#i know there are very cool yans that don't have games yet

[horrornvnfan]

a ranking list of if I met yandere vn love interests irl, who would i date!

i love all of these games and characters a lot, this isn't a "best game" list, just as realistic compatibility as i can imagine!

ren/redacted: 14 days with you (i'm a simp and a fool 😔🤘 we will date and i will inevitably pay the price)

ezra: restart heart (should be #1 bc they're somehow the healthiest choice i think? also very pretty and flirty)

friend: see thru need a friend (he's funny and fun and i love friends to lovers trope! i can fix him 😌💖 probably not.)

jack: swwsdj (he is so supportive which i love but i CANNOT trust ghosts. would be the slowest burn ever)

alan: my dear hatchet man (super bad idea but he's charming!! if i just never found out about the murder we'd probably be cool. also don't kidnap me.)

liu: glass mind (very cute! but i think he is possessed and idk how to help so not sure about going steady!)

fone: honey hotline (i genuinely really like fone! 🥰 but i think we might be better friends? also if fone is not upfront about dating, i'll never think he wants to, and then we never will)

zachary: don't look (i like him a lot but i would handle being kidnapped so poorly he'd just kill me out of annoyance 💀)

adam: you and him (i will sooner throttle him. i can hold a grudge and this man STABBED me. we might hate kiss ONCE but that is it.)

keith or tenebris: duality (they both seem cool, but i am extremely against finding someone broken into my home, so i AM calling the cops and never seeing them again sorry 🥲)

casanova: cannibal sweetheart (i have not played this game but i am afraid of being eaten! if that is a possibility in this game then i'm sorry we can be friends instead!)

elias: groom of gallagher mansion (i'm not a ghost fucker. don't look at jack in 4th place thats different)

dachabo: dachabo (i'm also not a furry so absolutely not)

john doe: john doe (NEVER. HE DOES NOT BATHE AND WANTS TO KILL ME.)

moral of this list; never let me find out about your intent to kidnap me/murder/stalking/gaslighting, and we will be a very happy and healthy couple 😘

[ddarker-dreams]

🤔 or 🧐 I forgot which emoji it was lmao

🥺, 😈, and 🤯

[ask game]

🧐 Do you spend much time researching for your stories?

oh god absolutely yes. i love to learn so it never feels like a hassle though!! i typically break my writing research down into two categories: character and setting. character research consists of me combing through dialogue, reading through their history multiple times, and figuring out what their core principles are. i want the character to still be consistent and recognizable even if they're being placed in scenarios they normally wouldn't be in canon. i'll also look at the creator's interviews where they share their thoughts on the character if there are any out there.

then there's setting research, which i consider equally important. when you're writing fanfiction (unless it's an AU, but even those tend to retain qualities from the canon universe), the world itself is a 'character' too imo. it has rules to follow and an establish history. getting things wrong can break the reader's immersion. getting things right though makes your story seem all the more grounded. i remember simply losing my mind when i was like, 13, because i read an attack on titan fanfic where the author had the characters using oil lamps as their light source. i went feral over the detail and thought it was the coolest thing ever.

paying extra attention to the time period and culture creates this very pleasing cohesive effect. i also think it's crucial to do extensive research if you're about to write for a culture you're not familiar with, otherwise a disconnect can form. i have East Coast American Brain™ and i try to stop it from oozing into my writing whenever possible. like no. no one in genshin impact is gonna say "the whole nine yards", stop it brain. >:(

😈 Has there been a point in a story where you did something just to be playfully mean to your readers?

honestly everything yandere i write is probably playfully mean HKGKMEGR although i do try to find a balance. i want the powerlessness that comes from yandere stories to be frustrating, yes, but like. sexily frustrating. is that a term? it is now. for example, the yan might be saying something condescending, but there's this underlying flirtatious nature to it that makes you feel frustrated yet flustered. even if the situation itself is hopeless, i let the MC retain some power through their ability to converse/make choices. the MC can also get into the yandere's head, play along, act purposefully aggravating, etc etc... this give and take is what i find the most interesting. so my goal is to be a little playfully mean, but like, in a way that makes you twirl your hair and giggle.

🤯 What's a genre you struggle with as a writer (ex. romance, action, etc.)?

ACTION!!! it's action. man. i can write a full story where two characters talk about a rock, but make me do an action scene and i'll crumble. i'm so bad at it. it looks so cool in my head, so dynamic, then i go to write it down and it's like. the dude goes to punch. you dodge. you kick. dude dodges. zzzzz. zzzzzz. how long do i make the sequence? what clever tricks should be used to gain an upper hand? i don't know. i have no clever tricks. i know i need to practice it to get better but it's physically painful for me. please let me make them talk about a rock instead. i'll do better at that.

🥺 is answered here !!

