#i need more luka content but i'm scared

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it’s like. not a big deal but repeated reading how people are excited for protection bc of ‘marichat crumbs’ like!!!!!!!!!! those aren’t cRUMBS marichat has had full episodes and the first. remembered. on-screen kiss. it’s what, crumbs after eating the full cake? not a single iteration of the lovesquare can claim they’re only getting cRUMBS

i remember when words meant things.

[mlwritersguild]

adrinette drabble collection

@alexseanchai, @queer-cosette, @valiantlyjollynightmare, @maggies-scribblings, @2manyfandoms2count

oranges (for luck) by @alexseanchai

"Oranges! Oranges for everyone! Happy Lunar New Year! Live long and prosp—aaah!"

"Let me help with those, Marinette. Isn't your name pronounced 'chéng' exactly like 'orange' and 'success'? So we don't need oranges for success. Just you."

"Ah, heh heh, good thing I brought oranges! Not limes! I'm even worse at pick-up limes!"

"Ugh, Dupain-Cheng, nobody wants any of your fruit salad. Look, Adrikins, I brought—"

"Chloé, stop. If nobody else wants a lucky orange, I'll take as many as I can get. How long do they last, a few weeks? Marinette success oranges for breakfast through Valentine's. Sweet."

haircut (for safety) by @alexseanchai

"Friendly warning, kitty, if you go downstairs right now Maman will draft you to help with spring cleaning."

"Do you think if I tell her I'm hiding from overexcited fans with Valentine's dreams, she'll let me stay and help for several hours? At least that's honest work! —Why are kwamis cutting your hair?"

"It's annoyingly long, and Luka and Juleka have a gig tonight and dates tomorrow, and after that is Lunar New Year when it's unlucky."

"Yeah, let's not chance cutting off good fortune. I'm bigger than the scissors and I listen when the stylists talk—I could help?"

drop everything now (meet me in the pouring rain) by @queer-cosette

Valentine’s day has so far been a success:

- Pink carnations for Marinette (she loved them, thank you for the rec, Alya!)

- A wonderful meal at an ambient yet kitschy restaurant

- Conversation that had never paused or slowed

- And some excellent hand-holding action on the walk home.

Only one thing left on his Valentine’s to-do list…

He stops. She stops too.

“Adrien?”

He leans down.

Her lashes flutter.

Lips puckering…

The heavens open.

No! Everything was going so faultlessly…

But Marinette is grinning.

“I always wanted to kiss a handsome boy in the rain.”

And then she does so.

(It’s perfect.)

to show that you know me is the best gift of all by @queer-cosette

Removing her thimble and habitually sucking her finger, Marinette stands up and steps back to admire the finished quilt: a map of Paris done in pale pinks and soft greens, and here and there she’s embroidered tiny red pawprints - each one marking a location significant to their lives. She hopes Adrien likes it when he sees it on their bed.

He calls her from the kitchen at that moment; when she enters he’s grinning and holding a dish of her favourite homemade butternut squash risotto despite his lack of cooking experience, and she knows she can’t possibly love him more.

Nested boxes by @2manyfandoms2count

“Adriennnn, we agreed to do something small for Valentine's this year!” Marinette pouted as her boyfriend handed her a giant parcel, her fingers nonetheless itching to tear the wrapping.

"And I promise I respected that." Adrien's eyes sparkled

"What are you up to?" Marinette squinted, five nested boxes in.

Adrien chuckled at her impatience.

He leaned closer when Marinette finally reached the last small, velveteen ring box.

“See? Tiny." Adrien revealed its contents for her.

She looked up with tear-filled eyes. His smile wobbled with emotion.

"My Lady, will you do me the honour of officially making me Mr Bug?”

Sugar Sweet by @valiantlyjollynightmare

She miscalculated, she thinks, staring at the mess on the floor.

Adrien shifts beside her and she looks at him. His eyes sparkle with mirth and soon enough he's laughing. She joins in—it's all she can do, really.

He came home early.

"You scared me!"

He's giddy. "Are you making this for me?"

“Something sweet for my sweet husband.”

From behind, he wraps his arms around her middle, resting his chin on her shoulder. “You’re the sweetest, anyway.”

He presses a kiss to her shoulder.

“The sugar on the floor is even sweeter," she hums. "You clean that, though.”

Sweet tooth by @2manyfandoms2count

Hushed voices outside of her bedroom woke Marinette on a fine Saturday morning.

“I wonder what that’s about,” she chuckled as she rolled straight into her husband’s arms, who kissed her lazily.

“Let’s find out, shall we?” Adrien replied before calling the disturbance in.

“Joyeuse Saint Valentin, Maman!” The kids jumped on the bed, Emma handing her a heart-shaped box of chocolates.

“Thank you, my loves.” Marinette kissed each of her temporary bedmates, lingering for her permanent one.

Empty wrappings greeted her when she finally opened her gift.

“Kids!” Adrien exclaimed.

“What? You said we could eat them for breakfast!”

Paper (for Forgetfulness) by @maggies-scribblings

Marinette falls onto her bed, exhausted.

She wouldn’t trade her life for anything. Still…

Television’s a mindless distraction, until an ad reminds her.

“Valentine's!”

“Marinette?”

Adrien comes to her, embraces her soothingly and kisses her tears away.

“Shh, my love.”

“I… forgot!” She always remembered.

“Happy Valentine's Day!” He whispers, offering an envelope.

“Plane tickets?” She looks up, then spots their packed bags. “What about the kids?”

“They’re with Sabine. You need a break.”

“But—”

He provides another envelope, full of handmade coupons, and winks!

“Pay me back with these.”

They kiss, as lovingly as ever, and her worries disappear.

Flowers (to remember) by @maggies-scribblings

Adrien’s always been the earlybird – Marinette, the sleepyhead.

She drowsily returns his light kiss before he exits their cottage, uncharacteristically empty of grandchildren.

Leaving her hurts, but his destination’s worthwhile: ‘their’ brook, surrounded by wildflowers, to pick one for each year together.

Their first Valentine's, unwittingly sharing poems and a kiss.

The oranges, the haircut… kissing in the rain.

