#he's literally just wearing a black tshirt and trying to read a sign in the crowd

[lucidpantone]

Chapter 1: Visitations

Someone recently asked the tag if Sander and Robbe stayed together forever. Here’s a fic giving you the answer. Thanks for the inspiration.

Read the rest on Ao3.

Autumn always brought along rich tones of vanilla, cinnamon and all-spice into Robbe’s landscape. Robbe loved the autumn colors, shades of sun-burnt orange, vermillion and chartreuse sprinkle across the leaves that littered the pavement on his route to work. Its like he could taste the change of seasons ahead but it also gave him cause for concern. A visitation session was surely on the horizon. Sander was like a rolex watch when it came to anything Bowie related. Robbe was sure that cat was the love of Sander’s life. He found Bowie abandoned on the streets of Antwerp as a kitten and saved him from certain death. Robbe can still recall the day he came through the door with something nuzzled inside his leather jacket.

“Sander, we can’t keep it.” Robbe retorted as Sander gently cradled the kitty against his chest rocking it back and forth. “We just got this apartment I don’t even know if were allowed pets. I’m slammed at university, your never here, and your always at work or at the studio”.

Robbe knew this discussion was pointless. Sander just kept pouting at all of Robbe’s logical reasoning, flashing his puppy dog eyes at him and holding up the tiny kitten to Robbe’s face as a defense. Robbe just rolled his eyes and threw his hands up in defeat.  

“Ugh… okay …. Fine. God I hate you sometimes Driesen.”

“Love you too” Sander replied, pressing a soft kiss on Robbe’s jawline with a victorious smile plastered across his face.

“So, what are we going to name it?” Robbe asked looking down at the tiny creature who was literally the size of Sander’s palm.

Sander frowned. He almost looked offended by Robbe’s question.

“Bowie, of course. I mean his all black with a white lightening bolt on his belly. He's obviously a Bowie.”

Robbe found Sander’s response endearing. So much so he didn’t have the heart to tell him that that white striped looked nothing like a lightning bolt but he went with it anyways.

“Bowie, it is.” Robbe said as he leaned into Sander’s chest to pet the tiny kitten. Sander immediately cautioning him before he even laid a hand on the cat.

“Go slow, his sensitive okay”. Robbe couldn’t help but smile at his boyfriend’s protective reflexes.

There it was. The text Robbe had been dreading since the animal clinic called him earlier in the week to confirm Bowie’s appointment.

Taking Bowie to the vet on Saturday. I should get to Brussels around 7 tonight. Does that work for you? - Sander

7 works. - Robbe

Robbe grunted and slid down his desk chair.

“What’s up with you?” Lia asked.

“Oh nothing” Robbe quickly perked up and sat up on his chair. He didn’t want to be caught sulking at work.

“Do you think you can have the club estimation ready for next Wednesday?” Lia asked.

Robbe was the youngest architect at his firm. So he always felt like he was slightly faking it or suffering from imposter syndrome. He had only just completed his certification and was lucky enough that the firm he apprenticed at for two years offered him a full time job upon graduation.

Lia was the second youngest she had graduated a year earlier. They spent a lot of time together dealing with all the young trendy clients who wanted to do renovations on shoestring budgets.

“What time is it?” Lia asked Robbe.

“Half past 5” Robbe shouted back.

“On a Friday” Lia scoffed. “Let’s get out of here. I need a drink after this week.”

Robbe nodded his head towards the door and both of them sprung up off their chairs collecting their paperwork and turning off their computers.

Robbe began to take off his shirt and tie exposing his black tshirt underneath. He hated his nine to five attire but the firm had a strict dress code policy. Shirt and trousers.

“I hate this tie” Robbe grunted loudly as he forcefully ripped it off himself.

“Well you wouldn’t have to wear it if you weren’t so damn cool” Lia teased him.

“Firstly Thibaut is over exaggerating they are not neck tattoos. You can barely see them.” Robbe dramatically threw his hands up.

“I mean you can totally see them…..what are they again?” Lia asked sarcastically.

“Shut up” Robbe started pushing Lia towards the door.

Grabbing his black jacket and man bag off the coat rack on the other side of the office practically skipping towards Lia who was leaning against the door frame waiting for Robbe to hurry up.

As he got to her she held her hand against his chest examining the three tiny icons placed directly at the bottom of his throat underneath his adams apple.

“A lightning bolt, a half moon and….”

Robbe finished her sentence for her “ The other half of a ying yang. The white half.”

“How hipster of you” Lia said curiously.

“I guess, or better yet the mistakes of a misspent youth.” Robbe smugly replied.

“Misspent youth???” Lia laughed out. “Robbe your only twenty five”.

Robbe rolled his eyes he felt like he was thirty five sometimes. “Almost twenty six for your information. Come on now, I need a beer” he grabbed onto Lia’s hand and started dragging her out the door.

“We aren’t going to Belgica?” Lia shouted back to him as they walked down the street.

“Why not?” Robbed asked confused.

“Because your too pretty for your own good Robbe and we spend half the night fighting off every gay boy in there trying to get your attention.”

“Stop it Lia.”

“It’s true Robbe. You got that whole rebel rebel graduated up skater boy vibe and that damn mop of hair. Your like a billboard for shampoo or something. Plus your single.”

Robbe was blushing. Lia was too sweet she always made him feel special in her own teasing way. She was like the big sister he never had.

“Ok you choose” Robbe surrender.

“Noir it is” Lia responded.

Robbe looked at his phone and checked the time 5:42.

