#i couldnt stop thinking abt this 😭😭😭 got me snifflin inside

[seiwas]

can’t get ex-‘thing’ kiri out of my mind 🤧

you have this ‘thing’ with kiri where feelings are confessed but it stays that way, doesn’t become anything official even though you talk everyday. it's good until it isn't—he gets busier, and life happens so the talking stops, and you drift.

you meet here and there because your friend groups overlap and it’s awkward at first but you get the chance to sit down and talk for a kind-of-closure. it's long pauses and stumbling over your words, speaking up at the same time with heat radiating off your cheeks and shy laughs of 'sorry' and 'you go first'.

the conversation goes well because kiri’s always been a great guy, and you—you’re the best person he knows, so you shake on it—no hard feelings 🥹 how can you resist him, after all, with his bright eyes and wide smile—his voice so genuine when he asks if you want to be friends (again)?

the thing is, you get along so well; you laugh at the same jokes and catch yourselves saying the same things at the exact same time too. your eyes meet across group lunches and dinners even though you're on opposite ends of the table—and when he hugs you goodbye, last after everyone else, you think he squeezes a little tighter, holds you close for a little while longer, tucks his nose just a little bit within the strands of your hair.

and he won’t tell you, but he’s always brought back to that day when he first confessed—your shampoo is still the same and it smells like comfort, and flutter feelings, and maybe a good thing he can never forget.