#i need part eight to save me from this angst brainrotting spiral

[johnslittlespoon]

heyyy have y'all ever thought about how 'the one that got away' is john's song for gale?

in another life, i would be your girl

john watching gale with marge and wishing he could be smaller and prettier and daintier and blonder and softer, thinking that if maybe he was a girl, gale could love him back

we'd keep all our promises, be us against the world

always promising each other "us against the world, buck" "always, bucky" but deep down john knows it'll end when the war does

in another life, i would make you stay

john hoping that in some other timeline, things turn out the way he dreams, they're able to have that house with the white picket fence, they raise children together, they get to stand across from each other in a chapel and john doesn't have to love him in secrecy

never one without the other, we made a pact

i mean c'mon. it's buck and bucky, bucky and buck. in a different timeline and era, they're the type of friends to make a marriage pact– "if we're still single when we're 30, we'll just marry each other, yeah?"

should've told you what you meant to me, cause now i pay the price

john spending the rest of his life wondering if things could have been different if he had been brave (or stupid) enough to tell gale how he felt. he knows realistically it wouldn't have changed anything, he knows he's not meant to be that person for gale, but sometimes he lets himself dream.