The quilt they still cuddle in… proposing, baking disasters, pilfered chocolates…

He smiles, tearing up.

The forgotten Valentine's Day, their well-deserved break.

Her memory’s fading. Maybe it's age, fatigue, or…

Whatever follows, he knows they’ll be together.

Against the world.

Forever.

[princesscrownprince]

🎀 SENSITIVE TOPICS AND REAL TALK 🎀

— ❝ READ IF YOU WANT. WHAT I'VE SAID IN THIS POST ARE THINGS I WANT OTHERS TO UNDERSTAND ABOUT MY CHARACTERS. ❞

🎀 I want to make it clear that Lukas and Kai are NOT incestuous in any way. Kai's brother complex is more of a, "If you get a girlfriend, will you forget about me?" Sort of thing. It is NOT, " Big brother can only marry me!" NO. THAT IS NOT KAI.

Kai does NOT have any romantic and sexual attraction towards Lukas, and vice versa. Kai admires Lukas as a big brother, and due to the negligence of both of his parents, Kai is SCARED of losing Lukas in any shape or form. Lukas is the only person who has given Kai both attention and affection as a child, and thus Kai clings to him and fears to lose him. Kai doesn't want to be alone again.

As for the situation of Zweig and Helene being in an incestuous marriage, it's not uncommon for royal members to marry each other. There isn't any love between them, it was a marriage out of convenience to continue the Royal bloodline. That is it.

"Incest was a common tactic among royal families to retain power."

It is in history. The Alischer Kingdom is heavily based on historical Royal families. This should be common sense.

As someone who has an older brother, incest is not my cup of tea.

The Alischer family and its members are works of fiction, and should not be taken too seriously as their background is essential for my story plot; my world building.

I am a writer, and just because I write dark content, does NOT in any shape of form mean that I'm 100% okay with that. I'm NOT.

Lukas and Kai's twisted personality is a result of their terrible upbringing.

Lukas is NOT saying that everything he went through is completely okay, because it's not. Lukas has TRAUMA and he doesn't even realize that because it was normalized to him by his father.

Kai also has TRAUMA. Negligence of a child can cause serious developmental issues, both mental and emotional.

"Extreme behavior, such as being way too obedient or way too demanding. Headaches and stomachaches with no clear cause. The child doesn't seem close to a parent or caregiver. Showing little interest in friends and activities."

"Living in an unsuitable environment (e.g. no heating, messy) Being left home alone for long periods of time. Taking on the role of a carer for other family members. Changes in behaviour, such as becoming clingy, aggressive, withdrawn, depressed or anxious, displaying obsessive behaviour."

These are behaviors a neglected child will show, some of which Kai has expressed and shown to others.

Meanwhile, Lukas experienced being dehumanized as a person, and more so treated as a vessel that needs to be perfected in any sort of way. Hence his eccentric behavior and attitude.

The whole pet play thing Lukas has going on was mainly for dark comedic purposes but it also shows that Lukas believes that doing these sorts of things is normal as it was done to him in the past.

These are dark and troubling topics, that even to me, as the writer and creator of these characters, makes me feel uncomfortable and disturbed.

But I want to write Lukas and Kai's slow yet healing development from everything they've gone through.

Lukas had made some progress, making friends with people despite the fact that he's terrible with socializing and relating with others. He has no sense of personal space with anyone, tends to rile people up, and thinks giving punishments to people are normal. But he's trying. He may not get it the first time because his trauma is normalized to him, but he is trying.

Kai as well. He hates people, but he managed to get along with a few. He is trying.

These twins do not have anyone to supervise them or tell them what is right or wrong, so their healing process and development to being a better person will take much longer.

Also, they're 19 ( physically ) and/or has lived for years, they're bound to be more stubborn and in denial of other people's attempts in helping them.

I am in NO WAY trying to romanticize their trauma.

Lukas has turned a human into a pet. He is NOT telling you that he bought a cute Pomeranian from a pet store.

Kai has nearly killed someone for insulting his brother. He is NOT telling you he calmly confronted the person.

( This is another topic but, just because I like Reiji and Ruki from Diabolik Lovers, does not mean I would love to date any of them in real life. I've learned my lesson and in my experience : YANDERES ARE NOT ADORABLE LOVERS. )

WITH ALL THAT SAID AND CLEARED,

HAVE A WONDERFUL DAY/NIGHT EVERYONE. 🎀

[toujoursmiraculous]

Thoughts and Reaction to Lies!

It's another long one because so much happens in this episode! The episode starts with Marinette trying to figure out a "secret" within the grimoire. Literal first thought was that this "secret" may be the key to waking up Emilie. It's obviously going to be of huge significance later, anyway. By looking at that piece on Adrien, it does appear Adrien has an amazing life. And really, that's what a lot of people think. That's the point of featuring him. A life of a celebrity is pretty amazing, really interesting and fascinating. But it's also filled with a lot of stress, chaos, loneliness, etc. But viewers rarely ever see it. As for Marinette, while Adrien has said things about what his father allows that makes him sad, we haven't ever heard him complain to her in any way about that lifestyle. To her, he's a guy whose father has him busy with activities (interesting ones at that) and very rarely ever lets him spend time with friends. I love how this episode parallels Truth! But Adrien's POV. My boy has an episode centered around him, finally!

