#i need more jjk mutuals *yells into the void* HELLO??????

[hihl]

alright time to unleash this one into the wild

i saw someone on twitter point out that in this panel was what might’ve been the last instance anyone ever thanked gojo for....anything, really

AND GOD. GOD.

gojo is the dude who bottles it all up. he’s the dude whose efforts go unnoticed most of the time - he’s the dude who no one ever bothers to check up on but it’s okay i guess. i mean earning gratitude or whatever other form of external validation was never what drove him to put in so much into his work in the first place, but man it would not hurt to receive a “thanks”. at least geto used to voice his appreciation towards him. i don’t think that was something gojo was ever familiar with

yeah sure you can call him a man child all you want you can pick on him you can call him annoying i get it! it’s all in good fun. i get it. i do it too sometimes. but do you just ever think about how that might just all be a front gojo puts up. how it literally IS a front he puts up. i know it’s pretty obvious but do you ever think about the tons of weight his shoulders have to carry hidden behind all the roll-with-the-punches dumbassery he puts on display and how regardless of that he has to continue pretending like everything’s A-okay. how regardless of being taken for granted by the people around him, regardless of all the past present and future burdens surrounding him and looming over him like a dark cloud, he has to bear with it. not just for the others but for himself too. i mean he’s the Strongest Sorcerer he can’t afford the time to let himself be vulnerable and to fully process everything he went through with geto. one year isn’t enough but too many damn people rely on him. he can’t. not now not ever probably. all he can do is force himself into a myriad of distractions; let his sorcerer work get in the way of self-reflection

you know in shibuya arc when they finally reunited? one look at gojo’s expression alone and it’s blatantly clear his world had shattered. his best friend, who he was forced to murder because he was the only one who was capable of doing so, was there. his best friend, who gojo had to watch turn into this unrecognizable figure that was the embodiment of everything he’s against. his best friend, who for some fucking reason gojo still considers to be his best friend (the reason being that despite all geto’s done despite all the betrayal gojo was subjected to he STILL has faith in him). his best friend, geto. his one and only. directly in his presence. gojo’s lack of internalization in regards to everything he’s had to endure over the years must’ve been threatening to burst at the seams right at that very moment, but once again he still had to keep his posture straight

damn lol that’s crazy *starts loudly crying*