#i had a giftcard and i figured i'd get like

[rebelrainfall]

Apparently hot topic is desperate to get rid of their Andor stuff and on the one hand it’s kinda sad but on the other hand, guess who bought 2 Andor shirts for less than 20$?

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(#gdi. I'm crying, so we ball. I've been invested, so this hurts.)

Just, give these flowers to Eros, okay? I didn't know what he liked, so I got a bunch of different ones - some sunflowers, hibicus, and tulips in different colors and some coffee candy, for when he wakes up and gets better. It's probably not as good as the real thing, but easier to sneak in than an actual coffee cup.

And..Cupid. For you too. Here's a bento and some bread from the bakery, along with a few other giftcards to some grocery stores and stores. I take it you haven't really been sleeping or eating well after everything. And I figure this could help somewhat. One less thing to worry about. And don't worry, this is no strings attached. It's never easy to deal with something like this.. I hope it helps.

I lament that I cannot do more to help, but just know if you need to talk or need a friend to go on an errand with, I'll listen.

And I'd like to think I'm not alone there.

Or if you'd rather be distracted, I can help too.

Just take care of yourselves. Both of you, okay? We still have a lot to do- a lot to look forward to. Like going to all the animal cafes and petting all of them. And having a picnic.

...

"Thank you. I'm sure he'll like these. She always told me that her favorites were hibiscus, but it may be because of its meaning."

The soft beeping of the monitor echoed as Cupid stayed beside Eros. From the looks of things, they look so... Worn. Their previous joyous attitude had been robbed of nothing, and their eye bags were evident than the weeks without you seeing them.

It wasn't that bad before... Maybe they masked it with makeup, so you wouldn't see just how tired they are.

Holding Eros's hand, their eyes looked over at the flowers. They always admired Eros for what she's done, even when people seem to criticize her. So now that she's in danger...

...

"... I haven't left them ever since they were in recovery."

The doctors tried. They genuinely tried. However, Cupid was inconsolable. How could they? It was their friend that had their life on the line— obviously that wasn't an option.

"I didn't want to spend an hour without them— I fear that if I did, they'd wind up dead without my supervision," they explained to you, their voice weak as they held onto their unconscious friend. "It's... An irrational fear. I've always feared it happening, especially those dreams I've been getting."

Their trips with the hypnotist didn't help. Not in the slightest. If anything, it felt like it got worse— even to the point of being unable to sleep for days.

"I'm sorry you have to see me like this," they told you, holding back the urge to cry for the umpteenth time. "It's just... So much has happened from the weeks we spent working. My boss was being strict with what he wanted us to do for Valentine's, I couldn't go here for weeks... And this had to— it had to happen at the day I could even get access again."

...

They were struggling to not cry. It was clear with how they're blinking so much, even when you've left them gifts so they can eat and... Be able to care for themselves.

"... I'm tired. I'm exhausted for working over Celestia Inc.," they admitted. "I... Can't handle this. I can't handle losing a friend."

Ah, it seems you broke the dam. Though, they didn't seem to notice with how they're sobbing, trying to wipe their tears with the tissue that the nurses were kind to give to them.

Loss was never something they can handle. They could handle everything, but that is what they're so... Terrified of. That losing a friend is the thing that could make them grieve.

It, ironically, shows that even they have their limits.

"I— we— don't want to break our promise to you guys. I promised Eros that— that I'd resign when I'm done, that we will finally be able to leave with nothing attaching us to this sick company," they sobbed, their hand gripping on the tissue. "And yet— yet, they had to get hurt. Someone had it out to kill my friend!"

...

"I want this to stop... We want this to stop."

But we can't. Not anymore.

Unbeknownst to them, you see one of the hibiscus flowers lose a petal.

Even positivity can never reach a heart that's too deep in sorrow.

[yarnings]

I have managed to start hating Amazon so much more.

I honestly don't understand how something that's such a pain to use managed to destroy all other forms of shopping. (Yeah, I know, it used to be less awful.)

My husband was given an Amazon giftcard, so when Canada Computers didn't have the kind of RCA/HDMI adaptor that we needed, we stopped looking for a place to buy it and just got it off Amazon.

But we couldn't just buy it. Despite me knowing that this was free shipping, and it should have cost less than the gift care was for, Amazon said that the cost would be $3.32, and I needed to enter a credit card. Note that it wasn't actually displaying the price yet, despite having one in mind. (I know it had one in mind, because the "sign up for Prime and we'll give you $50" had a little bit in it, showing me that once I paid the $3.32 I'd have $46.68 left over). So once I navigated all the traps that it's trying to trick you into clicking on, and confirmed that I was telling it to apply the gift card I'd figured out how to enter (and I'm guessing that they sell those gift cards on the assumption that people just won't bother carrying through with figuring out how to redeem them), I entered my credit card number. Oh, wait, I added a credit card to my account. (I guess that's part of how they justify asking for my credit card before telling me how much I owe? They like to act like it's just filling out account information, not payment info?)

Then once I had managed to avoid all the add-ons, and select the correct shipping method. (No, charging me money to send it to me in a harmfully short amount of time will NOT make up for the fact that I'm not buying this in a store. It just makes me hate you more), what do you know! I didn't owe them anything.

So I had to add in the credit card and then remember how to take it out (I hate hate hate companies that make you jump through hoops after every purchase in general, not just Amazon. And they way they like to act like I'm the unreasonable one for not wanting my payment information stored in the app, "oh, we follow best security practices", as if I have the ability to do a proper audit on them. Or as if their security is the only problem with that practice). And I didn't need the credit card after all. But I guess that they couldn't admit to that. Because then they would have missed a chance to maybe get me to forget and leave them my credit card info.