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kalashtars · 2 years

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this week on is it a side effect of testosterone or just season depression: my midterm essay for a class was due two days ago. i have not started it. normally i would feel anxiety about this but i feel distinctly numb about it.

#damien.txt #it's prob the seasonal depression but like. even in the past with the depression i could just think abt it for a long time #and eventually i would work my anxiety up enough for something to happen #but like. genuinely i've been sitting here for like 2 hours thinking about it and. 0. nothing.#to be fair i think it's a compounding of a lot of things #a lot of it is the fact that the prompt is 'i'm not giving you a prompt' and it's 5 pages and worth 20 percent of my grade #like????????? what the actual fuck #who the fuck makes assignments like that. literally any form of a prompt would be great thanks!!! i need at least a little structure!!!#uh but yeah i think that's contributing a lot #ugh i need. external motivation. but i don't have any way of getting it #i really should write it today though. i think it'll be distinctly bad if i don't #also for anyone confused about why this would be testosterone #t is a little notorious for numbing down emotions for people and i'm def experiencing that #i just don't know if this situation specifically is a product of that or not

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