#i miss going hiking 😕

[emmyrosee]

EMMY MY DEAREST MY BABY MY BELOVED <333

could I be a bit greedy and make another teeny tiny request?? you don’t have to feel obligated to do it AT ALL if you don’t want to!!! I’ve just been having an interesting time lately and you do comfort so well ☹️

genuinely all I’ve wanted all week is to be babied a bit/taken care of/pampered/absolutely smothered with soft gentle affection by atsumu when he starts to notice I’m getting overwhelmed or burnt out :(

I think he’d be good at catching it before it gets too out of control and keeping me sane. he wouldn’t let me lift a finger and he’d be so over the top with his physical affection cuz he knows I love that 😕

I feel so bad bc I feel like I’ve been bugging you a lot lately so pls pls pls don’t feel like you have to!!! I completely understand, there’s no pressure 🫶🏻🫶🏻

anon <3

YOU HAVENT BUGGED ME IN LIKE. FOUR MONTHS HUSH YOUR CUTE FACE- EVEN IF YOU DID SEND ME ANYTHING RECENTLY, YOURE NOT A BOTHER AND I LOVE YOU 😠❤️

he catches it pretty much immediately, with how you were clinging to him a little bit more than usual last night, brows seemingly forever pinched in the middle of your head and your fingers fisting the collar of his night shirt. he didn't say anything, but he definitely makes a note to keep an eye on it.

especially when, the next morning, you turn to your side to let him get ready for practice, and you hike the blankets higher and screw your eyes shut to try and tune him out.

he sees this, and crawls his body back into bed, mind now only focusing on taking care of you before you drown.

"peepee-poopoo," he whispers, hanging his head upside down to look at you, his blonde hair hanging shaggily. "where's my fighty baby this morning, hmm?"

you shrug and avoid his eyes, and pulls his head back to take this more seriously, "c'mere. come talk to me."

"you have to go-"

"i don't have to do a thing," he assures. he's quick to take out his phone and text coach that he's not going to make it, but he doesn't tell you that because the last thing you need is worrying about him missing a day to care for you.

which is one of his favorite things to do- but you fight him on it constantly. and he hopes today you're compliant enough to let him be here for you.

"do you want to talk about it?" he asks, gently rubbing his knuckles over your shoulder, and when you shake your head, he leans over your body again to kiss your cheek. "okay," he whispers, lingering for a minute before pulling back to head to the kitchen to make you breakfast.

breakfast, that was supposed to be in bed, but you worked up the courage to wade into the kitchen not long after him. "hey-" you begin, but you're cut off by the yelp from his lips and the dropping of an egg square to the floor, which you both look at blankly.

he starts to snicker, "whups."

"sorry."

he clicks his tongue, "shut up- come get a kiss," he says, stepping over the egg and pulling you into a hug, and his shoulders relax when you loosen in his arms. he sponges kisses to the crown of your head, "don't ever be sorry for something i did. it wasnt your fault."

you immediately tense back up, and atsumu knows his hit the nail on the head with it, and you burrow your face deeper into his chest and he tightens his grip on you to keep you grounded. "go back to bed," he soothes. "im with you today-"

"i dont want to be so far from you," you say, and he smiles as you dont put up an argument, dont scold him for staying, but his heart sinks slightly at the idea that youre so in your head all you can think about is him right now. "not today. can i stay?"

"id be bummed if you didn't," he says. he smirks and scoops you in his massive arms, relishing in the giggles you let you as he carries you and sets you on the counter, where he then feeds you slices of fruit while your eggs sear on the oven. he feeds you breakfast bite for bite, placing a straw in some water for you to drink before carrying you to the bathroom, where he tells you to brush your teeth.

you get shy, "can... do you think... maybe-"

"yeah," he smiles. "open up, babe."

he brushes your teeth, sure to get all the areas the dentist warns him about, before pulling back with a happy sigh and holding out his hand.

you quirk a brow, "what?"

"spit it into my hand."

"ew!" you laugh, and god it truly is his favorite sound, and you turn your head to spit the froth in the sink. "youre nasty."

"and you picked me first. too late to question your choice."

"yet i do every day."

"little fucker," he snickers, and when he makes a move to tickle you, you dart away, laughter ringing in the air as he barrels down after you, down the hall and into the bedroom, where he tackles you onto the bed. "i made you breakfast and this is the thanks i get?" he sighs, playfully punching your tummy, successfully dodging your hands to try and still his barely touching fists.

"l-learn from osamu," you manage, and his jaw slacks at your audacity while you giggle more in anticipation.

"you're annoying," he snorts, leaning down to nibble your ear and neck while his fingers spider up your sides, you shriek and shove his shoulders weakly. he stops and kisses the rest of the giggles from your lips, and he hums when you wrap your arms around his neck. when he pulls away, you mewl and tug him closer. he shushes you easily, "not going anywhere babydoll, i promise."

and he doesn't. he doesn't go anywhere, merely rolling you both onto your sides where he cradles you close, cupping the back of your head protectively as you burrow into him.

every now and then, he feels your shoulders tense up and quiver, as if you're fighting tears, but he doesn't make you say anything. not until you're ready to.

and when you are, he's there, his thumb gently stroking the back of your head while your tears soak into his shirt. he shushes you softly when your cries turn to sobs, or your breathing picks up too much for his comfort.

he reminds you he's not going anywhere, ever, he's got your back no matter what, and if it takes one day or fifteen, he's more than happy to stay in that bed, brush your teeth, feed you food, anything to keep you from drowning in your own anxieties and thoughts.

