#i think the princess diaries version would have been more cute and funny

[iminarce]

perfect

cw: a fluff-fest! first kisses (with some whimpering) and hand-holding wc: 2622

every time i take robin on a date, i can’t help but wish it lasted longer - he’s just so cute whether he’s high or low confidence, and it always makes me smile :) also does anyone go on the movie date with robin and actually watch the movie? couldn’t be me.

you were propped up on robin’s only pillow, settled in a seated position so that robin could lay his head in your lap as he balanced precariously on the border of waking and sleeping. the room was silent, save for the occasional clicking of his controller and the muted video game noises.

despite his drowsy state, robin insisted on continuing his game, even if it meant that his performance suffered as a result. you had even tried getting him to sit up as a means of staying awake, but he had refused adamantly.

admittedly, you prefer it like this anyway.

with his head in your lap, you were able to indulge yourself and play aimlessly with robin’s hair, undoing every small tangle, and even scratching his scalp every once in a while as a makeshift head massage, drawing out small hums of delight from him whenever you did.

normally, you would have been more than content to let the day end like this, basking in robin’s company.

and that had been your plan all this while, but it had been a while since you took robin out somewhere. all week you had been putting it off in favour of school or work, and now that you two both clearly had nothing to do, it would be perfect.

even if that did mean getting up from this dangerously comfortable position. which neither you nor robin seemed to want to do.

well, there was no harm in asking anyway.

“let’s go somewhere,” you murmur softly, voice barely loud enough to be heard over the sounds of robin’s video game.

he immediately pauses said game upon hearing you speak, and shifts in your lap so that he can look up at you.

“where?” he asks as you brush his fringe from his eyes gently, admiring the soft slope of his nose and round curve of his cheeks.

“how about the cinema?”

immediately, robin’s eyes light up. to your surprise, he sits up with a renewed vigour and pulls you to your feet in one smooth motion.

“great idea!” he exclaims, already palpable with excitement. you can’t help but find his enthusiasm infectious, and soon, what had only been a throwaway idea of yours suddenly evolved itself into something that you found yourself looking forward to as well.

as you two step out of the orphanage together, robin brushes the back of his hand against yours, timidly linking your pinkies together. you wait a beat to see if he’ll take your hand in his, and when he doesn’t, you take his hand in yours.

the action lights up robin’s face, but to your disappointment, it’s a little hard to tell under the golden glow of the sunset. when robin pulls you along though, fingers interlacing securely with yours, you forget about your disappointment all together.

hand in hand, in the light of the setting sun, you and robin chat happily as you make your way to the cinema.

when you finally arrive, you pay for two tickets to the newest romance movie and buy a bag of popcorn to share. you had offered to buy him his own bag of popcorn when he asked, but

“it tastes better when we share,” he had said, a sweet smile on his lips, a rosy blush on his cheeks.

you two take your seats in the middle of the theatre and settle in to watch the movie.

it’s pretty slow, if you’re being honest. there are moments when you can’t believe you paid for these tickets.

but all it takes is one glance in robin’s direction, and you are at peace with the money you forked over for this movie.

robin’s engrossed, his face contorting in a melange of emotions appropriate to whatever was happening on the screen. it’s even better entertainment than the movie.

you’d be lying if you said that this wasn’t the predominant reason you liked coming to the cinema with him, anyway.

something dramatic must have happened just then, as robin’s gasps softly in shock at whatever revelation is made, and it makes you giggle to yourself, finding yourself much more interested in watching robin than the silver screen.

the small noise grabs his attention, and he glances over to look at you, eyes widening in surprise when he catches you already staring at him. without missing a beat, his lips spread into an bright smile, as warm as the look he gives you.

charmed, and unable to help yourself, you lean towards him, resting your head on his shoulder. you feel him tense under you, but he’s soon relaxing into you as well, wrapping a tentative arm around your shoulder and giving you a small, affectionate squeeze.

“i could stay like this forever,” he coos softly as he leans into you, resting his head on top of yours, and this time its your cheeks that flush, taken aback by the tender fondness that laces his sweet whispers.

the brisk night air takes no prisoners, immediately nipping at your nose and cheeks the minute you step out of the cinema. robin sees your slight shiver, and reaches forward to take your hand in his, intertwining your fingers again, like that’s where they belonged.

the contact warms you enough to fight off the chill.

the sun had long set, giving way to the numerous stars twinkling happily on their night stage, delighted that they finally get their time to shine. the streets were much emptier than before, only a few couples strolling past, a few lone stragglers milling about.

only the crickets and frogs kept the two of you company on your walk home, filling the air with their chirps and croaks, another reminder of the hour.

you strike up light conversation as you walk home, though robin is much more eager to discuss the movie than you. a couple of times you find yourself blanking, unable to formulate a proper response to some of his comments.

though to be fair, there were multiple times when you had decided you’d rather watch robin than the movie, so it was only to be expected that your commentary would fall a bit short here and there.

robin doesn’t seem to mind - or notice, you can’t tell - and continues to prattle about the characters, the plot, the drama. he quotes a couple of the male lead’s lines, and then turns to you, asking you what your favourite scene is.

the question catches you off guard for a bit, unsure if you had even watched enough of the movie to actually have a favourite scene. you think for a moment before settling on a simple answer,

“the kiss scene,” you tell him. it’s a romance movie after all, right? robin grins and nods with excitement before launching into a monologue about how romantic that scene was - how sweet and heart-fluttering.

a playful smile settles on your lips at his enthusiasm, and you have half a mind to tease him.

so you do.

“i loved when she said, oh...what was it?” you pretend to ponder, stopping in your tracks under a streetlight as if it would help you think. robin stops obediently beside you, waiting patiently for you to speak, a look of genuine curiosity on his face. you feel him give your hand a squeeze of encouragement.

he’s so cute.

“ah, that’s right. she said,” you clear your throat and put on a bit of a voice, trying your best to imitate same tone that the actress had, “i wish you would not call me my dear because it’s what my father always calls my mother whenever he’s cross about something." 

you watch as a robin glances away for a moment, perhaps because he feels bashful, or perhaps because he is hesitant to return your teasing. but the moment is short-lived, as he turns back to you, a familiar confidence in his voice when he recites,

"what endearments am i allowed, then?"

“well let me think,” you pause like the lady did in the film. “lizzy, for every day. my pearl for sundays, and...goddess divine. but only on very special occasions.”

robin’s face flushes warmly under the yellow glow of the streetlight, his gaze shifts from yours briefly, and you can see the bob of his adam’s apple as he swallows hard before meeting your eyes again,

“and what shall i call you when i’m cross? mrs. darcy?”

“no!” you give him an exaggerated look of scandal, one that he giggles at. “no, you may only call me mrs. darcy when you are completely, perfectly, and incandescently happy.”

“and how are you this evening,” robin continues, much quieter this time, his voice fading considerably as he recalls the meaning behind those words. “mrs. darcy?”

you don’t say anything in return, content to beam at him instead, watching with adoration as he shifts shyly under your gaze. he’s the first to break the silence, releasing a small, awkward laugh as he notes in the softest of whispers,

“and then we kiss.”

he waits for barely a second longer before he’s turning away, ready to speed walk back to the orphanage in silence, already proud enough of himself for having made it to the end of such a conversation without running away prematurely.

but his hand is still clasped in yours, fingers still intertwined, palms still touching.

so he doesn’t get very far before he turns back, a quizzical look replacing his bashful one, wondering why you won’t move.

you smile back at him mischievously, and robin can feel a shiver travel down his spine. he knows that smile. you’re not done teasing him yet.

“and then we kiss,” you say, repeating his words louder, announcing them to the still of the night, where there is no audience. no one but you and robin and the silence.

even the crickets have quieted for you.

you think you see him gulp again. in fact, you’re sure you do, because you can feel his hand growing clammier in yours as the weight of your words settle into the night air and permeate into every nook and cranny of robin’s stream of consciousness.

robin finds himself frozen to the spot. he knows his eyes are wide and his cheeks are the reddest they’ve been all night. he can feel the burn up his neck, on his ears, all over his face. his breath comes in small pants and he feels like suddenly it’s hard to breathe.

it’s hard to look into your eyes, but it’s also hard to look away. he doesn’t know what to do.

he barely registers the small tug you give his hand, pulling him closer. his body - completely on autopilot at this point - moves closer of its own accord. he certainly didn’t tell it to do that.

and when he stumbles closer to you, he’s both mortified and ecstatic. he tries to figure out which one he feels more of, but his mind is still a jumble at the implications of your words and actions, and he abandons thinking all together.

he gazes down at you, the wistful longing in his eyes meeting the playful expectancy in yours.

robin feels and hears his breath hitch in his throat as you begin to lean in closer. the entire situation is just becoming too much for him. he finds himself both eager to kiss you, and yet reluctant to do so, the vestiges of the threat of rejection still lingering in the back of his mind.

you were just teasing him, after all, right? what if you were just joking about the kiss, too then?

he flounders, at a loss, so he settles for squeezing his eyes shut, deciding to let you do whatever you wanted with him.

he would let you kiss him if you wanted. because he wanted you to. or, at least he wanted you to want to. wanted you to want you to want him to?

robin tries to quiet his thoughts.

seconds pass. and pass. the anticipation in his stomach builds.

and yet, nothing.

he feels a soft puff of air on his lips from so close and then, the distinct melody of your laugh. warily, he cracks open his eyes to see you, eyes full of mirth, cheeks pink, lips stretched in a large smile, laughing at him.

but you can’t help it. he’s being too cute!

the way he had shut his eyes, pursed his lips, and stood there, still as a board, completely at your mercy was both parts endearing and silly, and before you knew it, you found yourself first holding back giggles and then full-on laughing at his antics.

somehow, the unimpressed look on his face now only make it funnier.

the street is silent, and robin lets the sound of your laugh fill the air without interruption, infusing the cold night with your familiar warmth. despite not getting a kiss, robin still finds comfort in the happy sound of your laugh, and lets that sink into his bones as he takes a deep breath, trying to recompose himself.

once you’ve finally calmed down, you part your lips to speak, but you don’t get the chance to say anything.

you barely get the chance to catch the look of disappointment in robin’s eyes, the pout his lips are settled into, the small whimper he exhales before he leans forward in one confident motion and meets his lips to yours.

you still in shock. and delight.

and then disappointment as robin pulls away as fast as he pushed in.

his kiss had been barely a peck. his lips had only just met yours, and he was already pulling away?

not a chance.

you recognise the look in his eyes as he does so - apologetic and panicked. but you don’t pay it any mind and use your free hand to pull him by the collar back down so that he was eye level with you again, crashing your lips onto his with perhaps more force than you had intended.

robin squeaks in surprise, but quickly melts into the kiss himself, his apologies long forgotten.

he brings up his free hand to rest on your waist, the warmth radiating from his palm seeping past the fabric of your top and staining your skin in the most delightful way.

his lips are chapped and clumsy, but eager and enthusiastic enough to take your breath away anyway. you tilt your head slightly, deepening the kiss, pushing yourself closer to him, and he whimpers softly in appreciation.

you find yourself about to moan back in response, but catch the sound in your throat before you let yourself go entirely.

here, on some nondescript sidewalk, standing next to some overgrown brush.

an old streetlight illuminating your two figures, already pressed so close together and only trying to get closer.

you have half a mind to pull away, to continue this later. you could still kiss in the (relative) safety of the orphanage, after all. in the warmth of your room or the cosiness of robin’s bed.

as opposed to out here. where it’s definitely not safe. and definitely not romantic, warm, or cosy.

but when you finally pull away for air, and robin whines softly against your lips in protest, you can’t help but pull him into another hungry kiss, lungs burning and head dizzy.

his lips slot against yours again after only seconds apart - seconds too long, might you add - and you can’t stop the satisfied sigh you let fall into his mouth.

turns out, it doesn’t matter where you kiss robin because it’s always going to be warm and cosy and romantic and perfect.

as long as it’s with him.

i must admit, i don't watch very many romance movies, so writing this included googling "best movie kisses," and after watching countless videos, i finally ended up settling for a scene from pride and prejudice (2005). a movie that i, admittedly, have not seen, so i didn’t even know they kissed in it. but i thought the dialogue was just too cute! had i not found the kiss scene in pride and prejudice, the alternative would have been that one fountain scene from the princess diaries 2: royal engagement (2004). would’ve been a way different fic, that’s for sure.

[h3rmitsunited]

Continuing Thoughts on Age of Calamity: I am about 19 hours in at this point and oh man are things going down. Just wanted to record some of my thoughts, theories, reactions, etc... before I get to the last four missions of the story because I’m just thinking about this non-stop and want to share.

Spoilers below the read more, so don’t read if you plan on playing the game. It is a lot more fun to experience in the game than reading it, so just you know, don’t read it.

THE NEW BOTW CHAMPIONS ARE HERE, THE OG CHAMPIONS ARE ALIVE! 

-After the siege of the castle mission that ends with the king's death at the hands of the guardians off screen and the menu music changing to the awesome dark theme and the prompt on the screen saying that Mipha, Daruk, Revali, and Urbosa are trapped in the Divine Beasts, I legitimately cried a little bit. Like I was mostly tearing up because of the bit with Zelda and her father and Link dragging her away, but with the context of BOTW and the Divine Beasts and the Champions having been killed in battle with the Calamity Blights, I was like holy crap, they killed them, they're trapped because they died, but then I started the next chapter and decided to do Urbosa and Revali's first and then it starts and they're both still alive and then we see that Teba and Riju come through and like I lost my shit. I was like WHAT!? IS!? HAPPENING?! I thought that it was a really cool way to get more characters to play as (because this is a Warriors game so the vast array of characters to play as is a selling point) and a cool way to keep the OG Champions from being dead which is depressing. So I got Urbosa and Revali back and then realized what this meant for the other mission, that Mipha would be saved by giant grown Sidon and it was just as cute and sweet as I thought it was going to be. And then them working together on the Divine Beast and teaming up and you can see how much Sidon missed his sister and looks up to her, despite the fact that he is literally ginormous and she is a tiny little thing. It made me tear up. The other champion relationships don't really hit that hard because none of them actually met each other before, but it was pretty funny the bit with Teba and Revali when Revali is once again being an asshole to Link and Teba is just like.... WTF? This is the Rito champion, he's like kind of a di- and Urbosa is like yes, we know. Moving on. Because like damn, they really turned Revali's dick factor way up in this game. Like seriously, bird, can you like chill?

-Anyways, another thing that got me going literally insane was the bit in Hyrule field with Astor and Sooga and Kohga when Astor was like...pulling soul power or something from the Yiga soldiers and like turned it into Hollow Link and when I saw that I was like losing my mind. I don't know why it got me so hyped up, but it did and I'm very excited to battle it out with this dark Link character.

