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Imagine Being A Medic For Company 8 & Having To Take Out An Infernal To Protect Obi.

(A/N:) Hello sweeties! I’m back! I’ve taken my rest like I was supposed to do I haven’t drawn or wrote in the past three weeks and wore my brace like the doctor told me to. While my inflammation has gone down tremendously in both my hand and wrist I’m still a little weak so I have to be careful and take it easy. Though I am going to start back writing and doing the things I love. Thank you all for the patience and be on the lookout I have several ideas I can’t wait to share with y’all! Until next time happy reading!

~Countess

Akitaru Obi X FemReader

Warnings: Suggestive Themes, violence, mentions of blood.

As a medic you had taken an oath to heal, protect, administer, and doctor every ailment. No part of you wanted to take a life, you wanted to give life but all that changed within an instant when your instincts made you decide whether to protect your friend or watch him die. Your day started out normally. Obi’s paperwork had piled up once again so you helped your Captain sort, write, and file reports while sipping at the coffee he so lovingly brought you every morning. Next was patching up the Eighth’s rookies after a slightly severe training session with Lieutenant Hinawa with a cheerful ‘thank you’ the boys went on their way. You finally had time to rearrange your medicines and various supplies when the call came out of an Infernal wreaking havoc in Company 8’s division. You grabbed your bag and suited up. Despite several arguments, Obi had talked you into carrying a weapon. He said it was just for protection and he couldn’t go into battle with a light heart knowing that you would be unarmed. So for your Captain’s sake you took the short sword, keeping it in it’s sheath on your belt. Shinra offered you a helping hand into the Matchbox. Once everyone was inside, the Matchbox took off speeding to the scene. Your calm morning ended there as soon as the vehicle left the garage.

People screamed, buildings burned, and your team was scattered. This particular Infernal seemed more intelligent than the others and Captain Obi’s plan fell through immediately. Maki was unconscious, Arthur was barely holding his ground, Shinra had been slung away from the fight and had yet to return, Hinawa was trying to get into a sniper position, Iris was trying her best not to get in the way or get injured, and Obi was trying to stand as his leg kept giving out. His mask had been cracked severely and half of it was missing leaving his pained expression clear to see. Your heart pounded and tears stung your eyes. Obi was yelling at you but you couldn’t hear what he was saying your ears ringing from the explosions of battle. The Infernal was drawing nearer towards you, it’s lumbering gate much like a zombie but unlike the undead creature of various stories this one was agile and swift. Obi roared out clanging his tools against the ground trying to get the creature’s attention from you. It worked as the blazing monster took off towards him, seeing your Captain struggling to rise, instinct and love for the man who was risking his life for you took hold. Dropping your bag of medical supplies and wiping the ashes from your eyes you shot forward unsheathing the blade you hadn’t even wanted and plunged the sharp steel through the heart of the Infernal. It’s screech was unholy as it jerked, tearing at the blade jutting from it’s smoldering chest. Iris’s prayer could be heard across the battlefield as she tried to hurry through it before the once human being stilled in death. As soon as she finished it twitched once and disintegrated into ashes and sputtering dying flames. Your sword clattered to the ground streaks of black marring the once pristine blade. You fell to the ground before your Captain wailing in anguish of what you had done. Obi didn’t hesitate taking your sobbing form into his strong but tired arms. You clung to him happy that you had saved him but horrified that you had just taken a life.

Back at Cathedral 8 you had stayed silent through the whole trip back while going through all the things the Fire Force had trained you for. They had taught all their soldiers how to kill Infernals and survive through battles but the one thing that they had never touched on was how to deal with aftermath. You stumbled from the Matchbox shedding the outer protection part of your uniform the medical badge that you had once proudly worn on the arm stained with soot. You felt like a zombie and you mumbled that you were going to shower. Shinra stepped forward to say something but Hinawa’s unmoving arm stopped the boy from advancing any further. This was something you needed to deal with alone at the moment. Despite being covered in sweat and grime Maki and Iris decided to leave you the privacy you needed. The hot water pounding from the shower head steamed up the shower room leaving you in a fog. Your mind was busy and the anguish you felt couldn’t be overpowered. Even the scrub brush that hung from the faucet couldn’t wash away the feel of blood and death from your skin. You scrubbed and scrubbed and scrubbed until your skin was blood red and on the verge of bleeding. You collapsed to the shower floor tears streaming down your face only to be washed away by the scalding water and washed down the drain. Obi had given you almost half an hour alone before he headed towards the showers. He could hear your crying from the hallway leading him to knock.

“I’m sorry but I’m coming in,” he said opening the door. He didn’t see you standing there so he eased his way to the wall that separated the showers and sat down leaning his back against the warm wall. You sniffed trying to control your emotions.

“That was a brave thing you did,” Obi started. “I wouldn’t be here talking with you if it wasn’t for you. You saved me back there.”

