#i did & it was worth it back when chipotle was good LOL

[misc-obeyme]

Thinking about Lucifer knowing Spanish, and I love the idea that he picked it up on his own (HELP, IMAGINE HE LEARNED IT SUPER FAST BEFORE THE EXCHANGE STARTED ONCE HE SAW MY FILE, THAT'D ALSO BE FUNNY). But if Lucifer ever scolded me in Spanish, I'd fr burst into tears and turn into the biggest goody two shoes 💀 (for at least a few days). Like I already hate being lectured, but something about it being in Spanish just 😭 it feels sooo much worse (maybe because there's so much emotion in the language? Dialect? Very big disappointed mom vibes.)

also IT AIN'T GONNA BE ME CONFESSING, THAT'S FOR SURE. Or if I did, it'd be in the most round about way or by accident (catch me pulling a Mammon like in that car ride drabble.). I am saying it in EVERY WHICH WAY except saying 'ily' outright.

It wasn't my day for dinner but you came home sad, and suddenly I'm cooking and it's your favorite dish? Psh, don't mean nothing, I was craving it too. I found a super shiny coin and gifted it to you? I have plentyyy (don't think about the fact I keep shiny coins from the current year in my bag for good luck, and it's the first one I've found all year). I'm spending my last pieces of grimm to buy us a treat to share bc we passed our exam? Well, it'd be wrong if I only got myself one... (true story, spent my last $10 on chipotle kids meals for me and my friend/coworker so we could eat because we were both broke and had two days left to payday)

Mammon will need to grab me by the shoulders and shake me because I would not believe he's into me. I'd come up with an excuse for any evidence that he is into me 💀 He could be like "GET IT THROUGH THAT THICK SKULL OF YOURS THAT I HAVE FEELINGS FOR YOU!" and I'd be like "you wot? you're joking right?"

like I said, I'm denying it to hell and back because it's scary af !! I've only been in love 2.5 times, and the first time I was brushing off my feelings and making excuses. And then one day I had the "Oh. Oh... Aw, fuck." moment and became a mess around them. I've always been wary of romance (my only relationship ended up toxic, and I became more wary lol)

But the same thing happened with Mammon becoming my fave 😭 I was thinking about other characters (along with Mammon) like Levi, Beel, and Dia. But then everything about Mammon made me fall a little more without realizing, even while I was trying to deny it. I'd get asked my fave character, and I couldn't choose, but Mammon was always an option. And one day I had the "Aw, shit" moment. He won me over with his dumbass ways, heart of gold, and terrible bandaging skills.

*head in hands* THIS MAN MAKES ME WRITE ESSAYS BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE ENOUGH WORDS TO EXPRESS HOW I FEEL AAAA

anyway I am excited for the new lessons !! my cards are powered UP ! also I got a sketch and lineart update on one of my comms and 😭🫶 literally wanted to jump around at work because it's so perfect and cute (it's me and Mammon cuddling in bed AND RHEY PUT HIM IN A TANK TOP SND YOU CSN SEE HIS MUSCLRS AKDKD)

anyway. I am. so Normal about this. aha... OKAY I AM SENDING GOOD VIBES, AND HOPE YOU HAVE A LOVELY DAY AND FIND $10 ON THE GROUND TOMORROW (ALSO APPLIES TO ANYONE READING THIS) OKAY BYEEE

- ✨ anon

Disappointed mom vibes lolol. I think that would suit Lucifer really well, actually. He has those vibes anyway, make him lecture in Spanish and it's just even better~

Er. Well. I like when strict characters start scolding people, so perhaps my opinion is invalid in this case. I just find it very funny and it makes me want to tease them so bad.

Anyway, here's my opinion on romance: yes, it's scary af. But it's worth the risk.

Any time you enter into a relationship with someone, especially if there are intense feelings involved, you're taking a risk. No matter what, even in friendship and other such types of relationships. The way to get close to someone is to be vulnerable with them. And there's always the chance that the person you're being vulnerable with will take that as an opportunity to hurt you. But not everybody will. And you'll miss out on the people who won't if you just... don't even try, you know what I mean?

Ehhhh sorry to get all deep on you like that, but I've seen this kinda thing plenty of times in my life. I'm that person everybody tells all their relationship woes to and then I give them advice that they never take. And then it always turns out that I was right all along lol.

I also kinda think it's okay to fall in love with someone but never act on it. Sometimes it feels like I fall in love with everyone I meet. But sometimes you legit fall in love with someone who just... isn't the right one for you. And you know it, so there's no point in trying to pursue anything. And the feelings fade as that person moves on with their life and it just becomes a fond memory.

