#he's so proud of guillermo tho

[emmabirb8]

Ok ok, but have you thought about the fact that throughout the series, Nandor has saved or protected Guillermo's life just as much as Guillermo has saved and protected Nandor's? Because I have, and I am feeling Ways about it.

Obviously, Guillermo has always gone  above and beyond for Nandor as far as familiar duties go, and he has slain countless vamps to protect not only Nandor but also the rest of the household. It's a given and it's been a given from the start that Guillermo would do anything to keep Nandor (and his other housemates by extension) safe. He has outright said they are his found family, and it definitely shows. 

Well, in a slightly subtler way, the case is the same for Nandor. God, the things that Nandor has done for Guillermo - the risks he's taken, the knee-jerk reactions, the choices he's made? It is profound.

Consider that Nandor a. as a vamp is not expected to care about his familiar beyond using him as a tool to get things done, b. believes acting "aloof," aka unbothered and unconcerned, is key, and most importantly c. struggles heavily with identifying, working through, and expressing his emotions. AND YET, without even stopping to think about it, he:

Stepped in to stop that hungry vamp at Simon's club (Manhattan Night Club)

Refused to let Guillermo be eaten by the Vampiric Council (The Trial)

Stopped Topher from drowning him (Resurrection)

Kept Guillermo's slaying a secret after discovering that he had dusted Carol (The Return)

Told Celeste to "be kind to Guillermo" when he thought she was gonna be his new vampire mistress (arguably, this counts bc he was making an effort to ensure Guillermo would be treated well and kept alive under Celeste's watch) (Collaboration)

Defended him against the wrath of Nadja and Laszlo (the housemates Nandor has known, lived with, and loved for far longer than he's known Guillermo) who were 100% prepared to kill him every single night for a month while he was imprisoned in the basement (The Prisoner)

"Yanked" Guillermo away from the line of fire when he was acting as bait for The Sire and attempted to fix the situation himself (The Escape)

Immediately dove into the sewage hole in the floor to rescue Guillermo when he fell in (Reunited)

Volunteered to battle him in place of a more dangerous vampire at the Night Market (The Night Market)

Made sure he was okay at the end of the fight after pretending to snap his neck (The Night Market)

Nandor is the KING of repression, but actions speak louder than words, babes. This is not even counting the times he has shown outward kindness, affection for, and attachment to Guillermo to the point where it's entirely too conspicuous for anyone to believe he's not in love with him. (Tho he's apparently managed to fool himself well enough, hasn't he? lmao) 

Hell, I'm in a listing mood - let's recount those moments too, shall we?

Just off the top of my head, Nandor has canonically also:

Made Guillermo a glitter portrait depicting the two of them together as vampires as a gift to celebrate his anniversary of becoming his familiar (that he was clearly proud of and excited about and that clearly took a lot of effort and planning ❤) in the very first episode 

Held him up above his head to help him reach higher places when dusting and held him up in front of a mirror so he could experience the sensation of flying (like what vampire does that fr???? he was down bad even in the earliest eps) 

Become a blubbering mess worrying where Guillermo was while high on drug blood 

On multiple occasions actually took him flying by wrapping his arms tenderly around him 👀, then admitted he was his friend out loud in front of Nadja and the camera crew as early as ep 4 after feeling guilty about accidentally dropping him during a flight

Played chess with him (and it's implied this is a regular thing for them 🥹)

Been visibly upset each time Guillermo has left - it's heavily implied he missed even the smallest gestures like the hand holding, and he outright verbally expressed his hurt feelings in front of the entire Theatre des Vampires

Been distraught enough after the Celeste situation that he attempted to "win" Guillermo back first by talking to him and then by giving him another gift with the "beating off" pillow, and then actually complied with Guillermo's requests to be more respected and given breaks after that

Taken the time to go down and keep Guillermo company while he was imprisoned in the basement and made a genuine attempt to give him better quality food

Urged Nadja and Laszlo to treat Guillermo with more respect and to try to take an interest in his life at the casino

Reacted in a way that wasn't even the slightest bit angry (and in fact, he appeared grateful for it besides becoming excessively horny on main) about The Slap

Said he has "grown to have some affection for" Guillermo out loud to his face (which, for someone as repressed as Nandor, is huge)

Offered a very blatantly romantic turning scenario in which he expressed a desire to share soil with Guillermo, which, again, is huge 

Become markedly upset that Guillermo never showed up at the train station to accompany him on his trip

