starter for ... kai ( @kaihq )
&. there weren't many people that jude was completely honest with. she's not a liar by habit or by choice — but serious matters, matters of the heart, were often trivialized before she spoke them. frustrations ballooned to silly dramatics, actual thoughts and feelings locked deep inside or made into jokes, hidden by a smile and the constant bounce to her frame and cheery lilt to her tone. talking to kai was different — he was signed a year after she was, with jude originally pushed together to make nice by shared management. when given the task of being kai's personally assigned pal, naturally friendly, she expected to make a friend ... but perhaps not such a good one. but learning to expect the unexpected had landed her her entire career, and now, someone she can actually talk to. sharing might have been difficult for her, much more of a giver than a taker and a shower than a teller, but even jude had to admit that having a listening ear made things easier. especially when she wanted to complain. with face muffled by the pillow on her couch her face was pressed into, and deadlines approaching, her frustration was evident. ❛ what if i'm just a one hit wonder ? like those guys who wrote come on eileen. see ?! i don’t even know their names. or the hey mickey girl and her weird cheerleading costume. ❜ she sits up now, hugging the pillow to her chest and grimacing at the thought. what if this album isn’t good enough ? ❛ what if my first success is also my last success ? ❜
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