For what it's worth, I don't think Mammon would ever give up on you. He's not as dumb as everyone makes him out to be. He's actually quite emotionally intelligent. As soon as he finally figured out his own feelings and was able to accept them, he would clock onto yours. And if someone straight up told him (such as one of his brothers), I think he'd keep reaching out to you, keep trying for you, keep doing his best to make it so you're comfortable enough with him to be honest about how you feel~

Anyway, this is just me being a hopeless romantic lol!

Welcome to the Writing Essays About Fictional Characters You Love Club! lol honestly I get so embarrassed about how much I have to say sometimes...

I'm also excited about new lessons! And your commission sounds amazing already!

Sending the good vibes right back to you! May we all find $10 on the ground!!

[vlogsquadssquad]

Secure 2

summary: Charlie confesses his feelings and reader has to decide if that's what she wants, or if another guy has her *attention*

a/n: i’m honestly BLOWN away at part 1′s feedback. y'all really loved it so Ive been working on this all day, I hope its everything youve been waiting for! thank you to my new followers, ive been writing for a bit for fun and no one was reading my stories but after the reaction for the last story I was so motivated to write. I have A LOT more ideas and even an idea for a part 3 with smut and maybe even reader having to tell the boy she didn't choose the bad news, who knooowwsss. send me in suggestions! 

warnings: language, alluding to smut at the end.

mood board:

-- YOUR POV

my life has been the most fun lately. ive been hanging out with David and he really gets me to let loose. he's always trying to top his last video which is so fun to be a part of. even if we wait around the house all day. tonight im alone though. I told him I needed to get some writing down for the last song of my album. I want it to be about being happy with yourself and secure with who you are. that you don't need another person to define who you are. but im having trouble putting that into words that rhyme. maybe I should just see what David is up to.

- daveyy (:

hey, I know I said I was busy but my mind is too cluttered and im curious what the vlog squad is up to 😉 >

< hahaa nothing actually. im by myself at the house tonight. really boring. watching movies ive seen dozens of times.

oh no! your friends realize they were too cool for you? >

< probably lmao. what are you up to?

trying to finish this last song but I can't think straight >

hey would you wanna come over? its ok if you're too busy being alone watching 50 first dates lol >

< how'd you know? 😅 id love to. chipotle?

- end texts -

“hey, loser” I say as he walks in with our food and... is that ice cream? “wait, did you get ice cream?” 

“yeah, I got your favorite flavor!” he says with a smile. my heart aches at the kind gesture. “wow your house is so nice” he sets the food on my counter as he glances around. 

“thank you, im really into interior design... and nice houses” i joke as i examine the ice cream David got for me. he chuckles as he gets my food out of the bag and sets it up in my living room. I put on a movie to watch but we end up muting it and just talking instead. our conversations just seem to flow. “what's a memory that stands out to you from your childhood?” I ask him. “there's so many things,” he puts his arm around the back of my couch as we sit sideways to face each other. we finished eating forever ago. “probably just all of high school. I learned so much, from my friends and my teachers. nothing academically, obviously.” he laughs. I smile to him and run my fingers through my hair. he watches my movements and for a moment its quiet.

“I think you're really smart.” I say finally. “I love how you push me, you're always there for me, and you just come up with the best ideas. you're so creative.” 

“wow. what did I do to deserve your kindness?” he asks with a slight laugh.

“I can think of a few things.” our conversation became much lighter after that. after a while we went into my home studio and he helped me write. the night was filled with jokes and endless laughing but also had serious moments too. I shared very personal details about my life. but the best thing of all was that there was no camera in sight. it was just friends being friends. no clickbait. no underlying purpose for the long stay. it was perfect.

-- next day

“hey y/n could I come over and talk?” Charlie asked over the phone.

“sure, I don't have anything planned till tonight.”

“ok be there in 20.”

“what's the sudden emergency?” I ask as he walks in the door.

“there's just something I've been wanting to confess for a really long time and i’m not sure-”

“its ok Charlie, what is it?”

“I think I'm in love with you.”

my heart dropped. Im frozen in time. I don't need a relationship right now and I sure as hell can't lose my friendship with Charlie.

“I don't know what to say...”

“say you love me too!” he moves closer to me “I know you do! you always want to be around me, have me close to you, we talk all night. I know you feel it.”

I look at him with a blank expression.

“I honestly don't. I've never thought of you that way, and I'm really enjoying being single. for once in my life I'm not letting the pressure of having someone on my arm get to me, I don't need this right now, I-”

“what..? y/n. don't do this.”

