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anachronistic-falsehood · 11 months

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i think the best thing for my mental health would be to quit my jobs move out of my parents house shave my entire head go completely mia for like a month and then come back and get a job as a janitor or something and tell everyone a fake name and completely reinvent myself. i think that might fix me

#whiskey yelling into the void #unfortunately. i am Stuck #give me a job ppl look down on gimme one with no customer service that people overlook all the time and let me exist where no one can see m #let me publish a book under a pseud and become a world renowned author without ever showing my face #let me shave my entire head and let my hair grow out again at its own pace #let me never ever ever work at a bank ever again #i wanna get a tattoo. should i do that. i'm scared of needles and pain but i want to #tw sh talk AGAINNNN>>>#i guess me breaking my six month sh free streak is just. me wanting some control over my life and my body. i think.#my parents would question everything if i decided to pack up and get a different job they might support me yeah but they would have Opinion #i just want to live somewhere else i want to exist on my own maybe with roommates maybe alone idk i need Something #i want to come out and be publicly transmasc #but the Questions i would get #i'm not thriving i am surviving i'm not living i'm existing i don't want to just exist i want to enjoy my life #i. don't know how long i can stand this. i need to get out of here

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