Started making steps in the direction of reversing their dynamic in s4 by doing things like helping Guillermo dry off and getting him a glass of water after he fell into the hole, paying more genuine attention to him and his life, expressing a desire for Nadja and Laszlo to be more serious and respectful of him, valuing his input (esp for the dick wish), and being appreciative of all the work he has constantly put in for him (whenever using his new penis 😏) 

Offered Guillermo the position of best man at his wedding which was clearly of utmost importance to Nandor, even more so than finding someone to marry in the first place 

Actually remembered the exact amount of years Guillermo has been his familiar/bodyguard and called him his "closest companion" in front of lots of other (arguably dangerous) vampires 

Been so excited and proud of Guillermo's moves when he was battling other familiars at the Night Market to the point of exclaiming "that's my fucking guy!"

Called Guillermo his friend out loud again when he got visibly worried he may have killed him

Admitted to Guillermo that he was afraid right before his wedding (!!!!), looked at Guillermo longingly/lovingly, accidentally revealed his desire to literally hug Guillermo close and kiss his face through his wish about Marwa (!!!!!!), and took a moment to whisper sweet nothings to Guillermo and cover him up when he discovered he'd fallen asleep (!!!!!!!!!)

Dorkily but sweetly prevented Guillermo from falling in the bg shot of Go Flip Yourself (like, truly, why would he care omfgggg he's so in love it's making him look stupid)

Actually made a very misguided but solid follow-through attempt to fix the Freddie situation as soon as he realized how upset Guillermo was about it

IT'S JUST SOOOO MUCH!!! I've been going through the series highlighting Nandermo moments for creative idea purposes in these last few weeks, and I can honestly say that I believe there are possibly more instances where Nandor has hinted at or displayed his feelings toward Guillermo than there are of Guillermo hinting at or displaying his feelings for Nandor. It's fucking insane you guys. 💖

[sheultrabeef]

Guillermo beating Nandor again and Nandor ending up on his knees again....I AM SCREAMING AND CRYING AND PUNCHING THE WALL

[unnecessarilygrandiose]

holy shit i loved this episode so much, the fact that i had to wait three extra days for whatever reason was honestly worth it. the wraiths unionised! don't get me wrong, i suppport women's wrongs as much as the next guy, but i'm happy they got their mondays off :) also i'm reaching a point where laslo and colin robinson's relationship is honestly making me emotional, like yes! give me some dose of reality interspersed with gore and fiction! give me the father son bond we never knew was so essential to our well being!

the real takeaway tho: guillermo. holy fairy shit. we knew he was a catch already, but the peak hotness levels he achieved today. i actually squealed when he did that run up the side of the car back flip thingy. im going to be him when i grow up

side note, can we talk about nandor's casual suicidal tendencies? 'kill me, guillermo, what kind of vampire cannot defeat his own familar?' baby, you sure that's the reason? you sure you're not feeling guilty because you were seriously concerned for a second there that you killed him? you were, weren't you? i cannot wait for him to find out guillermo has a boyfriend, what the hell, he's so jeaous over and proud of his boyfr—ahem, familar. also i ascended to heaven when he did that flirty glance thing while calling guillermo an orc. you will always be famous

[crazyw3irdo]

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happy pride beloved mutual <3

happy pride to you too!!!! :3

☀️ - Is there anyone who helped you accept that you were queer? If so, who?

i’ve been lucky enough that even tho i grew up in a conservative rural christian area that i’ve just like. known a lot of queer people. pretty sure i’ve told this story before but the first trans person i ever knew transitioned when i was in elementary or middle school and i just. legitimately thought i had their name wrong the whole time. no one explained it to me until i realized a couple years later. and then you have my mom ( @theaccidentallibrarian ) who’s bi, her best friend is pan, one of her former coworkers is gay, for a long time my neighbors were a gay couple, and in middle school one of my friends came out as bi (hi @sparingiscaring ) and another as ace so i’ve just been lucky in that it’s just always been normal. hell, i thought everyone was bi growing up. i’m not even mspec myself i just figured when i got older i’d be attracted to girls eventually.

