#i have Lore (tm) around this that i'll talk about at some point later in other posts but the gist being:

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#christian followers feel free to infodump in my inbox

☆hi beam!! okay i'm agnostic (spiritual and leaning hindu) now, but as a kid i used to be catholic (and also hindu at the same time. i was both simultaneously it's Complicated)

☆when i was little (before the Upsettings happened) god was sort of like my imaginary friend that i talked to all the time and demanded stuff from him constantly and i felt super upset whenever i did something to make him "angry". One time when i was 7 i prayed for about a week straight for him to turn me white. I was also convinced he would give me superpowers before i turned ten. I told all my friends about it. and then when it didnt happen i convinced myself it was because i was (vaguely) hindu too and God doesnt like it when i talk to other gods (???????) I won't get into the more traumatic aspect of the whole thing but the thought of someone always watching and the prospect of hell and dying forever messed me up for a good long while

☆surprisingly unrelated to that, i was obsessed with the bible as a kid (not really in a religious way so much as an autism way). My favourite book/section in the bible was leviticus and i just sat there for hours reading over and over what the ancient israelites were supposed to Not Do and the proper rituals that had to happen if they did those things anyway. My second favourite was the book of revelations but that was out of childish spite because at some point I remember the priest at my church saying that nobody understood what revelations meant or what was going on in there and i went "okay I'll just be the first then". I had Theories.

☆i was also going through my ancient history phase around the same time of my obsessive bible phase so every single week at church i bothered every single adult with questions about evolution and why the dinosaurs aren't in the bible until they made me feel too guilty to ask LOL (same thing happened when i asked stuff like why they eat shrimp or wear purple if leviticus says they can't)

☆tldr; i was obsessed with the bible in the way other kids at the time were obsessed with stuff like percy jackson, not because of religion but because i was fascinated by the Lore. But at the same time (and mostly unrelated to my bible interest??) i also believed in god fully and thought he would do stuff for me if i asked nice enough but be also scared me very much. Around age 12 I eventually reasoned myself out of christianity because, among other things, i decided the whole heaven/hell situation wasn't fair and unrealistic and also genesis made zero sense. The religious trauma that came later didn't help but was surprisingly not a driving factor for the most part. I still read the bible sometimes. I think it's fascinating

Oh wow that's way more than I thought anyone would send hahah

Definitely sounds interesting. I can see how you might end up like that but it sounds unusual. i don't know a whole lot about hinduism, but if you want, can you elaborate on how being hindu affected your catholic experience? just for curiosity :>

i relate with the "talking to G-d as if He's my imaginary friend" thing so much. i don't do that much now, but it's just way easier to speak directly than through very specific pre-written prayers sometimes...

hyperfixating on Bible Lore TM is kinda fascinating. i would not have chosen levitcus but i can see the hypothetical appeal of analyzing The Rules. (i was a child of chaos.) i don't know anything about revelations. what is going on in there?

bothering church adults with dinosaur questions is hysterical. also, where does it mention not wearing purple again? because religious jews do follow a lot of the commandments that originated from there, but that one's never come up. seems like a weird mistranslation/misinterpretation maybe?

makes sense why you'd leave based on that, i think that's more or less a common experience with ex-christians from what i've seen? good luck with the rest of that ♡ 👍 ♡

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Magnus Moment(tm)

Welcome to lore tidbits I find interesting.

I'm pretty sure I've talked about this before, but for today's entry, it's Magnus tanking an entire Baneblade shot.

So Magnus had been walking around for 13 years occasionally getting hurt in battle, purely because he wanted to. This is kind of hilarious, but also the very idea of Magnus never truly getting hurt on a battlefield until a Baneblade just BLASTS him point blank is insane.

Also him being like "damn. This is what my Sons feel?? Wow. What a coward I've been, hiding from this". I can kinda get it. But also, considering how much Magnus wants to protect his Sons from shit (scenic him removing all memory of Morningstar from them, never telling them of the Tzeentch pact til it was too late, etc.), bro not immediately jumping to "damn I really need to give them more advance shielding techniques, this sucks" is weird. He does seem to be uber protective to a degree, but not here.

Also also I wouldn't call it cowardly to try and keep yourself from taking damage and Not Dying and then suddenly you tank something that would reasonably delete someone manually to give perspective to how little you've been injured, I'd call that proof of concept of how great your wards have worked.

Also also also, immortal dad dispelled(tm).

This is also interesting considering how later on Magnus wields so much power that he literally winds up conking out for almost three days. If they were confused about him getting hurt then, HOO BOY.

Once I get to that point I'll probs make another post, cause it's got some good feels with Perturabo and Magnus attached.

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sibling rivalry at it’s finest ✨

Shakkai: Let’s call a truce.

Saarai (Sith heiress), raising eyebrows: I wasn’t aware we were at war. Shakkai, nodding: We are. And I’m winning.

Saarai, deadpan: I kicked your ass three times yesterday.

Shakkai: No. I let you win.

Saarai, sarcastically: Uh huh, sure.

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