“I'm not doing anything it's just the truth.” I look to the ground as his eyes fill with tears. “I think you should go.” I say.

-- DAVIDS POV, that night

- y/n/n 😋

you're still coming to my party tonight right? >

< I wouldn't miss it! so proud of you! ❤️

tonight was my party to celebrate my new show. I haven't told the fans yet but this vlog will be my announcement. we start filming for it on Monday and I've never been more excited. its exactly what I've been dreaming of all my life.

the party started to kick off and all my friends slowly started showing up. Charlie was going to perform his unreleased song tonight and everyone was already talking about it. 

“hey have you heard anything from y/n and Charlie? are they dating?” Ilya comes up and whispers to me.

“no man, I haven't heard anything. I was with y/n all night last night and I wasn't exactly begging her to give me details but we did talk for hours about random stuff and she never brought him up or texted anyone. I don't know they might not be.” I say with hope shining through the cracks of my voice.

“I can just ask Charlie?” Ilya offers. he's such a good friend when it matters.

I nod and then head to get something to drink. y/n still wasn't here and I was getting antsy.

just then I hear Natalie let someone in. I peak around the corner and see y/n. she looks drop dead gorgeous. i’ve never seen her dressed up like that. I think she saw right through me and asked if she had something on her face. 

“no, no, I just have never seen you dressed like that. you look great.” I look to the floor. no way she and Charlie aren't an item. they both love music and they're both flawless people. they're a match made in heaven. 

“well, thank you, cowboy.” she says in a funny southern accent. she was so weird. she came in for a hug and she smelled exactly like when I first met her. I put my hand on the small of her back and for a split second I felt her push more into me. 

“so where can I get a drink?” she asked as we pulled apart.

“a drink?” I ask

“yes, i’ve had a bizarre day and I need a drink.”

Im about to ask her what she means when I hear Charlie from behind me 

“hey, babe, you're late.” he says to y/n as he pulls her into a hug. she almost looks uncomfortable. “hey Charles, how are you?” 

“i’m great, i’ve had several drinks and im thinking much clearly-er now”

“I can smell that” she chuckles

I hand her her favorite drink and ask her if she finished the song. after a short conversation Charlie pulls her to the couch where some other friends are doing karaoke. she's basically sitting on his lap and laughing. I grab my camera and record a little outside trying to not think about it.

-- YOUR POV

I honestly think drunk Charlie has forgotten about our conversation from earlier. which i’m relieved because sometimes I just need good ol Charlie and not this new one that was in love with me. sure he's a little touchy but we were always close like that. 

“alright I promised David I would perform an unreleased song tonight. come on I want you to hear it.” he grabs my hand pulls me up. I have a gut feeling I don't want to be here for it.

David set up the mic outside and everyone found a seat. David sat next to me with camera in hand. 

“alright alright” Charlie starts. “hopefully I don't forget the lyrics since i’m a little buzzed.” the audience laughed. “but this song means a lot to me, and I wrote it with someone in mind. someone who has changed my life for the better and made me a better man.”

oh god, please don't say my name 

“y/n. you are everything to me. I wouldn't be able to be who I am today without you.”

everyone looks to me as the music starts. a love song. i place my head in my hands and David nudges me. “you ok?” he whispers.

“can you please get me out of here?” he nods his head and stands up. Charlie is looking down at his guitar lost in his music. I feel bad leaving but how could he not take no as an answer? I follow David out the door and my head is down in shame. he closes the patio door and turns to me. “what is going on? I thought you guys were dating?” 

“oh god, not you too.” I groan. “just please I need to be anywhere but here right now. fast.”

“okay. let’s go.”

we go to his garage and he looks at me. 

“you said fast!” he shrugs as he opens the passenger Ferrari door for me. I laugh with my head thrown back “true. but im going to need a jacket or blanket.”

“here, use mine.” he took off his hoodie and handed it to me. I hopped in the car and we were off.

“anywhere in mind?” he asks as we pull out of the neighborhood.

“nope,” I smile. “im kinda hungry though”

“alright,” he turns the car at the light. “then we’re gonna make this worth our while. I know an overly expensive place with great burgers.” 

I laugh at him as my hair blows in the wind “yes! lets spend all your money!” I lift my arms and scream. David just laughs at me. we speed down the highways. ive never felt so free. 

we finally arrive to the place and get seated.

“so do you wanna tell me why we left my party now?”