Robbe liked Lia but he didn’t want her privy to his messy love life. She had already lived through Robbe and Lucas’s break up.

Did she really need to know anymore about him.

Robbe paused for a moment and thought fuck it.

Meet me at Bar Noir at 7. -Robbe

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As Robbe reached over the sink to grab some paper towels he simultaneously ran his right hand through his hair and looked up into the mirror. His eyes inadvertently darted towards the text peeking out underneath the sleeve of his tshirt. He inhaled sharply vividly recalling the memory of his nineteen year self play fighting with Sander because he wanted to see it.

“Show me,I know you got another one” Sander walked around his boyfriend inspecting Robbe’s body contemplating which part of him to undress first. As he slowly began tugging at his hoodie a huge cheshire grin appeared across Robbe’s face.

“Got him” Sander thought. He finally managed to get Robbe’s hoodie off when he saw the cling film wrapped around Robbe’s right bicep. Sander grabbed Robbe’s right wrist turning it upwards to face him and lifting it slightly to uncover the text on Robbe’s inner arm. It was a simple three word phrase but it was “their” phrase and what Robbe repeated to Sander when things got overwhelming for him. In a slightly hushed voice Sander read the phrase out loud “minuut per minuut”.

Robbe broke out of his daze. Pulling himself out of the memory.

Robbe headed back out the bathroom into the boisterous Friday night afterwork bar crowd.

Another shot of whiskey? Lia shouted from the bar.

“No,no” Robbe was signaling to her. He wanted to make sure he was somewhat sober for his impending meet up with Sander. They hadn’t seen one another since Chernobyl at the beginning of the summer.

Robbe snaked through the crowd till he reached Lia at the bar. They stood shoulder to shoulder as she knocked back her shot and chased it down with some beer.

“You should know my ex is probably going to show up here any minute now”. Robbe swiftly mentioned.

“You and Lucas are talking again?” Lia said with optimism in her voice.

Robbe quickly broke eye contact and shook his head. It still stung to hear Lucas’s name. It had been a few months but everything was still a bit raw for him.

“No the other one.” Lia instantly scowled at Robbe’s omission.

Robbe jokingly tapped her shoulder with the back of his hand as they walked towards a bar table with their beers in hand “come on don’t do that… you don’t even know him”.

“I don't need to know him, I know his type.” Lia shouted over the crowd as she scooted herself onto a bar stool.

“Extremely good looking” Robbe acknowledged that as Lia counted Sander’s qualities off with her fingers.  

“Mysterious but in that deeply troubled kind of way” Lia formed a peace sign with her hands at her second observation.

“Mindblowing sex” Lia held three fingers up towards Robbe’s face now.

“Oh and let me guess” Lia leaned into Robbe’s face real closely. “He broke up with you?”

Robbe chuckled “You know me too well Lia”.

“No I don’t. Like I said I know the type” She stated as she chugged down more of her beer.

“Speak of the devil”. Robbe gestured towards the door.

Lia looked up wide eye. Robbe was used to this reaction. Years of seeing others getting enamored by Sander’s beauty.

His lunar white hair a relic of the past. Sander was a brunette now. His natural copper tone brown hair framed his perfectly chiseled face. A jawline for days.

“Oh now I get it. I would have chernobyl(d) with him too”. Lia said a little too enthusiastically never taking her eyes off Sander as he spotted Robbe and started walking over to them.

Lia broke her gaze and quickly looked up and down Robbe’s body. “So what is your dick made out of gold or something” Lia questioned Robbe.

Robbe scoffed. “What”

“I mean you obviously attract a type. Smoking hot with pretty eyes” leaning her body slightly towards Robbe and opening her hand up like she was begging for Robbe to tell her his secret.

Sander reached their table.

Lia let out a barely audible “God I wish my exes looked like yours” as she raised her glass of beer to her mouth.

“Hey” Sander said as he took off his leather jacket exposing his arms covered in intricate tattoos sliding onto the opposing bar stool across from Robbe. The table was one of those cylinder bar tops that had Robbe and Sander awkwardly rubbing shoulder to shoulder both looking strait on towards Lia.

Sander looked at Robbe for a second too long waiting for him to introduce him to his friend.

Robbe’s mind finally caught up with his manners.

“Lia this is Sander, Sander this is Lia. We work together.” Sander reached out to shake Lia‘s hand.

“Nice to meet you” Sander responded.

“We’re just going to finish up our drinks and then we can head out” Robbe explained to Sander.

“Yeah that's fine. Gives me time to roll” as he pulled out rolling paper out of his back pocket and placed it on the bar table.

“How was the driv...?” unbeknownst to Robbe, Lia abruptly cut him out of his own conversation. “You drove here?” she questioned Sander. Sander nodded. Her eager curiosity getting the best of her. “Where from?”

“Antwerp, I live there” Sander responded flaty. He could tell Robbe’s friend was a little curious about him. God knows what Robbe had told her about him.

“What are you doing in Brussels?” Lia questioned some more.

Sander attempting to look busy as he rolled a joint.

Sander hated people trying to figure him out. He was the private type didn't like to give strangers to many details about himself but this was Robbe’s friend so he had to play nice.

Sander rested his right forearm against the table as he sprinkle tobacco onto the rolling paper.

That’s when he noticed Robbe’s friend attentively examining the tattoo on his wrist.

“It's a constellations.” Sander responded in a curt tone.

“Yeah I know what it is” Lia explained. “I see it everyday. It's the same one Robbe has on his wrist right?”

Robbe’s eyes found Sander’s. Sander smirked back at him.

