#i hate having to feel confused or suspicious bc of misunderstandings..

[existench-blog]

ima play league and maybe work on my theme today depending on how i’m feeling but.. idk sfhjksd

[loumandliker]

hey - this is one of the mods of the bi jon project. we don't actually dislike or disagree with pan jon at all, we just want to make a project focused on and celebrating bisexuality. our carrd is a bit rambling, but frankly we were trying our best/overcompensating to try and make sure people didn't misunderstand us and do - well, this. our intentions are good, and it's really kind of disenheartening to see all the hate we've gotten for what was meant to be a positive project. (1)

you're under no obligation to answer these, but i saw some of your posts in the tag and felt like reaching out because you did give us even the tiniest bit of slack in good faith. honestly, if you have any advice about what in our carrd is so overwhelmingly bad, we'd be happy to hear it. we've been trying to respond to the overwhelming amount of criticism we've got in a positive way, and take peoples' suggestions. (2)

as for why 'no anti-antis' was at the bottom of our rules list, it's legitimately bc we were trying so hard to be preventative about this negativity that we forgot to add it when we first posted the blog, and just remembered later. again, you're under no obligation to answer these, i just feel like no one's really actually letting us defend ourselves/are taking things in as bad faith a way as possible. (3)

im not exactly sure how the posts showed up in the tag bc ive been very purposefully not tagging them, also ive blocked all of you back (not sure why you blocked me if you actually want feedback, so it seems more like you just want free positive pr and not actual feedback) so its unlikely youll see whatever it is that i reply to this but whatever. 

the issues have all been repeatedly brought up to you so i dont really see how me repeating all of them once again could help. when i last looked at the cardd the things that stood out immediately included. 

pitting ace & bi identities and people against each other REPEATEDLY,  

starting off with a guilt trippy tone and maintaining it throughout (in my experience this is the #1 best way to receive backlash because people do not want to participate in events where you feel like youre being guilted into it, which going into scrutinizing detail over there not being enough content and passing judgement onto authors or artists over it is something that comes across as guilt trippy.),

repeatedly equating asexuality with sex repulsion (not to get into the misleading information about modteam aspec identity breakdowns, since you claimed that 3/4 of the team are aspec, which is technically correct, but what you didnt say was that only one is acespec. surely you know that [allosexual] aro and [alloromantic] ace are not interchangeable) and calling using biromantic over bisexual a “misunderstanding” of the identity as if how to define romantic vs sexual attraction (how to divide, if or if not to divide, use interchangeably different labels) isnt a deeply personal choice ace people who experience romantic attraction make, 

claiming that bisexual jon is canon (he isn’t. this is why people are suspicious of anti-other mspec identities sentiments. which theyre right, if youll be so kind as to stick around til the last paragraph) and repeatedly implying that the reason there isnt “enough” content centering bi jon because the aces are simply unable to not fixate on his asexuality (again, pitting identities against each other),

making the banned ship list way needlessly confusing and including ships that dont even include jon to it, which simply comes across as some kind of a list of bad ships, idk. a way to bypass this would simply be to say “we are looking for portrayals of healthy relationships!” and that couldve just been it. if you felt that that wouldnt exclude specific ships (eg. jondaisy that a lot of people write as a relationship between trauma survivors who have done very bad things trying to get better and learning to trust each other) it is possible to simply say “the modteam is squicked[/triggered] by ships with daisy/elias/peter and we’d like to read all of the works submitted so we’re asking not to receive submissions with those ships.” hating ships is literally completely normal but making rules hard to parse is going to attract questions, especially when the implication is that ships are excluded on the grounds of morality, and a blatant power difference ship (jonelias) is equated with jondaisy, which is from what ive seen almost exclusively shown to be a relationship between equals. that makes people EXTREMELY confused about where the line is. thats why youre getting so many questions about this.  

