#i can handle humiliation/dergradation and/or praise during it but. it cannot be about how i'm feeling | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

tmascfaggot · 30 days

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so generally i'm very picky about topping. that's why i don't rly call myself a switch cuz i'm so. peculiar about it. and i did some thinking on it last night and i think i kinda realized what the line is where topping becomes uncomfortable for me

there can't be anything in it for me. the dom cannot do a coy like 'oh you must secretly love this' angle or anything. that stresses me out. i'm doing this purely as service. and i mean that lovingly! i wouldn't be doing it at all if they weren't someone i was comfortable with!!! but the ONLY pleasure i derive from topping is seeing how good they feel in response, especially if they've expressed a sort of 'oh i've needed this' type of mood abt it

like genuinely and for real when i am topping i am just a toy. like fully i am an object. my enjoyment doesn't need to be considered. this is for YOU it's for you and you alone do not factor me into this okay

#like don't get me wrong i DO like it. it's not like i'm not feeling good about it or anything #i just get majorly stressed when any kind of like.. actual topping focus is put on me #if that makes sense #i can handle humiliation/dergradation and/or praise during it but. it cannot be about how i'm feeling #it can be about what i'm DOING but that's it #this is just another means of making a dom or just someone i'm sleeping with feel good #even a like “ohh do you like being my toy” yes but don't talk about that now. don't look at me. this is about YOU #this probably says smth abuot me but idk what it is #edit it CANNOT be suggested that i'm taking a dom role either. that WILL give me a panic attack #anyway #signal broadcast 📺

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