Robbe suddenly turning red at Lia’s discovery.

Sander finished rolling his joint licking it together. When he shifted his body towards Lia.

Robbe thought to himself “here we go”. He had seen this typical Sander performance before fueled with charm and bravato.

“Yeah it's one of mine” Sander shot a flirty smile at Lia as he stuck the joint behind his ear.

“I mean the design of course, not the person.” Sander winked making Lia giggle like a teenage girl.

Sander leaned straight into her personal space. Making her slightly pull back. Sander was making her nervous.

“If your interested I have a tattoo shop in Antwerp I could ink you sometime. You can get this exact tattoo or something personalized from me to you.”

Sander slowly pulled away from Lia’s orbit leaving her slightly flushed.

Robbe chuckled a little to loudly. Sander shot him a boyish grin in return. Well aware that Robbe knew what game he was playing.

Robbe found these exchanges very amusing. It took Sander a mere 5 minutes to get his coworker from denouncing him to having her completely giddy and wrapped around his little finger.

When Robbe was younger these interactions use to really bother him. Make him feel insecure like Sander could get anyone he wanted what was he doing with Robbe.

But now it was just amusing to Robbe. It solidified what Robbe already knew which was no one really knew the real Sander. What Lia was seeing now was Sander peacocking at his best.

Lia broke out of her spell as she fumbled through her words a little and stated. “I think I want something custom. It’d be weird if we all had identical tattoo’s?”

“Oh there not identical” Sander stated as he grabbed Robbe’s beer off the table and took a large gulp into his mouth. Robbe gawked at him unimpressed.

Can you spot the difference? Sander suddenly took a hold of Robbe’s hand and slammed both their forearms onto the table towards Lia direction.

Robbe’s coworker leaned in super closely to examine their forearms as their hands were clasped together.

It didn’t take long for Lia to uncover what made each tattoo unique. Each forearm had a perfectly placed red planet in the middle of it (maybe Mars) with an orbital belt surrounding it. There was a moon and stars and another distance planet in the background(maybe Saturn). There was one thing that looked out of place but also really beautiful. A large blossoming tree was growing out of the large center planet. There was also some cursive text placed horizontally on both Robbe and Sander’s wrist. Lia recited the text from left to right it started from Robbe wrist “All the way” and ended on Sander’s wrist “or no way”.

Lia's brow furrowed. As she looked at both males. “I don’t get it, what does it mean?”

Sander finally spoke up locking Robbe into his glare as the words slowly dripped out of his mouth. “All the way or no way”.

Robbe let go of Sander’s hand almost violently and spoke. It felt like he had kept quiet throughout Lia and Sander’s entire conversation. Like he just disappeared for a moment.

Robbe shot Lia a calculated smile.

“It doesn’t mean anything. Just something we use to say to one another when we were younger.”

Robbe began to get up and collect his jacket. Obviously implying that this little meetup was now over. It surprised Lia, Robbe was never this brash, almost rude. Lia was about to make some silly joke about ruining the night when Robbe sensed it and he did something he only ever did with clients. He gave Lia one of his stand down asshole smirks that halted anymore conversation. That let their clients know that negotiations were now over and this transaction had come to a close.

Lia scanned Sander’s face for some explanation. She saw a hint of reaction towards Robbe sudden harsh change in demeanor but it amused him. He seemed to like it.

Robbe finished putting his jacket on and soften again leaning into Lia to give her a kiss on the cheek and bid her good night. Flashing that calculated smile at her again.

He glanced back at Sander. He hadn’t moved.

“Get your jacket” Robbe demanded.

Sander began to get up and collect his things. Never breaking eye contact with Robbe a dark tonality hidden behind his eyes.

Lia was so confused. It’s like these two were speaking some unknown language only they understood but it was so strange. Lia knew Robbe but she rarely saw this side of him. It was slightly distance, spikey, but confident almost captivating. Its like this sweet, thoughtful and warm human morphed into someone else in front of her eyes but she couldn’t explain what he morphed into.

She wasn’t sure what she was looking at.

“Text me when you get home” Robbe whispered into her ear as he gave her one final kiss good night and walked towards the exit never looking back at Sander to check if he was coming with him.

Sander leaned in towards Lia giving her a kiss goodnight. Perfectly placing it a little too close to her mouth. It gave her butterflies she could almost taste him as he pulled back.

Lia's eyes followed him towards the door.

She sat there bewildered, puzzled, thinking to herself.

What was that? or better yet, who was that? and she wasn’t talking about Sander.

[dodgingworries-blog]

carthaytask 001!

Part One: Dig A Little Deeper

BASIC INFORMATION.

What is your character’s full name ? William Roger Joel  Holmes

How is it pronounced ? Will-ee-uhm Rod-juhr Joe-uhl  Hole-mms

Is there a meaning behind it ? William means “determined protector”. Roger means “famous spear”?? which... yeah sure okay. 

Does your character have any nicknames ? Dodger, Dodg(e)

When and where were they born ? August 23rd, New York City, New York!

What’s their zodiac sign and what traits do they most relate to ? Dodger’s a Virgo & he relates the most to the ‘

What’s their nationality ? American.

What’s their occupation ? he’s a conman. but if you ask him he usually makes something up - like, that he works in an office somewhere in town.

What gender do they identify themselves as ? Male

PHYSICAL APPEARANCE.

What’s their eye color ? Blue!

Do they wear glasses or contacts ? he wears glasses sometimes, but he doesn’t really need them to see or read. he just likes the way they look.