“i’m sorry by the way. I didn't mean to drag you from your party but...” I look down and pick at my napkin “Charlie confessed his feelings for me this afternoon.” David looked at me confused. 

“isn't that a good thing?” he asked.

“not if I don't feel the same way.” I sigh and David looks surprised. “I was very clear about my feelings- or lack of. but he had been hitting on me all night and then the song. I know he was drunk but im really worried for my friendship with him.” 

“I can't believe my ears.” he said almost laughing. “you, y/f/n, don't like the guy who seems like he was sent down from the heavens for you?” 

“nope. he just isn't my type I guess, I don't know. I never really thought of him that way and I don't want to.”

“wow, no one will be up to your standards will they?” David laughs as he takes a drink.

“the right guy will be.”

perfect timing. the waitress comes over with our food. we thank her and get eating. he was right. best. burgers. ever! 

I moan as I take another bite.

David looks me up and down with his cheeks full of burger and chuckles. “okay, y/n, calm down. it isn't no Charlie puth.”

I gasp and throw a fry at him playfully, laughing. “no... no it is not!” we both laugh harder. as we finish up David pays despite my best efforts and we head to my house so he can drop me off. the car ride was fun, we listened to all the hits and sang our hearts out. we got tons of funny looks, but nothing mattered. I grabbed his vlog camera he threw to the side and recorded him singing and then popped myself into frame and had the camera aimed at both of us. our hair was crazy and the night was wearing down on us but it didn't matter. we were just happy to be alive. 

as we pulled into my driveway and David put the car in park, I looked to him. “you wanna walk me to my door?” 

“already on it.”

he came around and opened the car door for me and walked me up to my door. 

“thank you for tonight. it was like out of a movie. I really needed it.” I was talking softly now since it was the dead of the night and the only thing heard was the crickets. 

“anytime, y/n.” David also said softly. he kept looking to my lips which made my heart beat faster every time. I know I said I didn't need a guy, but he just looks too good. 

“and congrats on your show, I'm really proud of you.” I step closer. 

“thank you, congrats on staying single another night.” he joked but had his hands gently placed on my forearm. 

“its still early.” I whisper closer to his face now. I can feel his breath and he can feel mine. my heart is going a million beats a minute and the butterflies in my stomach are in a tornado.

“I can't write a song about you, but I can buy you more expensive burgers.”

I laugh leaning my head on his shoulder. “that's all a girl needs anyways.”

he laughs too but gently. I look up at him and his eyes are locked on mine. he places a hand on my cheek and then lower to my neck. I take a sharp breath in and connect our lips. his lips are soft, sweet, and gentle. I pull my arms up around his neck and deepen the kiss. I feel his hands slide down my back to just above my ass. I move my head to the side and open my mouth gently. he knows what to do and opens his mouth too. I feel his tongue dominate my mouth. he retracts and I close my mouth only to bite his bottom lip and then pull away. I let go and we put our foreheads together breathing heavily. 

“I could do that again.” he says.

“wanna come inside?” I whisper, my hands now playing with his hairs at the end of his neck.

“best party ever.” he laughs and I pull him inside. I don't know what im supposed to tell Charlie. the heart wants what it wants?

[wanderinglotus7]

Soaring....

Graduation is in 6 days, and I’m so excited! This is a long time coming. All of my hard work has finally paid off. I said this before, but I do really mean it this time, I had my official last day of school May 13th. It felt so good waking up that morning knowing I don’t have to work about commuting to campus, waking up to an alarm nor have to write another paper. Now, it’s a waiting game on grades. With Advanced Trauma Theory and Treat Modalities, I finished with a 87 (86.6). I’m waiting on social work & spirituality and Services to Migrants. Either way, I feel like I’m gonna end the semester and school year with a GPA between 3.6 to 3.7. I cannot forget that I will also be receiving my certificate in Trauma along with my MSW degree. Next steps is to register and take my licensure exam to become a clinical social worker.

I started the job application process back in February. From then to now, I applied to a total of six job positions. Out of the six, I was able to move forward with three positions. The three ended up being Family Centered Clinician, Social Work Advocate, and Community & Survivor Advocate Engagement Specialist. Mentor offered me the FCT position, however, I denied the position. In-home therapy took too much out of me. It’s really difficult work. And I didn’t like the work culture Mentor was promoting. I loved the support I received from my peers, but I believe the agency’s expectations were unrealistic and my self-worth isn’t based on my productivity. With the other two positions, I made through all three rounds of interviews and became a final candidate for both positions. One is working with domestic violence and intimate partner violence victims. The other position is working with human trafficking victims and other victims of violence. Both organizations are interested (want me) in me. I’m leaning towards the social work advocate position with Adelante which is partnered with Beth Israel Deaconess Medical Center and Brigham & Young Women’s hospital. They did give me an offer and I accepted. Yet, I’m waiting on the talent recruiter to contact me for an official offer. I might have to email the recruiter tomorrow morning. I want to know if I have a job by the end of this week. Next, I need to figure out when I need to give my two weeks notice to Chipotle. 