So we know her standing Chat Noir up is because Luka came by reminding her of a date she forgot she rescheduled. You know she's extremely distracted and stressed when she can't remember a date with Luka or a patrol with Chat Noir, or remember that she planned them at the same time. It's really not her fault, and I feel so bad for her that things are becoming so difficult. "No messages, but don't forget my cheese!" LOL this is perfect. Plagg has to get that reminder in wherever he can! The Chat Noir appreciation was so wholesome to see awww, I bet so many boys in Paris look up to him, so sweet x33 Mr. Banana, Chat Noir, and the man who frequently is Mr. Pigeon just chilling on a bench in the park together. What a scene! lol But Chat wanting them to be akumatized so he could see Ladybug. Big oof. He's going to get his wish, a few times over. Careful what you wish for, Kitty! "A glass of milk as usual, mister Chat Noir?" Okay so when Chat's down, he goes to that bar and has a glass of milk. Or more if he's having a bad day. Awwwww. If you think about it, Adrien probably isn't allowed to have milk. With the fat content and all. :/ Kagami lying to her mother and Nathalie/Gabriel just to spend some time with Adrien. Considering how difficult their lives are, that's pretty impressive to be so brave. Not too fond of the lying part though, since there's not a noble reason for doing so. But I can understand it. We found out Kagami's real passion: drawing! Which is pretty cool. That's one thing Kagami and Marinette have in common that'd make them good friends. Very sad how her blind mother tells her she's not good enough. That just tells you what she thinks of her daughter and what she wants her to do with her life. She's afraid she'll pursue the arts rather than something practical, so best shoot down any thoughts of being an artist now. And then, like with all episodes that have Kagami in them, this is where I start to dislike her. "I want to draw the real you, on the inside." Adrien makes various model poses, none work for her as she knows they're just him being a model. Then he actually poses as himself. A silly, goofy cat having fun and being happy. Adorable. "What do you think of... CAT?" deathglare "No, this is absolutely not natural." "Yes it is. I promise, this is really me!" "NO! This is you when you're acting like a clown!" Adrien looking hurt, "But maybe when I act like a clown, it's really me." Then she takes his hand, (gently) pushes him back up against the wall, her hands on his chest, "That way, that's who you really are." What way? Her telling him how to be is who he really is? He stammers, looking very uncomfortable. "But are you sure?" "Yes... you are perfect." Then she leans in to kiss him, while he's still looking uncomfortable. Right here, she's trying to tell him who he is. What kind of relationship is healthy and a good one one at that, when one side is trying to tell the other who they are, how they must act, etc? That's toxic. Keep in mind, after this scene, during Truth's attack. He found out that Ladybug actually in fact loves (said she prefers) the humorous, "clown" side of him. Yes, she only knows it as Chat Noir for now, but she actually appreciates and loves Chat for who he is. Kagami doesn't love nor appreciate that side of Adrien. Which is a very big and important side of him. We knew this in Ikari Gozen, she couldn't stand the thought of Chat Noir being compared to Adrien, pretty sure she even seemed offended by it if memory serves. But it's laid out more in Lies, it's more direct. (Marinette's done this too in the past, but when she's done it, her tone's more like pssssh please! while she looks off to the side, like she's mostly just telling herself that, to convince herself, rather than believing it.) Kagami thinks she knows Adrien, knows that him being funny and a clown is not the "real" him. Acting like she knows him better than he knows himself. Thinking he's perfect. That was a very hurtful thing to have said and you can see it in his expression the same kind of pain and hurt

he gets a lot. I also want to talk about how watching her back Adrien up against the wall like that and leaning into kiss him made me feel particularly uncomfortable. While they might have a little thing going on, he was clearly not comfortable by it and it just did not sit well with me. This entire scene was riddled with red flags. Adrien smiled at the end of that on his way out, yes, but having someone tell you you're perfect would seem like a compliment to you, wouldn't it? The one you like thinks you're perfect, thinks the facade you put up is perfect and anything less isn't okay with them. That'll end up so well! The almost kissing scenes this episode literally had me like

I'm sorry, I just feel so very uncomfortable by them, I can't help it. xD Just before Chat Noir sneaked up on Ladybug, he almost kissed Kagami right? And yet here he is, being a bit flirty, saying he's missed her on patrols. I also want to point out she tells him to stop with his stupid jokes, because she doesn't want to accidentally hurt him! She could've hurt him by scaring her like that. While she likes his humor, they're only problematic if it puts himself in danger or distracts them from fighting an akuma. "I promise I won't forget our patrols anymore." The looks that passed between LB and CN here is just so cute! OOOF as Luka walks away sad because Marinette had to run off, here comes Adrien, about to do the exact same thing as Marinette to Kagami... Now Kagami's not as accepting of him running off as she was just a little while ago.

Even Andre's like, what the heck was that?! His expression watching Adrien run off made me laugh, I had to share it. I was wondering how Adrien got to the boathouse before Marinette did, as it made it seem like Adrien was there long before Marinette was. He just ran in and started playing along where they were. Good lord, he has a lot going on too, doesn't he? Only difference from Marinette here is Adrien has a built-in and believable excuse he can tell his friends. Kagami's forceful "Adrien, it's time." "Five little minutes?" *shakes head sternly* Who does this remind you of in Adrien's life already? Is this what a good girlfriend, what a good friend would do? And here again is the pattern we see a lot with Kagami. She manipulates situations so that they can spend time together. Adrien wants to spend time with his friends AND girlfriend at the same time. Rehearsing for their band, it looks like. He rarely ever gets to spend time with others, be a normal kid. But no, she drags him away early, making it sound like they had to leave, but it's just her wanting him to herself. When he couldn't go to New York, oh well that's unfortunate you're sad, but we can spend more time together now, isn't that great? It's about what she wants, not what he wants or what's best for Adrien. She spends more time with Adrien (not counting Ladybug spending time with Chat Noir here) than anyone else does by the looks of it, and she doesn't even know him at all. It's really sad. Adrien still carrying around Marinette's lucky charm bracelet in his pocket x3333 This never fails to make me happy. But oof that boy's seriously going to lose it one of these days if he's not careful! There's something different about seeing the Ladynoir scene on the roof that we got in Truth, but from Adrien's perspective. Something about it feels like it means more to me, idk. Adrien gets caught in a lie, saying he lost something but found it. Kagami asked what it was, holding Marinette's lucky charm behind her back. He says it was the lucky charm Marinette gave her, as he's scrambling in his pocket to pull it out seeming a bit frazzled, but realizes he actually in fact lost it (again! he says). But Kagami caught him in that lie, showing him that she actually had it.

