#i know this is probably the most cringey thing in the entirety of kpop twitter but i wanted to share it

[yeslordmyking]

Happy 27th Birthday Jackson Wang

My Journey With Jackson Wang

For Jackson's birthday this year, I've decided to share why Jackson's birth is so important to me personally. I'll walk through the emotional journey that ensued once Jackson entered my life.

(Images and gifs are not mine)

Fun Beginnings

It all started when I decided to explore more kpop groups than just Bigbang. The last month of 2016, I discovered GOT7, the group that sang A and Hard Carry. I learned they were having a comeback very soon, so I studied up everything I could on them. The member that caught my eye was Jackson Wang.

Beneath the Surface

I won't pretend I had this amazing ability to go beyond what was shown to me. Not at first. I saw Jackson as the biggest goofball in the group. He was loud and fun and extra. Honestly I thought every GOT7 member was fun and crazy, but Jackson in particular stood out to me. Then, I found this moment.

When Jackson burst into tears and collapsed into his Mom and Dad's arms. As an empathetic cryer, I was obviously using my sleeves to dry my own eyes. That was when I realized there was more to Jackson than the compilation videos were showing. After studying up from some good Jackson fans, I learned he was a gentleman, he had a soft side, he likes compliments and attention from his members, he had olympic level athleticism. These were all nice things to learn, but things only got deeper from there.

Stanning in 2017

Flight Log: Arrival era. My first GOT7 comeback. Poor Jackson got sick for a little while. When he returned, I saw how everyone welcomed him back so warmly. I remember seeing GOT7 joined Monsta X backstage- who I was also im the process of stanning- while reacting to their performance at a music show and everyone just seemed so happy for him to be there. They all loved each other. Jackson got along with basically every idol. Jackson must be very loved.

As I continued to stan, I learned just how good of a person he was. Stories from his past showed that Jackson was the kind person to care for complete strangers as close friends. He cared for elderly women who felt lonely or neglected. He spent hours talking with someone who was too depressed to live another day. He stood up for fans that may be jostled by security, even if it was ultimately for his protection. He made sure the women in his workspace were comfortable and respected. He shook hands and made contact with every person involved in working alongside him. He thanked God for his success in his letters. To me, Jackson seemed to be nothing short of a complete angel. Who could deny it?

Then, Jackson announced his solo career. That was when I saw things how they really were. The amount of hate that I witnessed towards Jackson was crushing for me. So imagine how bad it was for him. Physically, mentally, I saw him hit a wall. People were telling him what kind of music he was and wasn't capable of. They spread lies about him. Then they wondered why he stopped smiling as much.

They only saw him as a comedian or a joke. I just couldn't believe someone I thought was so wonderful was so despised. He was human. He may make mistakes, but he made an effort to correct them. No matter what, he still had feelings. He wasn't a robot or a clown. He could get tired. He could hurt. This was when I decided that I was going to be a ride or die Jackson fan. Because someone so kind and talented didn't deserve anything but love and to be supported for his dreams. I wanted to give it to him.

The Jacky Life

There was a lot of ups and downs after this. Jackson started Team Wang. This is where I saw a new side of Jackson. The hardworking Jackson, in real time. He showed the world his work ethic as he began to work from the ground up to make Team Wang a strong label. Through every release and every appearance he made, he gave 1000% of his effort. To the point where fans were afraid he was going to push himself too hard. He went through endless performances, intense dance competitions, long variety show shoots while enduring exhaustion, anemia, back pain, mental illness all without a complaint or a sign of lessening his passion for his art. I was so concerned, often breaking into tears over my worry. I didn't know what to do to let him know we were proud of him, we supported him, it was ok to rest. But I understood his mindset. He wanted to be taken seriously. He wanted people to see what he was capable of. He wanted the world to see him as Jackys already did. Then one day, it clicked for him. He stopped focusing on what negativity came his way. He learned and grew from it, and focused on improving himself. It was an amazing journey to witness.

