#i seriously wouldn't mind dying of covid

[7thedisasterdyke]

NGYAEHHHHHHHH

The MOTHERFUCKING FSA CRITERIA FOR APPLYING WITHOUT PARENT INFORMATION

WHA T THE FUCK ARE THEY

ALL IT TELLS ME IS "oh you can't use this this and this" and it's like MOTHERFUCKER. TELL ME WHAT FITS THE BILL

NOT TO MENTION THE SLOW-AS-GODDAMN-FUCK LOADING SPEEDS ON THE FSA WEBBED SITE, CAN'T GET SHIT DONE IF I HAV E TO WAIT 15 YEARS TO DO IT

i'm in my bed with GODDA<N COVID and i want to FUCKING DIE OF IT and this GODDAMN COLLEGE BULLFUCKERY IS NOT GODDAMN HELPING

I'm fucking sobbing in bed with a goddamn respiratory disease, blood oxygen at damn near dangerous levels, all because the fucking system is built to fuck me over because we don't have paperwork proving we were legally kicked out at 17

i'm so tired

[sudokufag]

Mmm it's something I've always wanted a chance to talk about but have never gotten a real chance to online or in real life but since it's disability pride month and all

I wanna give a huge shoutout to people with phobias. (long post ahead)

I feel like phobias aren't talked about nearly as much as they should be in mental health spaces. We talk a lot about people's triggers related to traumatic events, but we don't really cover what it's like to have a trigger from a phobia.

Phobias can come from trauma, but just as many times that happen for no reason at all. Sometimes a slightly uncomfortable, embarrassing or spooky one time occurance buries itself into your mind for no reason at all and it just stays there because the human mind is funny and often slips up.

There's not really a community for phobias, if you look up your phobia online you will be flooded with really triggering images, you can't search any tags online because those tags exist to censor triggers, not to form a community. (not to say that those tags aren't important ofc they are) The closest I've seen is the tag "actual phobia" in Tumblr but this seems small and drowned out by fandom posts somehow.

Phobias are hard and exhausting. They effect you in ways that people wouldn't expect and you cant really explain. They can be humiliating to have: kids in middle school intentionally would trigger my phobia because they didn't understand the severity until I fainted onto the floor. I'm an adult by my mom has to hold my hand and head at the doctors office so I don't break down like a child, the worst was when I had to get my covid shot and confused children and judgemental elderly people alike stared at me in the midst of my meltdown.

Phobias are very isolating. That new movie everyone raves about has triggering subjects right on the poster and no one really thinks to tag it while it's trending. That video game looks right up my alley, but oh, it triggers my phobia and theres no way to censor it in the settings. You try to tell friends and family about your issues as they halfway pay attention as they file your fears under the same urgency "needs to ask their partner to kill the spider". If you've got an uncommon or silly sounding phobia, you will straight up get laughed at for expressing your fear, even in what should be really progressive and accepting places.

It's hard to really describe a meltdown to someone who's never had them. Phobias often make people cry and scream and kick involuntarily, we can vomit and drop in blood sugar and have migraines and faint. To say that it's the feeling of walls closing in on you is to only put in the slightest terms. When I have a meltdown, I feel like I am dying. It's the most pain and fear you can feel, reverting you back into a confused childlike state, and the only reprieve I can get is knowing that I 15 minutes I will feel better if a little tired and I will get to drink a coke with a silly straw as congratulations for making it through.

Lots of people will give you a flat and unsympathetic "get help." even when they're typically progressive enough to know it's rude to say that to people suffering from things like depression. It applies to us too! It's damn hard to get a therapist already, even harder to feel ready to look a phobia in the eye. Signing up for exposure therapy is a very scary thing to do.

So to anyone reading this with a phobia or phobias:

Weather being the very common ones or ones so rare and niche that you aren't taken seriously, and God help you on avoiding triggers

Being unable to enter doctors offices or grocery stores or the post office without shaking in fear

Those whole also struggle with OCD too and have intrusive thoughts about their phobias, triggering them even when sitting alone in their room

Those who's circle doesn't take their phobia very seriously and feels lost and alone when triggered

For those who have been hospitalized or institutionalized because of their phobia

You're not alone! And all feelings, even the very worst feelings, always will come to pass.