Hair color ? dirty blond, light brownish

Have they ever dyed their hair or wanted to ? listen. once. once he dyed his hair black like danny zuko’s. once. but when your roots grown in blond, you gotta keep dyeing your hair to keep up with it or it looks stupid and at the time dodge was in no position to spend money on hair dye of all things so. once. 

Height ? 6 ‘ 2”

Body build ? slim, i think? but slightly muscular.

Do they have any birthmarks ? he doesn’t, no.

Do they have any piercings or tattoos ? when dodge was younger, he had his ears pierced. a bit of a rebellious act on his part, but he stopped wearing earrings a long time ago. it’s been like, ten years.

he doesn’t have any tats, though.

If not, do they want to get some ? oh definitely! he thinks tattoos are super cool and would like to have a few of his own, but it’s the what that’s stopping him.

Do they have a healthy life style ? kind of ? he doesn’t have like a daily regimen or anything, but he goes on nightly walks around carthay and doesn’t eat too terribly so,,

How easy do they get sick ? not easily at all, usually. if he pushes himself a bit too much though ( ie. not sleeping right, overexerting himself, not eating, etc. ) he’s prone to catching a cold — especially in the summer.

Any marks on their body ( injuries, … ) ? he has various scars on his body from fights. one on his chest, a diagonal one on his left side, a few small ones on his arms, and probably a few more in between.

What’s their personal style/how do they like to dress ? jeans, tshirt, leather jacket. simple and to the point. he also likes plaid shirts, tbh. and has a few good suits stashed in his closet for when he gets the opportunity to wear them.

What is their favorite and least favorite feature about themselves ? dodger likes his hair, tbh, and most of his physical features. except his thighs, he thinks his thighs look weird. ( hint: they don’t, but everyone with thick thighs is self conscious abt em right? )

PERSONALITY.

Positive traits ? clever, quick witted, upbeat, empathetic, understanding

Negative traits ? dishonest, emotionally closed off, secretive, artful

What do they consider to be the best and the worst part of their personality ? he likes that he can think of his feet - and that he’s charming. it helps a lot when he’s out on the job. he’s sure that his worst personality trait is his trust issues. he hates it but also can’t help it.

Are they more extroverted or introverted ? extroverted

Any talents ? singing! he can also play the guitar and the piano. does lockpicking count?

What are their fears ? someone seeing him the way he sees himself. someone knowing too much about him, learning of his past. being truly alone, being vulnerable.

Do they have any phobias ? no.

What is their soft spot ? his friends. a lame answer maybe, but it’s true. 

List 3 pet-peeves they can’t stand ? being interrupted, 

EDUCATION.

How far did they go in school ? Are they still studying ? dodger dropped out of high school a few weeks into his junior year.  dodge had a lot on his plate back then though, so it could also have partially been that stress effecting his

Do/Did they like school ? not really, no.

What type of student are/were they ? the ‘skips class to smoke’ kind.

What is/was their favorite subject ? he really liked tech/shop class. making things was fun.

And their least favorite ? literally everything else.

What were they/would they have been voted as “most likely to…” in the yearbook ? most likely to get arrested, lmao.

FAMILY.

Who are your character’s parents ? Martin & Kate Joel.

How would your character describe them ? “good enough people, but not good parents.”

Do they have any siblings ? no.

Are they close with their family ? not at all. he rarely contacts them anymore, and always only if they’ve contacted him first.

ROMANCE & SEXUALITY.

What’s their romantic and sexual orientation ? dodger is a useless bisexual. 

Are they seeing anyone right now ?  nope!

Have they ever been in an relationship ?  he has indeed - most of them casual, though. dodger doesn’t do serious relationships. ( even though sometimes....... he thinks they might be nice....... )

Have they ever been in love ?  no way. that’s too deep for dodge.

How easy do they fall for someone ?  oh gods no.

In their view, why didn’t any past relationships work out ? because he doesn’t do serious dating. he prefers to keep things casual. less emotional, more physical.

What do they look for in someone ? they have to mesh well, 

Do they believe in love at first sight ? or fate ? no to both. definitely not. love at first sight is for shakespeare and dodge doesn’t do shakespeare, fate is stupid, in dodge’s opinion. you make your own path, there’s nothing beyond your control.

What’s their views on romance ? Do they go after it or avoid it ? casual is best, but good on anyone who does do serious stuff - he can respect that. lately he’s pondering what it might be like to pursue a relationship but those are 3am dodger thoughts so they’ll probably never see the light of day.

Did they have their first time already ? How was it in their point of view ? dodger has definitely lost his vcard already, he’s. he’s been around the block and then some. it was,, awkward, ya know, like first times tend to be... but it was a learning experience. 

What is their view on sex ? casual sex/flings are dodger’s forte. he’s very sex positive, but also if sex isn’t your thing that’s cool too & he doesn’t judge. 

What are their turn ons and turn offs ? turn ons include unspoken tension, being pulled closer by the belt loops, neck kisses, when the other person runs their hands down his chest, a bit of roughness, teasing. turn offs include anything involving hitting, name calling, blood, being talked down to.

Were they ever cheated on or have they cheated on someone ? no to both, he’s an asshole but he’d never cheat on someone if he’s involved. that’s just super not cool.

Do they want to get married in the future ? oh definitely not. he’d just warming up to the idea of dating lmao

Have kids ? dodger is super good with kids but doesn’t think he’d make a good dad so. most likely not. 

QUIRKS.

Are they right or left handed ?  left! dodger’s a southpaw.

What’s a word that’s always on their lips ? cool.

