#i still have like intrusive mental arguments where I'm like describing to my former best friend why he can't come back into my life | Explore Tumblr Posts and Blogs

lord-radish · 1 year

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Between OSRS and Hyrule Warriors, I'm playing a ton of grindy games lately. Thank god I'm not working on the Minecraft flatworld project at the same time, right? Hahahaha, hahaha, haha...

(nah jk the real joke is that I'm not working on the Minecraft flatworld project)

#I'm a lot more over the former best friend stuff than I've been for a long time.#I'm spending a lot of time hanging out with the coworkers and with my pub friends #both groups rely heavily on alcohol which sucks ass but I like legit have friends again. I've managed to rebuild and move on #i still have like intrusive mental arguments where I'm like describing to my former best friend why he can't come back into my life #but even those are lessening in severity. and it's just like. the minecraft flatworld project only exists because I was coping with that #and I'm going back to it less and less #because I have a full-time job and I spend time with friends and I buy other video games if I'm bored. I've moved on #i needed that minecraft project to stay sane during the worst two years of my life. i *needed* that distraction to move on #and granted I still play a lot of tedious fuckin video games. but that one with the self-imposed tedium is waning hardcore #I'm gonna keep it around and go back to it from time to time but i don't 'need' it to cope. my life has changed so much since then #and it's all for the better. i have a job. i have two sets of friends and a ton of great video games to play #i have my own place to live - I'm living on my own. things are looking up #now granted things in my life can go catastrophically fucking wrong in a thousand different ways so like #i don't doubt that I'm going to need the flatworld project as a grief management tool in the future #but I don't need it *now*. i severely needed it for at least six months straight and I needed it well beyond a year after what happened #but since then I've needed it less and less and right now - I don't need it. because things are going well #that being said I'd still say I'm pretty depressed? but that's more of a baseline me thing

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