I'm not sure if he's so shocked because she actually had it and wonders how she got it, or if he looks like that because he just got caught in a lie. But the way his eyebrows raised a little makes it seem like he's surprised she had it after all and was testing him the whole time. I've always hated the way sometimes someone when in a relationship will test the other one like this. Really not fair in Adrien's case at all. Things aren't always as they may seem. And here's the thing, she's admitting to him that she's lying just to be with him. She lies all the time. Adrien caught on that she was lying, but didn't really understand why I don't think. Earlier in the episode he says, "What are you hiding, Kagami?" he didn't know her purpose for it. Now she says, "We're both liars, the difference is I lie to be with you. You. You lie to get away from me." Which is a yes but actually no situation. It's not that he doesn't want to be with her, it's that he needs to get away temporarily. It just looks really, really bad. Getting off track from that conversation briefly, but that scene where the akuma goes off into the night, with the blurred city lights that becomes clear. Just wow. That shot is beautiful, I can't help myself from playing it back and admiring it. I'm also totally digging the new transformation music! it gives me 90s vibes and makes me happy. Seeing Jagged after Truth is just completely different xD "I fear nothing, I am an artist! I still hold to my fans." Both Roth: "Wrong, you lie to them about your age!" "That's not Rock and Roll!" Had me rolling!! Jagged sure is something XD Chat just up and about to cataclysm the sphere, thinking he'd be okay because he doesn't lie. Except he lies all the time to protect his identity and get himself away from people so he can transform. xD Silly Kitty. The drone as a Lucky Charm is super cool! In Truth, Chat Noir said a truth about how he felt about Ladybug. In Lies, he tells lies to Lies to get her attention. "My name's not Chat Noir! I'm not a superhero! I hate Ladybug! And I think Hawk Moth should've called himself Panfly! It's funnier! Oh, I was about to forget: my favorite dish is cabbage with white sauce! Yummy!" Cabbage...with white sauce... as a dish. Is this like, a real fancy dish or something or is this boy being completely starved? o.o CN: "There are only two more liars left in Paris, and one of them knows how to turn his attention." LB: "No, wait! Don't do that! What if I'm mistaken?" "You know what? I trust you." he lets go, sacrificing himself again "Chat Noir, no! Don't do that! You're crazy!" "Yes, crazy for you, m'lady." Says softly, sadly, "No, you're just crazy unconscious." This ENTIRE scene right here. The love, the trust, the pain in this scene. It's so beautiful and well done that I can't stop getting emotional from it and gushing! Everything's on the line from that decision, and the trust he has for her, the faith he has in her really helps her know she can do what she needs to do. She's always doubting herself, and he's always there to say he doesn't feel that way at all, and it gives her that confidence and courage she needs. The moment Chat Noir is okay, the first thing Ladybug does is run up and smack him, grabbing him anxiously saying "Seriously, you need to stop doing this to me!" The girl is stressed seeing her partner sacrifice himself time and again! IF THIS BOY DOESN'T REALIZE JUST HOW MUCH SHE CARES ABOUT HIM AT THIS POINT, I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY. Any fan that still thinks Ladybug doesn't love Chat Noir and thinks poorly of him, clearly does not understand it at all. My Ladynoir heart is SO HAPPY! I was thrilled with them in Truth, but this is a totally different level. I'm almost in tears with how happy I am. And then I noticed something. I don't know if it's anything or not. But Chat Noir says to her, "Yes, but it's because I find that angry look of yours irresistable." and Kagami turns around to look at him, only him and never Ladybug. Just watching him. Which is a bit... odd. "Ahh, Ladybug..." he sighs. After what

just happened, I don't blame him! x3 These two are honestly fire. When D'Argencort has to step in to keep Kagami from hurting Adrien during fencing... Doesn't matter how upset she is, that's gross to physically take it out on him to the point a teacher has to intervene. Kagami tells Adrien she knows he's hiding something, but that he's sincere, too. But when he asks if they can't be friends then, she responds, "How can you trust someone who lied to you?" and finally gives him back the lucky charm. Ever since Gorizilla, I've been worrying of him losing it for good! Glad she gave it back to him. I've said it already, but he's really going to lose that thing if he's not careful! "When I'm ready to see you again, I'll let you know." and she just leaves. I get she's upset, he's been lying to her to get away when he's with her and all that. But this is worse than what happened with Lukanette. Luka wanted to actually know what was going on, he asked Marinette about it directly. She told him honestly, it's the one thing she can't tell him. Kagami on the other hand never actually asked. During one of the scenes when he was spacing out, she asked what was the matter is all. All she's cared about is that he's lied, and now that he's lied she can't trust him. Doesn't even want to hear him out, not that he'd explain it to her. Kagami doesn't even want to see Adrien for awhile now. At least Luka's more understanding and isn't as harsh being in the exact same situation. This poor boy... But it's also for the best. Marinette and Adrien both after breaking up with Luka and Kagami, decided to transform and meet up to just be in each other's company. They're both sad, but not especially so. "Do you know what the difference is, between us and the rest of the world, m'lady? We can't be completely honest with each other. We have our secrets, and sometimes we have to lie." Ladybug frowning hums in agreement. But at the same time, they both turn to each other and say happily "But we know we can trust each other!" finishing with a pound-it! IT'S JUST SO BEAUTIFUL AND MY HEART IS HAPPY After Truth, where Luka and Marinette were so sad and having a hard time, I really needed such an episode with such good Ladynoir! It really looks like the story is going in a really good direction, in my opinion. x3

[itoshit]

Time slowly went by, days turning to nights. And nights turning to days. That day, when I left Vee, I didn't think it would have been the last time I saw her. But she left. My men found her quickly of course, some even offered me to bring her back to me. But the whole point was to not be in contact anymore. I refused to see any picture of her, to see what she was up to. Ran's reports were enough for me. My heart was hurting me, especially when I learnt the existence of her friend, Darren. I was in the private room of one of our clubs, and Ran showed me a picture of them together. She seemed happy, healthy. And I was glad to be out of her life at that moment because honestly, I shattered everything and everyone that I touched.

