#i don't know where i would be if i hadn't started listening to the Bumblekast but i know i wouldn't be anywhere near as happy

[rabbithaver]

this is the second time someone in the Bumblekast server has referred to me as a 'Silver expert.' multiple other people will to ping me specifically to get my thoughts on their Silver-related theories/headcanons/scenarios or to ask me questions about his character and backstory.

and i cannot lie... it feels really, really lovely. to have people specifically think of me when Silver gets mentioned... to have people put so much significance on my silly little opinions? i've never really had that before. the vast majority of people find my hyperfixations annoying or frustrating. but the fact that people there often actively seek me out specifically because i do so much research and in-depth analysis of Silver's character... it means so much to me! it makes me so happy that i actually tear up when i think about it!

i love that little community so fucking much, man. they make me feel so loved and so wanted. they've only ever been kind and welcoming to me and they put up with even my most deranged hedgehog thoughts. i've never felt like a freak, i've never felt like i'm troublesome, i've never felt like they're only tolerating me. they seem to genuinely want me to be there. i've only been there since mid-September, but i fit in so snugly there that it feels like i've been there for years.

man. i am one lucky son of a bitch. <3