-I just finished the battle at Akkala citadel, which was a pretty cool fight, and going to go into the next battle, something about thunder, so obviously another Divine Beast lead in with Divine Beast support trying to fight off Guardians and monsters and stuff. From the placement, it appears like it'll be near Hateno, and will be involving Urbosa and Vah Nahboris. I don't really care for the Divine Beast levels. They are frustrating to control and the camera movements are annoying and the targeting system just is frustrating. The level with Vah Rudania fighting off the guardians was so annoying, just trying to target the guardians and move around and then I just kept getting stuck on the walls and stuff and the movements are so slow, and it was just like, I don't really care for this at all, thanks... I much prefer the on the ground, quick fighting. Obviously, Link is the most intuitive and easiest to use, he's the highest level, and he's the main fighting character, so he's my favorite to use. I really want to unlock the Hyrule Warriors armor set, so I'm going to have to do a ton of quests and stuff which is a lot, but it will make me keep playing the game for a while, which is good since the game cost sixty dollars. It's fun to play though, so I feel like it's worth it. -Regarding the timeline pieces, I'm really conflicted about the backstory elements that we're getting, and I realize that the moment the eggo was introduced, it set this timeline off into a completely different direction, but it brings up questions for me about the original timeline. We don't really know exactly when the Hyrule Warriors timeline starts out and how far from the Calamity attack it was in the past. I would assume that it wasn't too far in the past, most like like less than a year, maybe less than six months? It's difficult to tell because we don't get a whole lot of context. We are given the information that in this game, the Calamity attack on the castle happens at the same time as in the original timeline, on Zelda's 17th birthday, maybe a little sooner, since in the OG, she's coming down from Lanayru with Link and in this one, I think she's leaving the castle to go to Lanayru when the attack happens. But when did everything else happen? How long has Link had the Master sword and been the chosen knight? He's been following Zelda in this timeline since eggo was introduced, but he was still "just a knight" at that point, even if he was a really good and talented one. But wouldn't that mean that he activates his power in Korok forest like barely anytime before the Calamity attack? I mean I guess in the OG timeline, we can kind of get hints that Link hasn't been chosen for a super long time, since Zelda questions him about how confident he is with the Master Sword and can he hear the voice, and is a bit more antagonistic with him, so he probably hadn't been doing that for a super long time either, but it does feel like he's had it longer in the OG timeline memories compared to here when he gets the Master sword and then like two missions later Ganon is popping up at the castle. I mean, it wouldn't make sense really to drag things out a super long time, so I understand that having a bunch of extra cut scenes and missions that aren't super plot relevant would be kind of weird, especially with this Astor dude's involvement, he would want to push things along. But the Ganon attack still happens the same time as the OG timeline, so all of these things happen within the same amount of time. I don't remember in the OG timeline if we ever got any details about how Link awakened his power. I do like how they did it in this version, how it was like a parallel to how Zelda awakened her power protecting Link, which gave me all the Zelink feels, but I just want canon backstory for the OG timeline, you know? We know that this timeline isn't canon for the OG timeline because of eggo being involved, so we can only really pull character elements from this timeline rather than specific plot elements. I also wondered about Impa since she is there kind of escorting Zelda in most of the missions, but was only in BOTW as an old lady, which is fine because they likely hadn't have developed that into the story at that point, but I also think maybe since Link in AOC hasn't become the chosen knight until later, he wasn't seen as capable or trustworthy enough to be her sole escort knight and wanted to keep Impa around for additional protection or something. I don't know, doesn't make a whole lot of sense, but whatever. I'm also trying to remember... when did the Champions get their champion clothes? Does Link have the blue tunic on in all the memories? I'm pretty sure that one of the first memories is that depressing one where Zelda is like knighting Link or something in the gazebo thing in front of the castle, but I can't remember the order... It's just all so confusing and I'm sure I'm deeply overthinking everything and that they're kind of just like retconning elements, but like what does it all mean? I mean maybe... maybe... since Zelda remembers the eggo in her like baby dream memory in that one cut scene, maybe that means eggo was also sent way back in time to the beginning of her life, so this timeline is deeply changed from the beginning of her life, so while the initial difference weren't super evident, just some small things, once they got to later in the timeline and all the Master sword/Champion stuff, it really just like threw everything in the air. I don't know why it bothers me so much, I think it's just me Zelink heart wanting Link and Zelda to have more time together when it's not just crazy monster fighting sad Zelda all the time like in the AOC cutscenes. In BOTW, we get these soft little memories of Zelda and Link researching in the field and riding horses and stuff and like yes the ever present concern about Zelda's power and Ganon is there in the memories still, but it feels more intimate and slow and down to earth. I think it's also because in several of the memories, it's just them two, and in AOC, there hasn't really been any memories with just the two of them together, so it has a different feel to it. I liked in BOTW, the stories in Zelda's diary about talking to Link about his destiny and why he doesn't talk and how he feels the weight of this title and it keeps him silent and it gave Link this interesting depth and emotion that you couldn't really see without that, and then in the AOC, there are some little moments where you see Link having a scrap of emotion, tiny smiles he gives to Zelda, serious face, confused, happy to eat stuff, but most of his moments are the little grunts and blank stares that he gives. Like seriously? Zelda's father just died, she feels like it's all her fault and Link's response is a tiny smile and a "huh". Like yes, there are dynamics with them, she's a princess, he's a knight, he's protective of her and doesn't push her boundaries or whatever, but like just hug please. I loved that memory in the forest in BOTW where she just collapses into his chest and he holds her and we see this pained expression on his face and it's like yes please give me more not lobotomized Link. Like I know this sounds like complaining, because it is, and like I do understand they want Link to kind of be this blank slate, character insert type of character, but give him something please! 

-I'm hoping we get some good content in these last few mission cut scenes. I'm getting down to the last few missions, only four left, and looking at the chapter titles, which is the only spoilers that I have allowed myself, I'm like, okay, what is going to happen next. And like I'm going to go out on a limb here and say that we win and the bad BOTW timeline ending is subverted and Ganon has to go night night, but like who knows, maybe they'll surprise me, but probably not. This is supposed to be a game that you keep playing after you finish the main story, so like killing off a bunch of playable characters and having it end in destruction would be probably not so smart...

-Okay, that's all my current thoughts. I'll be playing more tonight and we'll see if I finish the story tonight, or maybe I'll have to stop myself and take a breather before blasting through the remaining missions. I finished I think three missions(?) last night, and I had a break for dinner, but like I don't work tomorrow, so like, I could probably blast through the last ones, but I'd also still need to do some additional quest stuff in between for level up purposes since I just go through rupees like crazy. Oh my gosh, that reminds me... it is so dang annoying when you get one of those like quest find item marker things that lights up when you have all the items and you're like sweet I'll complete this and as you're pressing the button, out of habit, without super paying attention, you realize it's going to cost like 2,000 rupees or something and it's like... not again! I can't tell you how many times I have done this and it's so annoying. Like warn me if I have to pay rupees, I don't want to use my brain, game! Lol yes, it's my fault, I'm not really mad.

-Okay, the end. For now. TLDR: This game is fun and unexpected, but it is also not BOTW, so don't go into this expecting BOTW mechanics or gameplay. But hey, smashing through tons of enemies is also kind of satisfying too. Also, like the new enemies are wild. Elemental Moblins, Hinoxs, Lynels, Guardians(!), the use of the Elemental weapons is a cool mechanic, and it's cool having some cinematic fight moments, even if it might get repetitive after playing the game for a while, but you also can use a ton of different characters, so there's variety there, I just have yet to leave my boy because he's the easiest to blast through anything and everything, though Impa is pretty cool too, even if most of my moves with her are random button smashes since I don't really have a good grip on how her moves work. At least with Link it's pretty obvious and I've gotten better about actually having some sort of strategy with how he works, the other characters I haven't played enough to have any sort of knowledge on how they work. Also Zelda's moves are not fun to play at all, sorry, but they're just annoying and useless. Also Daruk is bad at fighting Hinoxes. Okay, now, the end.

[markiebutterhands]

Past Diary Entries

December 6th, 2012

This day has been an eye opener for me. Everyone seemed to have forgotten me when I blacked out, which kinda made me sad… Luckily I was able to talk to Jubileena. I was quite surprised she could still remember me, apart from Princess/President Vanellope of course.

Speaking of which, she’s so extra nice today! I mean, she gave me gold coins so I could go back to racing again. She’s always been this sweet even back then. Wish Taffyta could realize she’s a great friend. Anyway, back to Jubileena, I never realized she’s such a sweet person too, I mean she explained everything to me somehow and I understood it all. The guy responsible for my disappearance was named King Turbo Turbo Candy King Candy, and that he was actually some other guy named Turbo. I still don’t know how he was able to take over, but I guess that’s all in the past now and hopefully I won’t hear from him again. I mean, the nerve of that guy, ruining our game, and making me disappear! Jubileena explained that the blue numbers flashing on my body meant I was glitching, and that guy was the one behind it all. I’m glad that he’s no more and I can go back to racing again. Oh, before I forget, Candlehead and Sour Bill also explained a lot to me too. Just like Jubileena, they both told me how this guy ruined our game and all, and there was this scary guy named Ralph who helped restore our game back to what it was. Wish I could meet him to thank him in person, though I do hope I’d avoid making him angry… Both Candlehead and Jubileena told me he’s kinda dangerous and ugly too, but when I learned he helped us out, I guess he’s not so bad. You can’t judge a book by its cover after all. So um, what else. Oh, right, there was a cute little version of Candlehead who talked to me too! I was surprised, really thought she became sick or something that’s why she got so small! But I learned she’s sorta a different from the Candlehead I know. But, that doesn’t matter I guess. They’re both sweet and kind, just the way I remembered her. Sigh, if only she could talk to me more… Anyway, I’m so glad I got to know Jubileena more. I always thought she was hard to approach, being Taffyta’s closest friend and all, but I learned that she’s actually really sweet and caring… I’m glad I’ve made a new friend. I guess that’s it for today, until tomorrow then… December 7, 2012

Today was so much fun! I mean so many things happened to me , and I realized how much I missed out from when I disappeared…

Anyway, today I was able to spend a lot of time with Candlehead. Sigh, I wish we could’ve spent more time together though. We enjoyed eating cupcake together in the cupcake fields, and I don’t know why, but

eating,

no, actually, everything becomes twice as better when she’s around… Somehow whenever she smiled at me, I feel sorta funny and fuzzy inside… I wonder why. Anyway, um, what else, oh, we left Sugar Rush and went to the Central Station. Boy was it packed! I mean, I know it always was, but the new games installed when I was away meant that there were more people than ever! So anyway… she wanted to go to Hero’s Duty, and I was ready to go with her, but for some reason she changed her mind and let me decide. So I went with Pacman. Um, what else, Oh, I saw a cherry lying down on the ground as we explored there. I was kinda hungry that time so I decided to get it, I mean, no one seemed to want it ‘cause it was just lying around. But suddenly out came Pacman fuming mad! I mean, I didn’t know he liked his fruits so much, the fruit was technically on the floor. If I were someone else I would’ve thought no one wanted it too. But I guess I should have thought of him first before I tried to get it… Anyway, me and Candlehead ran so fast to escape him, and thankfully got away. I don’t think I will come back to Pacman ever again… Though I wish I could’ve picked up the cherry before leaving…

Um… what else… Oh, I met Taffyta today and tried to make her  smile. I mean, I never thought she was actually ever happy… Anyway, I tried but she was still as mean as ever. Had to go back to my house to change my clothes because she dumped all that smoothie on me… Sigh… I really hope she does change…

Oh, almost forgot. Something seems to be weird with Jubileena. She was just at my height yesterday but today she seems taller! I’m not sure how that happened but is that what everyone meant by “growth spurt”? Gosh, they don’t kid around when they meant spurt alright… So I told her to get ready with new clothes and maybe she could get a new kart so she could fit inside and still drive…

Also met with President Vanellope today, and boy was she extra kind! I really enjoy being with her alot and she’s such a great friend even if she’s president and all… She even invited me to eat pie over at Ralph’s place. Speaking of which, I was able to meet him, and even if he was stinky and ugly like everyone told me, I can feel he’s a sweet and caring guy. I’ve yet to see him angry though, and I don’t think I would want to, ever… Umm, so President Vanellope invited me to accompany her to Ralph’s place to eat pies, and that’s really sweet of her… I hope she’d always be our president because she’s so awesome and kind. She even made me feel I was special even if I’m not really on the same level as her… and I’m so thankful for that.

I think she likes Rancis though

. Anyway, she told me she’d introduce me back to the others, knowing that they could have forgotten me, and that cheered me up alot. I mean, it’s kinda hard to just walk up to them and introduce myself… Especially with Rancis and the other cool guys… I was so happy that I seem to forget myself and hugged her alot… I even cried! Though I admit, looking back it was kinda embarassing… Um, what else… Oh, she told me she’d help me be a better racer too! Oh I really wish I could finally learn how to race well like her and the others… Anyway, I felt that I should at least give back something to her in return, with all the kindness she showed me, so I asked her if I could help around with stuff in the castle and she agreed. I just hope I wouldn’t mess stuff again though… I gotta keep my startling in control… But it makes me content to know she’s willing to let me help around… :)

So, that’s it for today… Looking forward to another day tomorrow!

December 8, 2012

I’m so happy today! I hope this keeps on rolling!

Let’s see, I met with President Vanellope today and she agreed to let me help around the castle! Isn’t that great? I feel content and happy that I’m a part of something big! Oh, and I get to help out our president herself! Boy, she’s really kind… I do hope she stays sweet that way… I promise I’d always vote for her, the bestest president anyone could ask for! She really made me feel I was so special, even sometimes I feel like I don’t deserve it… But I’m really happy she does… Anyway, what else, um, oh yeah, she gave me my first assignment and that is to hang candy canes on a huge tree for the big party on Glitchmas! I’m so happy that I accepted the job right away! It was really hard at first though… I kept breaking the canes I put on because they kept falling from the tree… Eventually I got the hang of it though, with our awesome president’s help, no less! And she even promised that any canes left not hung there, we could eat! How awesome is that! Anyway, we were supposed to do 200 canes total for the tree, and we split the job between the two of us. I wonder if she would treat like a race, I mean first one to finish hanging their candy canes would win and get a prize? Well, guess that’s just wishful thinking on my part. I would never know. So, after we hang candy canes, we would string popcorn next. I hope that it’s exciting too, but I don’t really know how to string them together. I guess I’d have to get help from president again… Oh, I do hope she won’t get tired of me… So, yeah, today I finished like 30 canes, so I still got 70 canes to go. I wonder how many of canes president Vanellope was able to hang… Anyway, I also talked with Ralph today. He seemed upset though. Ever since I asked him a question and president told us all that we racers came from storks or something, he became all uncomfortable and annoyed. I wonder what president meant by that anyway? Gee, they weren’t kidding when they said Ralph is really scary when he’s angry. When he shouted, I almost peed in my pants… Yeah.. :( Anyway, I hope he’d calm down sooner… I didn’t mean to ask Ralph about that, President started it anyway…

So umm.. yeah, earlier I saw Jubileena again, and she just keeps growing taller! I don’t know why though… And I saw some weird sorta cherry syrup thing flowing down from her skirt… I wonder what that was? It’s kinda messy honestly… But she hurried back home and cleaned herself up and came back before I was even able to bid her off. All’s well that ends well I suppose. And she’s still mad at Taffy because of that incident she was talking about. I mean I wouldn’t be surprised… I’d be pretty mad too if someone would use me to do their work all the time… Guess being an NPC would be the least of Taffy’s worries…

What else, oh yeah! I got to be with Candlehead again! She’s really sweet… She still likes to hang out around with me even though I almost got the both of us hurt… Anyway, after we left Pacman we went back to Sugar Rush and she invited me to race…  I was already having fun racing with her but then there was this darn curve that came out of nowhere, and I panicked and spun round and round (Was really dizzy by that time …) Then I hit a jawbreaker and I went flying out of my kart and landed on a chocolate mudpuddle. I guess I shouldn’t be racing much before I really get the hang of it… Now my whole body’s hurting and I have to rest… But Candlehead agreed to accompany me! She’s such a sweet girl… Um, anyway, I forgot to tell that I lost my butter pat ‘cause I threw it on Pacman when he was chasing us down… Guess I’ll have to get another one once I get well again… At least Candlehead’s here with me so I guess things aren’t so bad…

Anyway, that’s it for today! Gotta rest my tired body…  

December 9, 2012

*Diary entry is completely illegible, full with drawings of Markie, Jubileena and Candlehead doing mushy stuff*

December 10, 2012

Gosh… I guess I was so drunk yesterday… Oh well… Today was a great day as usual. My injuries seem to be healing quicker than I imagined. I think tomorrow I might be able to race again if ever there’s gonna be one…

Anyway, some stranger with a gray face cast a spell on me and I felt so drunk! I wouldn’t say it’s so bad but I just feel so ashamed of all the trouble I caused… I could remember well how I called Candlehead “Candy” and Jubileena “Sweetcheeks”. Sigh, I hope they could forgive me for that…

Speaking of Jubileena, I’m glad she’s back to her old self again. I thought she would just keep growing and growing until she’d be older than that King Candy Turbo maybe? Luckily another gray-faced stranger changed her back to her usual self. Man, I wish those types of gray faces would be the ones to approach me… Lately I seem to be getting those who cause trouble… Which reminds me of the time when I was so drunk. I came across Jubileena who was still 14 by the time and talked to her sorta indecently. But honestly, I guess I sorta like being drunk… At least it makes my dumb nervous coding disappear awhile… Anyway, so yeah, I talked to her and called her ‘sweetcheeks’. I hope she’s not that mad at me about that though. We talked on for hours, about how people thinks she’s dangerous and violent. I mean come on! Even if she can be violent, that’s no way to treat such a pretty girl like her… I really felt sorry for her that time. I guess I kinda feel the same way when everyone didn’t really paid attention to me because I’m not as good as them when it comes to racing…

Anyway, being drunk as I am, I told her I couldn’t understand why people kept treating her the way they did when she’s really a sweet and kind girl, and pretty too! I guess I overdid it though, you really do funny things when you’re drunk… Guess I kinda told her that I liked her too… Well, Candlehead didn’t really paid attention to me anyway, but Jubileena really treats me like a good friend, so I guess I liked her a lot because of that, and that she’s really cute. I do wish I could’ve talked to her more way back then, but I guess now is as good as ever. I promised her that no matter what happens to her I’ll be there to help.