It was not too long after I cut our strings. I remember that night vividly because that was my very first step to hell. Drinking to forget what I saw, I apparently passed out. Sanzu was the one bringing me back home. My place didn't look good anymore, but I didn't care. No one would stay here except me anyway. I wasn't even sleeping in my bed anymore, not that I was sleeping in the first place. But I couldn't do it. Too hard. Her scent lingered everywhere in my room, in her room. The small amount of sleep that I had was spent on my couch. Christmas went by too, and nothing happened. Her coat and the concert ticket were left untouched in my bedroom, in a random drawer. That evening, I stayed alone in my apartment, trying to imagine what it would have been with Vee around. We would have probably been drinking and laughing, making out on my couch. I'm sure she would have wanted me to buy a Christmas tree, and we would have decorated it together. And the night would have finished somewhere in my apartment, both naked and drowning in each other's touch.

Six months have passed. I tried so hard to forget her face with the many girls trying to get into my pants. I tried so, so hard. But I've never been able to touch someone else. Vee was like a drug, and I was experiencing it. But I was so content for her, she looked like she was finally balancing everything in her life, and she was probably grateful for that. She probably didn't want me back in her life, and I would never dare to enter hers anyway. She must felt relief after all that ended up.

I went back to the Mikey I was before meeting Vee, the cold; heartless man I used to be. My black hair was the only different thing from that past.

Every night I recalled our moment spent together, the only vestige of her was in mind.

Well, my vision seemed to be quite subjective and false, because on few occasions, the guys talked to me. Kakucho, Sanzu, Takeomi and Ran were the ones telling me how I changed, in a bad way. To them, I was more reckless. There were probably right, not that it mattered anyway.

Dante and La Cosa Nostra became close allies, the first trying his best to ease my heart. He presented me to his wife and children, and they were probably the ones who helped me getting through all that shit.

My life didn't make sense anymore. Without Vee by my side, I could finally say it, I was nothing. A dead man walking. While she looked so... full of life.

I saw Senju multiple times, and what I said to Vee was obviously completely false. I've never let myself be tempted with her flirt. The Yamaguchi-gumi stayed on the low for a while too, making their presence known from time to time.

They attacked one of our clubs once, and I almost died in the process. That's maybe what the guys reproached me when they said that I was reckless. Luckily though, Sanzu helped me. Got shot close to the heart, would have died if he didn't push me at the last minute.

The not so discreet scar that I had on my chest was a daily reminder that life was, even for me, something ephemeral.

Tonight was no different than the other nights. Would drown myself in work, files, alcohol and memories of Vee. That scared me because I was slowly starting to forget the sound of her voice.

Mikey.

Hm?

You can't keep doing that

Doing what?

You're not living, you're just... surviving. Amico mio, it's not good. Even Luka noticed your pain, shall I remind you he's only 8? You need to do something.

Look Dante, I appreciate your concern but I'm working right now. Did you call me to say something else?

Your girl has been-

She's not mine anymore. I lost her long ago.

... Venus is going outside tonight. Ran told me and as requested from you, my men keep an eye on her. She hasn't been outside since you stopped talking. You should come and-

Scoffing at him, I rolled my eyes, forehead pressed against my hand.

Dante, just... don't. She's clearly better off without me, and the Yamaguchi-gumi understood she wasn't someone who counted for -

But that was a lie! Manjiro. You could try again with her! We could finish them off, and you two could be happy together. It's just-

No we won't. They got the message when we blew their hideout up. No needs to start something big like this once again, especially when we all know the finality of it.

And what is if if you're so sure of yourself? You know what? I'm gonna bring her to you tonight. You're always staying at your office, expect her and I to be here.

... Venus doesn't need me. She realised she didn't miss me, and that I was only a cancer in her life. I need to go, don't call me again. Thank you for what you did back then.

Hanging up, I left my phone on my desk, leaving my office, but not before asking my executives to meet me in our meeting room.

What's up Mikey?

All sat around me, I looked at them first, before speaking.

Just, thanks for what you did for me.

Snorting, Sanzu stared at me, pupils dilated.

Why does it look like farewells though?

You can leave, you have your evening off. Find some pussy to fuck, get drunk, get high. Do what you want. I want you all to be here tomorrow before 8am.

Groaning, Sanzu stood up, and was the first to leave the room.

You okay?

Of course I am Ran.

Nodding, he patted my shoulder while Rindou simply smiled at me.

Koko had an eyebrow raised.

What's up with you Mikey?

Nothing. You can go Hajime.

Eh? First time you're saying my name. But alright, goodnight Mikey

Now alone with Mochizuku and Takeomi, I turned to them.

Guess I'll head to the strip club then.

Go ahead Kanji

Door closing, I felt Takeomi's eyes on me.

What?

What are you up to Mikey?

Nothing, just need a night away from work. Why aren't you leaving?

Raising his hands in defeat, Takeomi stood up, and as he was going to exit the meeting's room, he stilled.

Manjiro. Don't do anything stupid yeah?

No worries.

Eventually alone, I sat back on the chair, chin on my crossed hands. Would I regret what I was about to do? Probably not. Vee gave me hope, showing me some good time. But I wasn't destined to happiness. My place was in darkness, in hell.

An hour passed, and directing myself to my office, I checked the security cameras. It was 9pm, everyone left the building, as I requested beforehand.

Turning one last time to my office, I suddenly imagined Vee here, with me. Taking my gun off my hoster, I put it on my desk. Closing the door behind me, I went to the roof.

The last time that I've been here was when Sanzu surprised me, and when I said to him that if I happened to die, he would take the lead.

Guess nothing has changed since then.

Approaching my feet from the edge, I looked behind, a flash blinding me for a while. The good old days, when I was Toman's leader, Ken-chin by my side. Takemichi, Mitsuya, Chifuyu, the Kawata twins and the others were below, acclaiming me.

How were they doing now? Did they find happiness? I hope so. Vee crossed my mind too, leaving a warm feeling in my heart.

Throwing a glance at the concrete, I felt cold sweat on my forehead.

I'm sorry, Venus

-Mikey

TO EXPLAIN MYSELF - I wanted to keep the final scene from the manga, when Bonten Mikey is with Takemichi. It's not to destroy the good mood at all, but I do think Mikey is someone who's extremely tortured in his life (as everyone knows lmao) so in this case, where him and you were an item and he had strong feelings toward you, obviously it will destroy him more. Hopefully it's not a triggering subject for you, if it is, I'm sorry bby 😔

see now mod… *exhales*

Yeah, I don’t know about this, Dee.