“I don’t feel heroic,” you replied voice cracking.

“I know it’s a hard pill to swallow and this doesn’t help but extinguishing Infernals doesn’t get any easier.”

“I can see why. I’m a medic Akitaru. I’m supposed to heal people not kill them.”

Obi reached his hand around the wall looking for your hand. You scooted closer to him taking his warm calloused hand in your smooth wet one.

“Those people die as soon as the flames take them,” Obi continued giving your shaking hand a squeeze. “What we do, yes it’s taking a person’s life, but if you really look at it it’s a mercy for them. I’m not telling you to get used to it and I’m not about to let you do more than what we assigned you here for I’m just trying to get around to saying thank you. You saved my life and patched me up to boot after everything.” He chuckled remembering how Hinawa kept slinging you onto the injured Captain while you tried patching his sprained ankle. Despite the sadness you felt it didn’t keep the blush from your cheeks.

“It’s my job to take care of my teammates,” you finally smiled his words reaching through the shadows that swallowed your mind pulling you free into the sunlight.

“And it’s our job to take care of you,” Obi agreed. “Now finish up and get changed there’s some concerned teammates that need to see that their medic is okay.” Obi rose from the floor careful not to look over the wall. You stood up as well the wall covering you as you hunkered down. Before Obi could escape you grabbed the collar of his black shirt and pulled him down placing a kiss on his cheek.

“Thank you Obi. Now get out of here don’t you know it’s rude to watch a lady shower.”

The Captain stuttered face turning red before throwing a shaky salute, “Y-yes ma’am.” You laughed as he bolted out the door but you felt the burden had lifted. This day would follow you but you knew that no matter what you had a Captain that loved you and teammates that cared for you and that made everything okay.

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Left Behind - Chapter 36

PART 1 / PART 2

Chapter 22 / Chapter 23 / Chapter 24 / Chapter 25 / Chapter 26 / Chapter 27 / Chapter 28 / Chapter 29/ Chapter 30 / Chapter 31 / Chapter 32 / Chapter 33 / Chapter 34 / Chapter 35

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It was easy to take her frustrations out on the punchbag in the gym, to vent the anger into strength and power in her arms and legs. Sweat beaded down her face, merging with the few tears she had allowed to escape with the thought that maybe she wasn’t worth the man she had found herself loving. 

Virgil could do so much better. 

Virgil didn’t need someone that had a murderer for an uncle. 

Virgil wouldn’t want her, not really. 

Even when out of sight her damn uncle was ruining everything. Just like he always had as long as she could remember. 

There was a photo somewhere, in her mind it was faded and crumpled, but she knew the digital version would still be clean and crisp no matter how much she wished to shred and burn it. She must have only been ten or twelve at the time, her mothers birthday she remembered. That morning Tanusha had run to the bakery to get the pastries mother had liked best. Uncle had turned up just after dinner, a card in hand and a smile on his lips as he had greeted her parents. She had ignored the sharp low tones her father had greeted his brother with, simply pleased to see the man that had always brought her gifts from the west of clever tools that most young girls would show little interest in.

It was only when she realised that the tools were really weapons that she began to question just how he had gotten them into the country. 

The night had ended in an argument, her mother insisting Gaat was bad news, her father insisting that he had meant well. She hadn’t seen the harm at the time, thrilled with her gifts, her mother’s birthday forgotten. It had only been at bedtime when she had heard mother crying that she had realised what her uncle was doing to her family. 

It was only months later that her mother was dead. 

The memories of all that had happened in that single year had scarred her deeper than any other physical wounds she had. 

Out of breath, and too mentally drained to continue her assault on the punch bag, she bent double and wiped her face on her sleeve. 

“You must not blame your Uncle for everything in life, ‘Nusha.”

She straightened, glaring at her father with a shake of her head, “You don’t understand.”

His smile was soft, sympathetic as he tilted his head in consideration, “I was hurt by him too, do not forget that.”

Snatching her water from the bench, she turned her back on him. Their issues were different. Her father was not the same man as her uncle, he had been older when he had been hurt, already moulded into the man he was. She had only been young on the other hand, still being formed into the woman she would become, malleable and easily influenced. 

“You cannot use him as an excuse to drive us away.” Her father warned, “You know that would be what he would want.”

She wanted to snap at him, tell him that he didn’t understand what she was feeling and to leave her alone. Was a little space too much to ask for?

“Kay?” The second voice did make her turn, her father stepping back through the door as Virgil replaced him, “Please don’t drive us away, I don’t want to see you hurting.”

The door of the gym slammed shut, her father making a point she didn’t doubt, less than subtly. She didn’t need to hear the soft click of the lock to know that they were shut in and not likely to be allowed out any time soon. 