Is there a saying they keep on repeating ? “absotively posilutely.”

Do they curse ? oh gods yes.

What’s their worst habit ? smoking? drinking? hooking up with almost anyone? getting into fights? he has a lot of bad habits, but eeny meeny miney moe & u’re sure to find something.

Do they drink or smoke ? How frequently ? yes to both! uh, rather frequently, but not enough for either to be a problem tbh. he’s not addicted to either.

Are they an early bird or a night owl ? night owl!

How tidy is their room ? it’s surprisingly tidy. dodger himself is a mess so you’d assume his room would be also but it’s actually rather neat and put together. partially because if he ever wanted/had to leave, he’d know where everything is, so it’s kind of neat out of habit.

How long to they usually take getting ready in the morning ? not very long at all, like. 15 minutes max when he’s really trying.

FAVORITES.

What’s their favorite color ? red, black, purple, blue.

Favorite movie ? Grease.

Music Genre ? ‘80s music & musicals

Food ? new york style pizza, cheese or pepperoni depending on what he’s feeling.

Book ? dodger’s not much one for books, really. but he is fond of the great gatsby.

Favorite non-alcoholic drink ? rootbeer floats. 

Ice Cream Flavor ? mint!

Indoors or outdoors ? both? both. both is good.

[angry-mango]

103 questions

Alisons: Sexuality? ollie

Amaranth: Pronouns/Gender? she/her, female

Amaryllis: Birthday? december 28

Anemone: Favorite flower? snapdragons

Angelonia: Favorite t.v. show? i have a lot right now but it’ll probably always be supernatural

Arum-Lily: What’s the farthest you’d go for a stranger? like 2 hours

Aster: What’s one of your favorite quotes? i love quotes but i don’t really have a favorite

Aubrieta: Favorite drink? arizona green tea

Baby’s Breath: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? n/a i’ve never kissed anyone

Balsam Fir: Have you ever been in love? currently 😌

Baneberries: Favorite song? my blood (tøp)

Basket of Gold: Describe your family. complicated

Beebalm: Do you have a best friend? Who is it? i have two: ollie and jonathan

Begonia: Favorite color? black or red

Bellflower: Favorite animal? sloth

Bergenia: Are you a morning or night person? both

Black-Eyed Susan: If you could be any animal for a day, what would it be? a sloth

Bloodroots: When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up? a vet

Bluemink: What are your thoughts on children? love them but like? also hate them but i feel like it’s way different when it’s yours and you know how to raise them does that make sense

Blazing Stars: What are you afraid of? Is there a reason why? losing people, bad storms, the uncontrollable

Borage: Give a random fact about your childhood. i ate cat food once

Bugleherb: How would you spend your last day on Earth? i’d fly to ohio and kiss ollie

Buttercup: Relationship Status? basically taken

Camelia: If you could visit anywhere, where would you want to go? that cat cafe in japan

Candytufts: When do you feel most loved? talking to ollie

Canna: Do you have any tattoos? not yet (devastating, i know)

Canterbury Bells: Do you have any piercings? two on each ear

California Poppy: Height? five one

Cardinal Flower: Do you believe in ghosts? yes

Carnation: What are you currently wearing? black tshirt, jean shorts (what a rare sighting)

Catnip: Have you ever slept with a nightlight? yes

Chives: Who was the last person you hugged? jonathan

Chrysanthemum: Who’s the last person you kissed? my cat

Cock’s Comb: Favorite font? haven’t used fonts in a while but i’m pretty sure it’s georgia

Columbine: Are you tired? permanently

Common Boneset: What are you looking forward to? right now, getting my income tax

Coneflower: Dream job? vet tech but who knows i might change my mind in a couple days (although i’m pretty sure this time)

Crane’s-Bill: Introvert or extrovert? introvert

Crocus: Have you ever been in love? you already asked this, dumbass

Crown Imperial: What’s the farthest you would go for someone you care about? hours

Cyclamen: Did you have a favorite stuffed animal as a child? What was it? this bunny from build a bear, i named her swirly cuz she has almost like a rosette pattern on her fur, i still have her

Daffodil: What’s your zodiac sign? capricorn

Dahlia: Have you done anything worth remembering? no

Daisy: What do you feel is your greatest accomplishment? surviving up til now

Daylily: What would you do if your parents didn’t like your partner(s)? uh sorry bout that

Dendrobium: Who is the last person that you said “I love you” to? ollie

False Goat’s Beard: What is something you are good at? gaming i guess

Foxgloves: What’s something you’re bad at? literally everything

Freesia: What are three good things that have happened in the past month? 1- ive lost 5 pounds this month 2- ollie makes me really soft and i’m just super in love with her 3- i bought some new clothes and they’re two sizes down so it makes me really happy to wear them

Garden Cosmos: How was your day today? it’s actually been great

Gardenia: Are you happy with where you’re at in your life? not really but i’m working on it

Gladiolus: What is something you hope to do in the next year or two? hopefully get my ged, start working on college or some kind of second education like that, and maybe meet ollie cuz i don’t wanna wait any longer >:(

Glory-of-the-Snow: What are ten things that make you happy/you’re grateful to have in your life? ollie, my mom, my gamecube, my cats, my bee necklace, my tahitian bracelet, fall out boy, twenty one pilots, my ipad, and my pillow

Heliotropium: What helps you calm down when you feel stressed? ollie (i know she’s been in like 30 of these answers but it’s the truth), sometimes just breathing and sitting on the floor, doing my hair

Hellebore: How do you show affection? idk i’m really bad at it but i try? i usually remind them like a hundred times a day that i love them, check up on them, buy them stuff (only if i REALLY love them though)

Hoary Stock: What are you proudest of? i defeated the shadow queen at age 6 >:)

Hollyhock: Describe your ideal day. sounds lazy but literally watching tv with a cozy blanket

Hyacinth: What do you like to do in your free time? video games

Hydrangea: How long have you known your best friend? How did you meet them? ollie: through instagram, five months. jonathan: middle school, six years

Irises: Who can you talk to about (almost) everything? y’all already know.