We stood outside the bar, which from the outside, looked pack to capacity already. Apprehension consumed me. Darren noticed, taking my hand into his and squeezing it.

Do you wanna go home? he asked gently. We don’t have to go in if you don’t want to.

I shook my head. If I couldn’t do this, with my best friend no less, I probably wouldn’t be able to do any social event.

No, I’m fine. But we are leaving before 11.

He winked at me.

Fuck yeah we are.

We walked in together at that, arm in arm. Eyes flitted to us and then away when they realized we weren’t anybody of importance. A few lingered on me, recognizing me from the news maybe. I ignored them, allowing Darren to introduce me to his friends. He was right, they were nice. We shared a few drinks, me only having one beer to the others four. After Natalie, I just didn’t trust drinking anymore. Or people in general, always looking outside of people’s actions for their hidden motives.

We left at ten as promised. I shoved Darren and a couple of his friends into separate Ubers since they were way too drunk for me to even trust them driving. After I managed to get transportation for the final drunkard that I was with that night, I started walking toward my own car. But I noticed something. Somebody was following me. Clutching onto the pocketknife I started carrying ever since I got back home, I steeled myself with the thought of pulling it out and taking a life if needed be.

As the person neared, my grip on the hilt was knuckle-white and tight, with little to no chance of slipping off. When they touched me, I spun around fast, placing the knife right beneath their throat. I was smart enough to avoid streetlights.

Who the fuck are you? I snarled, pressing the knife closer with each word I spoke.

The man threw up his hands quickly, but made no move to disarm me. I’m with Dante of La Casa Nostra.

Who?

Me, somebody spoke from our left. I chanced a look and found a man sitting in the back of a heavily tinted jeep. My heart sunk. I learned a long time ago that tinted jeeps were the poster cars for criminal organization and gang leaders to move around in. My name is Dante, Venus, and I came to you requesting help.

Funny way of asking for it, I bit, throwing a look to the man who was following me. And besides, I don’t think I can help you.

It’s about Mikey.

I froze, unsure how to answer for a few seconds, then eventually came up with a, I don’t know a Mikey.

We were there with the Yamaguchis, Venus. La Casa Nostra was a big help in aiding Bonten in that victory. Our sniper was the one that saved your life. So technically, you owe me.

Could I even argue that? I had a feeling that even if I wanted to, there was only stalling I could do before he lost his patience and just forced me to do what he wanted. Powerful men weren’t used to being challenged, after all. Slowly, I placed my knife in my pocket, but always kept it ready to grab in case I had to run. I walked up to the Jeep and hopped in beside Dante, keeping my distance at the same time.

What do you want?

I wanted to get straight to the point, go home if possible.

It’s Mikey, he sighed, pinching his nose as if even the thought of the man pained him to talk about. He’s… not doing so well. Not sleeping, barely eating, wasting away.

Have you ever stopped to consider he was always like that?

It honestly sounded like he was behaving just as he was—

But that was before you met him, Venus.

I clenched my jaw, remembering how he had started eating and sleeping at my request, soon not even needing me to tell him to do either at all. A certain beach date flashed into my mind and I shook my head to rid myself of the memory. Dante observed my reaction, and I wanted to pinch myself for giving an observable one.

Either way, I’m worried, Venus. Mikey is a good guy, an extraordinary ally, but with the way things are looking…I don’t think he’s going to survive much longer to be any of both. Which is why I offered to take you to him as a last resort.

Without my consent?

With or without, he admitted with a laugh. I’m that desperate. He’s not well, Venus. Even my children are concerned.

I gnawed on my thumbnail.

Bringing me to him might not fix him. They might make things worse. For both of us, I wanted to say.

Or they might make them better, he argued.

You couldn’t possibly know that.

I’m willing to take that risk.

I couldn’t answer that. Few things could talk down a stubborn man. I wasn’t one of them.

You know, I really think you and Manjiro belong together. You’re both just too stubborn to see that.

I didn’t reply to that, either. I would’ve agreed once. Manjiro made sure I couldn’t.

We arrived to the building and I was astounded by how distinctly I remembered it despite being away from it from so long. My mind went on that nurse who helped me escape. I wondered if they fired her.

Dante hopped out of the car the same time I did, using a fancy keycard to gain access into the building. Walking through it, I realized I never took the time to appreciate how large the space was. We reached the room where Dante said he’d be— the meeting room.

Mikey, I’m here as promised, Dante announced and I held my breath. I hadn’t the slightest clue what to say when I saw him, or whether what I’d say would be the right thing. Probably not, considering I wanted to curse him like a dog.

I still had time to think of something though. When Dante opened the door, nobody was there.

Am I being pranked? I asked Dante whose eyebrows were furrowed.

That’s strange. He hasn’t checked out of the building at all today so he’s still in here.

I looked around for a bit, feeling something amiss, and then I found the window looking out over the city. Dante, is there any room in this place that has a better view than this one?

No, this is the highest floor in the building. No view comes close. Why do you ask?

They all had something in common. This room, Mikey’s house’s design, the hotels he booked, down to the dates he scheduled— there was one common denominator.

The view. I snapped my fingers. Mikey likes the views!

But there’s no better view than… the roof. He’s on the roof.

I wasted no time, bolting out of the door. The elevator stopped just to the meeting room floor. Only stairs could take you up to the roof. I sprinted up them by God’s grace, barely even winded by the time I opened the door.

Good thing too, because the sight of Mikey took my breath away. It was only his back, the same black hair I had seen him in the last time fluttering in the wind. What worried me most was not where he was standing, feet firmly planted on the ledge. What worried me most was how relaxed he was on the ledge, as if he wasn’t staring a certain death right in the face. A strong enough wind would send him right to it. I couldn’t witness that. My feet moved on their own, fueled by adrenaline. I had barely reached him when he started to push himself over the ledge, but I caught him in time, gripping my shirt between his fingers and snatching him back with all my might. He fell back easily, too startled by the fact somebody was there to catch him to brace himself. He landed right atop of me in a heap of limbs. My hands were trembling. It was as if I had just realized how close I was to missing that chance to grab him. Tears came into my eyes, but I didn’t know if they were from anger or from fear.

