#i mean bruce is also worlds most perceptive to emotions so idk how much of a secret it is

[jazzypizzaz]

endgame spoilers

overall I liked it!  it was a fun event and (mostly) a fitting, definitive end to the original phase of Avengers.  it’s one of those finales that plays enough fanservice and callbacks to be satisfying, but also does everything it needs to do to tie up narrative arcs with some twists along the way.  like, it’s not a movie I’d rewatch a bunch, but I’m glad it played out how it did for the most part

with the exception of NATASHA!!!  listen, literally any of the characters would do the heroic self-sacrifice to save everyone, and the narrative could justify it as a fitting end for their arc. whatever it takes and all that... but Natasha, unlike Tony -- had only the Avengers as her family and nothing else to live for apparently, had red in her ledger and did it to repay a debt, couldn’t have kids (*deep sigh*) and decided that made Clint’s life more worthwhile....... and you know what FUCK all of that.  no fucking way does any of that mean that she’s better off dead and none of those are good enough reasons for her end. what the FUCK

that said, (and yes I’m immediately contradicting myself) the only things I really wanted from this movie was a satisfying reason for Tony and Steve to never reappear in future movies (and you know that retiring happily into the sunset while still relatively young could never secure that) -- preferably with Tony to be the one to make the self-sacrifice hero play and for Steve to have a happy quiet life somehow.

idk it’s a superhero movie.  someone’s gotta do the big climatic hero move, and the entire arc has been building for Tony to do that.  and it wasn’t a cool-headed either/or choice, it wasn’t deliberately walking into death -- it was a split second decision in the heat of battle.  maybe that makes it different.  also, the greater narrative weight put on it

also maybe, as much as he’s a great character, I’m just tired of him. (oops)

& Steve, sure he could live a happy life rebuilding the world and chilling with his buds, but like... since the ice he’s always been a man out of time yearning for what could have been in his past (while always meeting the challenges of the day of course), he’s always felt misplaced and alone, and... I don’t begrudge him choosing to live a happy life and get that dance he promised Peggy.  

maybe it’s that tony deserves to be immemorialized as the ultimate hero that he is; & steve deserves some goddamn rest??

that said what the FUCKING FUCK is up with the time travel mechanics???

cuz you know that Steve “never followed a rule in his goddamn life if it didn’t suit him” Rogers wouldn’t live in obscurity not changing the timeline through: Hydra’s infiltration, Bucky’s brainwashing, more wars, the civil rights movement, every single social event in history, etc etc etc.  so like?? okay maybe changing the past makes it into a different timeline but then how did he wait for them on the bench as if his timeline connected to theirs ???

did ANY of their actions change the past of the current timeline??  like I think the answer is no it’s impossible, but then how do you explain Steve???

also who thought letting Steve be the one to return the stones was a good idea.  who gave Steve unbridled access to the past and thought he wouldn’t just fucking live there.  Bucky knew he would, I’m sure of it.  Natasha would have known (*shakes fist*).  Sam seems like he should have, I mean seriously??  it’s on Steve’s character sheet; he doesn’t do well with moving on.

HELL YEAH to captain america bird man Sam though. fuck yeah I’m here for it

okay other characters...

Ant Man was a breath of fresh air in the first part.  the perfect character to reappear into this dark timeline, give new hope, and react to all the weird space shit (I DIED at the taco scene, probably when I laughed the most).  I didn’t think I cared about him, but I was really touched by the Cassie scenes.

my favorite Rocket moment was him petting Paul Rudd’s head like a puppy.  yes please.  also, snapping some sense into Thor.  he had a bit part as expected, but it was good.

Hawkeye... stop trying to make Hawkeye happen. I just.... don’t care. and I could not stop sniggering at his hair long enough to feel sad about anything.

yes all the treatment of Thor’s weight gain and alcoholism was fucked up, played for cheap laughs, not all that funny.  but also like -- they’re clearly shown as manifestations of his corrosive guilt and trauma and self-harm, and by the end, he becomes the brave hero again without any sort of getting-into-shape losing weight montage scene.  it’s his perception of himself not his physicality. plus like, he’s the Goofy Avenger tbh and idk if there was a serious way to show him at a lower emotional low point than Infinity War without getting too dark for his brand(tm).  low standards on my part maybe? but whatever, he didn’t die.