It Gets Personal

Jackson continued to blast off as a solo artist, and participate in GOT7, all of which gained immense success. But then it was my turn to hit a wall. In my own life, I'd had doors slammed in my face over and over again, wearing me down more and more. I couldn't move forward. It seemed I wasn't meant to achieve my dreams. I started to kill my own dreams and believe they weren't meant to be pursued. My self worth and hope plummeted. Then Jackson's brand began to grow. "Know Yourself. Make Your Own History." He began to give more and more insight on how he left behind a secure future of olympic fencing to pursue his dreams. He talked about taking risks, learning from failure, not having regrets and at least trying to make your dreams come true. And these weren't just empty words for Jackson. He was living proof. I actually witnessed him rise like a phoenix from the ashes as he began to manage his health better, released his first album Mirrors, launch his own fashion brand, all while remaining his remarkably humble self. Other artists from all over the world flocked to be participants in his career. In his music, he expressed what his fans' support meant to him, and in his interviews he gives Jackys so much credit for getting him where he is now. It felt unreal to be acknowledged by someone I admired so much, and to hear someone who seems so out-of-my-league successful and talented encourage me to do the same. To say it so much that I truly believe he wants us to reach all of our dreams.

Team Wang For Life

For me, being a fan of Jackson Wang is beyond just liking his music. It's a source of love and motivation that I often have trouble giving myself. I see Jackson Wang as a blessing and a guide for me to help me take steps in my life I would've been afraid to were it not for Jackson's words and actions. So I'm extremely grateful for his existence on this earth and his decision to be a goodhearted and determined human being. His birthday is a day that I go back and think about everything he is and appreciate it.

Happy birthday Jackson Wang. Your journey so far has helped me in so many ways, and I will support you in whatever way I can. Thank you for making your presence on this earth so impactful. To me, you truly are a king, that I will continue to love through the ups and downs of this world. You're never alone.

~♡Sincerely, Your Princess♡~

[heoneyology]

i'll let you pop off. what's your favourite thing about one of the best rappers in the kpop scene, our dear carrot man, your second husband and the aegyo king lee jooheon?

oh my god aklfjdksfj okay this is going under a cut I apologize in advance for how long this might be and if anyone reads this well props to you because I’m about to ramble and it’s 3am and I’ll probably forget a lot of things? but if you’re giving me permission to go off… then…

I am going to only ever say this once and @hongjoong-kim don’t come at me alkjdfljk okAY AFTER THIS I’M NEVER SAYING IT AGAIN: yes I am whipped for lee jooheon.

okay anyway read under the cut for why I love jooheon and my favorite things because there’s not just one!!! :’))

okay first and foremost: obviously I love his smile, his overall eye smile, and his dimples. like his dimples are my favorite thing? but honestly the entirety of his smile, which brings out the dimples. the way his facial expression melts and softens and his eyes squint closed… and the way that sometimes when he smiles he slightly parts his mouth?? he’s the cutest and it really just… I can be in the absolute worst mood and if I see jooheon’s smile my day is just a little bit better. he really has the sweetest demeanor and and the softest, happiest, bubbliest smile.

I love those doe eyes that captured my heart and literally continue to capture my heart every day and make me super soft for him. I love his natural eyes but the lens he’s been wearing lately that are a lighter brown are so good on him!! I love how… his eyes sparkle… they literally hold the stars of the sky in them?? they’re always so sparkly and glimmering and they are just so pretty ughgugh staring into them makes my heart beat really fast but also I could stare into them forever although I’d probably get super nervous aksdsjlfdjk and break eye contact with him!!? he has such a soft but intense gaze. also I really love??? that thing he does with his eyes? where he suddenly WIDENS THEM OUTTA NOWHERE like sometimes it’s not even out of surprise, he just… blinks and widens his eyes and it’s adorable and literally gives me a heart attack every time and catches me off guard like don’t do that stop it hurts my heart but also makes me love him more. I think in an interview minhyuk said it’s a nervous habit of his which makes it more… adorable…