Next month, I will be moving to my new apartment over in Brighton. I happy to be around people my own age or at least in the same phase of life (working professionals). I drove thru the neighborhood today, and I am right on the corner. Parking around there isn’t bad, I have to get use to parking on a hill (emergency brakes lol). I have to pack and get bedroom furniture. Again, I’m excited for this new chapter in my life. I got goddess locs! I’m embracing this new confident professional woman. The past two weekends I’ve been exploring Boston more, gaining more confidence in taking public transportation. I still have Costa Rica in July. The air bnb was booked in March/April. Plane tickets are next. Real soon I have to say good-bye to someone and let them go. The situation that I am involved in with this person is not healthy anymore. I have too much going good for me to keep looking back. 

I am ready for the next chapter!

[canaryatlaw]

ALRIGHT, well today was something. Something indeed. Woke up to my alarm at 9:25, got out of bed and got ready, poured my cocoa krispies I not a bowl only to discover my milk had curdled one day past the expiration date (booo, but at least I discovered it before I poured it over the cereal) so I had to pour that back into the box and go with some cinnamon toast eggos and some cranberry oatmeal cookies (because I mean, cranberries and oatmeal are healthy, that's good enough) and stuck a yogurt smoothie drink in my bag to drink on the train. So I leave at 10 to get to school by 11. I get off the train and I see Dan hanging out, then I dig in my bag for like 2 minutes to discover I'm out of bars, and I'm also 100% out of cash, and change. But, I never got around to drinking my yogurt smoothie, so hey, he could probably use it more than me. So I go talk to him, and he says he was thinking about me the other day because some guy gave him a clif bar and those are what I always give out, and how he was hoping he'd see me soon, and that he really loved the yogurt things so that made me happy. Anthony wasn't out at that point which I was sad to see, but more on that later. Get to school, drop my stuff in the PAD office. I had to have my paper time stamped and in the drop box by noon, and it's a little after 11 at this point. I end up waiting for my spring break friend because we had been discussing stapling them or not (because they're generally too thick to be stapled) and she said she had those little black clips so she had to go print hers out and then we went and handed them in, time stamped 11:27. I don't know when they'll actually get out of that box and graded, I'm just happy that it's out of my hands now. I was supposed to meet with my field placement advisor at 11:30, but being that her office was literally one floor away I wasn't too worried, and I got there at 11:29 just as she was finishing her meeting with the other girl she's the advisor for. Pleasant enough meeting (well, for our line of work, but you know), I was telling her about the change of goal hearing I was witnessing the other day and she wanted to know what I would do if I was the judge and I was honestly like so torn because clearly this kids want to go home and you want to give the parents another chance, but at what point have they been given enough chances if this case has been in the system since 2013? Just a hard situation. I ended up saying I'd want to talk to the kids, which is the conclusion the judge came to as well. We talked a bit about the child death case of a baby (a few months after her 1st birthday I believe) that happened in a town a bit further out, and how when your normal person hears a news report like oh a child is missing they don't necessarily think any nefarious is going on but from this perspective you immediately know something is wrong for a child of that age, they can barely take two steps without falling, they don't go wandering off. As one lawyer in my office put it "once they said they couldn't find her after 10 minutes I knew she was dead." And sadly he was right. It was a really troubling case that's very indicative of the issues of the system because a DCFS investigator had literally been at the house earlier that day- typical dirty house case (yes that's a thing, it's a form of neglect and it requires a high level of filth and living in pretty much insect infested trash) and the girl's death will probably be ruled accidental, but that doesn't mean neglect charges can't be brought in criminal court because you can just leave a 1 year old alone...okay sorry for the rant, I'll move on now. So after the meeting I went back to the PAD office and wound up hanging out in the lounge for most of the rest of the day with several other members of my class and kind of alternated between attempting to explain concepts we only had a cursory handle on to each other, quizzing each other, bitching about the class, and bitching about other things haha. It was, honestly probably one of the more entertaining studying sessions I've had in a while, and it's good to hear what other people have been focusing on and a lot of them had like memorized formulas for claims that I could use so I worked on remembering those. At some point being that I'd only had a fairly light breakfast I was hungry, and decided to go to the salad place across the street that I've only been to once before because it's like *uber