Valkyrie HELL YEAH... I was so giddy about her flying around on the Pegasus.  where did she even get it???  I don’t care it was amazing.  all hail Valkyrie, King of Asgard.

actually??? wait. fuck that. Thor needs to accept responsibility and live up to being king of his people.  Valkyrie needs to go on kooky space adventures and find herself.  seriously!!

good for Bruce on the hulk integration thing, but I missed watching Mark Ruffalo’s human non-CGI face

Nebula, baby girl, you’ve come so far ;_; sorry you didn’t get put on airplane mode for the time travel, whooops.

the 100% best part of the movie for me, the only point at which I got chills, was (of course) Sam chiming in over Cap’s earpiece on your left and flying out of the wizard hole in a glowing swoop of glory. beautiful majestic bird man.

(and then the armies piling through after & Wakanda. yes.)

Wanda reappeared and I admit I totally forgot about her until that point.  and then I realized I also totally forgot about Vision until the end when she was talking to Hawkeye by the river jklsdfjkl. okay then

Carol just decided that she likes space more than Earth I guess? sure whatever.  great haircut though

also... New Asgard is in Norway, presumably, but it’s a sovereign kingdom???  what did they do when the Norwegian government stopped by??  paid for the land and said “look we’ve been through a lot so just let us fish and drink beer in peace. also, we’re the people from your myths and have inhuman stamina/strength/science so what, feasibly, are you gonna do about it anyway” I just want to see that conversation.

oh another thing. I wanted some resolution or cathartic followup to the themes in Infinity War -- killing the one to save many, trading lives, etc. which. this really didn’t do at all.  there wasn’t a consistent theme in the same way? idk I’ll have to think about it more, but for that reason alone IW is a much better movie imo

really excited about (As)guardians of the Galaxy, vol 3, Search for Gamora.  Rocket is going to be unbearable in the best way.

[books-are-my-escape]

Get to know Sam;

AC/DC - What are your favorite bands? Rascal Flatts, Fifth Harmony, Little Mix, Five Seconds of Summer, The Eagles

Aerosmith - What are your favorite songs? Heavy - Delta Goodrem Hole in the World - Eagles Why - Rascal Flatts Broken Home - 5SOS I Believe I Can Fly - R Kelly

Aretha Franklin - Do you have a favorite jazz song? No, I don’t think so? 

Alice Cooper - What is your favorite type of music? Country!

Beach Boys - Have you ever been in a concert? Yes I have been to quite a few!

Black Sabbath - A song that motivates you? Enough - Delta Goodrem

Bob Dylan - Do you know how to play any musical instrument? I sort of played keyboard  but not that well 

Bon Jovi - Your favorite song about love? Terrified - Katharine McPhee

The Beatles - Latest song that made you smile? Million Reasons - Lady Gaga

David Bowie - A song that makes you feel happy? Take Me or Leave Me - RENT

Eric Clapton - Have you ever been in love with a rock artist? No 

Creedence Clearwater Revival - What is your favorite instrument? Piano

Deep Purple - Do you prefer bassists or drummers? Either or, not fussed

The Doors - What is your favorite lyric? And they tell me "girl you're so lucky" "You've got the world in your hands" But you know the world gets so heavy You don't understand And that's heavy

Fleetwood Mac - Female or Male vocalists? Both!

The Grateful Dead - What song are you listening right now? None but I have Million Reasons in my head

Guns n’ Roses - What song describes your emotions right now? Heavy - Delta Goodrem

Heart - Do you know a song that you want at your wedding? Marry your Daughter - Barry McKnight?

