#i just want to focus on r.ocket and g.otg only for a while. im not saying their fans are perfect - no. but they arent as bad as these ones | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

takasgf · 10 months

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i love ishi but i cant help but be genuinely affected by his depiction in fanon. it makes me terribly uncomfortable and distances me from him when im already focused on another piece of media at the moment. why do people have to be so weird and gross about him. why cant you just leave him alone? treating him like some kind of traumatized crybaby dress up doll :/ thats not my ishi. thats not him.

#this fandom makes me so miserable. i want a break from everything until i can fully separate him and the other characters i like from-#-the fans. not even the damn source but the fans. they are rancid and disgusting #im sorry ishi. ill come back dont you worry. i need to protect you.#this is not the end of ishigeru obviously. i have many plans for their future and so much lore to share #but i want a break.... it hurts to see him and remember all the horrible ways he is depicted by so called fans #please dont take this as me not liking ishi anymore. its not the case. i LOVE him and he is one of the strongest presences in my entire lif #i just want to focus on r.ocket and g.otg only for a while. im not saying their fans are perfect - no. but they arent as bad as these ones #i feel so guilty and bad for putting ishigeru on hold. but i feel like there are days when this whole thing hurts me more than it heals me #im so sorry to everyone. but especially my dear. i love you taka. so so much. please wait for me!

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