Laceleaf: How many friends do you have? i wanna say four friends but there’s other acquaintances that i’m close to

Lantanas: What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received? ollie called me pretty once or like twelve times

Larkspur: What do you think of yourself? disgusting. don’t talk to me about that thing.

Lavender: What’s your favorite thing about yourself? uh i can bake a mad chocolate chip cookie 

Leather Flower: What’s your least favorite thing about yourself? myself

Lilac: What’s something you liked to do as a child? i liked littlest pet shop and eating breakfast idk

Lily: Who was your best friend when you were a kid? the r*xana 😔

Lily of the Incas: What is something you still feel guilty for? dropping out of school

Lily of the Nile: What is something you feel guilty for that you shouldn’t feel guilty about? mental illnesses

Lupine: What does your name mean? Why is that your name? annie means grace. while my mom was pregnant, she had a dream where a curly haired little girl with a round face was running and she kept calling “annie” so she decided to name me that. weirdly enough, as i grew up, i had the same curly brown hair and round face that she saw in her dream.

Marigold: Where did you grow up? Tell us about it. i grew up in a small house with my mom and dad until i was six. i don’t want to talk about it here because it’s kinda private and personal and i don’t wanna share it with the world.

Morning Glory: What was your bedroom like growing up? my bedroom used to be really messy but as i grew up and developed my ocd everything’s pretty neat most of the time

Mugworts: What was it like for you as a teenager? Did you enjoy your teenage years?  i’m still a teenager calm down. it’s horrible there’s too much pressure i wanna be twelve again

Norwegian Angelica: Tell us about your mom. she’s amazing but she also makes me feel like shit a lot

Onions: Tell about your dad. where do i begin. used to be a complete asshole until a couple years ago he got a girlfriend that completely turned him around bless her soul. she broke up with him though. distant but i still love him with all my heart. i worry about him alot.

Orchid: Tell about your grandparents. moms mom (granny)- lives with me, i have to love her cuz she provides for us but god damn she gets on my nerves and i’m pretty sure she hates me. moms dad- used to be really cool, disappeared for six years, came back two years ago, now he’s an alcoholic, has dementia, and is a complete asshole. he’s dead to me. dads mom- the kind of grandparent that appears during holidays and birthdays and stuff and then disappears for most of the year. dads dad- wasn’t too close to him, but he died six months ago from cancer and i got pretty sad about it. he looked a lot (a lot) like my dad but just much older, so to see him in the hospital bed with all the tubes attached to him.. it was pretty emotional.

Pansy: What was your most memorable birthday? What made it be so memorable? most memorable birthday was probably age six i think?? i had a really cool birthday party at a park with some first grade friends, and i took an iconic picture thats super cute and i still look at occasionally but it’s hard bc it’s got the r*xana in it

Peony: What was your first job? i’ve never had one

Petunia: If you’re in a relationship, how did you meet your partner(s)? If you’re not in a relationship, how did you meet your crush/how do you hope to meet your future partner(s), if you want any? met her through instagram

Pincushion: How do you deal with pain? grit my teeth, walk around, distract myself

Pink: Where is home? technically, miami. but home is a feeling.

Plantain Lilies: If you could go back in time, what is one thing you would stop/change? i don’t know, really. i know it’s impossible and it’s totally metaphorical but if i could, not only could i not choose just one, but i do believe in destiny and i worry that if i change something then everything down the road would change and maybe i wouldn’t have met you her.

Prairie Gentian: Who is someone you look up to? Describe them. i don’t really look up to anyone i just wanna be a good person and i also wanna be thin.

Primrose: Describe your ideal life. well number one, this would take forever, number two, youre the only person that’s probably gonna read this and and you already know

Rhodendron: What is something you used to believe in as a child? the basics: santa, easter bunny, tooth fairy

Ricinus: Who’s the most important in your life? hmm i wonder who 😌

Rose: What’s your favorite sound? everything’s quiet except for the rain falling on the window, maybe some light music in the background

Rosemallows: What’s your favorite memory? i don’t want to think about this right now

Sage: What’s your least favorite memory? also don’t want to think about this right now

Snapdragon: At this moment, what do you want? you

St. John’s Wort: Is it easy or difficult for you to express how you feel about things? it’s usually really difficult but you make it so easy somehow

Sunflower: What is something you don’t want to imagine life without? once again, you. but also gamecube or flowers or bagels or hoodies or nail polish

Sweet Pea: How much sleep did you get last night? a lot actually? i think like eight hours woah that’s a weeks worth

Tickseed: What’s your main reason to get up every morning? i’m about to copy and paste these answers they’re getting repetitive

Touch-Me-Not: How do you feel about your current job? pretty good, being that i don’t have one

Transvaal Daisy: What’s your favorite item of clothing? generally? hoodies. my personal one? it’s either my new black pants or my trench hoodie

Tropical White Morning Glory: Describe your aesthetic. damn i don’t even know 🥵 it’s probably white or light furniture and windows with natural light shining in on houseplants and nice comfortable sofas

Tulip: What would be the best present to get you? i love clothes or flowers or money

Vervain: What’s stressing you out most right now? i’m not stressed about anything at this minute so i don’t wanna think about something that’s stressing me out because then i’ll start stressing about it

Wisteria: How many books have you read in the past few months? What were they called? i read the fallen queen on wattpad does that count

Wolf’s Bane: Where do you want to be in life this time next year? hopefully getting somewhere with my education. i’d love to get my ged instantly but i’m not gonna pressure myself or be upset at myself if i don’t pass the test the first time. i might have to take classes for it, and that’s okay. i hope.

