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amarillokidding · 18 days

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I keep looking back at like 2019-2022 me who was like experiencing physical and mental trauma in both my work and home life that caused my psychosis to go on overload and now I'm still fucked up but I am on therapy and medication and have a will to keep going and keep trying. I really glad that I survived that time it was awful but also I cannot believe that random shitty ppl online grossed me tf out and pushed me away from a fandom that was at one point holding me together at the time and that I still hold fondness for ARRHGGHHHH BITING AND KILLING!!!!!! BITING AND DESTROYING !!!!

#i cant keep this info to myself anymore aargghhh #like... it kinda almost got a BIG youtube drama channel involved.... thats how far it all went....#idk !!! i think that this possible resolution couldve maybe not been as helpful but i could laugh about it at least #back then and even now.!!! i feel bad but its also ridiculous so its hard not to laugh??#what a crazy proposition that was like 80% carried out and almost went into fruition #idk idk im really crazy rn but ive wanted to talk about this for a really long time.. i didnt know how to bring it up randomly tho.#there was more stuff but that part was just too wild not to talk about? right?? like.. wtf was going onnnnnnn

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