#hopefully my computer doesnt crash and die

[invaderziin727]

im currently downloadiŋ linux mint to run in virtual box on my incredibly old and shitty pc wish me luck yall

[justladders]

he's a little distracted

[juststarsandthemoon]

I hate premiere pro,

ive been working on this fucking project for half an hour and im already crying, all i had to do is rotate the clips and put them in the right order, but it keeps fucking crashing and none of the tutorials make any sense, my wifi has been dropping in and out of existence for seemingly no reason and i dont know what a project panel is, why am i so fucking useless, why cant i figure this one simple thing out, why do i always feel so fucking useless when i cant do something with premiere fucking pro, im trying to do something fun for my self but of course my fucking technology curse wont allow me, I wish i was better with computers, i wish it came easier to me, i wish i just fucking understood, why are there so many fucking buttons that do literally nothing, why did i drop out, why am i so useless, why am i so fucking useless. i was fine with two needles breaking. but the moment something is out of my control i completly lose it. why why why this isnt fair this isnt fucking fair i want to die. why wont things just go the way i planned, this isnt beneficial to anyone why do you hate me so fucking much.

at least now that ive had my dip i know that nothing major can go wrong for a while. luckily it was just this and not, idk, being rejected from a my dream school. this is alright. Ill figure it out. Ill just get a different software, there will be downsides to that, like there wont be as many tutorials, but if its more intutive than thats probably fine. i dont need all that fancy darken/lighten and different layers or whatever, i just need to rotate my clips, put in the proper order and than do a voiceover, i hope theres something simple like that thats free and doesnt have a watermark

and i found one, its a phone app, but honestly, i dont care anymore, its about making the video, not making a grammy award winning fucking cinematographic masterpiece worthy of an oscar, if i wanna be youtube famous i gotta start somewhere, and i also i promised myself that i didnt do this for fame but for fun. so the moment i started taking quality over enjoyment i should quit. (a rule that i have not been keeping very well) but from now on, hopefully, i will. just easy fun videos. I have a microphone so the sound will be nice. and then when i get famous ill buy a fancy camera and ill hire someone to edit everything and ill never have to hurt my fingies typing every again.