in general the carrd was spotty, guilt trippy, and needlessly moralizing where it definitely did not need to be. the key to getting people to engage without getting backlash is to make the event seem fun. when your carrd is filled with stuff about unrelated negative stuff people are not going to think it’s a fun event at all. 

and none of this even gets into the fact that at least one of the mods has a history of open hostility against pan people. i heard through the grapevine that he has since made a fauxpology about it, but frankly it already shone through in the language used in the event descriptions. its extremely hard to take any of this is good faith when it is easy to see that one of the organizers is quite fucking clear about thinking pansexuality is biphobic and the carrd is or at least used to be full of anti-pan (and other mspec identity) dogwhistles, and is notorious in some of the tma fic author circles for being extremely fucking nasty about trans men writing fic he doesn’t like to the point of pretending that we’re all cis people (in case youre not keeping track that is misgendering us by implication) because he doesn’t like it. i think some of you (or maybe all of you? idk) in general could stand to examine whether your engagements and participations in the fandom have been at all about having fun or adding positivity to anything, or simply making posts about what other people are doing wrong. it seems that every post i see from anyone in this group is guilt trippy and authoritative, and sadly this translated directly into the event. 

when youre, say, a trans man whose first touch to one of the mods was a post about how fic where trans men have piv sex with cis men is hurting him personally and making it a moral issue and not a matter of a simple preference to the point where he feels comfortable making claims about the trans men (and transmasc nonbinary people) writing fic about trans characters re: their gender or whether theyre fetishizing trans men, your willingness to engage in good faith with an event hosted by him that features numerous red flags is not going to be unconditional. 

im sorry to hear that it has been bad for your mental health, and idk whats fucking going on with this event anymore, but my good faith interpretations have diminished significantly since i saw the shit tmc specifically has been saying about pansexual people and pansexuality as an identity label. i have no clue where the rest of you stand but tmc has repeatedly, consistently shown himself to be unable to act in good faith towards anyone other than people who agree with him.  

[jicklet]

Lucifer Season 5 thoughts, episodes 1 - 4  (spoilerssss below the cut, for real)

5x01

Didn’t do watchalong thoughts for this one, but here were my two main thoughts:

HEY IT’S THIS GUY AGAIN. Bummer that he’s dead but, man of all characters I did not expect to get an actual arc. 

my skin is crawling at the wrong Lucifer business. nononono not ok, go away.

5x02

Noble reasons nothing, Lucifer how could you ghost Ella 😢

"Lucifer" practicing in front of the mirror, just a hint of American accent in the British? Coool touch.

Just. full on Tom's ass, alright

.....does real Lucifer not have his back scars anymore? This dude obviously doesn’t but. 

You know, Ella isn’t going to get to yell in betrayal at real Lucifer and that is unsatisfying.

Chloe is not wild about new, lying Lucifer. Yes, good.

Man ok hearing the ole opening theme is so nice :D Hello show, welcome back.

Chloe: “I am happy! [forced laugh]” thank you subtitles

Chloe: RUNS AWAY MID THOUGHT Linda: ah. You're meant for each other. Chloe: :3 whaa~t

Confused Chloe to Michael!Lucifer: You're not the degenerate I fell in love with >__>

How cool is that mirror shot of him at the bar?

Kinda wish I had gone into this unspoiled to leave this mysterious because the whole time I'm just yelling LIAR. LIARRRRR and waiting for the reveal

Maze’s leg neck hook move thing is so cool.

please stop throwing in with shit people for revenge reasons though :/

Hissss at least the subtitles are referring to Michael as himself now.

AMENADIEL. AMENADIEL I NEED YOU TO FIGURE IT OUT, YOU HAVE THE PIECES.

I like that Dan is suspicious bc he normally doesn't trust him.

MAZE WHY. :( maze no :(((

Lucifer having desire and Michael having fear. Huh.