healthy* and that's very much not my thing haha but I had actually really liked what I got there the first time and felt like going there again. So I go outside, and Anthony is out in his normal spot, which is actually just to the right of this place. So, a bit of background I think I forgot to mention in some of these posts since I don't always catalogue our day to day conversations. A few weeks ago he told me it was his birthday and I wanted to get him something, so I told him I would because I wanted him to at least have a gift from somebody. Then of course I faced the same issue as Christmas- what do you buy for someone that's homeless/living in a shelter? The options are kind of limited. I ended up going with a personal sized fan, a really nice one from Brookstone. I was trying to find one with a long lasting battery like the watch I got him but they just didn't exist, so I gave him two times worth of batteries as well. I had left it in the office at that point though, so I went over to him and said I was gonna grab lunch but that I had his present and would come right back down with it, and of course I offered to buy him lunch because I mean, if I'm buying it for myself, how can I not offer to do the same for him when I clearly have the ability to do so? That's not love. So of course I did. I asked if there was anything in particular he liked and he said chicken salad which I wasn't sure they had but I told him I'd try, so I go in there and it's a chipotle style line thing with different combinations you can customize and have everything as a wrap or a salad, and they had other things too. They didn't really have anything close to chicken salad, so I figured a warm meal could probably do him good (despite it being the 3rd day of May, the air still had quite a chill in it today) so I got him a barbocoa chicken market plate which came with chicken and veggies and looked good. I think what I got was called the healthy turkey club or something like that, but it's just romaine lettuce, turkey in cube form, white cheddar, and egg whites all chopped up in a wrap, and then I get the ranch on the side because I can't have too much salad dressing so I need to be able to control it (but it then makes it difficult to dip without pieces of it falling into the dressing, but I digress). So I run outside, give Anthony his food which he seemed quite excited about, then ran back over to school, stashed my food, and grabbed his present and ran back out to give it to him and man, the smile that lit up his face when he saw what it was and he just said "how did you know I needed one of these?" Of course I didn't know, but somehow it was the thing I ended up buying for him (say what you will about coincidences, but I would refer to that as a small "God moment"). And man, he was just so happy and it made my heart so happy to see that. So I hugged him and said that while this was my last day down at school I'll try to be around and if I am I'll come by and say hello. I just find my interactions with my homeless friends to be so incredibly rewarding. They've taught me much more about strength, perseverance, and hope than I could ever give to them in food, change, or any other material possession. I feel so blessed to have known them. So that whole interaction, coupled with Dan's from earlier made me happy. I did have to go back and study though, so we hugged goodbye and I headed back across the street, where we did more studying/explaining/bitching/probably some other stuff in there somewhere lol. Different people from our class kind of ended up walking in and out at different times so it ended up being interesting to see who showed up. As the day went on I made a 7-11 run with one of my friends for sugar and caffeine, deciding on an iced tea with a decent caffeine rate, pretzel m&ms, and "bright side" skittles which are pretty good, and that managed to be a pretty solid pre-test dinner lol. When we got back we mostly quizzed each other on different things and laughed, then at 5:30 we headed up to the classroom as the exam started at 6. So we get up there, I put my stuff down, and run to the bathroom and...oh crap, I'm bleeding. Of all the shitty timing. I don't think I ever mentioned this here just because it didn't really occur to me, but a few weeks ago I started bleeding a bit, not heavy, while still taking my birth control regularly. I figured it was gonna happen at some point since I've been taking my bc packs back to back without the placebo pills (because if you know you're not pregnant you really don't need them) but even when I've taken the placebo pills for a number of days I haven't gotten anything, so it's been like a year......so this was shitty timing lol but at least I didn't have any accompanying cramps, that would've been the real issue. Guess I'll survive. Back to the classroom and we get started, new exam software that everyone's wary about because that shit is always looking to screw toy over, I swear, so everyone's always very careful with it. But we managed. The test was 15 multiple choice, which we did on a scantron, then had 3 essay questions which we could type on the computer. The multiple choice Q's were 1/3 of the grade, the first essay was 1/3, and then the second and third essays were 1/6 each. Alright, not bad. Multiple choice first, not bad. There were maybe one or two I had a legit debate between