#i said smth mean publicly as a retort n i felt so guilty after it i cried lmao | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

peanutblowandjobsandwich · 6 months

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i wish i was making this up for shits and giggles but i went to an anti bullying campaign with the kid who was like bullying/abusing me at the time mostly bc i didnt want to be in a relationship with them and we got uh like pins n those bracelets etc n every time i see them i remember the bad things n it's just funny ahah myb i shld get rid of them

#it's one of the last? only things tht like triggers those memories #my head has forgotten it mostly #interacting w/ her affectionate does not really make me think of it either #but those stuff do #that was such a day lol sigh #i had made the 'abuser' a gift lmao ouch #then later when we got back to school god shit happened #i ran away n hid in the library oof it was sigh damn #yolo amirite #i wasnt blame free #well i mean idk tht's what she said #god why am i crying #i mean i nvr hit her or threw things at her or purposefully tried to manipulate her n emotionally abuse her #so at least i dont hv tht on my conscience #i said smth mean publicly as a retort n i felt so guilty after it i cried lmao #anytime i told her no not tht she listened but she wld get mad at me for it anyways #i wld go make up bc i was scared sigh #damn tht was fucking hell but we were 17 n things like tht happen when ur 17 n she wsnt malicious #she was just being hurt herself #she said tht bc i was new i wld just use them for what i needed #which even tho not my intention i guess held some truth based on my actions #but it was like tf u want me to do idek where the bathrooms in the school are or the rules n all tht shit #im not asking bc i want to use you for info im asking bc i need to kno n u 'befriended' me #sorry im socially awkward n struggle at making friends tht doesnt mean im using u lmao sigh #i genuinely hope she's ok tho n doing better sigh #cloud nonsense #ignore me

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