#i also feel like i am maybe not made for nonmonogamous queer culture | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

druidicity · 2 years

Text

god i hate that i’m a horny young queer man freshly moved to a big city but there is a covid pandemic + a monkeypox pandemic + i am extremely cautious and care about public health + i’m trans and anxious about birth control/getting killed. i genuinely do not know what the appropriate way to go about this is and so for now i am just not having any sex or going to any clubs or being exciting at all and i have sooooo much fomo about it but i also don’t want to get covid/monkeypox or be a superspreader but also since i am not currently having sex i feel like getting the monkeypox vax would be somehow stupid of me or taking it away from people who need it more, but since i don’t have the vax i’m deterred from going out, and so the cycle continues god i hate it

#cai talks too much #if u r also in a similar situation and u r reading this i would like to hear yr thoughts abthow u go about your decision making #really considering monkeypox vax now that the initial round of vaccinations has somewhat died down #but i'm only really seeing one guy rn #and tbh we aren't really doing anything at this point we basically just chill #but ik that he's seeing other ppl so i could conceivably get it from him #and also this fall i do want to get back on the apps #and so the ppl that i meet thru there could give me monkeypox if i'm like casually dating #and also covid is always a thing #otherwise this would be totally different and i would be way more comfortable just going out to the bars #idk idk #i also feel like i am maybe not made for nonmonogamous queer culture #even tho it feels very uncool and very ungay of me #but also cruising sounds fun and cool and i would do it if i were cis #ugh #too many thoughts

0 notes