Yarrow: Do you know what vore is? whasthat

Zinnia: Give a random fact about yourself. i hate food but love cooking/baking

[i-dont-believe-in-saints]

ALL

First of all, I love/hate you

Spotify, SoundCloud, or Pandora? Spotify

is your room messy or clean? MESSY AF

what color are your eyes? Green

do you like your name? why? ?????????? WHO KNOWS

what is your relationship status? I’m dating a nerd but it’s fine I love him

describe your personality in 3 words or less: Gay, Weed, Emo

what color hair do you have? Red

what kind of car do you drive? color? ???????????? CAn’t do THAT

where do you shop? The Internet

how would you describe your style? Tshirt blue jeans beanie BYE

favorite social media account: This hellsite

what size bed do you have? Queen

any siblings? I have two half siblngs

if you can live anywhere in the world where would it be? why? Maine- because little kid me loved sarah plain and tall also the OCEAN also it’s just so cool okay

favorite snapchat filter? THE LEXA ONE

favorite makeup brand(s) ?????????????????

how many times a week do you shower? 2-3 I guess normally 

favorite tv show? Y’all got any Orphan Black

shoe size? 9.5/7.5

how tall are you? 168cm 

sandals or sneakers? sneakers

do you go to the gym? I cut through my schools gym on the way to work, does that count

describe your dream date: ?????????????????? that would literally change with every person ya gotta make sure they have a good time too 

how much money do you have in your wallet at the moment? I don’t even know where my wallet is right now so

what color socks are you wearing? ????????? WHAT ARE SOCKS

how many pillows do you sleep with? At school: 6 At home 6

do you have a job? what do you do? Subway, Women’s Resource Center UWSP

how many friends do you have? like 8

whats the worst thing you have ever done? I plead the fifth

whats your favorite candle scent? Sugar Cookie candles are my fav

3 favorite boy names ?????

3 favorite girl names ?????

favorite actor? Kaitlyn Alexander

favorite actress? Tatiana Maslany 

who is your celebrity crush? See Above

favorite movie? Juno 

do you read a lot? whats your favorite book? I used to (thanks depression) and it’s stupid but HP OOTP is always gonna be my favorite book

money or brains? ?????/

do you have a nickname? what is it? ?????/

how many times have you been to the hospital? ?????????

top 10 favorite songs That’s too much work I hate you ally

do you take any medications daily? Sure do

what is your skin type? (oily, dry, etc) ????????

what is your biggest fear? Death

how many kids do you want? None 

whats your go to hair style? GAY

what type of house do you live in? (big, small, etc) uuuh

who is your role model? Y’ALL FUCKS

what was the last compliment you received? ????????/

what was the last text you sent? HOLY SHIT

how old were you when you found out santa wasn’t real? I think I was seven

what is your dream car? One that drives for me

opinion on smoking? I don’t care but also care because health and shit. Just don’t smoke kids

do you go to college? unfortunately 

what is your dream job? A weird combo of tech and writing jobs

would you rather live in rural areas or the suburbs? I’d rather live in the suburbs because at least if I lived in a snooty suburb I could get food delievered to my house and not experience a food desert 

do you take shampoo and conditioner bottles from hotels? yes

do you have freckles? yes

do you smile for pictures? I look like a turkey and chander bing but yeah 

how many pictures do you have on your phone? ??????/ idk man and I’m not gonna look

have you ever peed in the woods? yep

do you still watch cartoons? yup

do you prefer chicken nuggets from Wendy’s or McDonalds? Mcdonalds

Favorite dipping sauce? Depends on my mood but usually honey mustard

what do you wear to bed? ??// depends I guess

have you ever won a spelling bee? nope

what are your hobbies? suffering

can you draw? no but I’m trying so

do you play an instrument? nope

what was the last concert you saw? a choir concert myduddes

tea or coffee? both

Starbucks or Dunkin Donuts? neither 

do you want to get married? not particularly 

what is your crush’s first and last initial? 

are you going to change your last name when you get married? I’d rather get my first name changed

what color looks best on you? I have red hair so literally black

do you miss anyone right now? ALL MY NERDS

do you sleep with your door open or closed? closed wtf 

do you believe in ghosts? yep

what is your biggest pet peeve? weird chewers, my friend terry eats chips so weird and I wanna smack him

last person you called`my grandma

favorite ice cream flavor? cookie dough sounds fantastic

regular oreos or golden oreos? golden

chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? RAINBOW

what shirt are you wearing? a PJ shirt from my sister

what is your phone background? “Bullshit Bullshit and more Bullshit” and “What’s your name thug I’m about to tentacle your dick:”

are you outgoing or shy? Shy af

do you like it when people play with your hair? Maybe??