🏳️‍⚧️ - What Flag do you think has the best color scheme?

of like, the more “common” labels the trans, nonbinary, and pan flags are very good but. maybe i’m biased but dude look at the toric flag this is so pretty

🦚 - Are there any queer books/shows/etc. that you would suggest?

okay i’m into so many things i’m putting this under a read more

ok disclaimer these are mostly gonna be cartoons/anime/webcomics but man is there a lot. some of these are already tumblr famous but idc

our flag means death - tv show - a romcom between blackbeard and stede bonnet that just got renewed for season two babyyyy!! plus multiple queer background romances too!! many screen kisses between two men!! a nonbinary character that has a romantic interest and whose story doesn’t revolve around them being nonbinary!! one side character has 20 husbands (or. 18 now.) and she loves them all. it’s not even a “this is a world where homophobia doesn’t exist” wish fulfillment thing it’s a “anyone whose homophobic is explicitly framed as in the wrong and is punished for it” wish fulfillment and i love it

heartstopper - tv show/comic - honestly i didn’t buy into the hype and only just started reading the comic and oh my god it’s so good. a heartfelt coming of age between a gay boy whose been outed against his will in the past and a boy who had never questioned his sexuality before and just. idk it’s so nice to see a coming of age romcom but gay

yuri on ice - anime - a sports anime for non-sports anime fans. an ice skater returns home after losing in a competition and while he’s wallowing in his own sadness his idol shows up to his house demanding to be his coach. beautifully animated and such a good story of yuri trying his best to make viktor proud. they never explicitly say they’re dating, but they do exchange rings in a church and they kiss so like,,

what we do in the shadows - tv show - the three main vampires are all into boys and girls (actually thinking on it now i can’t recall if nadja has mentioned being with girls before? but nandor and lazlo definitely are into both) and it is a bit more of casual representation instead of driving the plot, but also,, pretty sure nandor and guillermo will be getting together in season four,,, (also s4 spoilers: pretty sure it’s been leaked that guillermo will get a boyfriend in s4 too, at least for a bit)

ouran high school host club - anime - okay. not explicitly trans but like. every transmasc i’ve ever met has related to haruhi on some level. also haruhi is my go to example when i explain my own label of cassgender since it’s not a common term and just. even without the trans coding it’s hilarious

zombieland saga - anime - more casual representation! a hilarious idol anime in which all the idols are zombies. and one of the zombies is explicitly trans! she was also shown in australian parliament because of this image.

undertale/deltarune & adventure time & she-ra: pop - i’m just assuming tumblr users know what these are

okay i’d done a bunch of descriptions for these but i lost my draft so just. here’s a list of webtoons from most to least representation. …that sounds wrong but by that i mean from main characters being queer to just some side characters

main characters: muted, fluidium, castle swimmer, blades of furry, high class homos, the prince of southland, lovebot, i want to be a cute anime girl, yuna & kawachan

not main characters: luff, love me knot, suitor armor, acception, boyfriend of the dead, gourmet hound

[assim-eu-sou]

Bia 2:59-60

2:59

- Manuel would be dumb if he were to think there could ever be anything aside from friendship going on between Bia and Alex

- I can see both of their grief in that hug… :(

- AW NOT A FLASHBACK WAAAAH I’M EMO

- That’s it I’m forgiving Alex, it’s better that way.

- Aww….

- Tsk tsk Ana… Victor has a point

- Fiore mio… sigh… Guillermo redeemed

- Zeta finally brings himself to his reckoning

- Voy crew, we’re missing the descant. But nice embellishments :)

- But perfect for me to sing along to actually :)

- AQUI ME ENCONTRARÁS IS A BIA SONG????? I love that song so fricken much

- Bruuuuuuh he is jealous. Manuel babey… come on.

- When Alex is the logical one of the two…. you know it’s trouble

- Woaaahhhh Victor has an opportunity to pursue the basketball thing

- Antonio definitely does want Victor out of his hair. But It is a good opportunity.

- Oooooooh I know this Bia outfit :)

- Me and my lack of self control

- Awww an international food party

- I love how everyone is from different places through, it’s cool

- Dang Manuel is slamming that piano again

- Dang…. Manuel is losing his brother again… pobre….

- Bros I’m getting sad…. The finality of it all is setting in

- WE DESERVE BIA 3 AND BEU IN THE RESIDENCIA KUNST :’(

- Awwwww I love Bia and Chiara’s energy so much ahhhhhh they really just make me smile I’m gonna miss them :’(

- MANUEL WITHOUT THE CAP!

- Carmín Spy

- Oooooh I think Carmín is gonna like that

- Alex is like. oh. oop. Did not mean for that to be heard.

- Aw her little nervous habits :’)

- Hahaha Paula is pleased

- Moving sucks for real

- Hahahaahahah Celeste will not forgive Alex so quickly

- uh.

- uh.

- Siempre fuiste vos…. Oh gosh…

- hey. Hey what’s happening. hello.