[maningrey0204]

for character ask meme, emiya alter ^^

(based on this post)

thank you, anon :D I hope I'm not too late to this ask meme thing in the FGO fandom, because I will happily gush about Emiya Alter to anyone who asks. that man needs more love.

favorite thing about them just one? all right. Emiya Alter's gone through so much-to the point where it clearly had lasting & damaging effects on him-the nihilism, abysmally poor memory, self-destructive tendencies, etc etc. he's symbolic of the "Hero of Justice" role to its furthest ends, a "weapon" meant to be of service whilst his own identity is pretty much an afterthought. but he also dives for Melt, giving her the second chance he never had. he guides Ritsuka out of his own hellish mindscape, and gives them a tow cable-a lifeline-for a Valentine's gift. he assists Voyager in saving Erice, and there's at least one or two lines where he can relate to her being an agent of death. there's hope for him yet, even though he's reached his own tragic ending. his ideas of "help" can be messed up, obviously, but he's going out of his way to try if nothing else. moreover, he needs some peace of mind after basically going through hell and back.

least favorite thing about them his original JPN design, obviously. the racism surrounding it has become indelible and synonymous with his character. obviously we don't know for sure, but it would not surprise me to learn that the reason he's received little attention in Craft Essence art is because of the controversy surrounding his character.

favorite line "Don't apologize. Good intentions are like sandpaper." I've probably analyzed this line to death, but I believe it summarizes Emiya Alter perfectly: a man whose own charity and constant vigilance for justice has eaten away at him. at the same time, he tries to disregard his own state of being as if it's no big deal; however, since he does not perceive himself as human anymore, the outcome is a lot more distressing than perhaps he might expect.

brOTP maybe Assassin Kiritsugu? I know, I know, Kiritsugu's basically a father to Emiya, but Assassin diverged from his own path in Fate/Zero so I'm sure it's fine here. my other brOTP idea is of him secretly thinking Hijikata's swordmanship is cool, even if he can't understand why Hijikata's so hellbent on upholding the Shinsengumi all the time. I can also see Alter putting up with Tamamo Berserker's outrageous behaviour towards him in a "I can't stand this, but she won't stop and it'd be a waste of energy" kind of way, and it developing into a strange but heartwarming bond later on.

OTP Emiya Alter x Yan Qing. I've only seen one (1) piece of content about it on pixiv, but they've got enough similarities (being Shinjuku villain Servants and having identity issues) and differences (Alter's serious and to the point, forging weapons-while Yan Qing is more flippant in a laid-back manner, using his fists & feet as weapons) that I'd love to write a fic shipping the two of them.

nOTP apparently a few people have shipped Alter with Kiara, of all people. I'm also personally not very fond of the Emiya Alter x Jalter pairing.

random headcanon Emiya prefers to eat alone, but he'll tolerate it if other Alters sit at his table. he wishes Nitocris Alter would stop talking about death so evocatively, as if it were a service she were performing upon other people; he sees death as an aid to his toolkit, and nothing more.

unpopular opinion I love his edgelord behaviour. it's incredibly comical how cynical he gets (his brooding over board games in BGA comes too mind), which is part of the reason. but there's something that just hits in how played straight his character usually is, and how genuine the depths of his despair go.

song i associate with them No title by Reol. a fitting song name for someone who's wholly embraced being Nameless. the chorus' lyrics particularly come to mind: Slowly and gently, it crumbles and breaks Wrap it slowly around my neck til I can't breathe And the me from yesterday was killed Slowly and gently, our scattered ennui When I hear you speak so unethically It turns to a voice I don't know

favorite picture of them he doesn't have a lot of FGO art, but I've always loved Emiya Alter's Formal Dress CE. it's sleek, sharp and overall just...so cool-looking. the pinstripe suit brings his self-ascribed mercenary role to a focal point; such suits are typically worn in professional settings, natch. then there's the smaller details, like the gears on his tie and how the tie bar on it has a Chaldean symbol. I also appreciate how his grey polo shirt is strained, emphasizing his muscles and torso.

[ae-diaries]

My First Call Center Experience

I stunned in disbelief when I heard this snarky comment from a schoolmate of mine saying "Grumaduate ng college tapos sa call center 'lang' pala nagtatrabaho!" How insensitive. Wagas maka 'lang' si ati..Do you have PHd to belittle call centers/agents? 

You may know their job title but not their story and the wondrous things they do. Take it from my experience.

BEFORE: 

My perceptions: Call center is a career dead end. More often than not, people 'might' be negatron, wordsmith, westernized, pa-sossy, you name it...(sorry for the terms)

NOW: I was wrong..

I discovered there's nothing wrong being a call center agent; it's a decent job that can be proud of and hindi basta trabaho 'lang'.

Also, call centers weren't the 'walang choice' bunch because it's a choice you make and you live with them..and in choosing to explore this kind of industry, I met the most brilliant yet humble, appreciative, very accommodating and talkative fellas na mas pasmado pa bunganga kesa sa customer on the other line! haha

I like it best because boss mentality wasn't tolerated, customers were valued, and employees were empowered. Anjan yung TLs na strict sa attendance pero ipaglalaban ka sa QA haha. Pupusuan mo talaga. 🤣

Here, I began to ACKNOWLEDGE and EMPHATIZE  not just the customers' concerns, but also, the typical hardships that my former colleagues went through in every call.

