beautiful ball of sunshine, you’re going to be blinding!!!) <3 i have faith in you, i know you can do this, and i am sending you so much love and strength, my sweet bumblebee <333 i love u so much!!!!

[inkykeiji]

its been a hot minute omg hi i got clapped my university again 😳😳😔😔😭😭😭 but hi clari!! hope you’re doing well!! i know you were sick a bit ago and idk if you still are, so i hope you’re being gentle w yourself! 🦋🦋💕💕💕💕

hehe if the relationship advice is still on the table...? if not, you can ignore this 100% and it’s fine!! um. the advice i wanted was. i got a boyfriend during this pandemic and we were talking over videocall and stuff and we’ve met up a few times, but i just. know that a lot of people are like “oh when this pandemic ends i feel like quarantine couples won’t last because others will be flirting with them and it’ll feel new and exciting and the temptation is too great” or things along those lines. and it’s like, probably my biggest relationship insecurity. is that i’m not gonna be enough or i’m not good enough. or that i’m too different face to face. i haven’t really told him yet, because he’s been busy and going through it too haha, but i know i will eventually i’m just kind of like. not sure how to think or feel. because obviously if he wanted to not be in a relationship with me, i would 100% respect that and he owes me no explanation. but. idk. yeah. sorry this was so long and convulated babe 😖😖

i know you’ve been with your boyfriend a while, but regardless i’m not expecting anything really in terms of advice other than your thoughts? only if you feel comfortable with sharing them ofc!!

anyway, hope your day/night is excellent and that you smiled and drank some water and saw some cool dabi fanart!! thank you for sharing your light and writing and energy with us!! i’m so grateful to exist at the same time as you ✨✨

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OTTER hello ehehehe welcome back!! i am doing better, thank you!! <33

yes the relationship advice is still on the table!! aaah okay. first of all, stop caring what other people are saying about quarantine relationships/couples. i know it’s hard, and i totally understand why this is causing you anxiety, but i promise you they have no idea what they’re talking about, and this idea is not new. it’s the same old ‘oh, when your partner goes off to university it’ll all be so *new and shiny* and feel exciting and tempting’ etc etc etc, and it’s a total load of shit. because listen, if that happens, then the person you were with is an asshole who wasn’t serious about you in the first place. it doesn’t matter what the situation itself is, whether it’s going off to uni or the pandemic ending or this person going to a party full of new people etc etc etc--if they’re THAT easily swayed and that easily tempted, then they weren’t invested in your relationship in the first place. people who are invested in their relationship aren’t looking for others and aren’t that easily tempted--they’re HAPPY and content in their own relationship already and have no need or desire for any of that. the whole ‘out of quarantine’ thing is just a new spin they’re putting on something people have been saying for forever. AND, if that person IS that easily tempted, then the finer details (like whether it’s going off to uni or coming out of quarantine) don’t matter, because it would’ve happened either way. does that make sense?

not to mention idk what these people think everyone’s gonna be doing straight out of quarantine??? like are they expecting everyone to rush to clubs or other spots where you normally meet people??? why would someone in a relationship want to do that anyway? like where are they meeting these new people lmao??? most people, when quarantine finally lifts, are gonna be going to visit their FRIENDS and people they already know, like their partner!!! if anything, i’d think quarantine would make your reunion that much sweeter (i know you’ve said you met up a few times, but it will be different to finally be able to meet up once quarantine is over--think of all of the things you guys can finally do together, once everything calms and opens again!! it’s quite exciting!!).

you mentioned bringing it up to him eventually, and i think that’s the most important thing. communication is key in ANY relationship, regardless of the nature, as is honesty. it builds trust!!! but he isn’t a mind-reader, you know??? he isn’t going to know this is bothering you unless you bring it up to him, and i promise you you’ll feel so much better once you do <33 it’ll be nice to talk it through with him and get some reassurance. it’s also important to share your insecurities with one another, when/as you are ready to. no one is perfect, we all have flaws and insecurities!! it’s nice to share yours with a partner, even if it’s just to confide in someone.

at the end of the day, these people don’t know you or your relationship--try to keep this in mind. again, i completely understand why that would cause anxiety or doubt, and i also get the whole ‘being scared you aren’t good enough’ thing. and i’ll tell you something; i think MOST people have that fear at least once in their lives. for some, it’s a bit more prominent, and in that case i think there’s a deeper root to the problem (usually self-esteem, or depression, etc it’s very personal and unique to each individual of course). but my point is, usually when you find someone you really care about and you really admire, that thought runs through your mind. you go ‘oh, shit, am i good enough for this brilliant person?’. i did it, my best friend did it, my roommate did it; it happens to a LOT of people. but you have to realize that fuck yeah you are; you’re awesome and your partner is just as lucky to be with you as you are to be with them <333

i hope all of this makes sense ehehe and i hope it relieves at least a little bit of your anxiety--please feel free to ask anything else you need to or for clarification or whatever!! i care about you (as i care about all of my anons!) and i hate to hear that you’re feeling like this :((

thank you sweetpea, my day was nice!! i spent most of it writing, and then my boyfriend came to visit during the night and we lounged around watching naruto lmao. oh otter, the smile that last line brought to my face is just indescribable, thank you so very much for saying such a lovely thing, please know that i am grateful to exist at the same time as you, as well!!! <333333 please take care of yourself, friend, you deserve all of the love in the world!!