So anyway, turns out she likes me too but only as a friend. She told me that I was too goody-goody for her tastes… Guess what she meant was she needed someone who has a mean side to them or something. Like Rancis or Gloyd.Anyway, I didn’t expect I’d be that hurt too, even when I kinda expected her to reject me… But all’s good now, so I guess I can’t complain. Then we talked about Candlehead, who I really liked for a long time. She told me to go and ask her out but I’m kinda scared of getting rejected again… I mean she did reject me just recently. I don’t think I’d be able to bear it if Candlehead would reject me too… So I passed for now…

Well, that’s until I went home and found Candlehead there, visiting me ‘cause I was all alone and injured. Gosh, I think when I drunkenly talked to her I kept saying indecent stuff too… I could have sworn I told her I love her while I was drunk… Luckily she wasn’t offended at all! I was so scared that she’d leave me and never talk me again… But I guess everything was alright. She did remind me what I told her though and boy was I so embarrassed that I hid under my blanket. I mean, you’d do the same thing if you drunkenly told your crush that you liked them, right? Anyway, so there, we talked awhile about how she felt about that, and then I was so surprised to know that she felt the same way! I was so happy that I hugged her on the spot so tight. I really wanted her to know how I felt about her and I’m really thankful for this day that I got my chance, and got to know that she felt the same way. But I guess I can’t be too happy though. Even if I told her I always liked her for a long time she didn’t really talked back, and she was silent… I can’t blame her though, perhaps she’s still confused about her feelings. But I suppose I should let her stay that way. When I met her and saw me go all jittery again, she told me I looked absolutely adorable. Perhaps that meant that she really liked me after all? I’d never know until she tells me.

Anyway, when I felt I could walk, I took a stroll outside and saw the strangest thing ever. I thought I saw a girl walking by but then she became all jittery and blue numbers kept appearing on her body the same way I did. Then with a bright flash of blue light, she disappeared! It was really weird! And that’s not all, what stood in her place was a squirrel with a black cowl! How weird is that? Well, at least the squirrel was so adorable though. She kinda looks like a ninja even! She’s got knives and pouches too! Anyway, apparently she WAS the girl from earlier. Her name’s Bonibelle and she explained to me that she glitched and got turned into a ninja squirrel. I don’t mind though, she looks so cute that I just want to take her home to be my new companion. I mean, it really gets so lonely when you’re just living by yourself and all…

So we talked alot and then we came to the subject of racing. I told her that I wasn’t so good and that my kart isn’t really the best, and then she told me she knew a mechanic that could help me with my kart! I was so thankful to her for letting me know that, since I really really need someone to help my kart be better. Sometimes I get tired of always slipping on the track and landing on mud chocolate…

So anyway, she told me to get my kart and we’ll bring it to her mechanic first thing tomorrow! Man I’m so excited. I just wish I could be able to get my kart fixed and improved before I could start racing again… Which reminds me that I promised President Vanellope that I’d participate in her racing game with Beezle after we finish hanging glass cookies! I just can’t wait to get my kart remodeled and fixed! Oh, I just hope the mechanics could help me… I really could use a better kart.

Anyway, I’m getting really sleepy and all, so I think I’d call it a day. Until tomorrow!

P.S. One of the gray faces turned me into a girl. I do hope the others won’t avoid me because of this…

December 11, 2012

I guess this is quite a normal day for me. Anyway, I showed my new squirrel friend my  ol’ kart, the Superslick, but somehow she didn’t tell me what she thought of it yet. Sigh, I guess I’d be pretty speechless too if I saw a kart like that… I mean it’s already worn down and all from crashing to everything… Sigh. Really could use some better driving skills, and maybe it’s high time I replaced my kart too…

I tried to learn to make fruitcake because I promised Jubileena I’d make her one. I mean I don’t see a reason she wouldn’t like it because fruitcake is made with cherries!   And with different colors too. There are red cherries of course but there are also green cherries too, and they kinda taste the same, actually. Only the colors were different. Anyway, I really have to make one soon. A whole bunch of thanks to Mister Sour Bill for letting me have an audience with the royal baker! I’m really thankful we have him as our president’s adviser… I mean what would we do without him? Anyway, it was because of him that the royal baker taught me everything he knew about baking. Well, it was really hard at first because I kept getting nervous about getting the amount of ingredients right… I kept making things which had either too much or too little… Luckily the baker taught me really well! I mean he was so good at teaching that even I overcame my nervousness about measuring the ingredients! Then he let me in on a secret; he was once like I am now! I mean being klutzy and all. Who would have thought it? I mean he’s the best baker in all of sugar rush! I’m really glad he agreed to teach me! It really inspired me to do my best in baking and soon enough, I made a good cake! Even the royal baker approves! Oh I’m so excited! Just you wait Jubi, I’ll make you the best fruitcake ever! :D

Anyway, what else, oh, President told me we’d have a race today, but I guess Adorabeezle wasn’t around… I mean I haven’t received any word from prez herself yet… But maybe it’s for the best, since my kart’s still pretty much looking bad. I really need to meet a mechanic to check up on my kart… At least we’re all finished decorating the castle though. That was pretty hard work! Especially the bit with those glass cookies. They were really tricky to hang because when they fall then they’d break into like a thousand pieces and you can’t put them back again… Anyway, I kept breaking some but then eventually I got the hang of it! Oh, before that we also had a race to see which of us could hang candy canes on the holiday tree the fastest! I was going at it and thought that I won, but then the last cane I put slipped and fell. Sigh… I thought for sure I was gonna win, but all’s good I guess. I’m just as happy just seeing president jumping for joy and all that. :)

Umm, what else… Oh, Candlehead promised me that she’d go out with me after I’m normal again. I really hope she goes with it though… I don’t really know how she feels about me… I mean she did tell me she likes me but does she really really like me too? Sigh, I guess I’ll just hafta see for myself… I still feel unsure too… maybe because I still kinda like Jubileena.

Anyway, I guess that’s it for tonight… Oh, one more thing, I really do hope everyone could ever get along… I mean I just saw my friend Jubi and mean Taffyta go at it again… Even Mister Sour Bill almost got involved. I mean I was really surprised that they fought over who he liked more… Sigh… I really do hope you’d change Taffy… We’re all that we’ve ever got and I hope you can see that… And for my friend, I do hope she’s okay. I mean after their fight she’s kinda been acting abit strange… Oh Jubi, I hope you’re okay… I haven’t even given you my fruitcake yet… I hope president and Mister Bill could talk sense into them, but mostly for Taffyta, because it’s really kinda her fault and all…

Anyway, I think that’s it for today. Till tomorrow! Hope it’s another great day in store for us all. :)

December 12, 2012

Today was a really great day, but I guess it didn’t start so well at first. I mean, Beezle still didn’t show up today, and there wasn’t any mechanic available to take a look at my kart. Sigh, so much for going to the pit crew area. Oh Bonnie, I’m sorry if I bored you after all… I do hope she still hangs out with me again, though. I kinda miss her cuteness and soft fur. I guess she’s pretty busy today, so I guess I can’t complain…

So, what else, hm. I met another racer, and I’m so surprised she looked exactly like Jubileena! I even mistook her for her! It was pretty crazy. But unlike Jubileena, she wore dark blue and purple clothing. Anyway, she greeted me first and I asked her if she was Jubi, but boy was I in for a surprise. She angrily told me that she wasn’t Jubileena and I felt I touched a nerve there for mistaking her for Jubi… Can’t blame her, I mean maybe she was called Jubi alot, but it’s because she’s really identical to her! Anyway, despite all that, I thought she was friendly as she quickly calmed down when she realized she burst out at me… I mean she actually kissed me on the cheek! Nobody ever did that to me when they met me, maybe she was just trying to make up for her outburst at me seconds ago that time. Anyway, of course I blushed like mad, and then bid her farewell as she went off. Sigh, I hope the others were like her, I mean being nice…

So, what else. Oh yeah, Finally I met a mechanic willing to fix my kart! His name’s Adam von Schmidt, and he really looked the part. I can tell immediately that he was a mechanic from the clothes he wore. Anyway, I was kinda surprised and disappointed to learn that he actually didn’t know how to fix a kart! I mean, he says he’s an expert in other machinery and all, but a kart, he doesn’t know how to fix. Well, I guess I can’t blame him, never saw him before. Anyway, he’s still checking out my kart, learning how they work in the process. I mean, when I told him that our karts are made of sweets he reacted really strange. He told me something about oil and some other stuff that sounded unsweet, which leads me to think maybe he’s not really from our game. He looked so fascinated at how our karts work though. It was kinda funny watching him get to work because he never really saw a kart like ours.

And then the main event for this wonderful day that I had. I finally knew who I liked all along. I knew it felt strange that when Candlehead told me she liked me, I didn’t really feel it. Perhaps she was just shocked at me liking her, I mean, I did tell her how I liked her for a really long time. Maybe she was shocked or creeped out, I really didn’t know. I just felt like she just didn’t want to hurt me or something so she answered me without thinking. Anyway, I guess that doesn’t really matter anymore. All that matters is being with her, my sweet cherry. I’m so happy I was able to tell her that she’s the one I liked after all. Guess this would be the second time I told her that, but this time, she didn’t rebuff my affections. She told me she liked how I improved. I don’t really know what she meant by that, but I guess I could say I feel so powerful when I’m with her. It’s like she’s giving me the confidence I so badly need. I do stutter and get nervous all the time, but ever since we hung around together frequently, I started being more confident until I got to where I am now whenever I’m with her. I still get anxious around others who I don’t really know though. But whenever I’m with her, I don’t feel that way anymore. I guess you could say, she completes me… Oh Jubileena… my sweet cherry pie… you’re so awesome… *mushy doodles of Jubileena and Markie scatter down and across the rest of the page*

December 13, 2012

I’d have to say this day wasn’t a good one at all. I mean, I took longer to wake up than usual! Then the other racers told me that Litwak’s arcade had a blackout! Can you imagine that? Anyway, ever since I woke up, I kinda felt strange. It’s like there’s a strong feeling taking over me, trying to erase my anxious coding from existence. I wouldn’t say it’s a bad thing, but it’s really uncomfortable because I keep flitting from being nervous to relaxed and confident. I just hope the others won’t find it too strange. I mean, they did kinda bully president before because of it… But no matter. I know I’m not alone because I have Jubileena with me. She won’t let others mess around with me.

The others had it rough too. Candlehead came up to me earlier, and she told me she can’t remember anything! Wow, I guess having a glitch was the least of my worries. I mean I’d rather get messed up than having to forget everything at all! Especially now that I’m with Jubileena. Anyway, she walked up to me and told me who I was, and what’s more surprising is she didn’t even know who shewas! Can you believe that? She was actually afraid of her candle! I’d have to say that’s really strange and unfortunate. I feel sorry for her, but I heard she’s doing nicely recalling the things she forgot.

Fearing for the worst, I hurried to talk to Jubi. Oh boy was I so relieved when she told me the blackout didn’t affect her at all! Well, at first I thought she was back to being friends with Taffy again, but I’m not sure, perhaps it’s all a part of her plan. But I told her that I can’t approve of her ever. After what she did to me and the other guys and even Jubileena herself, I can’t ever forgive her. But for Jubi’s sake I will tolerate her when she’s around, just hope she stays away from us when I’m with her. So we talked about that and then we talked about that old candy geezer. I can’t believe she liked him? I know it’s not at the level of Taffyta’s but still! I really don’t understand how she could still like him. Having a hard time? I had a hard time too because of him! And everyone knows his “sweetness” was all a facade! Sigh. I guess I can’t complain, I mean I like Ralph and she seems to dislike him a lot, not just because of his stench. I guess I should understand that, I mean she has her friends I don’t like, and I have mine she doesn’t like too. No matter if it’s right or wrong I have to respect her preferences. I just hope those guys wouldn’t take more of her time than me. That geezer better definitely stay out of my way. Luckily I’m friends with Ralph, and genuinely, I think he’s a swell and cool guy.

Anyway, I guess this day turned out to be great after all. Jubi told me she was planning something really big for the upcoming Christmas feast. I tried to ask her what it was, but she says it’s a secret. I was kinda worried for her and all, so I told her I wanted to help her, but she refused my help. She told me that she worked alone, and that she didn’t want me to get involved with her since it was dangerous. She was even hesitant for us both because of this. I know that she meant well and all, but I know in my heart and code that I can’t let that happen. No, I just can’t… I’m sorry Jubi, but I just can’t lose you. Ever since I was deleted, I’ve got nothing to lose and I just moved forward with life without ever enjoying it. But all that changed when I got close to you. I’m sorry, Jubi… But I’ll be there when you need me the most, even if you will get angry at me. You gave me a reason to live, and I can’t lose that reason ever.

December 14, 2012

I can’t say this is the best of my days. I mean, it is kinda exciting and all, but I wouldn’t say I’m too happy.

Anyway, some gray-faced guy made my anxiety problem go away. Finally a grayface who actually helps and not mess your coding up. So anyway, because of this I feel like a whole new guy, and I got over my stuttering problem. So yeah, what else. Oh, I met Soure again, the girl from before who looked exactly like Jubi but blue? Yeah. I asked her to race with me but she turned it down, I mean at first I thought she just didn’t feel like it, but then she told me that her code didn’t allow her to race at all. My heart just reached out to her in pity, I mean seriously, why would you program a character that looked like a racer but couldn’t really race? Let alone having their own kart. Sigh, so anyway, I felt so much pity for her that I offered her a ride on my kart, you know, just to feel that she’s a racer for once. So yeah, everything went smoothly. She really enjoyed and appreciated what I was doing for her and all, but then she acted all strange and suddenly grabbed my hand. I was like woah, please don’t do that again because the last thing she would want is what always happened to me, being knocked away from my kart and flying directly to a chocolate mud puddle. I just didn’t want her to experience the same.

Anyway, what else… Hm, I met with Ralph earlier and I asked him what he thought of Jubi, and he said she was alright. Sigh, if only Jubi could realize that you’re really a swell guy. She’s too afraid of you and upset that you hurt her precious King Candy Turbo geezer… Who I would probably never learn to like. But I don’t understand why Jubi’s so inspired by him at all. Sigh, if only I didn’t promise Jubi I’d stop dissing on him then I would’ve told a lot more how I dislike the old fogey.

So, what else. Oh yeah, speaking of Jubileena, I stalked followed her where she was going, you know, just checking up on her and stuff, and then this weird clown kid shows up and talks to her intimately! Of all the nerve! Doesn’t she know me and Jubi are kind of like, going out?! So anyway, I just observed the two of them talk, then the moment came when he admitted his feelings to her. Can you believe that? Sigh, luckily Jubi flat out told him how she felt for him. Ha! But the guy didn’t stop there, oh no, he wasn’t ready to give up. So I did what any normal guy would do. I confronted him and told him to stay away. But he really didn’t take that all too well. Worst came to worst and we had to fight it out, with Jubi watching on the side. I felt it was the perfect opportunity to show Jubi what I could really do. So we fought, and we fought hard. The guy was really dirty, I mean come on, he went so far as to bite my leg! What a scumbag! So I responded to everything he threw at me and threw my own tricks at him. Admittedly he wasn’t a pushover but I have to say he’s nothing that I can’t handle. Then something weird happened. I was in a tight spot when I first tried to choke him, and then blue numbers kept flashing on my body again. When it stopped, I could feel myself turning into a different person. It was scary. But I wasn’t scared for too long because it somehow provided me with all the confidence I badly needed to prove not only that I am capable but also to prove that I loved Jubi alot. So anyway, I tried to take him out quickly but he was a really dirty scumbag clown. He pulled a can of spray paint on me and then peppered me while I was vulnerable. Sigh, the nerve at all. I can’t deny that he likes her so much but to stoop that low. I guess that’s why he’s a clown.