HE CAN SING!! oh my god his voice when he sings I just… I don’t know I lose all train of thought and am completely enamored? like he’s serenading me tbh… although half the time I first will have a heart attack!!! like when I first heard play it cool I literally gasped and paused the song and almost started crying. pun not intended, but his singing voice is like honey, it’s so silky and smooth and soft and sweet and feels like home…

also his rapping? this one is obvious because he’s half of the rapline!! but he’s so talented. I love his how rapidly he can freaking dkaljfsdjf like hOW my tongue can barely even coherently work over one word without stuttering or getting tongue tied? but also omg his flow in all their songs… and his mixtape… he just has a flow that’s… I don’t know how to describe it. it’s smooth and powerful despite his voice being higher pitched for a rapper? he has a commanding presence when he raps and he’s really one of the best idol rappers out there. he’s so passionate and emotional and it’s what adds to the powerful presence he has when he’s rapping.

aegyo king… and how adorable he is… I just love him okay he’s super cute his personality is super cute and his aegyo is sometimes cringey but honestly it makes me squeal and it makes me embarrassed at the same time, but it always makes me happy. another moment of, I can be in the absolute worst mood, and if I see his aegyo? I feel so much more better. it’s funny, cringey, kind of cute. and his overall adorable personality and demeanor… he doesn’t even try and he’s just cute!! he said he gave up aegyo and graduated from it but he’s… literally a walking aegyo bomb. his little pout he does? cute. his heart shaped lips? cuteeeee. when he’s eating and he literally just goes monch monch monch? cute! his pouty, clingy personality and the way he acts with fans and interacts with them? CUTE.

his talent and passion and god he just loves what he does so much. he’s 9th most copyrighted IDOL in korea???? he has 97 songs copyrighted to his name! he’s co-written 77 songs, written 17 songs, co-composed 18 songs, and co-arranged 8 songs and some of these songs aren’t even for monsta x they’re for other idols and some groups. he’s so talented and dedicated to what he does and just akljdfsdf he’s really out here being an idol, a rapper, and a producer?? and he’s killing it and I love him for it and I feel so much pride for him. he works so hard and I worry about him getting rest but I know he’s loving what he’s doing :((

idk if anything above pointed it out but like… he’s attractive. his duality? fucks me up every time. he can go from cute to rude in such a short amount of time. it’s part of his stage presence and his powerful charisma and it all falls under my love for his eyes and his dimples and his pouty lips and just alkjdfsdjf he’s. really. attractive. when I first got into monsta x I immediately, despite thinking two other members were going to be my bias, thought he was really pleasing to the eyes and attractive? he has a nice figure, the way he walks akdsljflsjdkf (there’s a video on twitter circulating right now and just,w ow, come punch me in the face jooheon??), his thighs are also wOW, he has nice hands, the veins on his arms are a big giant oof, and he’s been working out recently in the last year so he like is losing some of his cute chubbiness although it’s still there and his biceps are aHHHH now those never used to be… a thing… and just wow I’m physically very attracted to him? like I immediately look at him and I just think, wow, he’s stunning… but he’s got so much charm too? he smiles and my heart melts and I’m weak for dimples too alkjdfksjf just looking at him honestly fills me with such warmth.

but I’m also mentally?? attracted to him???? I love his work ethic and how talented and dedicated he is. but I love his overall personality. he’s lee jooheon and he’s hilarious and relatable and like I said just… looking at him? thinking of him??? fills me with such warmth. I joke about it a lot like “it’s a libra thing” but jooheon is literally so relatable and I see so many of my own personality traits in him at times. he loves food and he’s so in love with dumplings. he’s loud, excitable, extra af, clingy, pouty, a scaredy cat, cute, charismatic, a workaholic, the way he laughs with his entire body and sometimes it comes out silent like he’s not laughing at all aksjdlfjsd, how sweet and thoughtful he is, his love for animals (he has two cats and a dog), that libra face he makes when he gets angry and looks like he’s about to kill someone, the way he loves and supports and hypes up all his members!!! he loves receiving attention but he’s also so good at giving compliments and is so humble and sweet and just adkljfsdfj I feel like I’m missing so much more?

okay I really feel like I’m missing more but I’m going to shut up now because this is all I can think of at the moment… it’s now 4am…