#hi your regularly scheduled weeping over a-fei arc hours are here

[difeisheng]

can we talk about the image of li lianhua and fang duobing bringing a-fei back to lianhualou. can we talk about fang duobing hauling him onto his back, unconscious, because "don't try, li lianhua, you're not strong enough. i'll do it". can we talk about him laying a-fei down in li lianhua's bed where li lianhua instructs him to, still gentle in the act, even though di feisheng is a man who of late has tried to hurt fang duobing more than help him. can we talk about li lianhua stripping the outer layers of wedding silk off of a-fei (the only person di feisheng would ever marry is dead, true, but he still has his own life yet), and tucking him under his own sheets like he belongs there. and finally, can we talk about the first time a-fei dreams, dreams of death dealt by his own hands in a stone cold trap, but he wakes up not only in a familiar place he's allowed to call a home but also in the presence of two people whom he gets to share it with