I could understand why frontline agents need to press the mute botton and spit out shit words, smoke during break time, drink with friends after shift, head on to expensive establishments, sing their hearts out in karaoke bars, go unli shopping, overuse their VL credits and get easily sick because the nature of their job is stressful/painstaking and so these are their tradeoffs for the crazy hours. They are emotional/social beings, not just human beings after all. Just so you know my observations/hugot on the floor be like: 

1. Agents are stress-absorbers. They bear insults and offensive words, receive complaints and deal with Irate and racist customers. Paligo kana sa profane words ikaw pa toh magsosorry kahit di mo kasalanan. (pasok labas nalang sa tenga day). Then, I experienced one time ung todo explain ka na kay customer tapos naka on pala yung mute botton mo! Gapang beshie. Back to zero ulit. O kaya naman may sasabhin ka pero dehins ka makasingit kasi sobrang kuda ni damuhong customer haha. Kasama sa trabaho yan. Buti na lng na-immune kana sa lamig ng aircon. Just stay cool and be professional.

2. Life isn't a bed of roses contrary to the normal perception. Agents are like zombies na papunta na sa conjuring joke! haha. They sacrifice their sleep and family time - mga bayaning puyat - tulog sa umaga gising sa gabi, which is, quite unhealthy. Yung pumipikit kana pero kelangan mo parin lumaban at lulusong sa baha just to get the attendance bonus.

3. Change is the only constant thing in BPO. It's such a fast-paced environment sobraaa..pali pali culture...yun bang parang tumatumbling lahat ng tao kasi mabilisan ang galawan. People come and go; sa isang iglap nagbago lahat; one day you're important to that person, the next day you're forgotten; nag day off ka lang tas pagpasok mo pinagpalit kana at sa ibang team ka na belong (saklap bes); it's hard to move on esp. when you've  become so attached with your teammates and so you need to Tailor Swift yourself!

4. It's a numbers game, process/performance driven, meeting targets, and hitting metrics. Any time pwede ka ma-escalate or get warnings so green stats lang dapat! Basta ako go with the flow lang and no pressures at all, hindi ko need magandang stats, ganda lang ang puhunan..charot haha

5. Felt like a walking robot. Always let's vault in sa floor. Parang ikaw ang 'itinakda' kasi naka-timer lahat ng gagawin mo at yung feeling na in a relationship kana with cisco/avaya lol. Pati bio break di mo alam san makakarating kasi patakbo pa haha. At times, lunok laway na lang pahinga mo tas yan na naman silaaaaa at pag nag-avail kahit one minute lang jusko happy na! At di pa nagtatapos jan, lagare pati multitasking mo kasi while listening kay nag-aalburutong customer on the phone, you must take down notes comprehensively. Bawal this and that (I'm not complaining though ginusto ko naman toh ma-experience diba haha). 

Commonly used jargons on the floor:  manage your calls, phonetics, manda OT, ASAT, wonder call, team reshuffle, team building (na mdalas mapostpone), post-shift huddle, critical working/wallet days, auto in pls, long hold, overbreak/lunch and yung akala mo avail un pala naka-ACW ka! Sabay flag sa name mo ni workforce (peymus eh haha). Go on outbound when needed and inbound when queueing even if 10 mins. to go end of shift mo na...tapos na-long call pa. Pashnea! Tuloy hanggang sa panaginip ng co-calls ka parin! haha

6. Broken promises often break the heart of customers, so you have to be truthful with your words always (to maintain your company's reputation as well). Give them an assurance because it takes seconds to lose someone's trust and a lifetime to gain it back. If you want to keep the person/customer, don't break her trust...so she won't look for another...uhm...service provider. 

Yes, the struggle is real. TBH, I experienced culture shock and a roller coaster of emotions because this is my first BPO company. It took me awhile to get the hang of it, but the strict compliance and rigorous trainings I acquired enabled me to analyze/explain bills even if I'm not an accountant, troubleshoot even if I'm not an IT, investigate issues though I'm not a detective, pacify customers who don't even care how I feel, increase awareness to fraud, earn masteral degree in empathy, objection handling, and ofcourse salestalk/salesmanship! 

These were the things I've never done before na di ko akalaing magagawa ko pala aside from teaching and singing! Talagang life-changing! Hindi pala biro haha..How did I survive? I just held on tight to my  faith and mantra since grad bay, "If you believe it, you can do it! You just have to know the rules of the game and be a BETTER player!

I owe you big time TT. 

I will never look at Call centers the same way I looked at it before - that's my assurance!

SALUTE to all call center agents out there, my former wavemates/teammates, TLs, OMs, Trainers & Acquiantances! 

Desired position: achieved!

Thank you Lord for allowing me to see life from the other side. 

#dakilangAhente

First day of training be like, "Ano ba tong pinasok ko?" 🤣😅

My very first team #TeamMinchin #Wave14

Our building is located near this place, so this became by #peyboritTambayanbeforeduty😅

After ma-long call pose 😅🤣🤣