two answers, but overall I felt like I did pretty good with them so that satisfied me. The first essay, the long one, I immediately recognize the fact pattern as a note that we had read in the casebook (cuz our professor was obsessed with the notes) and she legit took it word for word because I remember reading it and what it had said because it was a really horrific crime (that I'll spare you the details of recounting). But the ultimate question was two ineffective assistance of counsel claims, one for the guilt phase and one for the sentencing phase since it was a capital case. I'm pretty dang familiar with all of that even before I got to law school or this class thanks to two little podcasts called serial and undisclosed that have covered the subjects fairly thoroughly, so I felt pretty good about that. I was debating if I should assess the two slightly different claims from the sentencing one separately or just combine them, but they were really getting at the same point so I just combined them so I guess we'll see. The second was a Brady violation one, which was pretty easy, and it was just a good faith/bad faith comparison because it was that and a destruction of evidence claim and for that you need bad faith and for Brady it doesn't matter if it was good faith or bad faith. Finally the last one was a client perjury one that we'd sort of gone over during the semester, just basically what do you do if you think your client is going to perjure themselves, all the avenues you can possibly (and ethically) take if they insist on testifying, so that was pretty straightforward. And yeah, that was it and I was done. Not bad at all. It's weird because I feel like I did like, a fair job on the test that wouldn't necessarily lead to a top grade on a curve, but past experience has taught me I generally underestimate my test taking skills, especially when it comes to writing, so I'm telling myself I'll probably get a good grade. So I think all my classes this semester are at least potential A's or A-'s, and I will be perfectly happy if that's what happen (but probably a little happier if it leans more heavily on the A's, like last semester). Headed home, stopped for ice cream that was actually the peach Melba frozen yogurt I got the other day that was really good because I deserve it dammit, then went home and did eat some actually food haha and figured I needed to keep up with Arrow if I want to watch the end of the season episode with Katrina and Katie in them *sigh* but I don't have to be happy about it. It was fine I suppose, I'm not really on the Olicity train anymore because all the crazies had me jumping off pretty quickly so I was kind of meh on that part, like I'm not actively against it but I just don't want it to like, take over the plot. I did like the rest of the team working together to get them out though, and how Johnny and Lyla came to an agreement about her working at ARGUS and them trusting each other (and I did appreciate Oliver and Felicity coming to the same agreement as well). The final rescue scene was pretty cool, and I have to say, I'm sure even with supports in place Stephen pulling Emily up sheerly by his arm strength was pretty fucking epic and had to have taken a LOT of strength, so kudos to him on training. And yeah, decent episode, I just want to see Katie and Katrina already *sigh*. After that I switched over to friends cuz that was on and did my PT exercises during it which I'm also trying to treat as ab exercises to some extent without over-extending myself, because I am so very good at doing that. And yeah, that was my day. Pretty busy one, but good and mostly enjoyable, and I'm so glad I'm finally done with everything because this year just felt like it dragged on forever and I'm ready to actually have some free time to relax in my evenings and such. I do have a semi-active day tomorrow though, I have to go back to the doctor who ended up treating me for the latest coughing episode that I no longer have a real diagnosis for, for a follow up, and I have to say, I was quite skeptical at first but I haven't really coughed in quite a few days now and I'm actually really damn impressed lol because that's actually super effective so I'm definitely pleased with that. Then I have PT at 4:30 and our small group final dinner at 7:30. I was sad though, the guy from our small group who I may have been developing a small crush on emailed today saying he actually wouldn't be able to make it, which sucks because he actually works at the nice restaurant we're going to and I was planning on being like "oh I'm gonna sit next to you so I can pick your brain on menu items because of my dietary restrictions" or something like that haha and then end up talking to him, so that sucks. He did however friend me on Facebook, so I'm concocting a Facebook message to send to him tomorrow being like "hey, I was so sad to see you couldn't make it, I was gonna use you to make sure I ordered something good 😂" or something half-serious like that and then probably follow up with "and omg did you see the marvel defenders trailer??? Im SO pumped" because we've had previous conversations about the marvel Netflix shows. So I guess we'll see where that goes, lol. Okay this is WAY to long and I need to shut up and go to bed now, lol. I hope your day was lovely as well. Goodnight friends. Best of wishes to you and yours.