So anyway we had it for like forever. Then something about him changed. Maybe he probably realized that I was not who he thought he was and then went on and on how he liked Jubileena more than me. Then I broke it to him, the fact that I did get to her feelings closer than he’d ever be. I would almost feel sorry for him, ‘cept for the fact that he attacked me while I was trying to approach him. Yeah. I can’t really take that too lightly. Anyway, he seemed to have given way for me. Guess for an evil looking obsessed clown he’s nicer than he seems, and I can really say he loves her. But that doesn’t change the fact that because I love her too. I can’t let any fudging clown or any other guy for that matter take her away from me! Anyway, I saw Jubi reject the guy’s intention and it really made me so relieved. Hope that’s the last I’d ever see that guy’s face.

After he’s gone, I can feel that I’m back to normal, but not before glitching up so bad that I didn’t think anyone would understand when I talked. So anyway, after that I could feel my code turn back to normal, well not my normal-normal, I meant to say I didn’t glitch again and that heavy feeling of wanting someone to get hurt has gone too, I think. I do hope this continues on for a long time. If only I had powers like those grayfaces had. Sigh. Anyway, I hope Jubileena watched the entire fight! Now let’s see if I’m worthy of her. Perhaps she’d let me help her at all.

Anyway, I think that’s it for today. I’m really sleepy. Till tomorrow.

December 15, 2012

Nothing much happened today, but even then, this day was as good as ever! Earlier this morning I met something called a dinosaur! His name was Scar and he looked like a really big lizard with sharp teeth! He can roar too and stuff, and it was kinda scary! Even if I’m blessed with a confidence spell I still found it scary. I mean who wouldn’t of his whole head was bigger than the rest of your body? Anyway, he was so big that Ralph’s nothing compared to him! I wonder if he can take down those cybugs everyone’s been talking about…

Anyway, hm, what else. Oh, right, I met the strangest cat today. It had big black eyes and had no fur! I mean aren’t cats supposed to have fur? Wonder what happened to him, but then again, I don’t think I want to know.

Oh, and the main event of this day. I got to meet with my sweetest cherry pie again~ I was still kinda jealous that she kept talking to other guys and all but I guess there���s nothing wrong with that. I need to keep myself in place. Anyway, what else, and oh right, maybe I don’t have to worry about other guys, because she told me she liked me herself! She even asked me about how my fight with Sweet Tooth and I was so happy to hear that she’s concerned of me! And I got to know that she picked me over that guy after all! I’m really glad to hear this that I wanted to jump in happiness, but my leg won’t allow me. The wounds from the bite that guy did still smarts alot. Sigh, that scumbag really did my leg in. At least I feel better now that Jubi accompanied me and just her being there makes everything better. Sigh~

And Jubi even shared some of her famous pies with me. They were so great, just like the others told me! And maybe they tasted so delicious because after all, they were made by the sweetest cherry in the whole arcade~ Oh, Jubi, you’re so awesome~ Then we spent alot of time talking and other stuff~ I’m so looking forward to it again! Hopefully I could spend more time with her next time. My mun had to go out and I was stuck here tending to my wounds. Oh well, at least I guess that’s the least of my worries. I think tomorrow will be a more action-filled day, at least.

Getting sleepy now…  Till tomorrow!

December 16, 2012

Today was a great day! Finally I got to meet my new friend Bonny again. I wonder how long she’ll keep being a squirrel? I could’ve sworn she told me that some grayfaced guy turned her into one. Anyway, what else, oh yeah, we finally arrived at the Sugar Rush pit crew and mechanic zone, but unfortunately, her friend wasn’t around. Perhaps she was still busy fixing some stuff and all, I mean she wasn’t really there! Bonny and I were really disappointed, but oh well, I guess we’d have to make do with the other mechanics, but I don’t really know if they’ll fix my kart real good. The only reason I went here was to see Bonny’s mechanic since I trust her word. Oh well, I hope she doesn’t get bored at me or anything. I mean my kart does really look almost busted here and there.

What else, oh yeah, some weird cat pounced on me earlier this day. It was really nice to have a pet and all, and I do find him cute, but I was kinda weirded out by the fact that it didn’t have any fur at all! It was like someone tried to skin it alive and then stopped halfway. That and its eyes were like totally weird, I mean they’re  really big and totally black! Anyway, I still find him cute though. It got hungry and all that so I fed him gingerbread biscuits, not too sweet cookies since I thought cats didn’t really like the really sweet stuff. When I pet him it felt yeah, weird at first but it kinda grows on ya. I mean it’s not everyday you get to pet a hairless cat, right? Hmm, now that I mention it, perhaps it doesn’t swallow hairballs! Now that’s neat for a cat. Then not long after I was stroking it, I told him if only he could talk then it would be easier for me to understand it, then out of the blue, it spoke! I was really freaked out when it did because I never knew any talking cats! Well, Mister Tarbosaurus would have counted, but at least he talked as he approached me.

And oh, get this! I’ve totally lost my anxiety problem! It was so cool! I was going around doing my business when suddenly a small, winged girl suddenly appeared before me! She was so cool with the magic sparkles and all! Anyway, she gave me a big, sparkly ball of chocolate! She told me that it was actually magic and that when I take a bite out of it, it will totally take all my anxiety problems away! At first it was hard to believe it, but something told me I should just take a bite, so I did, and boy did I feel funny. Suddenly I floated and got covered with magic sparkles and stuff and I spun gently in place! It was crazy! Then after some time, I stopped spinning and the light was gone in a flash, then I landed gently on the ground. When I did, a sudden burst of power and excitement rushed throughout my body! I felt so strong that I couldn’t feel any part of my anxiety coding anymore! Anyway, I was so happy that I hugged her right there and then! Guess this would be a new chapter in my life! I’m confident that my life will start to change for the better, starting with my driving skills, which I badly need to develop. Seriously, this is amazing. The grayfaces could learn much from her. She’s so awesome and kind. She told me that apparently I had inner confidence already and she just helped me bring it out! Really, bless her kind soul.

Anyway, what else, hm, Oh, I met Dorabee again today, and she seems to be in a very generous mood today! I mean, she gave me three coins just because! Can you believe it! Most of the others won’t even dare to give away their hard-earned coins. Now I know Dorabee isn’t like most of them. Anyway, I guess she gave me coins out of pity because I really wasn’t winning races as much as the others do. So, what else. Oh, Mister Tarbosaurus sneezed on me earlier too and it reminded me what it felt like to be sent flying and crashing down on the ground. At least he apologized, but anyway, at least my bottom’s a lot better now.

So, I was with Jubileena the rest of the day, and it was so peaceful, yet fun at the same time. There’s never a dull moment with her even when we’re just sitting around and all. So apparently she’s got all she needs to do set in motion, and all that she needs is to wait for the day to come. Sigh, I dunno, I really do hope she can pull this off. Even that King Cybug Turbo geezer has his doubts, and somehow I agree, even if I dislike the guy. But I think it’s more out of jealousy and fear than anything else. I mean if she does pull this off she might make a more fitting king than he ever was, and I really think she is. Empress Jubileena Bing-bing. Has a nice ring to it, right? Whatever may happen, I’ll be waiting in the shadows if ever she’s gonna be in a tight spot. I really can’t lose her. I’d rather lose my own self than lose her. I can’t even imagine life without her again. I’ve been lonely for so long and I’m not going to lose my precious cherry for as long as I live. I really don’t know why the others can’t see that she’s really not bad. Why don’t they try living as Jubi for once? How something in their head tells them to go and create havoc? Let’s see if they can do any better! Poor Jubi… I’m always here. Even if everyone leaves you, I’ll always be here. And that’s the reason why I won’t be leaving you alone. I just can’t. No matter how you get angry at me, or I get caught and get executed, no. I won’t be just sitting still. You’ll thank me one day for it. Though I do hope I’d be around when you do. You mean so much to me and I can’t lose you. I won’t trade you for the world, and I’d rather go back to being deleted than be alone without you. I hope you’d understand. No one ever understands you, not even your king, as much as I do. I’ll forever be your loyal knight.

December 17, 2012

Today’s an alright day. I’ve decided to start baking fruitcake for the Christmas Feast as a promise to Sour Bill. It’s the least I can do to thank him for giving me an audience with the castle baker. And boy would he be in for a surprise! I’ll give them all the best fruitcake ever! At least they had a taste of one before that happens. Ehem, anyway, everything’s good. I’ve managed to bake 2 dozens now. Tomorrow I think I’ll still keep making them so I can do some other stuff when I’m totally free. Baking fruitcakes are serious and hardwork. I kid you not!

Anyway, I met the little human with wings again, and she told me her name was Flip. I thought it was a nice name for someone like her. Have I mentioned that she’s awesome! She’s the one responsible for turning me confident! I really owe it all to her, so I thought I’d give her fruitcake ‘cause it’s the least I can do to thank her properly. So anyway, I gave her a big slice of cake so she could keep it and eat it whenever she wants one! I made that cake with red and green cherries so it could really bring out that Christmas feel. When she took out a bite she said she liked it! Yes! That makes two people who like my baking! I’m really getting the hang of this. I just hope Jubileena could enjoy my baking too! I’m so excited! I’ll make her the best fruitcake I could ever make!

What else, oh yeah, I saw mister cat the other day and boy was I in for a surprise! He could actually talk! I never knew any other cats who could talk and even then, I’d be pretty shocked about it! He told me that he’s able to speak using a translation device. Whatever that means, but hey, it’s so cool for it to be able to make an animal talk after all! I wonder if I put it on other animals’ collars if they’d be able to talk as well. It kinda makes me excited to think about that, but then again, I don’t think mister cat would allow me to take off his translation thingy… Anyway, it’s still cool though. I’d be able to talk to him easier this time around! That would sure come in handy!

Anyway, I spoke to Jubileena about her plan. I’m not really sure what to make of this, but Jubileena admitted to me that she thinks she can’t do it alone. I’m happy that I’m finally gonna be able to help her but at the same time I can’t help but feel worried. Where did her confidence go? Guess she could use the same chocolate I had… Anyway, I think it’s for the best, because no one pulls a perfect plan alone… At least I can say I really can help her now because I found the perfect thing to carry out our plan. I guess it would really do the job. May not be as fancy as ripping ‘em apart, but hey, as long as it works! Besides, Jubileena already has her chainsaw, so I guess I’d gun (lol pun intended) for range. I really won’t let her down. And besides I think we have an escape plan. Apparently someone told her how to get out of the game itself! Can you believe it? Even I didn’t know you could do that. Anyway, I think all will be well. And if it doesn’t, well, I’ll make sure she’ll be able to carry out her plan. I’ve always been ready for this, and I’ll make sure she succeeds, no matter what it takes.

For now, I think I’ll continue on making my fruitcakes. They’re really fun to make and they taste so nice too! Just you wait, Jubi. I’ll really make the best fruitcake ever with the best bing cherries I could ever find. Then we’d share it together, under the moonlight. That would be so awesome and sweet…

Anyway, I think that’s gonna be it for now. Till tomorrow! Here’s to hoping it would be another great day!

December 18, 2012

Second day of my baking spree, and I’m right on schedule too! I’ve baked another dozen of cake during my free time, and it just keeps on rolling! Now I’m wondering if I should separate the green from the red cherries, but anyway, they taste all the same, so I guess I’d still go for my original plan of mixing them up! They look nicer like that anyway, though, admittedly it somehow makes everything harder because you have to take green and red cherries from different bowls…

What else can I say, oh yeah, you won’t believe this! I was looking for mister cat earlier since I couldn’t find him anywhere and I really wanted to pet him. So there I was, minding my own business and looking around all over the place for him, but then I bumped into someone that looks just like him! Well, he’s not a cat, but he sure reminds me of him at all. He’s got lavender hair, which was the same color as cat’s skin, and the same big black pupil-less eyes! Then imagine my surprise when he told me that he WAS actually mister cat! Now that’s convenient for us both. He was alot taller than me too, which means I guess the grayface who cast a spell on him, he mentioned, made him to look like that. I guess it wasn’t too bad, I mean he actually looked good in his human form. Weird is that he wanted to go back to his cat form again and I asked him how come? He told me that he can’t do stuff he normally does when he’s not a cat. If I was him, why bother being a small cat when you can be a tall human, right? Guess I’d just respect what he believes in, then…

Anyway, what else… hm, I just met a little ghost girl! I was about to go to sleep when I noticed her sitting around. She looked so lonely so I went to her and tried to cheer her up and stuff, and I was able to! I mean she was able to cheer up when I talked to her and all. She said she was from Super Mario! It was cool! So I asked her about Mario and how she felt about him and I was actually surprised that  she thought of him as a friend! I thought her kind didn’t really like Mario much… Boy was I wrong when she told me that he was a dear friend to her! It was strange yet I guess it’s good at the same time, I mean not everyday can you see a boo like her be friends with the hero of her game… I guess I can’t be totally surprised since Ralph sees Felix the same way…

And now, to the main event for today…

I talked alot with Jubileena today. I mean have I mentioned that she told me she actually needed help from me now? It made me so happy to hear that she wanted my help too… Finally, I’m able to help my precious cherry once and for all. This day really meant a lot to me… Anyway, I think her oh so precious king is onto something, and even told Sour Bill of people of our plan. Gosh, I sure hope they would think otherwise… I mean it would be really bad if someone knew of our plan at all. The others must not know about this. Sigh, I’m abit scared, what if others really knew? I reallly wouldn’t want my friends to get hurt, but if they go to far and be nosy about our plan, I’m really scared to think that I would have to silence them before they spread out the news to the others… Oh butterballs, I hope that everything would be alright and that it would all still go according to plan. Jubileena told me that she had Sour Bill convinced, but what if that King Candy Turbo guy blabbed everything to all the others? I really think he’s being insecure and paranoid that’s why he wants to ruin our plan. I can feel it. That greasy butterball is out to ruin everything again!

I do hope everything will be alright. Sigh… Anyway, I just learned from Jubileena that the Voice person she was talking about was actually her own inner strength. She told me she was the reason that she was able to survive her last rampage and the reason why she became so strong despite her being just as small as me. I mean I gave her cherries and they weighed quite alot, and yet she just carried them like they were just a toy! I was really surprised, and knowing that she was around to help her have great strength and steer her to her intended code all made sense to me now. Anyway, as we continued to talk about our plans, I just realized my current gun is not enough to be able to help Jubi properly, so I changed it to a rifle! This way I’m able to help her from a very great distance without risking myself getting caught once the mayhem starts. I’m actually so excited already! Just you wait Taffy… You’ll sorely regret having spilled that smoothie on my favorite jacket…

And then, me and Jubileena shared the most amazing kiss any couple could ask for… Sigh, she’s so awesome and sweet. Her lips are the sweetest thing in this whole wide world… Jubi, thank you so much for having me be a part of your plans. Really. I appreciate it so much and I will never, ever let you go. I always said, you’re the only one who I have in my life, and I will see to it that we will both succeed. I love you more than anything in this whole world…

Here’s to hoping for another great day tomorrow. Till next time…

December 19, 2012

Third day of my baking spree, and I’m still right on schedule! I managed to bake 2 dozens today, since I haven’t been out much. Sigh, putting red and green cherries together sure are hard work. Sometimes I put in more reds than greens and the other way around, but I guess that doesn’t sound too bad. I just hope no one complains about it, I mean they DO both taste the same, so I guess no one would complain anyway.

Anyway, I just heard that one of our game characters got deleted. I believe her name was Anello… I admit I didn’t notice that she was gone… How could anyone do that to her? She really didn’t deserve what he had gone through, I mean even if she wasn’t a racer, NO WAY is it ever right to delete somebody. I should know the feeling… Sigh, I know the feeling all too well. Poor girl must’ve felt really depressed because of all she’s gone through. I do hope she’ll be okay soon. Anyway, why do I have the feeling I know who is behind this terrible act? But nevermind, maybe I’m just thinking too much.

Speaking of that greased up moldy butterball, I talked with Jubi about him earlier, and she ‘s still being blind to his obviously evil demeanor! Jubi trusts him a whole lot and I still don’t understand why. Even if he was nice to her, has she ever forgotten what that old fogey did to our game? Sigh, now that I mention it, I think I will never understand that part of her. Jubi, if only you didn’t like that King Candy geezer, I would’ve went up there and shot his weird swollen ball of a head. I really don’t get why she still feels so attached to him when he almost killed our President and destroyed our game! It’s a good thing I’m on Ralph’s good side. If he ever goes around wreaking havoc again, I’ll call Ralph on him and I’ll help Ralph by shooting that fudging geezer with my rifle!Anyway, as long as Jubi keeps liking him, I can’t and won’t lay a finger on him even if he really, really deserves it.