Iron Maiden - Do you frequently listen to your songs on shuffle? Yes, always

Jimi Hendrix - A song that represents “your aesthetic” Um, I have no idea

Joan Jett - Who do you think when you listen to your favorite love song? Depends on the song

Janis Joplin - What is your favorite 70s song? Hotel California - Eagles

Journey - Do you have any famous crushes? Delta Goodrem

The Kinks - What is the last single you downloaded? Piece by piece - Kelly Clarkson

Kiss - What is the perfect song to describe your relationship with your boyfriend/girlfriend/crush? Don’t have a crush!

Led Zeppelin - Do you like loud guitar solos? Yes

Lynyrd Skynyrd - Do you like instrumental songs? Sort of

Metallica - A song that you think everybody should listen to? Why - Rascal Flatts

Nirvana - A song that breaks your heart? Just one? Angel - Amanda Perez

Pink Floyd - Name your top three songs in any language. I Believe I Can Fly - R Kelly Heavy - Delta Goodrem Songbird - Fleetwood Mac

Pearl Jam - A song to drive to? 80s Mercedes - Marina Morris

Queen - A song to dance to? Squeeze - Fifth Harmony

Bruce Springsteen - A song that you would sing in a karaoke? Don’t stop believing - Journey

The Rolling Stones - Your favorite album? Delta

U2 - A artist/band you’re proud of? Camila Cabello!

Dusty Springfield - Do you have a favorite soul song? Tears of a clown smokey robinson?

The Supremes - Your favorite girlband? Fifth Harmony

Simon and Garfunkel - Your favorite acoustic song? Four five seconds!

Derek & The Dominos - Do you prefer a cover more than the original song? Sometimes, if its slowed down enough

The Mamas and The Papas - What’s the song that have a harmony so good that makes you want to punch something? anything that Rascal Flatts sings

The Temptations - A song that you liked when you were younger? Genie in a bottle - Christina Aguilera

Cream - A song that you associate with summer? Summer of 69!

The Band - A song that you never get tired of? Don’t Let Go - En Vogue Steve Miller Band - A song that need to be played out loud? How do you get that lonely? - Blaine Larson

Sonny & Cher - A song by an artist with a voice that you love? Bad things - Camila Cabello

Wings - A song that makes you remind of yourself? Write on Me - Fifth Harmony

the adventures of huckleberry finn: do you think kids or their parents are responsible for their beliefs? I think kids are responsible for their beliefs, but parents shape them or at least they try to.

the alchemist: what are your current plans for the future? will you be upset if they don't work out? I want to get a job but I also want to study so i have no idea what i want alice's adventures in wonderland: how do you react to absurd situations? Hmmm I keep my thoughts to myself, depending on situation I’d probably laugh. and then there were none: do you think murderers deserve to die? Yes. artemis fowl: how much do you depend on technology? More than I should beowulf: is it always worthwhile to hear both sides of an argument? Yes, definitely. the canterbury tales: if someone is hypocritical, do you point it out? No, not fond of confrontation cat's cradle: do you think it's better to believe a lie than to live with an unpleasant truth? Not always, I suppose it depends on the truth charlotte's web: what's your favorite art form? Music?  coraline: if you could change your family, what would you change? their lack of self belief the crucible: how heavily do you depend on others when forming opinions?Quite a bit unfortunately, I prefer to know facts and other opinions before making my own, sometimes I can’t always understand facts without having someones opinion explain them?  fahrenheit 451: do you think there's any knowledge that should be kept secret? No, not that I can think of. the fault in our stars: if you could have one conversation before you died, who would you talk to and what would you say? Either my parents or my best friend, just express my love and thoughts and requests. flowers for algernon: how much potential do you think you have? Not a lot 

frankenstein: is it wise for humans to attempt to create life? If thats what they want to do. the giver: talk about a favorite memory I don’t have one. the great gatsby: what would you sacrifice for money? I would work for money harry potter: if you could bring someone back from the dead, would you? if so, who would it be? I wish I could bring back Ana or Diane, so Dianes kids had their mother back, but I dont think Ana would want to come back the hitchhiker's guide to the galaxy: what do you think is the meaning of life? To live the hobbit: do you think the average person has the potential to be a hero? Possibly, just may not be the hero everyone wants or thinks they want holes: if someone poor stole from someone rich, who would you sympathize with? Probably the poor howl's moving castle: how quickly do you form opinions about other people? Not too quickly, sometimes I can jump the gun if someone is rude/obnoxious first time I meet them the hunger games: would you kill someone if they planned to kill you? No identical: how clear is your perception of reality? I don’t know, honestly the importance of being earnest: are you flattered or annoyed by gentlemanly behavior? I am not too fond of it inferno: do you think you belong in hell? why or why not? Don’t think i belong in heaven 

