#i can at least admit how scared i am of not accomodating literally every single person in existance

[tekatonic]

About me and IDs

Hey uh if you thought you'd reblogged something recent of mine and it's gone, it's not just you, I deleted it. ( And if you saw me panic about it earlier... oof... but this is what that was about. )

Just thought I'd explain why.

Image descriptions are a real struggle for me, they've been extremely important for me to do since i started this blog, but I was self-sabotaging myself so bad over them. I just want to be inclusive, I feel like I HAVE to be, because "what if", right ? I know there's always a chance people that need IDs might come across my art posts. But I have pretty horrible emotional/energy/attention regulation and I'm also very unmotivated and lazy and I forget things. Because why would I want to agonize over writing long descriptive text when the next chapter of this fanfic seems so enticing ?

So the post I deleted was unfinished, I was working on describing the outfits yesterday but it was taking me so long and I thought I had the time today, which I did, but then i spent ALL DAY in bed reading a long fanfic ( which i still haven't finished ) on my phone. Obviously I kept forgetting about it until I let it post itself and realized how much I fucked up when i got my laptop out and checked my notes... abnormally large amount of them for something that was posted 30 minutes beforehand. The reblog tags made me painfully aware of people noting that it was unfinished. ( "no id?" has never made me feel more like a failure, i was/am in pain just remembering the tags existed )

It's not even the first time this has happened recently... well lesson learned : I am never scheduling an unfinished post ever again. My drafts are gonna get so crowded...