And speaking of Jubi, I told her that since I’m her Butter Butler now, I’ve decided I’m gonna wear my special suit to the ball. Of course, since my girl’s the prettiest girl in the whole arcade, I have to keep myself up to par too of course! So I’ll be picking the best suit I have to wear for the Yule Ball. I’ve already got an idea! I do hope she’ll love it though, or at least be able to pass her standards. Then she asked me what I like about her better, eyes or hair. So I told her personally that I really like her eyes the best. Sigh, those dreamy almond eyes, I could really stare at them all day… Anyway, imagine my surprise when she shared to me that some people thought her eyes were red! I mean, come on people, just because she wears a lot of red doesn’t MAKE her eyes red too! Maybe I’m just over-reacting, but I can’t help but feel they’re all being fudge-brained if they see Jubi’s dreamy, brown eyes as red. Speaking of eyes, she told me she admired mine. I was really so happy she praised my eyes, but I always thought she had the prettiest of them all. I mean there’s just something so special about them. When I said that she was so happy that she kissed me right there and then, and I, of course, kissed her back. It was so awesome, I kissed her sweet cherry lips again, and I hope I could always have the opportunity to do that over and over…

Anyway, she told me that fortunately she has thrown Sour Bill and that old geezer off our tails.  I really hope she was able to, since it’d be bad if someone did know about our plan. Sigh, we even had an argument because, since we’re talking about that King Candy, I told her that he’s onto us and she insisted that she already threw him off… Sigh, I do trust her but I really don’t trust that old man… Anyway, I made up immediately with her… I mean I really don’t want her to stay upset at me like that… I’m just worried for her. For us… So I told her I was scared, and she told me that everything will be alright. I trust her word. Even if it weren’t, I will make sure everything will be alright… For her at least. Sigh, I’m really excited to go the Yule Ball with my precious cherry. No one would really suspect us for planning something big and I think it would stay that way. After we dance, I can already see ourselves going to the balcony and doing this and doing that and being sooo romantic together~ I really can’t wait. I want to feel the warmth and softness and sweetness of her cherry lips again soon~

Guess that’s it for today, till tomorrow. Sigh~

December 20, 2012

Fourth day of my baking spree, managed to bake another dozen of my fruitcakes for the feast. Telling the truth I’m starting to wonder if my fruitcakes would be finished by all, I mean, I’m not really sure if they’d *all* like it, but, since the whole arcade’s gonna be there, might as well continue on. They’d better like my fruitcakes, or I’ll get really upset if no one would eat them. Sigh, at least Sour Bill likes them, speaking of which, he had me deliver one to the castle. He says it’s for “inspection”, but I think in truth, he’s just really really hungry for my fruitcakes, since I heard the rather loud rumbling of his tummy. It was really funny actually. Anyway, I guess that makes my day brighter a bit. Glad to see him really enjoy my baking, I mean he *is* a harsh critic of sweets and I’m so glad that I could pass his taste.

What else, Oh, I met Flip the Sprite earlier today. Imagine the look on my face when she up and glomped me! Granted I’m happy that she did, but it was a bit shocking to find yourself falling flat on the floor all of a sudden! Anyway, I’m glad she visits me from time to time. If I’m not with Jubi, I seldom get any visitors anyway. I’m really thankful I’ve made friends with such a pretty and kind creature. Especially for removing my anxiety problem. It was so effective that I can feel all of my code being magically rewritten because of it! I don’t think I could ever thank her enough. Maybe I’ll give her another one of my special fruitcakes. She really really deserves it.

Hm, oh yeah, of course I got to talk with my sweet cherry again. I always feel the butterflies whenever she smiles! Sigh~ Anyway, she told me how she was so, so excited with our grand plan for the feast. She asked me too, and well, of course I was! I mean I get to do something really, really big with my girl and me! Don’t you think that’s the sweetest? Sigh~ I really can’t wait~ Anyway, once that day comes, I’ll be readying my rifle by that time. Shoot anything who tries to escape, no matter what. Sorry my fellow Sugar Rushers, but this is something I need to do. All for my sweetheart, my love. I know you would all hate me but it doesn’t matter. I’m doing this for Jubileena.

Jubi did mention to me that she wouldn’t want anything happening to Sour Bill, and I agree too. That guy is like a father to me more than anything. Thanks to him, I can feel I got a boost in confidence ever since he praised my fruitcakes. I’d look out for him too. Sigh, I do hope the others who I care about could get out of the way. I mean, I still have friends among them. Maybe I’ll just try my best not to hit them and shoot the others that I have to first. Anyway, so yeah, I’ll try my best not to hit him. Speaking of him being nice, he’s taking Jubi to the spa and get to spend the night in the palace, his treat. I would say that’s enough proof he cares for her so much right there. It kinda makes me a little jealous, really. I wish someone could care for me like that too. Who knows, maybe someday Sour Bill could be generous for me, well, as if he’s not generous enough.

Anyway, what else, me and Jubi talked about what we would be getting this year, and she told me that perhaps we’d be getting lumps of coal from Santa. I don’t really blame him since we *are* being naughty this time around, but I guess I can’t complain. I know that I already received the greatest present in the world. She may deny that but still, I really think I’m the luckiest person in the world recently because of her~ Besides, since everyone’s gonna be gone, maybe we’d take all the presents for ourselves. Speaking of everyone gonna be gone, I told her my sentiments about leaving the arcade, and she wasn’t too happy about it. Perhaps she just wants to stay even though everyone’s gone, but I don’t mind. I mean, imagine, the both of us being the only people in Sugar Rush… That would be too sweet…

Anyway, there was something she said to me regarding that too, and well… I guess I can’t complain, as long as it’s her doing it. I wouldn’t really mind, but it does make me really sad if she does that, I mean it would mean I can’t see her again then. I just hope she could change her mind though. I really, really hope she could change her mind. Telling the truth she was acting quite odd recently. Perhaps this is what she’s talking about a long time now, and I think I can handle it. Besides, it doesn’t matter as long as I get to be with her forever. It doesn’t matter what she does, or thinks, as long as I’m with her, then I’m content. Nothing’s gonna change that.

With her new personality she challenged me to a footrace and there I was getting talked into it. We raced all over the racetrack, which is kinda ironic LOL, if you think about it, we’re footracing on a racetrack. Anyway, so yeah, we ran and ran till she stopped short of entering gumball alley. I guess by stopping she meant that it was the finish line, but I’m not really sure. So anyway, yeah we stopped there and then I asked her why not continue? She told me going there was dangerous, and it really is, believe me. Though for some reason, something in me *wanted* to prove to her that I can do this. Besides, it’s good practice for *the* day, I reckon. I mean we’re going to be dodging a lot of obstacles that day too, problem is they aren’t just going to roll around…

Anyway, so I entered the alley and Jubi, too scared to enter, just watched. So I showed her how I’d fare for that day. Man did I feel cool! It was so natural for me, I could feel the wind rushing through my face and all that, and the rush  of excitement I’m having, it’s like me getting a Sugar Rush! power up! I was dodging and weaving and jumping, the gumballs all tried to knock me down and squish me flat but they couldn’t! I was on a roll! It was kinda funny how Jubi told me how psycho I was. Somehow I felt that she complimented me on that one, because ain’t she one herself, like she told me? Then that makes two of us psychos. Psychos in love, strange to hear, but I feel it’s so cute especially when it’s Jubi and me who are exactly that couple~ Anyway, I actually made it to the finish line!… but then this darned fudging rogue gumball took a cheap shot at me! Luckily I wasn’t flattened and I kinda got away at the last second, but boy was I sent flying hard! Granted it didn’t hurt as much as I expected, because of all the times I was sent flying from my kart, but hey, it still hurt. So yeah, I guess Jubi didn’t count it, so yeah, had to pick myself up, humiliation included. Anyway, at least only Jubi saw so I guess that’s more than enough of a consolation for me.

Then something strange happened, she mentioned she didn’t know how she got there! I mean, we raced and all, she saw me walk into the  alley and then now she says she doesn’t know why we’re there! It was pretty strange and all, but then I remembered she told me there were times that she doesn’t know what she’s doing, especially when she’s worried and stuff… Sigh, poor Jubi, I think it might have something to do with her anxiety over what we’re planning to do…

It just became worse from there… My poor Jubi broke down! Oh butterballs I didn’t know what to do… I tried calming her down but it just got worse. She even tried hurting herself! Oh my poor baby… It really broke my heart to see her in despair like that… Oh gobstoppers, if only there was something I could really do for her! Sometimes I hate being just a character! I wish I could’ve learned how to fix codes too! This really makes me upset, how I’m just being useless to her… I love her so much and I could almost feel the pain she’s having when she hurt herself because of it! Gobstopper fudge doody! I hate being this powerless! My poor Jubi… I’m really sorry… I really hope I could do something at all for you… *teardrops splatter the page making the writing here illegible* …st did what I could, I hugged her tight and consoled her. Telling everything will be alright. Everything will be alright. I just know it. Everything will be alright for her. For us.

After that, Jubi told me she wanted to go somewhere safe. Somewhere where she couldn’t hurt anyone. I agreed, but all the blood dripping from her wound made me reconsider, so I just took her in my arms and walked back to our house. I need to treat her wounds first. Luckily even though my house is small, I have everything I need there. Living alone taught me that I can only look out for myself when I’m alone. So when we finally arrived, I lay her down my bed and treated her wound, and I daresay I did an at least okay job.

Oh Jubi… I really hope you’d be alright… I’m so worried for you, sweetie… I can’t lose you. Not now, not ever.

I will always be by your side.

December 21, 2012

*Some pages illegible and covered with  red-ink doodles*

Sigh, Jubileena, so this is the surprise you told me… I should’ve known better when I saw you read my diary…

Anyway, this would be the fifth day of my baking spree, and I managed to bake only a dozen this time around. Why just a dozen this time, you ask? Well, a lot of crazy things happened to me today, and let’s just say baking was the last thing I would think of.

Oh, I forgot to mention, I met a new person today! Her name is Samantha Marie. She’s not from here though, as far as I know, since first off, her name doesn’t sound like she’s from Sugar Rush,  and she told me some weird things like how she keeps changing her form and all that. She told me she was a shapeshifter, and that day she was stuck as a boy. Anyway, I guess she was right because earlier today, she came to me as a girl now! I guess I kinda like her better this way, truth be told. Then she showed me some more of her shapeshifting powers by transforming to a dog right before my eyes! I was really amazed by it, then she licked me all over the place and told me I tasted like pancakes. Well, I guess I do look like I’m made from a pancake and all, what with this giant pat of butter on my head. But don’t get me wrong, I love my butter pat hat!

Anyway, earlier today, Jubi told me that she met with President Vanellope and told me that she got wind of our plan! Oh, I hope Jubi could weasel out of this one like she did with Sour Bill. Anyway, Jubi must have almost given her the slip to Prez and that’s why… I won’t want to know but I just hope that she’d let it all slide and not bring it up again. Sigh, I hate having to harm one of my best friends if ever she did… Anyway, I guess I couldn’t blame her for it, since Jubi did mention that she’s slipping again to her. I guess President remembers full well what she did last time that’s why she’s really cautious of her… I just hope she’d put her trust in Jubileena so we could shake her off our tail…

At least I’m glad that the wound she got from yesterday was healing nicely, but Sour Bill would need to take her to the doctor. Sigh, I hope it really is alright and all. If it would become infected, how would she ever race or use that arm again? Anyway. I do believe that it isn’t gonna be infected at all. Hey, I’m the one who cleaned that wound, it should not get infected in any way… Well, it really should. So I told her how the wound reminded her of the time blood, or rather ‘cherry syrup’ flowed down from her under her skirt, and I guess she didn’t take that lightly… Ehehe…

Anyway, I reminded her we’d be going somewhere safe so she could vent her frustration, so I suggested going to the candy cane forest. When we arrived, it would seem that *I’m * the one who needed to vent out my frustrations. I was really worried for Jubi, I mean who else wouldn’t be if they saw her act like what she did yesterday! Sigh, Oh Jubi… She told me she’d be fine and level headed now than yesterday. I really hope she would be. So I gave her some cherries to cheer her up.

Then after she told me she knew something that I don’t. Remember the virginity thing from last time? Apparently she knows something of it, and then she told me that it’s something you have until you “squidgy”. I’m not sure what that really means though. I wanted to ask her but she told me she wouldn’t tell… Sigh. From what she’s telling me though, I think it’d be fun. Sigh, maybe we can do it sometime, I don’t really know… Anyway, she reminded me how the rumors that she hit on Candlehead weren’t true, and I told her that I wouldn’t care anymore if she did or didn’t, as long as I love her. I mean, really, don’t the past ever matter anymore? I told her I love her and that’s that. No matter what she did in the past, I totally don’t mind anymore. What’s important is *now*.

What else, oh, that reminds me, she actually got off and killed another videogame character! She told me it was this princess girl from another game who was making fun of her so she grabbed her chainsaw and went mad with it… Needless to say she won’t be bothered anymore. She even asked me if I’d want to see what she did. Of course I couldn’t say no to her but man, did I regret it. I mean it was really gruesome to say the least. It stank the place pretty bad too that I couldn’t help but throw up when I saw it… I tried to ask her why she wouldn’t clean it up and said she was too lazy to do it. Sigh. She even actually tried to make me eat that bloody mess she made! Oh Jubi, you know that I love you and all but there’s *no* way I’d be eating something like that! She even up and popped a piece in her mouth, making me so disgusted that I threw up a second time… Sigh. So I stood my ground and told her that she can’t eat that bloody mess. I volunteered to clean it up just so she’d stopped eating. I really can’t bear to see my sweetheart eating something like that.

So I picked the pieces up and put them inside my jacket compartment and I told her I’d just dump it off somewhere else, and she followed me. I led her to the melted butter lake just a few distance away from my house and told her that’s where I’m gonna dump the mess, and so I did. I even had to throw away my shirt because it stank pretty bad too. Then, away it went, my jacket and shirt slowly sinking as I threw them. Jubi asked me how I would ever gonna be racing again and I told her that I always kept extras in my closet.

Then she pushed me in! I was really taken in by surprise but then at the last second I was able to grab her so I pulled *her* in. Ha. Not this time, Jubi! Anyway, I just learned that she actually couldn’t swim! Luckily I could, though so I pulled ourselves together and I was able to swim ourselves to the shoreline. Yeah, nevermind that I just threw a bloody mess in that very lake.

So now that we were back on land, I thought we could clean ourselves up from all the butter covering us, and so I asked her if she wanted to take a bath in my house, since it’s quite closer, so we walked our way there immediately. Once inside, I told Jubi to go first since she’s a girl and all, and I wouldn’t want to see my girl all messed up like that. Though after she entered the bathroom, I was overcome with a strange feeling. I know it wasn’t right, but I felt that I *had* to see her take a bath… So, well, I took a long peek from a hole in my door that only I knew.

And it was amazing. I mean I never saw my girlfriend like this before. Taking off her clothes and her pigtails, she’s the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen… Just her naked back made me so excited and feel funny, like something in me’s going wild. I don’t know what it was, but I really liked the feeling a lot… Then I saw her turn on the shower and continue to bathe. It was so serene and lovely, I mean how I saw her bathe. She was really beautiful in every way imaginable, and I’m really so happy that I got to be with her… Then after she’s done, I saw her naked front and it really drove me to the edge. After that she went ahead and wrapped herself up in one of my clean and unused yellow towels. I felt so strange and so warm with it all that I wanted to just melt like butter right there and then. I could have sworn my nose even started to bleed because of how excited I was…

Then she opened the bathroom door. I was really unaware of what was happening that I even didn’t notice that I got hit by it. I could hear Jubi apologize to me because she thought that my nose bled because she hit me, but well, in truth, something else made it… Anyway, it was my turn to take a bath now so I went ahead and went inside my bathroom. Somehow, curiosity read its head again, and I found myself peeking at her through that hole in my door again, this time from the other side.