jonathan livingston seagull: is perfection a good goal? No, definitely not the joy luck club: describe your family Quiet, reserved jurassic park: do you think it's wrong to use animals as attractions and accessories? Yes the kite runner: if you could, what social issue would you spread awareness about? Homophobia, or abuse les misérables: do you think people should revolt if the government is corrupt? I do, but safely if possible life of pi: if you were stranded, would you be able to take care of yourself? No hahah the lightning thief: what would you be the god/goddess of? Um, goddess of care the lion, the witch, and the wardrobe: if you could start a new life in a new world, would you? Yes lord of the flies: what motivates you best? Friends lord of the rings: is it important to work for the greater good of the world? Not necessarily   of mice and men: would you kill your closest friend to save them from a worse fate? I don’t think I could the perks of being a wallflower: does listening to other people's problems help you or weigh you down? Helps them the phantom of the opera: how much do you judge others on physical appearance? Not much pride and prejudice: are you romantic? With friends I am haha the princess bride: what's your best feature? Hair a raisin in the sun: what is your most important possession? Um, I dont know, books? romeo and juliet: have you ever done anything ridiculous for love? what? Nope  stargirl: do you value uniqueness? I do indeed! the taming of the shrew: would you be willing to be in a relationship with someone who is very dominant? Maybe the tell-tale heart: is there anything you feel guilty about right now? what? I feel guilty about not having a job and not being able to pay mum any rent to kill a mockingbird: do you believe something has value simply because it's beautiful? Yes, but the beauty itself can be valuable twilight: how consistent are your feelings about people close to you? Not very consistent, they change a lot  watership down: do you think your right to life is any greater than an animal's? Not at all, an animals life is the same if not more the westing game: if you died now, what would you want to happen to your possessions? I would give my harry potter books to Karly, Leighton and Lucas, soft toys to leighton, and idk everything else be sold and money to b given to my parents and my godson and nephew! 1) What images do you have set for your desktop/cell phone wallpapers? Desktop; mix of photos of friends and family, cell phone: Ana and Leighton 2) Have you ever had a crush on a teacher? Yes I have :L 3) What was your last text message? Um “Okay!” to Louise  4) What do you see yourself doing in 10 years? Hopefully owning a bookshop 5) If you could be anywhere else right now, where would you be? In bed sleeping 6) What was your coolest Halloween costume? Harry Potter! 7) What was your favorite 90s show? Thats so Raven or Lizzie McGuire 8) Who was your last kiss? Um, Bernie? 9) Have you ever been stood up? No 10) Favorite ice cream flavor? Chocolate 11) Have you been to Las Vegas? Nope 12) Your favorite pair of shoes? My runners 13) Honestly, have you ever cheated on your significant other? No 14) What is your favorite fruit? Pears! 15) Have you talked to anyone on tumblr that you could see yourself dating/having sex with? If possible? Not really 16) Are you into hookups? Short or long term relationships? Hook ups 17) Do you smoke? If so, what? Yes, cigarettes 18) What do you do to get over your anger? Cry 19) Do you believe in God? No 20) Does the person you're in love with know it? Not in love 21) Favorite position? None 22) What's your horoscope sign? Virgo 23) Your fears? Spiders, the dark, heights, water, not having control 24) How many pets do you have? What kind? One, dog! 25) What never fails to turn you on? Neck kisses 26) Your idea of a perfect first date? Harry Potter marathon in bed! 27) What is something most people don't know about you? I was physically bullied in high school by a boy my age and my teachers asked me if i thought he was flirting.. 28) What makes you feel the happiest? Reading and listening to music! 