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moinsbienquekaworu · 2 years

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Remembering why I vibed so hard with Kylux fanfic Kylo is just making me want to rerereread Super Fade and All Hearts Come Home for Christmas and And All That Road Going and What We Want and From the Last Whelming Sea and finish the Structural Fabrications series and maybe even reread Dollars to Donuts

#god there's so many good kylux fics #i was so so into those two in 2018 2019 and last summer #like ugh!!#not to talk about my issues but actually i will #it's just #the kylo from fanfics is this uh #sad and a bit pathetic and kind of lonely and very very emotional guy #lost in his life even though he's powerful and nearing 30 #he feels kind of like a failure and he's a mess #and i wasn't necessarily doing super well when i was at the height of identifying with him :')#same reason i wen through parts 1&2 of pacify so quickly #harry at the beginning of pacify is Not Doing Well #and i was stressed because of school & covid #i slept like shit i had real problems with executive function and exams were approaching #and it was. complicated #also there's the snoke stuff. canon doesn't elaborate on it and that's an offense i have trouble forgiving (among many in the sequels lol)#like i Will Not Elaborate because this is tumblr but. snoke.#anyway yeah kylo & moon my little guys i identified with when i had problems #(moon for the same reason as kylo. in book 6 she was shy and there was darkstalker which. they didn't do anything with those two either.)#i don't identify with characters and media in general a lot but those two will always have a place in my heart #and hux was right there when i wanted to explore asexuality and aromanticism! hux beloved #the old ace kylux hcs i used to have....#tbh i was right last year regarding what it would be like to grow up ace among the jedi #the sheer non-amatonormativeness of the jedi is a gift and i hate when people want them to be MORE amatonormative #let the monks not marry for the love fo god!#(i just mentioned asexuality but it also goes for aromanticism obviously. i just didn't think i was aro then!)#ANYWAY NIGHT RAMBLE OVER #like last night if you saw this no you didn't :)#wow i have a ramble tag now

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