#hh. seriously considering cutting my losses but I REALLY don't want to do that here unless I really truly have to | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

neganium · 5 months

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I'm still reading this person's fics bc they're been posting more of them, but I still feel like I failed the social interaction somehow and I'm really scared to keep reading them bc what if they're the sort of person I hate on the down-low? Or maybe they just hate me bc I dislike those kinds of people, while they're more neutral? Maybe they've even assumed something about me that isn't true, wrt to my DNI that I think might've started all of this. idk. idk. it's making me anxious to not know for sure. I wonder if I should just cut my losses again, here.

#it just bothers me that they stopped talking to me immediately after I mentioned the DNI and how they seemed not to violate it #maybe they DO but I don't know that bc it's not obvious? or maybe they're weird about people with DNIs?#some people take umbrage at people with a DNI; I can sort of get where they're coming from but also I still think they have useful function #other people think that some of the specific things that are barred are being too harsh but like. I don't think that I am being unreasonabl #with this particular thing here. unless again they assumed something else...#... maybe they're bad in a different way? I'd still feel bad about liking their stuff but much less horrifically disgusted and guilty...#augh I just don't KNOW!!! they haven't blocked my main bc I can still see them in my sideblog's notifs but I haven't tried to talk to them-#directly on the sideblog since the conversation abruptly ended. maybe they just didn't see it or aren't online often? or are online-#somewhere else. I think they DID used to have a twitter...#hh. seriously considering cutting my losses but I REALLY don't want to do that here unless I really truly have to #bc there's just so little fandom content; and also seeing the number go up without actually being able to see the fics themselves #would still cause me some amount of stress; bc it does with every other person I've blocked on there

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