#how does pmy look great in anything she wears

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 — pmy solo 002: july schedule

summary: miyeon’s group isn’t the only one preparing a comeback, the old miyeon from 2016 and prior is trying to make a comeback as well. word count: ?? trigger warning: n/a mentions: @tearingdiamonds​ and everyone in her group

it starts at the outfit fittings for the music video and performances. it was a small feeling of annoyance at the fact she had to be there. she passed it off as her desire to be home instead of getting fitted for the clothes they planned her to wear. it wouldn’t have been the first time anyway. she doesn’t speak much besides when she’s spoken to, as miyeon wanted it to be over quickly. she holds a small conversation with the stylists, agreeing that she looks a little bloated and it would be best if she altered her diet to provide the best version of herself on camera. she probably spent more time nodding along to others’ conversation than she spent engaging in one of her own. as soon as she was allowed to leave, she thanked everyone and booked it out of there, seeking her home’s comfort.

nine days later and it’s no different. this time she feels it growing. the cameras are annoying, and she’d rather be anywhere but here. all she had to do was pose and appear how they wanted, but miyeon wasn’t having it. every little thing was getting on her nerves. the constant flashes from the cameras, the constant directions given to her, and even the slightest glance in her direction. the dancer doesn’t want to feel like a tourist attraction, but she does. this time, she didn’t brush it off, as the anger that was building up caught her attention. she’s ready to explode when she casts a glance at her leader and deflates. she didn’t want to cause another problem for her leader after the attitude scandal miyeon had in the beginning of their careers. so she deals with it. miyeon puts away her frustration, saving it for when she’s home. she knows that she’s heading towards a dangerous area, but she’ll put it off as long as possible until she actually explodes.

ten days later and she feels even worse. the filming for the music video was the confirmation she needed. it was so hard for her to have a hint of a smile while she was dancing. every time she caught a camera pointed in her direction she tried her best to act like how she normally would. she looked over at her members, feeling more isolated from them than she’s ever been. it was out of character for miyeon to say nothing in the passing time and to distance herself from everyone. hyemi probably care less about what she was going through. as long as it didn’t interfere with their activities, then there was no need for them to talk. eunjoo was most likely the one who caught onto the change in miyeon’s mood. after all, she was the one who took attention off her when she was like this in the past. jiyeon probably also caught on to the fact that something was wrong, but miyeon never knew how much they knew about her. the years blended into each other, and she could barely remember just how much she had told them. either way, she wouldn’t do anything to damage fuse’s reputation again, so she hoped they didn’t ask about it. she wasn’t ready to talk with anyone. once again hiding behind a fake smile she’s learned to perfect, she continues filming with ease. her individual scenes didn’t require much emotion, so it went by faster than she anticipated.  

it’s finished, but the pain only increases. miyeon no longer has an excuse to feel like this. she knows the reason why and what it means for the upcoming days. she wants to call for help.

she sends a short text to the people she hoped would understand that she needed help. she had no doubt they would understand what she’s implicating. they were people who saw miyeon at her worst and experienced it firsthand. artemisia was her closest friends, so they would’ve noticed sooner or later. she felt extremely sorry for eunjoo to have to deal with her once again, but at least a warning was better than nothing. she was going to include alyssia, but she wouldn’t know just how bad it was, and she couldn’t bear to drag more people into this.

feeling great. i’m going to relive 2016. sorry in advance❤️

it’s her last cry of hope for someone to save her from herself before it’s too late.