#i had to fight to cut this to be under 1k LMFAOOO im so sorry anon

[gncrezan]

What choice did you do at the end of ILITW and what was your reasons for your choice?

(and omg I live for your art)

firstly thank u :’) and secondly this ask got me emo bc a lot of the story for me personally is devon dealing with her trauma horribly. she was a pretty hurt, angry, and aggressive senior in high school . she and noah get along together because they shared the same fatalistic humor, taste (like with food, tv shows, books etc), and were determined to fix the redfield situation.. ofc noah had a different idea as to how BUT that doesn’t change the fact that theyre determined <3

this kiiinda gets long so it’s under the cut! otherwise, tldr: noah sees devon as a sister and wants to help jane, pulls the ‘i’m her brother’ card to one up her, and sacrifices himself so that devon can live! it’s a “i couldn’t save jane, but i can help you” situation :’)

noah and devon are extremely close and see each other as an insanely close friend. i think if they had longer after they reconnected, they really would have become ride or die best friends, a la tom and andy… so there’s a very long argument about who should die . which… it’s just SO like these idiots to argue about who gets to sacrifice themselves 💀💀

devon genuinely thinks its her “turn” to die and noah thinks similarly. devon considers noah a really good friend and even if she was hurt/angered by the betrayal, she’s a lot more distressed by the idea that jane had been alone and trapped as redfield for years … WHILE devon’s been going to homecoming, spending time with their friends, n trying to destroy what’s left of jane’s spirit without meaning to. dev figures the least she can do is protect noah and stop their mother from losing her only living child. ‘the whistle wasn’t magic but she promised to protect jane all those years ago and now she’s going to help her one last time’ kinda mentality !

meanwhile noah thinks this entire thing is his fault for being selfish and is angry bc devon’s been a good, a real friend that always wanted the best for jane! he has been delighted to see devon literally come alive in front of his eyes . with her acceptance to a music conservatory, getting the guy, and being actually happy again, noah’s thinking is that he’s messed it up and managed to get his only friend (after the betrayal he doubts the rest of them like him much ...) into mortal danger when her life is finally starting to go right. he doesn’t want devon to lose all that because he made a bad decision.

after they’re both exhausted after yelling for what feels like hours, he very quietly says, “devon, i want to see her. i wanna talk to her and i can’t let another sister die again on my watch. let me do this.”

n devon is kinda stunned realising noah like. oh shit we became siblings somewhere along the way huh? and she goes in for a hug and it’s bittersweet and they’re crying but also trying to drop wisecracks at the same time. she harbors A LOT of guilt over the decision regardless, but she is grateful for the chance that noah gave her :)

post-sacrifice devon mellows out more and is better at controlling her temper. by ilb, she’s adjusted well and getting better and it is not only bc she’s THRIVING and in a much better space mentally, but she’s genuinely helped by her visits to noah. devon very dearly wants to protect him, even if it means not telling the ilitw gang- she researches how to save him in her free time and how bring him back, if its at all possible !!

anyways anon im so sorry this got out of hand . i’ve been trying to answer this for like a week but i keep cutting the words down like. can you believe this is the abridged version?? i deleted whole paragraphs before posting bc i was literally writing an essay lMSLDFKSJDF but thank u for asking this !! love rambling about devon :’)

if you meant “why did you as a player choose the outcome?” and you didn’t mean my personal hcs for my mc i’m so sorry... but the answer is simple: i want devon evans-park to go to every single basketball andy plays at, and i was not about to let noah ruin that for her. even if i am a noah apologist ... andy stan first, human being second 😌😌