29) What store do you shop at most often? Whitcoulls 30) How do you feel about oral? Giving and/or receiving? I don’t mind giving because of the response I get  31) Do you believe in karma? Sort of 32) Are you single? Yes 33) Do you think flowers or candy are a better way to apologize? No, words are 34) Are you a good swimmer? I used to be 35) Coffee or Tea? Neither! 36) Online shopping or shopping in person? Online! 37) Would you rather be older or younger than your current age? Older 38) Cats or Dogs? Doggys 39) Are you a competitive person? No 40) Do you believe in aliens? No 41) Do you like dancing? Its fun when drunk haha 42) What kind of music do you listen to? Many kinds! 43) What is your favorite cartoon character? I don’t think I have one 44) Where are you from? New Zealand 45) Eat at home or eat out? Home 46) How much more social are you when you're drunk? Depends what stage of drunk, but usually a lot more social 47) What was the last thing you bought for yourself? Books 48) Why do you think your followers follow you? I am not sure, but I value them for doing so! 49) How many hours do you sleep at night? My average seems to be 4  50) What worries you most about the future? Losing people 51) If you had a friend that spoke to you the same way you speak to yourself, how long would you be friends? Not very long 52) Are you happy with yourself? Happier than I used to be but not completely. 53) What do you wish you didn't know? How cruel the world can be 54) What big lesson could people learn from your life? Acceptance 55) If you could live in any home on a television series, what would it be? Arias from PLL 56) What's your favorite Website? tUMBLR AND NETFLIX 57) What's the habit you're proudest of breaking? Self harm and binge drinking 58) What was your most recent trip of more than 50 miles? Um Oamaru 59) What's the best bargain you've ever found at a garage sale or thrift store? It wasn’t me that found it but my mum found a Harry Potter lamp shade for $2 60) What do you order when you eat Chinese food? Crystal chicken on rice 61) If you had to be named after one of the 50 states, which would it be? No idea 62) If you had to teach a subject to a class, what would it be? English 63) Favorite kind of chips? Salt and Vinegar 64) Favorite kind of sandwich? Ham Lettuce tomato 65) Which do you use more often, the dictionary or the thesaurus? Dictionary 66) Have you ever been stung by a bee? Yes lots of times when I was younger 67) What's your favorite form of exercise? Walking! 68) Are you afraid of heights? Yes 69) What's the most memorable class you've ever taken? Classics 70) What's your favorite breakfast? Don’t like breakfast 71) Do you like guacamole? No 72) Have you ever been in a physical fight? No 73) What/who are you thinking about right now? Karly 74) Do you like cuddling? Mer no 75) Are you holding onto something you need to let go of? Yes 76) Have you ever experienced one of your biggest fears? No 77) Favorite city you've been to? Christchurch  78) Would you break the law to save a family member? Yes 79) Talk about an embarrassing moment? Somehow in class when I was having a private conversations the class would stop talking when I was saying something embarrassing 80) Are there any causes you strongly believe in? Yes  81) What's the worst injury you've ever had? My neck seems to be the worst 82) Favorite day of the week? Friday 83) Do you consider yourself sexually open minded? Yes 84) How do you feel about porn? If it turns you on then fine  85) Which living celebrity would you like to know? Delta Goodrem 86) Who was your hottest ex? Male or female? haha probably Brittney 87) Do you want/have kids? No 88) Has anyone ever told you that they wanted to marry you? Yes but my best friend 89) Do you get easily distracted? Sometimes 90) Ass or titties? Titties 91) What is your favorite word? Weird 92) How do you feel about tattoos? I love them 93) Do you have any pets? Doggy 94) How tall are you? Uhm 5″6 95) How old are you? 23 96) 3 physical features you get complimented on a lot? Hair, smile and eyes 97) Is there anything you're really passionate about? Acceptance 98) Do you have trust issues? Oh yes 99) Do you believe in love at first sight? No, lust 100) What are some words that you live by? Why? Happiness can be found even in the darkest of times, if one only remembers to turn on the light