[everykissbeginswithbae]

It’s MySpace in this bih

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents?

Dad: yes he’s my bestie, mom: working on it :)

02: Who did you last say “I love you” to?

My honey puppy girl

03: Do you regret anything?

Not really but lately I have thought about the times I didn’t stick up for my sister when we were little. If I had to do it all over again that’s the only thing I’d change!

04: Are you insecure?

Naw I’m dope

05: What is your relationship status?

Taken: Single: Hot Cheeto: yes

06: How do you want to die?

Quickly and painlessly

07: What did you last eat?

Trash ass chipotle

08: Played any sports?

I have before yes lol

09: Do you bite your nails?

I feel called out

10: When was your last physical fight?

With a bitch named Donte in 2013

11: Do you like someone?

My boifriend is pretty likeable

12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours?

Yes off ecstasy or adderall back in the days

13: Do you hate anyone at the moment?

Never

14: Do you miss someone?

Yeah! Lots of peeps

15: Have any pets?

A puppy cake

16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment?

Tired but it’s one of those clogged nostril nights so I’m awake doing surveys because I like to talk about myself. Narcissistic vibez ✌️💋

17: Ever made out in the bathroom?

Idk lol sounds unsanitary

18: Are you scared of spiders?

I mind my business around them that’s for sure

19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance?

Fuck no. Sounds exhausting. Let’s keep it pushing

20: Where was the last place you snogged someone?

Excuse me what

21: What are your plans for this weekend?

Work, take care of my wounded puppy

22: Do you want to have kids? How many?

Not sure

23: Do you have piercings? How many?

7

24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)?

English history and LUNCH AMIRIGHT 😜

25: Do you miss anyone from your past?

Yeah bitch stfu

26: What are you craving right now?

Crustys pizza bay bee 🤤

27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart?

Hope not but it be like that!

28: Have you ever been cheated on?

Ohhhh do you have the time for me to even answer this question justly

29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?

Naw man unless they cried after we broke up but I was more the emo hurt one most time from my perspective anyway

30: What’s irritating you right now?

Irritated vibez 😂😤

Naw nothing

31: Does somebody love you?

So.Many.FOLKS

32: What is your favourite color?

Green. Like that bic lighter green

33: Do you have trust issues?

Ohhhh whoaaaaaaaa. Love that song foo. but no I don’t have it. Can’t find it on any streaming services and since limewire fell off I haven’t learned how to illegally download

34: Who/what was your last dream about?

Ok I’m glad you asked. I was getting drunk with a group of dream rando’s who were the most colorful and loving set of characters you’d ever meet and I was passionately dead set on cooking them steak and plucking them the finest apples off of the finest apple trees so I did it and everyone was happy and then I decided to go out and get them steak and apples AGAIN because we were drunk and I forgot I already achieved the steak/apples mission so they had to do some convincing for me to sit back down but I did and it was a great time. Miss them.

35: Who was the last person you cried in front of?

My therapist. Like yoo I don’t be crying or talking about my traumas so you gon get these bottled up tears for the entire 60 minutes shawty

36: Do you give out second chances too easily?

HEADASSSSS. Naw not easily enough unless it’s people who have already proven their worth to me

37: Is it easier to forgive or forget?

Depends if you have altheimers or not

38: Is this year the best year of your life?

Naw man probably 2010 can’t be beat

39: How old were you when you had your first kiss?

Kindergarten I was a SLUT

40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked?

Newp

51: Favourite food?

Pizza

52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason?

Definitely not. Everything happens based off actions and those actions are based off DECISIONS. Decisions cause ripple effects and this causes events to happen mixed with the universes random elements (god particle). You can anylize any situation and find good that comes out of it and consider it that “everything happens for a reason” but it doesn’t. Things just happen cus that’s the way physics works.

53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?

Get high denna MF

54: Is cheating ever okay?

When you play cards with your siblings yes

55: Are you mean?

I’m a human with many different emotions and moods. I try my best to be self aware while being conscious and considerate of others but I be wyling sometimes, sure

56: How many people have you fist fought?

Lmao I already felt like a child doing this survey but this question especially makes me feel like lunch time convos. I fought my sisters and that bitch boi Donte I mentioned earlier

57: Do you believe in true love?

Naw that’s a silly expectation that makes love disappointing. I believe you can love anyone if all the right things happen for you and them. Anyone you love can be a true love if the love is true you digg. Make a choice and stick with it.

58: Favourite weather?

Fall

59: Do you like the snow?

Lovenit

60: Do you wanna get married?

NAw I like my space

61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby?

Nope just my boi

62: What makes you happy?

Lots of shit man especially my mind. It’s my happy + safe place.

63: Would you change your name?

Naw

64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?

Yeah cus he’s 80 miles away. His lips would have to be pretty stretchy

65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?

Say no homo and go on about my life

66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around?

lol yes all my guy friends. 3 in particular

67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?

My faja

68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?

Bitch everyone

69: Do you believe in soulmates?

Hahahhahaha 69

70: Is there anyone you would die for?

ReLAX