I wish that there was a community around phobias the same way there is for my conditions ADHD and anxiety, so we could learn coping mechanisms and better understand ourselves as people through each other's experiences. I'm not sure how that'd work or what that'd look like, but the best way I can think of to get started is to post things like these!

*feel free to share you experience if you want to in the tags

[imabiscuitinthousandworlds]

tbh, it kinda sucks that everyone in my family and all of my friends got through the vaccine with any side effects and i'm completely out the next two days...

got my third shot yesterday and a nice headache for today along with sore limbs, i love it :D

...normally i wouldn't mind too much because i'll take that over dying from a deadly virus anytime, but today would've been the second to last time in my rethorics course which i absolutely adore :/ there was no way i'd make it another three hours tho

[millenialfanfictionaddiction]

Hi mom 💕

I saw that you give advice, so I wanted to ask too bc I have a big love scenario at the moment...

So I have this crush I've liked since 2019, and we were classmates during that year. We were rlly close, and those in my class would often see us goofing around and doing idiotic stuff together. (And other people actually shipped us, and even our teacher went as far as to seat us together 😭) Everything went well until he stopped talking to me (I'd say for 3 months atleast) and eventually pandemic came and we stopped talking. We weren't classmates last year, but this year, we were. However we've only had minor interactions 🥲

So what I'm curious about is if he was interested in me or not.. Well from what I've experienced I feel like he lowkey did, but from the recent stuff? Not so much.

After all that's happened I've tried to move on (by crushing on atsumu and the rest of inarizaki specifically😔) but it never seems to work.. It's like he's put me in a trance which makes me stick to him mom 🥺

Did he like me or not, should I make a move, and how can I try to move on if it actually doesn't work out?

I'd appreciate any advice you'd give me ❤

Also have a free doodle of atsu doodl3 (◍•ᴗ•◍)

First off, that doodle is everything 😍😍😍😍 I'm seriously dying at Atsumu right now 🥺🥺 please as much as I love to bully him, deep down I adore him 🥰

Secondly, ok so boys and/or men are complicated creatures. I'm 33 and I have made zero sense of them. They say girls/women ate complicated yet here we are 🙄 N E WAYS I can see how /why you've been confused about the situation. I mean he went from talking to you to basically just kind of passive. I'm not saying he's playing mind games or being toxic with you but I can see why you are feeling the way you feel.

So I feel like a number of things could be going on.

1) he's very much interested in you and hea not sure how to proceed. It's possible that he might have seem you as a friend at one point but that evolved for him and now he's like uber confused about how to proceed. And sometimes when people don't know what to do, they will withdraw from you.

2) he could still see uoi as a friend but something changed for him. Maybe a big life event or even the Covid could have changed things. Alot of people went through a major depression because of Covid and perhaps it impacted him socially.

3) He just moved on from the friendship. Unfortunately this happens and it sucks. Like sometimes people change social groups rather quickly and they will choose to focus on that rather than other things. It's like having a best friend in high school then going to college and losing thay friendship.

I think your best course of action here would be to just try to rekindle a friendship with him. Send out feelers, ask how he is? Maybe what he's been up to? Just to see how receptive he is to you. You can tell alot about how someone feels by the way they react to you!

Also I know it's hard moving on from a crush. It's like something about them draws us there and we just can't forget about it. I still often think about my high school crush. At the same time, I realize that he maybe wasn't the one I was suppose to be with or the timing wasn't right. I think situations like this help us grow as our own individuals and help us to realize what we want for ourselves or in our partners.

Last, believe me, I've used man fictional men to help get over crushes. They can often be a safe place because in our minds, they wouldn't hurt us. I mean, in my thoughts, my fictional men are my ideal partners!

Phew 😅 I kind of went on a tangent there but I hope this helps in some way. Try not to put too much pressure on yourself, because in the end, you need to take care of yourself emotionally and mentally ❤

Xoxoxo