- There’s only 1 thing Ana needs to do right now and it’s talk to Bia. Sorry…

- Everyone when Chiara says she’s with Guillermo:

- CHICO DEL PIANO PLEASEEE IF I STILL HAD EMOTIONS LEFT I’D BE WEEPING

- IT’S LIKE THE BEGINNING AHHHHHHHH

- ohhh….. my babies…. oh….

- AL FIN.

2:60

- NOT THE MONTAGE I AM ON MY LAST STRAW FOR REAL THIS TIME

- This is too much truly I. I. Help.

- My heart is aching fam. I have so much to say about this truly.

- BAHAHA Bia’s face when she got the phone call. She’s gonna slap Pixie in her mind.

- OK ANYWAY, Back to what I was saying. Bia has been waiting forever for that hug… all of this pain they’ve gone through but they went through it apart and finally he is holding her and things aren’t perfect but they’re better than they’ve been in a while… that hug ugh it breaks me. Fam I am insane.

- Oh…. She misses being called Helena… ughhhh my heart

- ohhhh. That look of Ana’s. oh….

- Chiara won them over for Guillermo fast lol

- I’m so emo my gosh…. NOT THE FLASHBACKS TO THE FIRST EP

- Fam. My heart cannot take this. It cannot.

- Oh…. tender….

- I’m in pain. I’m more sad about this ending then when I graduated high school and that is completely serious.

- The lights turning off…. I’ve had enough….

- Ahhhhh Helena Gritarle al Mundo my absolute beloved

- Oh the growl. I’m <3

- It’s really such a good song…

- Oh… I haven’t heard Manuel’s voice like that in forever… I missed it

- Delfi.

- That’s not a lot to take all the way to Spain…. I am not a light packer tho

- Above all, Paula is a mother that would do anything for her children, for better or for worse

- [(Brokenly) I’m not sad]

- This is why we keep the subs on lol

- I can’t believe he’s gonna leave without giving Manuel a proper goodbye

- I can see a lot of emotions going through Alex’s eyes… it’s all so complicated

- PARTY TIME!

- I wanna goooooo

- Please have brigadeiros

- Oh I predicted it HA

- Ok anyway.

- Whew this fortune is INTENSE

- PLEASEE they think it was Manuel lol

- Oh…. That message from Ana…. Oh gosh…

- Aw Alex came :)

- Pixie and Jandino snuck right out of there

- Look at Proud Manuel in the audience

- I’m so happy to see them close again

- What a magical little place

- She’s so giggly omg…..

- Cuando Pasó piano in the background

- oh…. tender…. Don’t touch me

- ESAS MIRADAS….. I CAN’T STAND THIS

- Awwww Alex made his own suit BASED ON CARMÍN’S IDEAS

- Finally a happy ending for Carmín….

- DJ Thiago in the house!

- oh….. binuel…. I’m gonna miss you so much….

- Marcos and Mara came???

- Whew…. Victor waiting at the bridge

- Nice lil reality check in the middle of the party

- OMG LEAVE THIAGO ALONE.

- Cute of them to have that suspenseful little scene and then not renew the show. :/

- hUH

- Girl if someone embraced me like that rn I would freaking disintegrate

- Ngl folks I don’t really understand what is going on here

- Anyway Thiago is stressed

- “Pase lo que pase…. Te quiero…” uh. Hello????

- uh. Helena recording?????

- Bia may have extreme face blindness but she DOES recognize Helena’s voice

- Bia is woozy as HECK

- DJ Manuel!

- Hey Bia….. where are you going?

- MY VPN IS ABOUT TO RUN OUT I HATE IT HERE

- Ugh Gabi sounds angelic…. <3

- Ah. So this is what all the dizziness was leading to.

- BIA!!!!!

- Can you believe my VPN cut off rn. Unbelievable.

- OK. so I made another post analyzing the ending and this liveblog is already so long so. find it here.

[zoloftsexdeath]

tbh to be hoenest,,,, i dont know what i want to do with my life, idk if its gonna be in film or in theatre, and right now im leaning towards theater, but film will ALWAYS hold a special place in my heart and the fact that there are SO many talented beautiful spectacular Latinx directors, actors, and leaders in the community creating beautiful art and making sure that people know where they came from means so fucking much to me. It makes me so proud to be who i am, and makes me want to explore my culture and my background more. 

I really could cry because Guillermo Del Toro has made so many things that have so deeply touched my heart and soul. He thinks so much like I do and i see the Mexican influence in his work, and to see that recognized as the top of its field (even tho unpopular onion but I don’t think tsow is his best movie so far...) means so much to me. fucking viva.