“He talked to you didn’t he?” She guessed, watching Virgil. He was out of uniform, changed into a t-shirt and sweats, ready for a settled evening of peace. 

Part of her scoffed at the notion, he was in for anything but. 

“Kinda.” Virgil nodded, scratching the back of his head, “He asked if we were a thing.”

She eyed him, not believing that father would as such a question straight out. 

“Well, I think that was what he was getting at.” He shrugged, “I guess he wanted to know my intentions.”

That sounded more like it. 

Though she wasn’t sure what he might have answered. There had been tension between them since the hospital. Then there had been that kiss that she had to try not to shudder and smile at the memory of. The time since then though, there simply hadn’t been anything, both too busy and tired with rescues to possibly consider something quite as big as what they were both facing. 

Had he even had any intention of taking things further?

Or had she read it all wrong and that kiss had been the biggest mistake of her life?

 “I wanted to talk to you.” He stated, hand dropping from his hair as he stepped closer, “Everything just happened though, I’ve spent every day cursing that damned hot air balloon rescue because it was that that really got in the way and then training and then Scott and the radiation scare and…”

He rambled when he was worried, when he was scared that something was going to go wrong and he wasn’t quite sure how to make it right. She’d seen it plenty over the years, when he’d been caught literally with his hand in the cookie jar and the excuses had come tumbling out. 

It was kind of cute. 

“Kay?” He had tilted his head, brown eyes watching her, brows dipped in concern, “I haven’t been avoiding you on purpose, you get that right? You know I don’t make promises I don’t mean to keep.”

She did know that. It was his most perfect fault, anyone could hold him to anything that he knew he had promised. His kid brothers made a point of using it against him. 

He had made a promise that evening in the infirmary, after a long afternoon of worrying over his biggest brother she had gone to comfort him. It was the first time she had held him rather than the other way around, she remembered wondering if it was physically possible for her arms to stretch all the way around his broad frame. She remembered how he had relaxed into her touch, his hand resting over her wrist as he had promised that he wished he had been in the same mindframe as she. 

His mind had been on his big brother though, not in the right place for figuring things out between them. 

But he had promised he had wanted to. 

So much else had happened since then though, the promise forgotten as quickly as it had been made. 

“Kay,” He sighed, stepping forward again and reaching out to take her hands, “I told your father and I need to tell you too. I was terrified of losing you today, all the things that I haven’t had time to say, things that I should have made time to say.”

She swallowed, still not believing that he could possibly have felt all the same things she had in those moments that had flashed by far too fast. 

“Kay, you are beautiful, and strong, and smart and so, so much more. And I love you.” 

He reached out to brush her cheek, wiping away whatever mix of sweat and tears had dried there.

“I love you as more than a sister, and I wish I had said it after you kissed me. I’m an idiot because I didn’t.”

She sighed as she caught his hand on her cheek, unable to help but smile as she sighed and shook her head at him. 

“You’re rambling again.”

He shrugged, “Sorry.”

Shaking her head she stepped into him, wrapping her arms around his neck and pressing her face into his chest. 

“I’m sorry.” she mumbled into the material of his t-shirt, soft and warm and comforting, everything he was. 

Resting his cheek on her head he wrapped his arms around her, “For what?”

She wanted to say everything, but Virgil would have a response for that. He was the kind of person that didn’t accept people berating themselves, she knew that he would force her to a different train of thought as soon as she mentioned it. 

It wasn’t something she was ready to face, not that night.

“I wanted you to fly back with us,” He murmured, “Or at least come after you when you left. But your Dad said you’d need some space, a bit of air to think.”

She wasn’t sure she was ready to talk, that she would be able to manage to explain everything going through her mind in that moment. 

“You can tell me anything.” He whispered, “I’ll always be here to listen, whenever you’re ready to talk.”

She pulled back, looking up to him with a smile that was more genuine than anything she had ever felt before and a relief that filled her so completely she thought she might burst. 

“I do need time,” She admitted sofly, “But I don’t think space is what I need.”

Virgil nodded, “Promise me you’ll always tell me what you need?”

It didn’t take a moment for her to think about the request before she was nodding in agreement, making the promise that she knew she would never break. 

She wasn’t sure she could break any promises to him. 

“Hey, there you both are!”

Gordon was red faced and out of breath as he held the gym door open, drawing both of their attention. His eyes were bright, brighter than she had seen them in weeks as he looked between them both. 

“Now really isn’t time for a makeout session guys,” He grinned, body already turning to run, “Mom’s awake, like, properly awake.”

Virgil straightened next to her, every fibre of his being suddenly on full alert as he shifted to follow his brother. She hesitated, not sure she was invited to the reunion. 

Turning back to her, he tugged at her hand and nodded towards the door, “You coming?”

It was posed as a question but she could tell it was anything but. 

He wanted her there. 

That was enough for her. 

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