#i am thinking thoguts. so

[procrastinationstationnn]

hey *with the intention of bouncing on it until you cum inside me*

[syeunko]

Super Syeun

Today I discovered a box of old notebooks, yearbooks, newspapers, and spelling bee memorabilia. A good chunk of them were journals and reports from when I was in primary school in New Zealand. I had the best time going through little ol' me's writings, drawings, assignments, journal entries, you name it.

It gave me confirmation of who I am. I believe we are our truest selves as kids, so it was encouraging to know that I've always liked animals and nature, got along well with other people, and was recognized by my teachers for my aptitude in reading, writing (I'm proud my dinky post about CONJUNCTIONS got put in the yearbook), and even math (though the same was not said for swimming/theatre). I was also comforted by the fact I described myself as "sad and naughty" even then, and that I was imaginative, curious, blunt, and quiet.

Bring Syeun back!!!

"my toys was snoring" "I really love my room because I can read, write, make stuff, and rest in my bed. And it is really mine." "Remember to be quiet in school otherwise you will get spanked by your teacher. Have to go now. Bye." "Mr Wit Mr. Tucker is a good teacher. He is as good as a brave lion teaching his own cub to fight. I hope that I don't be a teacher when I grow up." "It looked really like a duck's foot. It was the most beautiful leaf I had ever seen. I put the leaf inside a book and I went back to sleep again." "Mrs Sihwa brought a fruit called the pomegranate. When I first bit it, mmmm...so delicious, the juice squirting in my mouth. Imedieley I wanted some more. When I first saw it I thought why did Mrs Sihwa bring in an apple? But Mrs Sihwa said it was an pomegranate. huh? I thogut what was that." "Then I started thinking about conjunctions. Because a conjunction is like a bridge isn't it? A conjunction joins ideas in a sentence, a bridge joins the land over a river." "I like my imagination."

[booniesoil]

Warning spoilers for psychonauts the OG. I really love it when opening cutscenes of games foreshadow the plot of the whole game but you don't notice it,, but psychonauts does an INCREDIBLE job at omg!! I especially love the rouse of the "sea monster legend" which can be assumed by the viewer as a summer camp trope and disregarded,, and how when Coach Oleander talks about the safety of walking around the campgrounds at night it is a suspicious sentence but it's so well disguised with Raz in the foreground and the scary noises and Raz being revealed,, like THAT'S the weird thing about the cutscene!! IT'S SO GOOD!!! I realized way too late why Coach Oleander uses such weird adjectives on brains! I love Coach Oleander's weird intonation and slight apprehension when he says "superstar secret agents Sasha Nein and Milla Vodello",, I love that Oleander mouths the words he wrote inside of the pamphlet,, ITS SO GOOD he is definitely hinted at being a little silly. The more I think about him the more theatre kid-y he comes off to me.... the thogut,,, its seeping into my brain.... look at this fancay pose

I am absolutely terrible at critical thinking while playing video games, I saw those bunnies in Oleander's brain I remember the white room and I'm still like "this means nothing Sasha's kind us sus I bet he's the evil one",,, IT'S A BLESSING I DISGUISE because the reveal is ALWAYS better. Especially in psychonauts 2 huehuehuehuehuehe hehhahhehaheha!,! AUTHGH I JUST LOVE wicked artistic intent I want to do stuff like this all dayyy I want to make a VIDEO GAME!! <3

[iloveyouw]

10 Nov 2022

Hi, when i was otw hom ei had some thoguts. i was thinking deeper into what i said like why i thoink u havent forgiven me. i also not very sure why i said that. i feel like if u have forgiven me maybe u wouldnt think i owe u. and it feels like u think i owe u. and i just wantt o make it known to u that yes i owe u. i owe u big time. andi  dont want u to rush into forgiving me. i only wanted u to give me a chance to mend things. it is more than okay to not forgive me yet. but i hope one day u will of course. and even if u dont at least let me be there for u. i dont expect forgiveness, i have fucked it up too much alrd. at this point i just want u to stop hurting. and although i say many times i will let u go but then end up i dont i be psycho and say i nojkw where u stay and u cant avoid me, i do hav the strength to let u go already. i just really cant see u hurt agian. its unfair and selfish. i cannot keep u anymore even though my intentions were pure and clear this time. and if u choose to leave know that i will always fight for u, and i will wait for u everyday. i dont mind waiting for u everyday. just know that. even if u do or dont i dont have the capacity to love anyone or have anyone love me. i want to fix myself. i really do. i 100% want to change and want to get help. so stay or not u dont have to worry about me finding someone before u. i really doubt that. its a time of healing and grieve and self love. 

the best is u stay and see the change and come back to me. and i will accept anything, anything, that does not end like that. what u have been doing now, i am thankful. for the chance. i love u and i always will, it has never changed one bit since oct 2021 and it will never. legal covenance here, sue me!!

thank u for helping me and always being there for me even when its at ur expense. i am sorry once again for sometimes being complacent like slping late and being late to meeting u or rather do my things than spend time with u. i am still trying to put u first. i have never done this for anyone, and most of the times its not even that hard cos its pure love. only sometimes i get carried away swie. 

i cant wait to bring u go eat pizza and explore more good foods if u let me. and if u dont i hope the next person that does shows u more. u deserve everything beautiful that this world has to offer. 

[wetterroomba]

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