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the-casbah-way · 30 days ago

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i know i’m demo/aro and to some degree romance repulsed but i go through these weird phases where one moment im really into affection and the idea of a relationship (not a romantic one but something close) and then i wake up one day and feel grossed out by the concept so i’ll start talking to someone and flirting and shit and then suddenly i have no feelings for them and i can’t understand why i ever wanted to talk to them in that way. like what tf is that. it’s so annoying because it probably comes off as if i’m lying or leading people on but i genuinely just lose feelings so quickly for no reason and it has happened to me in every talking stage or relationship i’ve ever had

#it might be because i’m mistaking my longing for friendship and connection for some form of attraction #like i KNOW i’m not attracted to people. but when i meet someone i get on with or who looks cool i get excited #and i was to spend loads of time with them and i get excited when they’re nice / flirty with me #so maybe i never had feelings for them in the first place and that’s why i change my mind so fast #i dated someone for two yrs was fully ready to marry them and then woke up and completely changed my mind out of nowhere #and i realise now we were just platonic soulmates. i was never attracted to that person. i just thought they looked cool #idk i’m such a dating hazard everyone avoid me i’m evil #i just love relationship anarchy and no one else is ever into that so it’s hard to navigate it when it’s all one sided

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