#i am taking the fact that lenz wears glasses to my GRAVE

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Billy Lenz Commentary Notes

TW/CW: discussion of childhood abuse, alchoholism

Quick disclaimer: Billy Lenz is a horrifically unreliable narrator when it comes to what he’s thinking and saying, BUT, consider this: i suffer from brain rot and am willing to overlook that fact for the sake of character development because i love him and want him to be happy. So, I watched the Billy Lenz Commentary and took notes on everything he said and I even included time-stamps bc i am an Ultra Dork and have no friends :,D. (/lh) The commentary was recorded several decades after the actual movie came out, so Billy is around the age of 50-60.

Everything is under a cut bc it’s long skdskldj

Stims:

-(1:29)clapping

-lots of repeating lines/narrating/verbal ticks

-specifically repeats his “T”s a lot, lots of clicking noises

-imitating a British accent

-(10:24) imitates the sound of an incorrect buzzer

-meows a lot

Possible Spins:

-movies/acting

-The Shadow( it was a comic series popular in the early 1940′s)(12:46)

-Shakespeare (15:19)

-playing the piano(35:37, gets super upset when Peter destroys the piano)

-singing, choir (1:46, 46:51, 1:00:06, 1:02:32, 1:35:57)

-(1:02:39) quotes a Christmas Carol

-He’s seen/or read the shining!!! (1:34:30-1:35:48) he quotes a few scenes from the movie!

Likes:

-strawberries???(1:30)

-christmas is his fav holiday, unless this line is part of the Christmas Carol quote, I didn’t bother looking it up so imma role with it. He also likes pudding!(1:02:37)

-pastrami sandwiches(1:25:24)

Dislikes:

-seeing people kiss(5:37)

-not really a dislike per se, but he mentions a couple of times about getting pissed off and upset. Maybe has really strong emotions and has trouble dealing with them.(1:07:17, 1:09:11)

MISC Notes:

-wears glasses! (4:25, 1:08:26)

-(8:00) self aware, has been to therapy before

-(26:04)says some kind of math equation??? He was talking too fast and I couldn’t pick it out all I got was √5+1 or something?

-analyzes the movie and the underlying messages and themes

-was in a theatre troupe at some point(45:46)

-(50:44) billy’s dad was absent and his mother physically abused him

-(1:07:16) he calls John Saxon “daddy” ADJFSJDCBASJCSGHVA

-(1:20:40) he says he’s not gay (he is)

-(1:25:42, 1:28:07) good at mimicking voices

-(1:27:52) struggles with intrusive thoughts and impulse control

-(1:33:21) humms a song that I don’t recognize

SPECULATIVE(aka: me reading way to much into shit):

-(8:07) “I fell in love with a pig, the pig never loved me back” possible reference to something? Maybe abuse or neglect? Pig ie: mother = his mother never loved him

-(52:50) appears to go into some kind of dissociative state where he talks about a man named Dave, asking him “what’s wrong Dave,” and saying “Don’t go, don’t leave me Dave”. Potentially the name of Billy's father and he’s repeating what his mother said to his father before he left? For some reason it feels like he’s not quoting a movie here, i looked it up and couldn’t find anything. I could be wrong though!

-(57:36) yes I know he’s mocking barb in this scene but shut up okay I’m using this as evidence that he has high empathy cause literally shut the fuck up no literally shit the fuck up he blows his goddamn nose wich means he was actually crying you shut the fuck up /lh  

-(1:31:51) talks about being in front of a court and not having a choice. Maybe he was put on trial for what he did to his sister?

-Mod Elith