Linda: We shouldn't let our FEARS get the best of us. Amenadiel: thoughtful Me: PUT IT TOGETHER, I'M BEGGING YOU

MAZE I STG IF YOU LET CHLOE SLEEP WITH MICHAEL---

Murder couple of the week: Bro mayyybe be less concerned about the "going to prison" thing and more about the WHY, namely "she was so jealous she killed someone"

Me screaming at every red flag: PLEASE SOMEBODY ANYBODY

GOOD JOB CHLOE OH THANK GOD. GOOD DETECTIVING.

Also, phew Amenadiel. If you didn't figure it out it'd make you look reeeeal silly.

Aw you just had to go and taunt him noooo

Maze trying to stop Michael and failing, and Amenadiel figuring it out but only calling him out later left Chloe to save her own self, which I do appreciate.

5x03

So the workings of hell as just this super weird theater job is pretty funny.

Oh Lucifer I missed you. So pretty, so socially oblivious.

Lucifer actually realizing mayyyybe having the Chloe proxy show up as a former stripper based on his descriptions is Not Good. Growth? Oh my dude why am I impressed, the bar is so low for you.

Chloe: “What are you doing with this idiot” (she said to herself)

LUCIFER AND DAN BONDING AGAIN YAY. Oh that’s nice, last season was sad. It just had to be terrible media to bring them together again, didn't it.

Sidenote Tom is just, so good dude. He gets to stretch out so much this season.

Okay shit, Michael being the god to Lucifer's life is a good villainy twist. Like, it fits him into the history of things while also making it ok we haven't seen him until now? But also, legit threatening. That's creepy.

Don't we all feel manipulated now!

Especially with how Lucifer keeps as a point of pride that he doesn’t manipulate people into sin, they do it on their own.

Lucifer trying to kill someone who looks exactly like him is so on the nose, gotta love it. Nice job on the choreo for that too.

So I hate that it's happening to them, but Michael feels like a good villain. It's not just bad timing and misunderstandings, it's "Hey I found this box of issues you weren't dealing with" [tips over box] "haha now DEAL"

5x04

YAY THE NOIR EPISODE HELLO

It's Brown Betty time, Fringe fans! Theoretically less drugs...?

TRIXIE HI YOU ARE ONLY GROWING INTO YOUR SASS

oh wow that Brown Betty thing was more on the nose than I thought.

Man at home base sad bc a truth revealed at an inconvenient time has alienated person he cares about most. Now must tell story to entertain small child. It's portrayed by normal cast as new characters in period garb.

Iiii'm feeling like it's no coincidence last episode Maze was like "I had no one to let me down in my youth" and then we're meeting her mother who all but immediately goes "a ring is the only thing that matters to me."

Between this and She-ra it's time to ride the parental issues train all the way

[DRAMATIC 1940S MUSIC PLAYS] - actual subtitle

Ahhh the theme!!! also 40s sounding, I love it.

THE OLD TIMEY CAR EFFECTS HAHAHA yes. Everyone had so much fun with this and it shows.

"Oh, I thought you might've been here for the secret cult service"

The actors are clearly all having fantastic times hamming it up but Amenadiel is my favorite so far. WHY IS HE TALKING LIKE THAT LMAO.

I got totally invested in Jack and Shirley. YOUR FEELINGS WERE REAL, DON'T THROW THEM AWAY FOR CIRCUMSTANCE ;___;

I missed Charlotte. She makes you care with her eyes!

Oh ;-; Lilith. Two immortals, one understanding humanity, finally.

Honey that's not actually what's best for your kids.... Oh dear.

((Sidenote, did Lilith have something to do with Chloe happening, or was that just emphasizing Lucifer being alone before...? Huh.))

Trixie: it was ALL A RUSE. Oh damn kid, OK. Hustler.

Oh Maze 😢

I wonder what happened with Lilith’s life, but apparently it wasn’t much. That’s fair, I guess. You still suck as a mom though :[ Was she really just gonna be like "anyways" [shuts door]