At that instant I became excited again… but for a different reason. I saw her reading my diary! Oh butterballs, I was so scared, what if she saw something she didn’t want to see! Oh my land… the worst part of it all was I can’t do anything about it! I couldn’t go outside all of a sudden and tell her not to read… since it would look really suspicious that I’ve been spying on her…

So I just continued with my bath. I was so worried that I even switched the body wash with the shampoo! Sigh, I had to spend minutes just washing the soap off my hair… Then, soon enough I finished and just as I thought, she seemed to be finished reading too… Anyway, I tried to change the subject and told her how beautiful she was without her pigtails, but then I *had* to say it when she already put them back on! Man did I look like a complete idiot… Lucky I was able to get out of that sticky situation by telling her that I was just imagining how she would look *if* she took out her pigtails… Whew, guess she believed what I said, but hey. It really *was* true, you know.

So anyway, she told me she had a surprise for me, and I was so curious about it, but she wasn’t telling! I tried to make her tell me but she wouldn’t budge. She told me it was “sooo going to be obvious” and all, and yeah, it’s obvious alright. I mean even as I write here, I’m still seeing that surprise she was talking about. Sigh…

Anyway, I guess it isn’t too bad. I mean she doesn’t seem to be angry at all. I’m so glad that it all ended well, I think…

Oh, and tomorrow night we’ll be having the Yule Ball! I already prepared what I’m gonna be wearing, and I just hope Jubileena could like it. I know she’d be wearing a really beautiful dress and I have to keep up with her. I’m so excited!

That’s it for today I guess. Till tomorrow again!

December 22, 2012

Wasn’t been able to make fruitcakes for today. I mean today’s the Yule Ball! I was so busy preparing for it that I didn’t have time to bake… Anyway, I hope Sour Bill could forgive me if I decide not to make any more cakes… Besides, I think seven dozens of cake would be enough I think… Or maybe perhaps tomorrow I could add another more. I’ll just see if I should.

Anyway, I admit, when I entered, I had a really bad start. I mean Jubi was pretty fuming mad over me being late that she almost thought I’d stand her up… Sigh, if only there was a way I could convince her that I would *never* ever do that to her… Fudge my stupid tardiness. Everything’s my fault and I deserved that slap to the face she made. Sigh, I hope that it doesn’t go like this again…

So at first the ball was alright, though I have to admit the food was not to my liking. I don’t really like anything that involves fish. I mean yuck! They’re slimy and smell bad! Sigh, Jubi didn’t like them too, and she even started a food fight because of it! Well, it started as dares first actually. Her twin Citrusella accompanied us and well, she didn’t like it too so they took turns daring each other into eating them and the caviar, which is basically another word for fish eggs. Anyway, after they were done, they started throwing food around! Jubileena even put a whole trout inside my pants! It was horrible! I mean how would you like to put a whole bunch of slimy inside your pants! They’d really really rub you the wrong way! Anyway, because of that fudging trout, I was left running around trying to drop it off my pants because I can’t go on taking ‘em off because that’s bad… So yeah, I kept bumping onto every people that came close with me, and luckily no one was that angry with me.

Then Citrusella just had to throw a bowl of fondue! I think she meant to aim at Jubi since they were after all the ones food-fighting, and Jubi ducked. I happened to be in the way, so yeah. So I had no choice but to wash my hair in the little boys’ room. When I got back, I was so surprised that they finally found the dessert table! Finally I got to eat something sweet, so I sat down with Jubi and Citrusella, and oh! I almost forgot, President sat down with us too! She was also involved in that food fight. Even Candlehead sat down with us! Sigh, I was so happy seeing my girlfriend *and* my crush sitting down at the table. So anyway, it was all fun and sweet food, till another person sat down at the table. And guess who it is? I wasn’t really too happy that Gloyd, that buttmonkey that he is, sat down with us. I could have sworn he was just waiting for an opportunity to play a prank on us, and so, Jubileena, quick to think, blamed their mess on him. HA! Serves him right, I mean I do believe he’s had it coming for too long…

Citrusella didn’t take it too well though. From what she’s saying I believe she’s *siding* with him. I thought she was Jubi’s close friend? Seems I was wrong. Anyway, I have a hunch that she actually *likes* him. I know he has a pretty boy face, but seriously, how could you like a guy with a rotten attitude? Come to think of it, Gloyd did mention he was planning something. I couldn’t care less even if I’m one of his targets, since I’m kinda used to it even if he still gets on my nerves, but more importantly I’m more worried that he might derail ours. I really can’t have that, so I warned Jubi through a whisper that we should be careful around him.

Anyway, what else, oh, get this! Candlehead asked Jubi to dance with her! At first I felt a little jealous that she so readily wanted to dance with Candlehead, but then I realized, I’m seeing my girlfriend *and* my crush on the dance floor! I may not have shown it, but I felt inexplicably warm and strange when I saw them. I don’t know why though but I guess it meant I liked seeing them dance! And that’s not even all! Candlehead saw me pouting and all so she asked me to dance with the both of them! Can you believe it! I get to dance with the prettiest girls in Sugar Rush! I was so happy I could puke right there and then! But I had to control it of course, I mean that would totally be disgusting.

Hm, what else, oh, I mentioned that Citrusella liked Gloyd, right? I thought she took it too far when she told us off that we should be responsible for our own actions. I mean why would she even tell us that? Because she liked Gloyd? That’s unfair! She took part in the food fight too, so why is she reacting like this? Sigh, guess people really do some senseless things when they’re in love… Anyway, Jubi wasn’t particularly happy about it, so she called her a glitch, which I think touched a very big nerve because she immediately cried and ran away to the little girls’ room. I was sad seeing her cry, but at the same time I felt she has no right to say that to our faces when she also threw stuff around…

Anyway, what else, so after talking and eating and stuff, everyone eventually left the castle, leaving me and Jubi alone. I was so excited about us being just alone that I took her immediately towards the balcony. But then things started to change for the worse. Jubi felt that I was standing her up since the beginning of the ball, and I desperately told her I wasn’t meaning it that way… Anyway, I can’t hold back the tears at the thought of my girfriend angry at me so I cried alot… Looking back it was really pathetic and weak of me to be crying like that, so after we reconciled, I made a promise to her that I won’t be like that when I’m with her. I don’t even know what made me such a crybaby in the first place. I think it has something to do with me glitching back then during the blackout, but that’s not the point. Anyway, I didn’t know she had such a rough time. All Sour Bill’s promises to her went unfulfilled all because of her appointment with the doctors, and add to that me being late, I guess it really added up and she sort of freaked out…

I was really being desperate and all to stop her from being upset to me. i mean she is really my world, literally. Oh Jubileena, if only you knew how much you mean to me… I really wouldn’t be able to go on without you… You taught me how to be confident and to believe in myself and I really really admired that. I can’t Jubi, I can’t lose you, not now or ever…

Anyway, so, yeah… I decided to do anything really desperate, just so she wouldn’t be upset at me anymore, so I told her I’d do anything for her. She seemed to cheer up when she heard it so I asked her what would she want to do with me. She told me that I should be the initiator of our plans so she might get a lighter sentence, and I told her I’m perfectly fine with it. After all, it’s what I live for. I promised her that I would protect her and not leave her no matter what, and this was the perfect opportunity to do it.

Just you wait, Jubileena. I’ll be able to protect you after all. I don’t care if I’d be deleted or turned into an NPC, as long as you’re safe and sound… As long as our plan succeeds…

I love you, Jubileena. That will never change.

Markie’s Diary

December 23, 2012

Woot! Sour Bill told me that seven dozens of fruitcakes were enough for the feast! Oh man, I hope they’d like my baking at all! Sour Bill’s satisfied with mine, so there should be *no* way the others won’t like it! Anyway, even if I managed to reach Bill’s quota, I managed to bake a few more for my bestest friends! I put them in special boxes too, they’re for those who’re always there to support me. I’ll always be thankful I got to meet with them.

Anyway, I’ve got a new fan for my baking! Mister Scar the dinosaur met me walking around and gave me a present! When I opened it, out popped my favorite candies! I was so so happy of course, so I thought he should get something very much equal in return; one of my best fruitcakes! Anyway, I gave one to him, and he tasted it. He immediately reeled in from the tastiness of my fruitcake! How awesome is that? Oh, you might be wondering how a dinosaur like him could ever eat a fruitcake? It’s because he was turned human by a grayface! Poor Mister, I hope you’d go back to your old self soon.

What else, oh! I met Flip today again! I told her Jubi didn’t like my suit, and I’m really happy that she’s able to cheer me up! I don’t know what kind of clothes Jubi likes, so I just picked them what I think Jubi would like. Flip told me that I should take her shopping for my things because it’ll be easier for us to choose what we both like! I never thought of that! It’s because of Flip I could ever change my life to something better. Really Flip, you’re such a good friend.

Oh, and what else, oh, I told her how Jubi think’s I look exactly like an overgrown banana and I guess it’s kinda true. But Flip cheered me up and made me feel better! She really likes to hug me, and I’m really always happy she does this for me. Anyway, I might have said something wrong to her one time, since she got a bit upset and then threw some spells at me, then I got all ticklish and funny! The spell even made its way in my nose as I also get sneezy a lot! So anyway, after I sneezed, she was sent flying and made my tinklilng go worse… But she stopped after I told her I couldn’t take it.

Anyway, apparently my laughs would make good gibble juice! They’re like really tasty drinks made by the sprites out of laughter! I laughed a whole lot while I was being tickled, so I guess she took a whole bunch of my laughs for preparing the juice! She even gave me a cup of one and it’s the best drink I’ve ever tasted! Thank you so much Flip! I really owe you plenty. Anyway, we talked for awhile then I learned her parents were  different kind of sprites than she was, and that her brother turned bad… Gosh I hope she’d be able to change her brother back to good again. Oh, and I learned that on the full moon, they become so destructive that they go away from anyone in a short while till it’s over. Sounds like they’re more destructive than Ralph! Anyway, I was thankful it wasn’t full moon today or it would be really bad. So I hugged her to make her feel better. I was glad that she really enjoyed me hugging her. Thanks for everything, Flip.

Anyway, what else, oh me and Jubi talked later this evening. I’m so excited what would happen in the feast. I know it would be a bloody mess if Jubi’s going into a rampage, but I wonder what’s in store for me. I do hope I manage to get out alive though, or just escape being captured. I can’t afford to be captured, at all, but if it’s what it takes to save Jubi from the arcade authorities, then so be it. I don’t even care what happens to me now as long as my girlfriend’s safe, but I do admit I kinda feel sad from time to time, especially that I may not be able to see her beautiful face again, along with my other friends…

Tomorrow’s the big day, and I’m already prepared. I just hope this would go for the best for the both of us.

Jubileena, if you ever see this and I’m not around, I want you to know I deeply love you and nothing in this world can change that. I really enjoyed the time we had together. It was the best time of my life that I could ever ask for.

Thank you for everything. I love you.

December 24, 2012

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December 25, 2012

Our plan failed. It was going smoothly at first when I took position and Jubileena arrived in late. We caused extreme mayhem afterwards, me shooting at whoever I aim, and her, slicing up everyone in her way. I felt so happy that time, not really the slaughtering, but knowing that I am fulfilling my purpose by helping her. The bang of my rifle, and the revving of her chainsaw. It isn’t much when you hear it but to me it sounded like the best music I ever heard. But, to tell you the truth, the screams ruined it.

Because of that the authorities were onto us real quick. I thought we were duly prepared. I removed my jacket beforehand so that I would only wear my butter shirt and my greased up pants so they wouldn’t be able to catch me easily, but they never tried to chase me. It was I wasn’t even there, at least to the authorities’ part, but President Vanellope did notice me and she gave me one heckuva fight, but we’ll get to that later. So much for me preparing all my butter diversions. The opportunity to use them never came. Almost forgot, besides President Vanellope, Sour Bill called my attention too. He was so disappointed with me on what I have done, but I had no choice. Everything I did was for Jubileena. I’m deeply sorry, Sour Bill. It was ungrateful of me to be ruining the feast when you’ve indirectly taught me how to bake a cake. I’m so sorry, Bill. I hope you can forgive me someday…

Instead they all went for my precious Jubi… It was horrible. At first everything seemed to be fine. I covered all her blind spots and shot those who got too close to her or tried to grab her as she went on her rampage. However, when the body count came too high, I never expected President Vanellope herself to handle the situation. Her glitching proved to be too much for us to ever face. At first, I thought I could try to have a shot. Once she arrived at the scene, she immediately went for Jubi. She grabbed Jubi’s neck with her forearms and started to subdue her by choking the air out of her. I was so angry and almost lost control of my aim, but I tried my best to calm down. I really regret this, but there was no other way. I shot her. I shot her on her knees to try and get her away from Jubileena, but it just made it worse; she tightened her grip on Jubi even further. Almost out of my wits, I mustered so much concentration to steady my aim again, this time, shooting her on her elbow. It seemed to have worked and Jubi went on to continue her rampage, but President quickly got up to her feet and went back for her, and then straight up at me. She quickly disabled me but I wasn’t one to give up just because of that. I got up off my feet and went straight to save Jubi from her.

Luckily, Jubileena broke free from her clutches and went to the secret passageway outside of Litwak’s arcade. Thankfully she was safe, or so I first thought. Not long after, I was shocked to learn the president herself had the ability to glitch out of the game and even outside of the arcade screen. It was really shocking and horrifying. I was there amidst the mayhem, yet Jubileena and president were outside, duking it out. I was so scared and sad because there was nothing I can do! President started to choke the life out of her and I was so filled with rage that I shot everyone I saw. Before that I even got to shoot Taffyta on her knees. I never wanted to kill her but I just wanted to get back at her dumping smoothie all over my jacket. However, the others weren’t so lucky. I killed them all, I gunned them down, made swiss cheese out of their bodies because I was so angry. I was so angry and frustrated that there was nothing I could do for my love, so angry that I didn’t care for anything else.

I felt hopeless, alone, angry and in so much despair. In my despair and anger, I could barely hear the ensuing chaos, and instead did what Jubi’s last order for me was. That is to dump the bodies in the butter lake as we had planned. Then when I was about to throw away the first batch, I saw Jubi’s breath being taken away from her as President angrily choked her. I was seething with anger at president. I know she’s my friend but I never thought I’d see her be this cruel. In my violent outburst I gunned down the arcade screen. I gunned it down but nothing. Nothing happened at all. I fell to my knees, giving in to my despair and accepting fate, but as luck would have it, President Vanellope glitched back. This time, Citrusella accompanied her. She was actually there at the start  of the feast but I never expected her to be President’s accomplice. She even had guns of her own, and her glitching problem proved to be an asset to her. I tried shooting her but she just glitched away all my bullets. I really have to respect her more than I give her credit for. I’m sorry for calling you a palette swap, Citrus. I hope like Sour Bill, you can forgive me.

Then the authorities came. Jubi was cuffed and was taken to the fungeon, and I, wallowing in self-pity at failing her. Sweet Tooth came by and tried to lift my spirits but when I told him what’s gonna happen, he despaired right beside me. Sweet Tooth, thanks for being so much help to us both.

I know it’s probably too late now, but President Vanellope. I’m really sorry for everything that I did. I guess sometimes, my love went too far and disregarded anyone else. I hope someday, you could still see me as a friend.

Jubileena, I know that I failed you, and it’s you who I have to apologize the most. I’m really sorry for every… *teardrops ruin the rest of the sentences*..nd I hope you can still forgive me. If you hate me, I would totally understand. Even if I wouldn’t be able to take it, I will swallow all my sadness and despair because you’ve got every right to be angry with me. Just know that *more teardrops* love you no matter what may happen.

I love you, Jubileena Bing-Bing, and that will never change, even if you would hate me now. I really hope you’re okay. I trust President Vanellope to take care of you.

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Dear Santa, I know that  I’ve been a naughty boy this year, and I regret everything I did. I just ask of you Santa, please, bring Jubi back to me. I feel really lonely and afraid without her. Please.

December 26, 2012

Nothing much happened today. I still feel horrible after all that happened. The Christmas Feast fiasco really got to me and I’ve still yet to forgive myself for the big failure that I’ve done…

I guess if there’s any consolation, I’ve made another friend. I knew the clown Sweet Tooth isn’t as mean as he seems. Sure his pranks can be really too much, bordering on evil but deep inside, I know there’s a soft center inside that hard exterior that’s as nice as his name sounds. We were both in despair for failing Jubi and I guess our devotion for Jubi connected us both. It’s really funny how much of a bad start we had with each other, almost killing each other off, but I guess it’s in the past now. He respects me as I respect him.