do you like your neighbors? I like my neighbor @ school he’s cool

do you wash your face? at night? in the morning? ???????? NO

have you ever been high? I’m high right now

have you ever been drunk? yes

last thing you ate? a mini peanut butter cup

favorite lyrics right now: That one part in Centuries by FOB where they just go oooohhhhoooohohohohohohohoooooooo

summer or winter? Winter

day or night? Night

dark, milk, or white chocolate? white

favorite month? May

what is your zodiac sign

who was the last person you cried in front of? ?????/ idk man idk 

THANKS ALLY I FUCKING HATED THIS 

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I unzipped his jeans and tugged them down to his ankles revealing his tight black boxers.I looked up at him and giggled.It being my first time too I was nervous. He had been watching me,looking down and smiling. I slowly pulled his boxers down and his erection sprung upwards like a catapult.At this point I was utterly confused.What next?Do I just grab and pull?No. "Give him something to remember." went through my mind as if it were a billboard sign. I took him in my hand and flicked my tounge on his tip,licking him up and down. "Don't tease baby girl." He ran his fingers through my hair and gently guided my head closer to his.I took him in my mouth,going slowly so I wouldn't gag or bite.I gained speed and he had let out a deep groan. "Ahhh fuck." I looked up at him,his eyes closed and small beads of sweat dripping down the side of his face.I took him all the way.I could feel himself pulsing and twitching inside of my mouth.He took a sharp quick breath in and released inside of me.I took him out and swallowed.I could feel his cum dripping down the side of my mouth and on my face.I wiped the rest of it away. He sat there breathless,his head back,trying to catch his breath. I climbed up off the floor and started taking my clothes off slowly,teasing him. I had taken everything off except my bra.He sat there rubbing his hand up and down around his shaft.I got ontop of him and wrapped my arms around his neck.I positioned myself over him so he could slide himself in.He placed his cock in position and used his other hand to guide me down.I closed my eyes as I felt his tip going in slowly,stretching me from the inside.I started breathing heavily as I went down farther almost reaching his base. I woke up to the smell of pizza. "Daddy?" "No sweetie.He's gone now.He can't hurt us anymore." "Oh...mom." "I got pizza for dinner." "Thanks." I sat up and looked around.Everything was normal.Nothing looked touched or messed up.The tequila wasn't there on the table nor the glasses.It was like he was never here. Was he here?Was it just one of my super realistic dreams again? I sat up and kicked the banket off.I noticed a folded up piece of paper on the coffee table.I picked it up,opened it up and read it. "I put the tequila and glasses away.Made sure everything was like it was.I can't wait for tomorrow night baby girl.-Billie" "What you got there?" I crumpled it up quickly. "Just a receipt.I stopped at 7 11 earlier after school." "Oh." She handed me my plate with a cheesy slice on it. "So how was your first day of school?" "Good." "No trouble or anything with students or teachers?" "Nope." "What about your bus driver?" "Billie?" "Oh is that his name?" "Well it's Billie Joe but um yeah.We got along.He's really cool actually and pretty chill." "Seems like you guys are alright together." "You have no idea." I mumbled under my breath sipping my can of soda. "Hmm?" "I said the pizza's really good.Where'd you get it?" "A new place.It's about 5 blocks from here." "Whenever you get pizza now it's gonna be from there.It's so good." "Alright." "So how was work?" "Usual shit again with Jim.He needs to back off.I'm not interested." "Staff Jim or Old Man Jim?" "Staff.He's a good cook but he won't back off.It's not any easier at another nursing home.Whether it's staff or the guys I'm taking care of,some wise words from me to you,all men are dirty pigs.All they need is 2 tits,a hole and a heartbeat,heartbeat optional." "I know mom.You tell me all the time." "I'm just worried about you sweetie.I don't want to see you get hurt." "I know mom.I know." "Ugh that reminds me I'm working overtime tomorrow night and Sunday.I won't be back till late Monday morning.Around 11.Here is $60 bucks.For food and emergencies only.Got it?" "Got it." "Alright hun.I'm gonna go do the laundry and head to bed for the night.I gotta be up at 9.At least I get some extra sleep." She took off and went down to the basement.I sat there eating slice after slice.I don't eat lunch at school,it's awful and even though we have a fridge,microwave and oven mom always gets take out for dinner.Breakfast was usually whatever was left over dinner from the night before.Tomorrow's breakfast you ask?Pizza. I finished my last slice and put the rest of it in the fridge.I sat down at the island and pulled out my phone. "Can you hook me up?I got $40 for 7g's...Yeah I'm home.Just come up to the door and knock when you're here...Yeah she's up but down in the basement...Yeah good stuff too...Alright.I'll see you when you get here.Love you too." I pulled out the wad of cash she gave me and put $20 of it in my pocket.I held the other $40 in my hand,waiting for my cousin to show up.I watched tv from the island for about 10 minutes.I heard the knock on the door.I opened it up and quickly exchanged our goods. "Thanks man.Love you,see you later." "Love you too.Later." And just like that,he was gone and I had 7 grams of good shit for the weekend.I turned off all the lights and locked the door before I went up stairs.I took a cool bath,threw on a baggy tshirt and shorts and went to bed.All I could think about though was my date tomorrow night. "What am I gonna wear?Who's gonna be playing?Is he gonna be performing?" All these questions raced back and forth in my mind.I was so excited.Then everything had hit me all at once. Number 1:I fucked my bus driver. Number 2:I literally just met him today. Number 3:What are we?Am I just a fuck-buddy?I don't even know how all of today happened like it was no big deal.What's next?Getting hitched in Vegas? At this point I didn't really care for the answers.He made me happy.He gave me a feeling of love,comfort,protection.None of the things I had growing up.None of the things from a father.