#i imagine she goes back and forth between girl and boy and is suprised to be comfortable as both

[blackasmidnightcats]

A little fic for Kiko×Yara

Kiko hasn't let Yara think too deeply for the past few hours since they left the School. She knew that the other girl did it on purpose, to distract Yara's mind from what Agatha concluded earlier.

"Yara could be a key against the Lady of the Lake's propaganda. If she believes that Good and Evil has been obselete in the more recent years and that the blur between the sides are corrupting each other then Yara could convince the Woods that it's not always a bad thing."

Agatha hasn't approached Yara yet about this subject. And Kiko has somewhat stolen her away. Yara doesn't want to think about if Agatha had asked Kiko to do it on purpose. To give Agatha time to convince Yara through Kiko. She doesn't think Agatha would do something like that or that Kiko would agree. Those girls mean good to her and have been since their quest started.

She trusted the both of them. . . but also knew that she would still be asked to join the fight sooner or later. And Yara doesn't think she's ready for that yet.

She's barely grasped the idea that she gets to live out her life somewhat peacefully with the support of her friends; being accepted as Boy that choses to be a Girl and to have found True Love with the most amazing girl in the Woods. Of course, there were still hardships. Not everyone is fond of the idea of what she is but as Yara learned, those opinions don't much matter when you have an army of friends who love, support, and would fight for you self-worth even if Yara didn't.

There would always be a prickle of fear that would seize her whole being from time to time. Yara always feared that this peace was too perfect. That any moment, it would taken away and that she would loose everything that she has.

That she would loose Kiko and her love.

That very same fear was choking her now—

"Are you okay?" said the girl that has been fighting off Yara's monsters for almost a year.

Yara turns to Kiko, sweet, wonderful Kiko, then she looks down at their hands and realized that she's been gripping too tight on Kiko's delicate hand. She was about to loose her death grip when Kiko placed her other hand on top of hers and Yara froze.

She stared at her own hand, sandwiched between her True Love's. Yara's hand was no different from her boy's hand; still large and akward and bony. It was so different from Kiko's, which was small with elegantly long fingers that would calm Yara down whenever she would ran it through her nest of ginger hair and—

"Yara?" said Kiko, peering worriedly at her.

Yara looked up into Kiko's worried face. She has known from experience that Kiko had many things running through her head. So many weird ideas that she shared with Yara as they grew comfortable with each other. People were wrong when they thought that Kiko was an airhead and a failure. She was just unique in ways that couldn't be measured by assessments of the School. Kiko has shared so many crazy ideas to Yara that she was guilty of admitting that she dismissed most of them like everyone else. She thought that it was a characteristic that makes more adorable but Agatha had shown Yara how brilliant Kiko could be. With patience and the will to understand Kiko has thought of ideas that has helped them on their quest more than anyone else. Agatha was the first person to believe in Kiko's creativity.

And from now on, Yara would too as well.

"I'm scared, Kiko." Yara blurted. Kiko kept silent and let her continue. "I'm scared that I'm gonna fail everyone because I don't know how I would fight for myselft let alone for everyone else. I don't. . . I don't know how I'm gonna convince everyone that it's a good thing when I—"

Yara halted. For a moment the two girls stayed where they were like statues. Yara knew that feeling like her never ending heartbeat like warning drums never finding its end. It would always come and fade away but never end. She wanted to say so many things but instead settled for the truth.

"I. . . I don't even know what's great about my situation," she continued, lamely. Sadly. "I don't get why I'm so stressed with the idea of validating who I choose to be when for me. . . it's like I'm still in a dream and that I know this would be taken away someday."

Yara focused on Kiko. "That you'd be taken away someday."

"Do you really still think that?" Kiko gently asked.

"I. . .maybe?"

Yara sees Kiko's mind working. It's the way her eyes light up like a starry sky so filled with wonder and mystic. And Yara knew Kiko would never leave her but she still wanted to hear the words.

"You silly, silly girl," she started. "I'd never leave you for anything because I'm lucky enough to be loved by two people with the same soul. I loved you as Tristan, and I still do believe me, and all the things that made you Tristan and I love you as Yara for all the things that makes you Yara and I also love the soul that both of them have the finds that wonderful mix in between. I love you when your Tristan and act like Yara and I love you when your Yara but chooses to act like Tristan. And do you know what makes me the luckiest of all?"

Yara could barely speak.

Kiko continued, with a sheen of tears in her eyes. "I'm lucky because those two people somehow love me too."

Yara could feel her heart float.

"I'm lucky because somehow, no matter how different or similar they are, I am loved by both in different ways that has helped me love myself in ways I could never imagine."

They were closer now. Yara has pulled them towards each other and she knew what her body wanted and what her soul needed.

Kiko looked up into her eyes. "I love you, Yara and I love you, Tristan and I love this soul that owns all of me. Boy or Girl and everything in between."

She kissed her. She kissed this wonderful soulmate of hers like how True Loves do on the stories. She kissed her and kissed her and kissed her as Kiko kissed her too. Their love sealed forever by the kisses they share. And if Yara or Tristan couldn't fight for herself then she'll fight for the love the Kiko has blessed her.

And that, she could promise herself.