Other characters were so kind to me in my vulnerable time. You know, I feel I don’t really deserve their kindness. I’m a criminal. A murderer. The fact that I did this all for Jubi kinda takes away my guilt a bit but it doesn’t change the fact that I killed. I killed and killed more. I didn’t even expect it. I don’t know why I was able to do it so naturally too. It kinda bothered me. I know it’s all for Jubi but does that mean that my love for her was really too much? I thought me helping her would make her happy that someone accepts all of her, even that psycho part of her. I’m not gonna lie. I really love all of her, everything. Even that psycho part of her. That’s why I accepted it. But, did I really do the right thing? I did it because that’s what you do when you love a person right? Accept everything they are and not try to change them for the world? If that’s true, then what am I feeling? Why do I feel sad and guilty? Shouldn’t I be proud that I helped pull off her plan even if it failed?

Maybe it’s because of our plan failing, but then, why am I sad remembering all the people I killed? I can still see their faces, their last look of desperation before I took it away. It eats at me. Now that I’m writing this it’s steadily getting worse. It’s haunting me. Why did they even have to look at me that way? Why can’t they just drop dead? Over time I’m really feeling guiltier and guiltier, but a part of me says I shouldn’t because after all it’s all for Jubi. That being said, I don’t really know what to think or what to feel over all this.

Thanks to other Jubileena, Prince Candy, Flanny, Soure and Sweet Tooth, I’m steadily getting my strength back from my despair. Other Jubi even took care of me while I was in my house and I’m really really grateful to her. Even after all I did, she still helped me and it just made me feel so bad about myself. She’s really really kind but I really wholeheartedly feel that I don’t deserve her kindness at all. Still, I’m so thankful she still considers me as her friend… Other Jubi, thank you so much for everything. Flanny, Sweet Tooth, Soure and Prince Candy too. Thanks for taking the time to talk to a killer even though he doesn’t deserve it at all. Really guys, thank you so much.

Then I tried visiting her. I tried visiting her in the fungeon. I don’t really know why I did it, I mean, I feel that I’m unworthy to visit her in the first place, but I guess, I don’t know, maybe I just wanted to know how she felt about what happened. But I visited her, and… *teardrops smudges here and there*… *teardrops* eemed to hate me… *teardropss*…uess I couldn’t blame her ‘cause I’m at fault too that we failed, but looking at her it’s as if she really wholeheartedly regret her decision.  That made me really think if I did the right choice to let her do what she wants and even help her. Should I really have helped? Or should I just stopped her? I thought letting her urge to do it would set her free but…

Seeing things now, made me realize that it seems not all urges are meant to be followed, but even then, when we talked that night, she was really, really adamant that she had to do it. What was I to do? What should I have done? What should I… *tear smudges*… cided that time if she was so sad that she can’t let out her urge? I really really don’t know what I should have decided, only that I know that I’m feeling so pathetic, lonely and despairing right now. It’s really hard. It’s really hard to get by with this haunting feeling constantly eating away at my heart and mind. And the worst part of it all, is that Jubi’s definitely going through what I’m going through, maybe even worse.

Oh, Jubi…*tear smudges*… so sorry. It’s all my fault, I should have stopped you even though you were so sad. I should have stopped you no matter what. Even if you hated me that time, I should have stopped you from going through with this. I really should have stopped you. But that’s all in the past now and time’s *tear drops* not gonna wind back… I’m so… *teardrops* so sorry… I’m still hoping that we could be together after all this…

It’s just now that I realized true love isn’t about letting your loved one do what they want, but preventing them from doing anything that would bring them hurt. If only I could have realized it sooner. If only I could have…

Jubi, I know you hate me right now and I don’t blame you, but I still keep hope that you’d be able to forgive me for all the things I let happen to you. I’m so, so sorry Jubileena. I won’t ever let you get hurt again…

December 27, 2012

Day today wasn’t any different from the day yesterday. It’s been the third day since I’ve been wanting to just stay inside my house. I know it sounds funny but I just don’t feel like going out. Jubi still isn’t back, and I dunno… I just feel weak.

Anyway, not much has been going on today. Although I did make a new friend, Ice. We’ve just met and she seems to be already a sweet person from how she treats me. I guess she doesn’t know that I’ve done terrible, terrible things but still, that doesn’t stop her from being so friendly with me. I really like that side to her and I hope even if she *does* know what I’ve done, she won’t judge me…

Flip, bless her, finally showed up to me. I guess I was really expecting her. I’ve been so happy to see her since she hadn’t visited me in like forever. She hugged me up front and told me she missed and frankly, I missed her a lot too. I hugged her so tight. Besides my girlfriend, she’s the only other person I know that I’m completely comfortable with. So anyway, we talked a lot. She’s really concerned about me that I’ve killed people. I can’t blame her at all. I know what awful things I’ve done, but… like I said, it was all for Jubi… I still can’t stress enough how it was all for her and that I just wanted to help release her urge, and how I deeply regret having gone through with that instead of just stopping her… I do admit I’m blinded by love, but, I just did it with the best intentions you know? Have you ever felt so in love that you just want to make that person happy in the way you would expect her to be happy with? Sigh. I know that’s still not a reason to act as I did, and that’s what’s eating me.

Mister Scar the dinosaur also visited me and looked very upset when he did. I knew I had all of this coming, so I can’t complain. I can’t say anything else but sorry. I mean I really am. It’s just striking me recently how much terrible a decision I’ve made during that night, and it’s all pointing to me. Like I said in my last entry,  I should have done what’s best for her even if it would make her sad, I should have stopped her.  That’s true love. It’s something I realized the hard way, and now everyone’s telling me that. Really, I appreciate it but I guess I should have learned about this from them sooner…

Flip, knowing that I’m depressed gave me a bottle of her special gibble juice. Once again I’m gonna tell that it’s the best drink I’ve ever drunk. It really cheers you up, and I daresay I feel a lot better. I can finally walk around my house and not just get stuck lying down on my bed. Anyway, after talking with Flip, I’ve decided, I need to atone for my mistakes. I don’t know how I’d do it but I’ve definitely got to. I guess President making me a wanted boy helps. You may think I’m crazy, but I can’t, I just can’t lie around and wander free when my girlfriend who’s really innocent gets punished.

Those who I killed… They’re haunting me. They’re haunting me and it never stops. Sure most of them have regenerated by now but still, the look of their faces in despair… the anguished cries I’ve heard… their death throes… they all haunt me. I can’t get them out of my head. It’s really eating me alive. Jubileena wasn’t kidding. I knew what’s in store for me by helping her but still, I didn’t expect I’d suffer like this. I’ve no one to blame but myself for what I got myself into. Everyone, I’m really, really sorry for doing what I did. Even if I loved Jubi with all my heart I shouldn’t have let her do as she pleased. I don’t care if she’d be angry with me, I have to protect everyone from her urges, and most of all I have to protect her from herself. I’m truly, truly sorry to you all and I hope my punishment would be enough… no, that’s not enough. I have to show them that I can really change. If they would judge me, I wouldn’t blame them after all. I can’t complain. I deserve all of their hate.

Taffyta, as much as I hate to admit it, but I’m really really sorry for shooting you in the leg. Sure you’ve dumped smoothie on my jacket, but it’s not a reason for me to harm you so badly. I know that you won’t be forgiving me forever, but I just wish to let you know, I’m truly sorry for what I did, and your pained face, though I got satisfied with it at first, quickly made me feel sour and guilty of what I’ve put you through. I’m really sorry, and I deserve all of your hate.

Still, it warms my heart and puts a smile to my face to know that after all that I’ve done, my friends are all still sticking for me. Other Jubi, Flanny, Sam, Soure, Sweet Tooth, Prince Candy, and now, Ice, Mister Tarbosaurus and last but certainly not the least, Flip, thank you so much for everything. You’ve been a big help to me and I probably don’t deserve your kindness… but thank you all for sticking with me anyway… I greatly appreciate all of your support…

After all this, I hope Jubi could come back soon. I really really miss her alot and I feel like going insane sometimes. I do pull myself together but still, I can’t help but keep missing her alot… She’s still mad at me after all and… sigh, I hope everything would be okay.

That’s all for today, and here’s to surviving my nightmares again…

Markie’s Diary

December 28, 2012

This day started out weird as heck. You know how I’ve been telling you that I’ve been having nightmares recently, right? Well, guess what, the wee hours of this morning I was having them again, as usual, but suddenly they stopped! I was in a nightmare where President Vanellope killed me. It hurt but it was nothing compared to what happened next. My friends saw me die and they all started to leave me, all looking sad. One by one they turned their backs on me and started to walk away. I tried to reach out to them but they just went farther and farther… It was so horrible. All of my friends abandoned me in that dream, especially Flip and Jubi… They were the last to leave. Oh I hope I wouldn’t be dreaming of that horrifying dream again… Then, just when I lost all hope, everything suddenly faded! It faded but it wasn’t another nightmare, it was actually peaceful and serene. I don’t know what happened exactly but it was really nice not to have nightmares for a change.

Then, I could have sworn I felt something soft brush my forehead. I’m not really sure because I was sleeping at the time, but I definitely felt something…  Anyway, there I woke up and had a great sleep after all! I do hope it’s not just for today, I mean my nightmare-less sleep, but I hope it would continue on forever. I was about to do my routine but then someone left me a box of juice? When I checked the bottles they were actually bottles of gibble juice, and because of that I sorta knew who these guys are. Then I read her note and I was so shocked and felt so bad to learn that she needed to be away. I was scared because she’s already done so much for me, yet I haven’t been the same for her… I don’t want her to go away at all. I already consider Flip one of my bestest friends and I’d be really really sad if she ever went away…

I really have to thank her for all the gibble juice she gave me. They really helped me get by a lot from all that’s happening to me. Oh, I almost forgot, I can actually talk to her at all using the amulet she gave me! Thank goodness, now I don’t have to worry much on her, I suppose, but I still do worry on her. I  know that she told me there were times she needed to be away from the world, but I can’t help but feel so sorry for her. She really did help me get by my sadness and anxiety and never failing to cheer me up and it really troubles me that I can’t do the same for her… Anyway, I’m now going to talk to her for now using the amulet. Here’s to hoping everything would go well for our talk…

That aside, I’m so relieved and happy that Jubileena is already out of the fungeon!… but she isn’t really too happy to see me. I can’t blame her, I mean it’s really my fault that she went there after all… Sigh. I wouldn’t even know she was out of the fungeon if I didn’t visit her home on a whim though. A single oreo guard was guarding her front door, and I sorta barged in. I was surprised to find her already there and not looking too happy with my intrusion… Oh, Jubi… If you only knew how sorry I was… I’m really sorry for such a big mistake I did… I still hope you can forgive me for all that’s happened…

Anyway, it seemed she calmed down eventually and we sat down for a talk, and me, missing her so much, readily agreed. We talked alot and it seemed that she was gonna break down in front of me. She told me her punishment and it was really harsh. I mean, she can’t use anything outside her house except for her kart… She really can’t touch anything else besides the stuff in her home and it really pains me that she got punished that way. Guilt filled up my whole being and made me so sick of myself that I allowed her to get punished that way… Oh Jubileena, I’m really really sorry. I know you’re tired of seeing my apology here but I really can’t stress how sorry I am. She told me I should have protected her from herself and not let her do anything like that ever again, and it’s exactly what I realized on my lonely nights being spent just stuck inside my home. I really know what you mean, Jubi. I already realized what I have to do next time… I promise I’ll protect you no matter what, even if you’d hate me for it.

I’ve totally decided, I should be punished. I can’t have it that only Jubi would get the brunt of punishment, someday I must be punished. If not now then later, but I’m really adamant that I should get this over with. I want to get rid of this heavy feeling inside me and the only way I know out is to talk it over with President Vanellope herself. Even if she harmed me and Jubi both, I still consider her as a great friend. I just hope, even if she hates me, she’d still remember me as one of her loyal subjects. President, I’m really sorry for everything. I shouldn’t have the face to talk to you. I think I’ll just hang my head in shame as I talk to her, never making eye contact with her.

Anyway, me and Jubi talked alot till the wee hours of the morning, and guess what, today’s her birthday! Come morning I bought her the best cherry cake I could find and she totally loved it! As expected from my cherry-loving sweetheart. You deserve no less than the best, sweetie, so I’ll make sure you receive just the best of everything. The best of everything.

It just makes me sad though, after all, she’d still spend her birthday in her house. All of her friend visited Jubi and handed her gifts and all, and I should be happy but the fact that she can’t leave her house really saddens me… Sigh, I hope President Vanellope could still show mercy and rewrite her code… Even if she rampaged a second time she didn’t deserve this treatment, but I should have. I should have been the one to get treated like this. It should’ve been me at all.

At least this day wasn’t so bad in the end, Jubileena still accepted me after all I’ve done to her and to everyone else. Jubileena, I’m really really really grateful that you’re infinitely sweet and kind… I don’t really deserve you at all yet you still accepted me… I love you so much and I’d never leave your side ever. Even if you’re harsh with me sometimes, I know that deep inside you love and care for me as well. Thank you so much. Mere words alone can’t express how grateful and lucky I am to have you.

December 29, 2012

*Teardrops fill the page, making it extremely illegible to read*

December 30, 2012

Sorry Diary, I just don’t feel like writing today. I’m in a roller coaster of emotions now and I don’t think writing would help.

December 31, 2012

THIS NEW YEAR FUDGING SUCKS!

January 1, 2013

I guess I’ve slacked off a lot with you today, huh? I just don’t feel like writing last time. So many fudging stuff happened to me that I don’t even wanna write most of them down. So everyone now knows I’ll be staying at my house for a *long* while thanks to Sour Bill, who, as I’ve heard, is Jubileena’s father now. Yeah. Guess he isn’t too happy with what he found out about me, and I’m guessing it was Jubi herself who told him that… So yeah. Can we NOT talk about them anymore. I’m beginning to feel like fudge again.

Anyway, it might seem that only stuff with those two are the only things eating at me, beside these voices which still haunt me, by the way. If I might add, thank goodness for Flip’s gibble juice which really helped me a lot in dealing with these voices in my head. Really appreciate her helping me alot. I won’t be anywhere without her at all. So back to them both, they might be the only stuff making my day go wrong, but lemme tell you, they both mean a *lot*. I’ve still yet to come into terms with that and it’s really, really hard. You may all know how crazy and obsessed I was with Jubi, so yeah, if it weren’t for gibble juice and the few visitors that I had visiting me this New Year’s Eve, I daresay I wouldn’t even be around writing stuff in my diary.

About Flip, I’m really so happy that she got around and came back! Words can’t tell how much I missed that truly close friend of mine. I was beginning to get worried even that she might not be able to arrive in time. The time I sorely missed her was the time I was the most vulnerable, and who can blame me? How’d you feel if your girl, the only thing you care the most in this whole world, leave you? Lemme tell you, I think that her reason was too harsh, I mean don’t everyone deserve a second chance? President Vanellope gave her not one, but two chances already, and how about me, I didn’t get no squat? Some sense of fairness she has, huh? So anyway, yeah, if it weren’t for Flip I might have been back to being a bunch of deleted codes. I’m not proud of it but I did try to kill myself. Isn’t that what everyone does when their world ends? I regretted it eventually but that time I tried to do it I felt really, really, REALLY down, the likes of which you can’t imagine. Voices were so loud it wasn’t even funny anymore, like my head about to split open because of pain, stress, and those fudging voices that don’t stop at all! Once again, I’m gonna say, thank goodness for gibble juice!

What else, speaking of President Vanellope, I wonder if she still plans to execute me? I know I’ve said that I’d turn myself in but you know, I don’t really see why, at least now. I’ve been in so much fudge now (because of Sour Bill and Jubi) and add to that these voices in my head and me being all lonely and in despair, won’t that be punishment enough? Aren’t I being punished enough for everything I did? I lost my world already and I really really feel so fudging awful. If only Pres could be more merciful to me, but I have to admit I doubt it. Yeah, what I did in the feast a few days ago was totally inexcusable, but I was just wondering when could I finally get respite from all of this. I hope  when she does get around to executing me, things would really change for the better. I mean, don’t I deserve it? … or not, who knows. One thing’s for sure though, I’m really really tired of crying and looking pathetic on the floor all the time. What’s worse is I can’t really help it since I have to admit I’m easily affected emotionally. That being a good or a bad thing still eludes my mind since I’ve seen both sides of it.