You idiot, I whispered harshly through sobs. You fucking idiot.

[princesscrownprince]

💋💋💋💋💋💋 (( I think you know who needs to kiss Rooks right now. ))

🎀 NSFW CONTENT : 18+ 🎀

It was too quiet.

These past few days and weeks have been too quiet. Not a word, nor a sound was heard from the other side. Which was supposedly a good thing, but it wasn't. Lukas knew this very well. That man wouldn't let him go so easily. After all, he is his possession. Lukas has something that man needs, so it was without a doubt, that man would never let him go.

A pale hand moved towards his chest, clutching his black coat as he quietly felt his hearts beat to a rhythm. There was more than one beat; a follow up, so to speak. Lukas housed both his heart and another, the latter being the supposed owner of his body. And it was exactly that heart his father, Zweig, needed in his possession. Lukas was nothing but a vessel; a hollow doll made for this heart to take over and consume his own soul. And it was something Lukas refused to give up to anyone.

His hand returned to his side.

He has given his body, his sanity, and his mind to the hands of Zweig. He cannot afford to give up his own soul to him as well.

It has always been that way.

He gives, and gives, and gives until there was nothing left of him to call his own. It sometimes made him wonder if this body was actually his or not. If this is actually the body he was born in, or was he a wandering soul that ended possessing this body, kicking away the initial owner from its own right.

Lukas wanted to say he's scared. He wanted to feel fear from those frightening thoughts and possibilities, but he couldn't, for he has given the ability to feel fear as well.

What more would Lukas give, and have nothing in return?

What more would be stolen away from him?

This twisted mind and body that he wished to call his own, only produced twisted results at every moment he has given up something of himself.

Though, he had only hoped, that one thing he treasures the most in his primary heart would never reach a point wherein he would have to give it up as well.

That one thing, was a someone.

Someone dear; someone he found himself genuinely caring for without any useless conditions between them.

Someone he wished to call his own.

Lukas would be damned if he has to give him up as well, yet he was ready to give him up, if it meant making him happy and less miserable with him.

For Lukas was a poisonous man; an aconitum that beautifully blooms on a warm summer's day. Beautiful and delicate, yet deadly and poisonous. Being with Lukas meant dealing with all his poison and constrictive grasps; a viper who yearned nothing more but true love. But, he was also a viper, who lets go before he bites.

All these thoughts, all these feelings, only elicited confusion within Lukas' mind and so, he shook. He shook it all away and pushed it aside.

He cannot dwell on his mind like this, and he despises it when he does. For that wasn't Lukas to him.

Lukas was a jolly man, playful yet cheeky. Cunning, but naive.

Lukas, in a sense, was not sad nor lost. He was in control, and knows what he wants. Lukas is not a child screaming for help. Lukas is a man who carefreely smiles at anything thrown at him.

But in the end... who exactly is Lukas?

Vibrations snapped him out of his thoughts.

It was a different scent, yet it was familiar enough to Lukas to pinpoint that the group of people standing behind him were no human nor Vampire, they were snakes.

His father's snakes.

With a dash, Lukas quickly darted away from his fellow Viboras, the group following suit.

Finally, his father made his move, and Lukas anticipated it, and he supposed, he should thank them for snapping him out of his head. This thrill oughta keep him in control. Or so he thought.

"Your royal highness! His majesty seeks your return immediately!" his chasers exclaimed.

" I'm very aware of that! " Lukas replied back, swiftly turning around with a flash bomb in hand. He smirked, " But unfortunately, I'd like an extension of my summer vacation! "

Albeit he could take them on himself, six versus one isn't exactly a fair game, now is it? Besides, he wouldn't dare disrupt the peacefulness of this world. Humans aren't ready for them, and it's best that they aren't.

With a flick of his wrist, the bomb exploded into a cloud of dust and dirt, masking his appearance as it messed with his chasers' senses, rendering them confused and disoriented. Courtesy to Kai's alchemy skills. The latter believed they should be prepared in case Lukas was suddenly scouted. Very much like his current situation right now.

The prince then hastened his actions, stripping off his black coat to reveal a beige, turtleneck sweater underneath before sprinting out of the forest and towards the streets of Japan.

His heels clicked at every step, wind blowing past his face as his eyes darted around his area for any means of disguise.

"Pardon me!" he exclaimed, expeditiously reaching a hand towards a woman he would soon pass by, snatching off her scarf and sun hat with a quick apology. Ignoring her calls of alarm and shock, Lukas wrapped the black scarf around his head, masking his dark vanilla hair before placing the sun hat on top.

Disguise... disguise... I need a disguise...

His eyes suddenly widened in surprise at the sight he saw before him.

Ruki...?!

Spotting the Vampire on his route, Lukas quickly thought of a plan to ward off his pursuers. He mentally apologized to his friend as the latter seemed to be grocery shopping for his kitchen, and yet Lukas planned to use the Vampire for his own getaway.

He had no choice.

If he continued running towards his hotel suite, the effects of the flash bomb would have worn off before he could barely place a foot inside the reception area.

If he stopped and idly walked around like a civilian, there was no telling if his chasers would tap his shoulder to ask about his whereabouts.

He needed a disguise, and a busy one at that.

Once again, he mentally apologized to Ruki.

Nearing the Vampire's form, Lukas wasted no time to grab the other's collar, dragging him towards a secluded area near the grocery store he came out of.

"Don't ask." He abruptly mumbled, hurriedly shoving the other against a wall, and with a tilt of his hat to cover his eyes, Lukas locked his lips with the other.

Surely, no one would bother a kissing 'couple.'

Lukas stared into Ruki's eyes apologetically, deepening the kiss when he felt the familiar vibrations near him.

He needed to act naturally, for Viboras had a keen eye for deceit. Deception, after all, is common amongst their clan. It was almost a prominent trait of theirs, and thus, they were experts when it comes to pointing out lies from the truth.

Pressing his own body closer, Lukas' lips moved expertly, slightly tensing at the nearing vibrations of his chasers. This caused him to push his tongue inside without a warning. A small moan slipping past their locked lips.

