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I posted 2,763 times in 2021

24 posts created (1%)

2739 posts reblogged (99%)

For every post I created, I reblogged 114.1 posts.

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#wei ying - 12 posts

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#mo dao zu shi - 10 posts

#mdzs - 9 posts

#cql - 7 posts

#jiang cheng - 7 posts

#lan zhan - 7 posts

#lan wangji - 7 posts

#grandmaster of demonic cultivation - 7 posts

#the untamed - 6 posts

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#im gonna read tgcf just so i understand the other half of this post bc wtf??

My Top Posts in 2021

#5

(Sorry for the excessive commas, it's been a while since i've written this type of posts :) )

(Also, triger warning for mentions of death in the whole post and a reference of suicide in the last paragraph)

Sometimes i think about how almost nobody in mdzs could keep the promises they made

The Jiang siblings didn’t stay together, even after guanyin temple, jc and wwx’s relationship will never be the same, that is not to say that they can’t try to mend it but it just will never be the same, they’re missing a whole person, as much as they try, they cannot be the Twin Prides of Yunmeng, they can be more than just cultivators that bump into each other sometimes, more than Sandu Shengshou and the Yilling Patriarch, maybe even jl’s other uncle, but it will be a long time before they can be the brothers again

lwj also couldn’t keep his promise to wwx, he didn’t stay by his side, regardless if he couldn’t or he didn’t want to, that didn’t matter at the end, wwx still died before his own eyes and he couldn’t do anything to stop it, wwx damaged his body and soul just like lwj told him

And even after his death, the promise of aiding the weak, seek righteousness and live with no regrets, lwj couldn’t keep it, as much as he became the best person he could after wwx’s death, even as he adopted lsz and treated him as his own son, how he thinks wwx would have, he had regrets, he had so many regrets and one of the most painful and will breaking things ever is not being able to correct a wrong doing, specially in lwj case, he regretted and suffered because of it, and as much as he help other, being lsz needing a father or people needing a cultivator willing to help, he couldn’t do stay at the sideof justice like wwx did, even when that would ultimately lead him to his dead

wwx also broke promises, and they are almost always the most painful to witness, as I already said, he didn’t stay with jyl and jc, their relationship during the sunshot campaign was already affected by jfm and yzy deaths, by the golden core transplant (even if nobody knew), by the demonic cultivation, by his inability to ask for help because he feared people would discover he was coreless, because he knew that would affect their relationship with his sibling even more, they didn’t need another person to take care of, they needed someone that took care of them, so he did

But he didn’t only care about the jiang sibling, wn and wq were also important to him, so he did it again, he protected them, again at his own account and giving up something, in this case, gave his relationship with the rest of the cultivation world, with his sect, with the family that he so desperately tried to keep together

And then he couldn’t keep his promise with the wens either, he protected them until they protected him, something he never thought was even a possibility because he was always the one to give, give his cheerfulness, his light, his work, his life force, his fame, his place in the jiang sect, in the cultivation world besides the people he loves. So, when other gave up something for him, he didn’t know what to do, so when he saw that they sacrifice was useless, when he could protect them anymore and break up his promise, there wasn’t anything keeping him there

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So...this really lost its initial theme but my train of thought lead me here and i just kept going

42 notes • Posted 2021-05-10 01:26:59 GMT

#4

I like when in yunmeng sibling fics wwx and jc say something like "how DARE YOU say that Miss Jiang Yanli, my a-Jie/Shijie, would EVER even consider saying/doing that? She is the most polite, gentle and understanding person to ever walk and if you ever even hint at her being any less respectable than that, you'll face the consequences"

Cue jyl going apeshit in the background

46 notes • Posted 2021-06-01 21:35:30 GMT

#3

@stiltonbasket <3

49 notes • Posted 2021-11-25 04:51:17 GMT

#2

Imagine JC going to Cloud Recesses and finding a lotus pond, he finds out LWJ made it for WWX and he immediately remembers when JZX did the same for JYL, when he brought a piece of her home, of her clan, of her family, to her so she would feel like she could still be herself and not only the young madam jin, so she could still be as much Jiang as she was Jin

And now LWJ did the same for WWX, but this time it has quite a different meaning

Maybe WWX thinks that’s the only way he can feel connected to his sect, the only way he can remember the feeling of picking lotus pods after swimming all day during summer, the only piece of Lotus Pier he can take to his new home without feeling like he’s stealing it from someone

JC tries to put those feelings aside during his visit but he does end up telling WWX to go to Lotus Pier one day so he can remember what proper lotuses look like and stop comparing his little pond to the ones at their childhood home that are obviously superior to both koi towers and cloud ressecess’

75 notes • Posted 2021-05-25 03:44:22 GMT

#1

I know we all cry when we think of young Lan Wangji waiting for his mother kneeling outside the jingshi

But have we thought about a world where A-Yuan doesn’t forget Wei Ying and he does the same? He grieves, he cries, he wishes for a single minute with him, he wishes he could have more memories of him, wishes he could always remember the sound of his voice and the warmth of his hug even years after his death

And Lan Wangji, also grieving, also heartbroken and having only light in his life in the form of this kid, helping him to not forget Wei Ying, helping him so he can remember him in the way that Lan Wangji does, as a cheerful and selfless person, and not a monster, allowing him to grieve but not to get lost in sadness and emptiness

I just want you to picture them sharing their memories of Wei Ying, the way his smile will part his face in two, his tries on cooking something for the Wens, only to be then prohibited by Wen Qing to ever get close to their “kitchen”, the way he would tie his ribbon on his hair, the way he could spin chenqing with one hand, promising A-Yuan that he would teach him how to do it when he was a little older

At the end A-Yuan did not learn how to do spin a flute, regardless if he chose the guqin as his spiritual tool, he could have asked Uncle Xichen, but he didn’t think his uncle would be familiar which such a trick, but he also wanted to have that trick connected to a single person in his memory

Neither A-Yuan nor Wagji could replace Wei Ying with each other, but could at least find light and comfort in the single thing in the world that Wei Ying still had a good connection to, even if they had to live with people cursing his name in every way possible, they knew better than to believe the rumors, as much as Wei Ying hide and lied, they knew he had a heart, they knew he loved, they knew he cherished those around him with every fiber of his being, and they knew he was always loved, even if he didn’t know

He was loved in life and in death, even if it was just only by them

93 notes • Posted 2021-05-22 00:42:07 GMT

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