#i just want to be done w all the hardships im so fucking exhausted i dont wanna be a person anymore man.

[slightlycomicaljolthead-blog]

Due to what has recently transpired, I have written my own version of “Burn” from the play Hamilton. It’s honestly just dumb vent, lmao.

I saved every drawing you gave me, From the moment we first met, I thought we'd be friends, Til the very end, I thought we'd be friends. Do you know what everyone said, When they found out what you were doing? They said, "Come out with your feelings, I'm sure it'll turn out just time." You and your words, they lifted my spirits, You're sentences left me euphoric, We built a picture perfect relationship, We were best of friends. You've resent me the words from before, I've re-read every one and I've realized, It was nothing more than Empty words, So now my own word seems to, Burn, Burn. I told you a small part of my pains, I told you the pains that have ailed me so, You've jumped to conclusions And your actions told our end. Do you know what Ryan said, After he found out what you've done? He said, "She's walked all over you, And has shown the relationship's done." You and your feelings, obsessed with your own self, You references so off timed and You are so paranoid over nothing, and you don't even listen, not at all.... I'm dropping you out from my life, Let no one wonder what transpired, How you broke my heart, You've torn it all apart, And now our bridge, Burns, To ashes, it burns. You have no more rights to my heart, Your words which were under my skin, Will never again make it in, I'm forgetting everything, Especially memories that would have redeemed you. You forfeit your place in my heart, You’re now not the thoughts in my head, You'll deal with it alone instead, With only the memories Of when we were friends. I hope that you burn. -w- but yeah dont mind this i might actually delete this soon lmao its jsut vent INCASE u were wondering what happened, I lost a friend that I had for 14 years. She said she’d want to be friends, but her actions clearly spoke out and said that it was all over. She stressed me to the point to where my health was now greatly declined, when I had confronted her about it, and try to spill out my feelings and how I felt like I was ignored and stressed out she defended herself and tried justifying it, putting words and ideas in my own mouth and head. I am just so entirely sick of her, it’s not worth it anymore. this would seem like a minor hardship, but when I can’t even talk to her about how I feel it fucking hurts. she acts like im the bad guy because she was in the verge of tears, but my face was soaked, i was exhausted and made so many sacrifices for her that I honestly wanted to die at times to ease the pain she was causing me. now its over, and she is dead to me. im tired because last might she kept me up until one freaking out to me. i did everythng i could and our relationship failed.  i will not attempt to fix it, since i did not ruin it. if she wants to still be friends, she’ll have to come to me.