Whether it was a real moan or not, it surely made passerbys hasten their steps, for they weren't looking forward to disrupt their intimate moment.

It was then Lukas slowly succumbed into the taste of Ruki's mouth.

It was hesitant at first, flinching back when he felt his own tongue touch the other's. But slowly, he got a feel of it. Licking the other's tongue, Lukas soon felt his entire being wanting more.

Delectable... Ruki tastes delectable... More... I want more...

With a low groan, Lukas eyes turned into a daze, completely enraptured in devouring Ruki's mouth. The initial thought of his chasers, entirely obliterated from his mind, the moment his tongue caressed the other's wet appendage. His saliva, his fangs, that unsure and startled tongue of his... drew Lukas into a trance, intoxicating his mind from all his previous worries and concerns.

Ruki felt like a drug; an addicting drug that somehow had the effect to diminish everything within Lukas' space and solely focused on the two of them.

And with that, he wanted more.

He lapped and greedily surged his tongue inside. It was as if he was coaxing Ruki to dance along with him. This intimate and wet dance of his. To feel and to taste him more, Lukas slowly pulled away with a thin line of saliva connecting them. However, he wasn't done yet.

The blush adorning his face, the shocked and agitated look of bewilderment from Lukas' sudden actions only enticed the viper more.

With a hazy mind and a click of his tongue, Lukas wore an expression of shame.

He knew he should stop. He knew he shouldn't continue on. He knew that he should pull away, apologize and hope their friendship wasn't entirely broken because of his foolish actions.

The only thing he treasured aside from his brother. It was this very thing that Lukas never hoped to give up so soon. Not this way, and most certainly, not at all. And yet here he stood, tightly gripping Ruki's collar as he caged the Vampire with his body, preventing him from any means of escape as he contemplated his actions.

He got lost in there.

For Ruki's taste and tongue diminished any self-control he had at that moment. It nearly worried Lukas that he would lose himself in the pleasure; pleasure that Ruki may not wanted to be part of.

It was, after all, forced and done without any explanation.

However, with just one look back at Ruki's face, Lukas felt his resolve to pull away crumble. The Vampire was simply too enticing to let go so easily, and Lukas wanted nothing more but to sink his fangs into his skin and hold the other in his constrictive grasp, injecting his poison into the other; to pull him into his pit as his own possession.

He wanted Ruki at that very moment, and with a quick snap of his eyes towards his lips, Lukas felt himself lurch forward to capture Ruki's lips with his own, muffling his own moan

His hand on Ruki's collar soon loosened, only to reach for the man's wrists, pining his hands above his head, lacking care for the fallen grocery bag on the floor. It was not important right now. What's important, was Ruki's delicious mouth and body against his. To which, Lukas stepped forward to grind his own crotch upon the other. It elicited a low, muffled whine between their lips.

Everything sounded quiet around them. The footsteps near their hiding place, the bustling chatter of the people passing them, the loud horns of vehicles and its raging motors all sounded quiet to them. As if they were the only people on the world right now; in the Garden of Eden, where Adam tempted the snake with his own apple of sin.

It enthralled and captivated the snake to bite into the forbidden fruit he currently calls their relationship.

What were they after this? Would they still be friends? Would things be awkward? Would Lukas have to give him up too?

The snake didn't want to ponder, eliminating those thoughts with Ruki's tongue upon his.

Desperate and afeared, Lukas deepened the kiss once more. He felt as though, if he pulls away the second time, the man he held against the wall would disappear and never want him anymore. And Lukas, wasn't ready for that to happen just yet.

Just a little more... be mine for just a little more.., he chanted within his swirling mind, just a little more... before you want me gone...

Moaning at the pressure his crotch felt against Ruki's own lower region, Lukas guided Ruki's tongue towards him before sucking on the wet appendage as if it were something else but a tongue. His free hand moved behind the other, forcing Ruki to arch his back so his hand could cup his ass firmly, his fingers rubbing in between. This action caused Lukas to grind their clothed crotch together, all while consuming his saliva and mouth. Muffled moans and groans evoked from their heated and intimate actions.

And though Lukas wanted more, he knew it was time to part away before something else occurs between them. He wouldn't go that far, more so he couldn't. Not to Ruki. And surprisingly, Ruki was the very first person Lukas has ever kissed. He would deny others, and would even resort to physical actions if they insisted. Lukas never wanted anyone's lips against his, that was until he got a taste of Ruki, and if only he could admit it, he would have said he wouldn't mind doing it again to feel that intoxication and haze, that only Ruki has ever made him feel. It was an emotion he craved to experience again, but he knew that this might as well be the very last time he would be able to experience it. For Lukas felt he needs to let go of this one too.

His only treasure, destroyed by no other than himself.

Stepping away from the wet kiss, Lukas let the other go. He blinked himself back to reality as he hadn't even noticed his pursuers had already lost track of him a couple of minutes ago. Ruki had truly enraptured him at that moment. That image of his blushing stunned face remained within Lukas' mind, taking record of every single taste, sight, sound, and feeling of Ruki at that moment. A record Lukas himself felt too ashamed to capture. But what more could he lose at this point?

Pursing his lips as he averted his gaze from the other, a blush of his own dusted his cheeks in embarassment. He then cleared his throat after a moment of silence, chuckling half-heartedly as he looked back at Ruki with a face of shame.

"That... wasn't supposed to happen."

His hearts loudly thumped with a rhythm, resounding to his ears for him to listen. The adrenaline rush of that moment still kicked him in the guts, but he was sure that it wasn't just an adrenaline rush that's causing his hearts to beat faster than they should. It wasn't just an adrenaline rush that's causing him to crave more and suddenly feel self-conscious of his own actions. Lukas gave nervous smile.

"My deepest apologies. Can we... forget about this?"

Poor Lukas.

He doesn't know what to do.

He wanted to apologize and seek what he could do to make up for his actions, but at the same time he didn't feel any regret doing that, for it was an experience of a life time.

It was despicable of him.

Unbecoming of a prince and a person.

He felt conflicted.

He felt lost.

And for the first time he felt, without knowing what it's called...

Lukas was scared to lose Ruki.