"thank you for telling me," he whispers every now and again. "im so proud of you."

"im so tired, atsumu... i don't know what to do anymore."

he screws his eyes shut as your voice cracks, "you're doing great, angel. keep doing what you're doing, because its your best, and its more than enough. and i'm sorry the world hasn't let you think it has been.

"you're more than enough. please keep going for me, okay?"

"okay..."

"I love you."

"I love you too atsu..."

[avventurasblog]

St Jean Pied de Port to Roncesvalles (24 kms) started with a heavy fog hanging over the town and it did concern me that I might finish up lost but it’s hard to miss the Pyrenees. Photo 2 is the view from up the mountain back into St Jean, you can still see the fog, it’s a beautiful view from up there. Some of the hiking today was through lovely cool forrest lined with tree ferns and some with these curious trees all heading down the hill and changing their mind, the mountains were filled with sheep, horses, cows and these little porky visitors who had no idea that they were going to become Serrano Ham. 😕

[illucca]

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The meaning behind my url:Isn't really anything definitive A picture of me:I'm on mobile...go into myface tagHow many tattoos i have and what they are:0 😭Last time i cried and why:Yesterday, I stubbed my toe and i missed my bf and my glutes, quads and hammies were killing me.I was very emotionally susceptible to say the leastPiercings i have:Just ears 😕Favorite band:Right now...not sureI have been listening to a lot of 6LACKBiggest turn offs:cockinessdisrespectentitlementnegativityRyan CostanrudenessdishonestyTop 5 (insert subject):You didn't insert a subject, babe.Tattoos i want:Roman numerals either on the back of my neck or underneath my boob. Roses on my shoulder extending downWriting underneath my boob in Latin or Italian.Biggest turn ons:respectgoing to the gym with meinterest ZacpositivityengagementhonestyAge:19Ideas of a perfect date:Nap with ZacGym BURGERS (dude 😍)BookstoreHikeLife goal:Get strong as hell, physically and emotionally.Be able to Squat my sister. Piercings i want:Nose Relationship status:TakenFavorite movie:I'm really shit at picking favorites...GremlinsFridaBasquiat ....I know I'm forgetting something A fact about my life:I go to the gym 5-6 days a week.Phobia:DrowningMiddle name:SofiaHeight:5'5Are you a virgin?NoWhat’s your shoe size?US W8What’s your sexual orientation?BiDo you smoke, drink, or take any drugs?Occasionally Someone you miss:Zac What’s one thing you regret?Fuck, only one?Giving so many people so many undeserved chances.First celebrity you think of when someone says attractive:Margo RobbieFavorite ice cream?Coffee orSafeway Brand Butterfinger Ice CreamOne insecurity:My squat.What my last text message says:"Nicole can u empty the dishwasher please"Have you ever taken a picture naked?NoHave you ever painted your room?No Have you ever kissed a member of the same sex?OfcHave you ever slept naked?YesHave you ever danced in front of your mirror?YesHave you ever had a crush?YesHave you ever been dumped?YesHave you ever stole money from a friend?My sisterHave you ever gotten in a car with people you just met?YesHave you ever been in a fist fight?NoHave you ever snuck out of your house?Yes Have you ever had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back?YesHave you ever been arrested?NearlyHave you ever made out with a stranger?YesHave you ever met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere?YesHave you ever left your house without telling your parents?YesHave you ever had a crush on your neighbor?NoHave you ever ditched school to do something more fun?YesHave you ever slept in a bed with a member of the same sex?YesHave you ever seen someone die?NoHave you ever been on a plane?YesHave you ever kissed a picture?YesHave you ever slept in until 3?Probably Have you ever love someone or miss someone right now?SureHave you ever laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by?YesHave you ever made a snow angel?NoHave you ever played dress up?OftenHave you ever cheated while playing a game?NoHave you ever been lonely?YesHave you ever fallen asleep at work/school?YesHave you ever been to a club?YesHave you ever felt an earthquake?NoHave you ever touched a snake?YesHave you ever ran a red light?No Have you ever been suspended from school?YesHave you ever had detention?YesHave you ever been in a car accident?YesHave you ever hated the way you look?YesHave you ever witnessed a crime?YesHave you ever pole danced?NoHave you ever been lost?Yes Have you ever been to the opposite side of the country?YesHave you ever felt like dying?YesHave you ever cried yourself to sleep?YesHave you ever sang karaoke?NoHave you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t?YesHave you ever laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?NoHave you ever slept with someone at least 5 years older or younger?NoHave you ever kissed in the rain?YesHave you ever sang in the shower?YesHave you ever made out in a park?YessHave you ever dream that you married someone?YesHave you ever glued your hand to something?NoHave you ever got your tongue stuck to a flag pole?NoHave you ever ever gone to school partially naked?I hardly ever wear a bra these days if that countsHave you ever been a cheerleader?NoHave you ever sat on a roof top?YesHave you ever brush your teeth?Yes!?Have you ever ever too scared to watch scary movies alone?NoHave you ever played chicken?YesHave you ever been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?NoHave you ever been told you’re hot by a complete stranger?YesHave you ever broken a bone?NoHave you ever been easily amused?YesHave you ever laughed so hard you cried?YesHave you ever mooned/flashed someone?NoHave you ever cheated on a test?YesHave you ever forgotten someone’s name?YesHave you ever met someone who didn’t seem real?YesGive us one thing about you that no one knows.I don't know how to let go sometimes.