Anyway, I just wanted to say, the amulet Flip gave me is a total godsend. If it hadn’t been for that wrapped around my neck, I wouldn’t have contacted Flip in the first place. She’s really so thoughtful giving me such a gift like that, come to think of it, it’s the best Christmas gift I’ve ever received in like ever, apart from Jubi of course, but she’s gone, so yeah… I still wish we could still go back together though. I feel really lonely without her, even with all my friends by my side… Speaking of friends, was really surprised that they were able to pull through, especially Flip. I thought she’d be gone longer than I thought and it really worried me if I’d still be seeing her soon while I was being totally weak… All I had for companions were these stupid guards Sour Bill conveniently placed in the four corners of my house. Thanks to them I’m really trapped inside with no way to get out. Not like I’d want to anyway. I’m feeling so awful that I don’t want to step outside for the time right now. Seriously, I repeat, I really thought I should have another chance… Stupid me, now I blew it and I’m not gonna have it again… Well, as long as Jubileena keeps hating me and Sour Bill still upset, that would stand…

You may be wondering, why not ask Flip to get you out? Well, I want to finish this house arrest, as long as it might take, so hopefully they could see I really wanna change. I really don’t want to be in trouble right now especially the with the authorities all out to get me. Speaking of trouble, would you expect, Sweet Tooth visited me today! Yeah, he’s really not so mean as he might seem, I was right all along. Really appreciate him checking up on me like that, and he even tried to cheer me up by blowing those guards up using his fuse and lighting them up with his hair itself. It was pretty funny to watch, and I knew he wouldn’t disappoint me with his endless bag of tricks. I guess the guards deserved it. First time they locked me in here they were all saying many mean things about me. It’s nice to feel that they’re the butt of jokes this time around. Thanks again, Tooth, you’ve been a big help to me.

Ice also visited me today. She was really sweet. She knew I was on house arrest like the others and she tried her best to cheer me up, and she did. She brought some things called ‘sparklers’ and they’re really cool! It’s something that looks like a stick and you light ‘em up and watch the sparkles crack and illuminate the whole place! It was really fun, even just holding them. Anyway, she told me that I was her first choice to go to and it really warmed my heart. Ironically since she’s one cool girl, literally. Speaking of cool, she told me she made them herself, even!

Anyway, I guess this New Year ain’t so bad as I first thought. Flip was right after all. We talked about how I still had friends to support me in rough times and she was totally right. Ice, Tooth and Flip herself visiting me was enough to  prove to me that I have friends who really cared about me. To each of them, they may not know this, but they’ve already saved a life, mine. If it weren’t for them I’d be totally wracked with despair that my life would definitely be ruined. Everyone, thank you so much for doing all that you could with me and for sticking by me even the hardest of times. Yeah, I’m looking at you Flip, it’s because of you, mainly, that I’m even alive. Thank you so much! I love you all! Here’s to hoping that the rest of the year stays awesome for all of us!

January 2, 2013

Almost forgot to tell, remember when I told that Sour Bill had me punished with house arrest? Well, today’s my second day of house arrest now, if some people missed it. I’m really wondering when it would all end. I know I wouldn’t want to go outside for now, but I can’t go on staying inside my house forever, right? Sigh. Sour Bill must be really, really, *really* angry for giving me this punishment. And I never thought I deserved all those mean guards by my door. Serously, didn’t one guard be enough for guarding my house? I mean really, Jubi only had *one* freaking guard, and I get four? Sour Bill must really really really hate my guts… I can’t blame him though, since he’s already Jubileena’s father, so he must have hated me because of Jubileena’s story…

Anyway, I guess I don’t have it too bad. My friends, especially Flip has been accompanying me since the start of the new year, and I’m really thankful they were all by my side. Like I said before, if it wasn’t for all of them, especially Flip, I wouldn’t be here at all. They’re all such godsends.

Not much has really happened to me today, but I really enjoyed it. You would too if you’re so lonely and you’re expecting your best friend to show up, you know? Honestly I was really surprised because I thought Flip wouldn’t be able to come. Her hands are full to begin with since she’s going through something really hard for her, and yet she’s still able to come to stay by my side. I was really so happy! Even now I still can’t contain myself at how happy and relieved how she made it to me in the exact time! Words can’t express how happy and thankful I am to be friends with such good friends like Flip, and Ice and Sweet Tooth even! They’re like the best friends anyone could ever have. They’ve always stood by my side even through my hardest times and I really really appreciate and am thankful for them letting me know and feel that.

Although truth be told, I’m still not perfectly happy. You do know that Jubi recently broke up with me and it’s the saddest, most awful thing that ever happened in this entire year. In my entire life even. Nothing can really compare to the pain I had with our breakup, heck, not even my memory of being deleted could. Sometimes I think, why didn’t I deserve a chance? And it’s really stupid, I mean, I can go around killing people and all, and everything’s sorta okay with it, yet me peeking on her is so wrong that I get locked in my house with four fudging oreo guards? I don’t know about anyone but don’t you think that’s fudged up? Speaking of which I’m still waiting for President to get this over with. I wanna find respite from it all, and it’s not like I’d die for good if she goes around to executing me. I just want to get all of this guilt, sadness and despair out of my code. If it weren’t for the gibble juice I’d be drowning in my emotions right about now.

I really think I should have been given a chance. I can’t help but feel the unfairness of it all. Just because she’s now Sour Bill’s daughter that’s why my sentence is just so severe. I still can’t really understand why they aren’t being fair with this. If only this would also serve as my punishment for what I did to everyone then I guess it would be okay, but it’s not. It’s what really bothers me. I do miss her a lot though. Being with her was one of the best times in my life, no kidding. The crazy stuff we did, even if some of them were wrong, would always stay in my mind and heart. It’s just so hard for me to accept that we aren’t on anymore and up to now it still eats at me, along with these fudging voices. Sigh. Jubileena, I really miss you. If only I’d get another chance with you I would so change. I’m really sorry for everything. My new year isn’t complete without you at all… I’m so so sorry… *teardrops smudge the remaining notes.*

I still love you.

January 3, 2013

Third day of my house arrest and I tell you, staying at home’s never been so AWESOME! I mean really, if your bestest best friend stayed with you the whole day, you’d have a really fun day too, right? Oh Flip, you really make me so happy! I can’t say in words exactly how happy I am for you to stay by my side!

Before that I was with Ice, and it was just as cool! I call her my big sister now because she’s so sweet to me! She showed me these really cool sparklers which transformed to any animal she liked! How cool is that? Come to think of it, I didn’t know what ‘sparklers’ were before she told me though. But the look really nice! Oh, and get this, she can even change the sparklers to animals! She actually told me what animal I’d like to see, so I told her I wanna see a badger since well, someone showed them to me from before and I thought they were really cute! They’re kinda like me, really, I think, because they’re cuddly and cute but they turn really feisty when backed into a corner! Don’t you agree? That and also, it’s the only animal I’ve seen up close. I never got to see other animals apart from our, well, engines which we put in our karts! It may sound crazy but that’s how it is here in Sugar Rush. You can even check it out yourself if you don’t believe me! So anyway, yeah, she changed the sparkler lights to form a badger! It was so cool, but we’ll get to lots of cool stuff later. Anyway, for some reason the sparkly badger didn’t really like us both and it kept hissing at us, so I stepped up and wanted to show it who’s boss! Luckily for us it didn’t last long and soon it turned into snowflakes. The snowflakes were so pretty too, I mean the only “snow” we have here in sugar rush are powdered sugar… I hope someday I really can go outside the arcade and see snow for myself. After that we talked alot, about how she can also go outside the game, explaining to me how she can ‘hack’ things. I guess that makes her pretty much like that Turbo Candy guy, but even better is she’s never a greaseball, unlike him. Anyway, I really enjoyed a lot spending my time with Ice. Thanks for everything, big sis, for showing all these cool stuff to me. I’m looking forward to see more cool stuff with you.

And that’s not all, lots of cool stuff was headed my way too! As I’ve said, Flip stayed by me since New Year’s Eve keeping me company since she knew I was so lonely. Bless you Flip, you really know how to cheer me up and keep me so excited. You don’t know how much I appreciate you doing this all for me, and I hope I can do something, even a little, to help you out when you’re in a pinch too.

Anyway, we really had lots of fun! Well, admittedly, at first I was sad and all and we talked alot about me and Jubi’s break-up… And how I got treated unfairly that I’m just supposed to stay in my fudging house and can’t get out. Worst part of it all is I don’t know *when* I’m supposed to get out. I guess it’s all up to Sour Bill’s word… Sigh.

So now, the fun part. We were talking alot and then, little did I know, Flip was actually transforming my hair into a Christmas tree! I knew something strange was going on while I talked with her, first I noticed my hair getting itchy and heavy at the same time. At first I just shook it off since it could be my hair’s just being messed up by my butter pat hat, but then my head grew steadily heavier with each second. It’s funny how she even made up like I had some sort of sickness, the ‘Christmas-tree-itus’. I admit it’s funny but I wasn’t really in the mood at the time, so I guess I’ve been pretty sour with her. I regret it though, but then again, I looked really ridiculous because my head looked so weird. I liked how the lights brightened up my hair though, so I guess it wasn’t too bad. Then when I finally noticed it was all her doing, she changed it back to normal, but then when she did, she turned herself invisible! It was scary at first because I thought she needed to leave again… But I felt relieved and a bit happy that she was still around that time. Then, in a whim, she asked me to look for her! I mean it was pretty hard, because she’s really fast and she’s invisible at the same time! But it was all fun though, I didn’t show it but I was definitely feeling thrilled and excited to catch her! At first I thought she hid inside my shirt because sparkles kept covering my shirt all over the place, but she wasn’t there… then I thought I saw her shadow near my bathroom doorknob but when I tried to catch her, she was already in another location! Boy was she really fast… Then she gave me clues where to find her by letting me see her shadows on purpose! One was near a vase, the other was in front of a picture frame, and the last one was in front of a gold coin she gave me. Thankfully she did that or I might not get around to catching her at all… Anyway, so I made my way to the first thing I could reach, the vase, but then, remember the sparkles I said covering my whole shirt earlier? Turns out it was actually a tickling spell! I had to try and catch her with all I can while she was tickling me! Could you believe and imagine how hard it was? Anyway, yeah so that’s what happened. First I went for the vase since like I said it’s the first thing I could reach, but she wasn’t really there, and I kinda broke the vase as I did. Then I tried to make it to the next thing in reach but it was really really difficult since I was being tickled really hard… So after I tried with all I can, I finally reached the the picture frame, only to find out she isn’t there either! I know there’s the last thing left but by this time, I could barely even stand! I crashed on the desk earlier where the picture frame was but unlike the vase, luckily I got to save the frame from breaking! Anyway, I couldn’t really take it anymore so I stumbled down the floor and crawled on my belly ‘cause it’s really hard to walk straight being tickled from every direction. After what seemed like forever though, I finally reached the last thing, the coin! I desperately reached out to grab her shadow and  when I did, I finally felt her soft body in the palm of my hand! Oh yeah! One up for me! Isn’t all of that fun? I admit it was pretty hard though but what matters is that she’s right here by my side now after I caught her. How’s that for ya Flip? Heehee!

Anyway, I’d love to tell the rest of my fun experience but I’m already sleepy, so, till next time!

January 4, 2013

Alright! I’m back on again! Anyway, after finishing our game of invisible hide and seek, Flip tried to braid my hair! I mean I don’t know how she does it but I guess that’s why it’s magic and all.

Come to think of it, Flip could actually make it even harder for me to catch her, with all the magic she has. I think she’s actually letting me catch her on purpose. Anyway, I don’t really mind because yeah, I wouldn’t know what it would be like if Flip got serious. I mean I could’ve never found her at all! Speaking of which, while we talked and she braided my hair, she actually thought I never tried to find her! I told her that I could’ve found her easily if it weren’t for that darned tickling spell, and I could’ve found her in 10 minutes, but I guess that’s still too slow for her… Anyway I thought it was already fair especially when you’re looking for something invisible at all… I wonder why she would think that, I mean can’t she feel that she’s so, so precious to me? If it werent for her I wouldn’t even be alive… I mean she’s done so much for me that I don’t know how I could ever repay her back. I really really grew fond of her so much that I dont think I would take it if she were ever gone… So yeah, I thought she was really upset at me when she thought I didn’t want to look for her, so I thought I’d let her feel how wrong she was. So I gave her a *big* kiss on the cheek! But I guess she didn’t expect that at all… After I kissed her she was so startled that she accidentally zapped me and turned me into a frog! I really didn’t expect it too! Luckily she told me she’d find a way to change me back, so she conjured a small pool for me in the meantime while she thought of a way. Then after a few moments, she changed me back again! I found out she was actually tricking me into thinking she needed time, when she was just enjoying me being a frog. I guess that’s okay, I mean as long as I can make her happy then it’s fine with me. Then she told me how she planned more games! I’m really excited to find out what she’s got in store for me.

Flip, I really thank you for everything you did for me. You never know how much I treasure and cherish our bonding. I’m really so happy that I’ve got you and my other friends to support me.

January 5, 2013

As usual, nothing much has been happening to me lately since I’m still in house arrest. It’s actually my fifth day already. I wonder how long this would still keep on going. I know I’ve been spending a lot of time with my close friends and all but I can’t help but feel frustrated because I can’t leave my house at all. Sigh, I know Sour Bill just wants to teach me a lesson but why does he have to make it last indefinitely? Sigh… It was just a little peek for fudge’s sake!

Anyway, at least I’m happy to tell you all that another friend visited me today. I knew Sweet Tooth isn’t as mean as he seems he is. I mean he visits me from time to time, can’t ask for anything better than that from him, can I? Guy’s a real bud. I never even expected that from him, since we got off with a really really bad start. Guess that bad start’s what turned it to good though, now that I think of it, because we both care for Jubi and it’s up to us to make sure she doesn’t get into trouble. So yeah, we became good friends really fast.

He checked up on me recently if I still was in house arrest, and I reluctantly told him I still was. Told him I don’t know when it will last too because it’s really a bummer I can’t go out when I’m really *really* raring to go out. I wonder what’s been happening outside while I’m just locked in here? Maybe they’re all going racing and doing fun stuff without me… It really fudging sucks to be locked up! At least, I got the coolest visitors though, like I said, and Tooth’s one of them. I really appreciate him checking me out like my other close friends did. So anyway, about that, I told him about my other visitors, who, as you all know, is Flip and Ice; two of the coolest people I have ever met. I even told him he should meet them sometime. I just know we’re gonna have lots of fun when we all meet up with each other soon!

Anyway, after that, he told me if I heard that Jubi was adopted by Sour Bill, so I told him I actually knew it firsthand, talking to Sour Bill and all. It was *that* talk with him that actually landed me with this house arrest anyway! I can’t blame Tooth for asking that to me, in fact I may not look like it but I’m really glad he cared for my stuff too. But I wish I wouldn’t have to remember that thing with Sour Bill and Jubi again. It really makes me upset and guilty at the same time since after all, those two are the reasons why I’m just stuck here…

He even knew the reason why I’m being punished as it is. I felt a rush of dread when I learned he knew. Can’t even look him in the eye that time since it was true after all and I promised him that I wouldn’t make Jubi upset, but after all my careful actions, she just *had* to find out what I did to her. I mean it’s not like I wanted to prank her or something, I don’t even know what came to me when I did that! I guess I was just so in love with her that I was curious  to see everything about her. I know it’s wrong but I dunno, I guess I really couldn’t help it. Sigh… I really regretted it so much though. That being said, I thought Sweet Tooth would get so angry that he’d want to pick a fight with me again, so imagine my surprise when it was actually okay to him. Guess he learned to see me as a really good friend if he didn’t up and punched me because I hurt Jubi… Oh boy do I feel so bad and guilty with all this…

Anyway, I’m really glad he turned out alright. He just wanted me not to do such a thing ever again, I mean who would ever repeat the same mistake I did . I really learned my lesson and I *definitely* won’t be doing that again. The best thing was he still really considered me as a good friend after everything that I’ve done… Thanks a lot Tooth, I really appreciate what you’re doing for me. You’re one of my bestest friends.

So I asked him what’s been happening outside lately and I was quite relieved that nothing much has been happening. There’s only some kind of pageant they’ll be holding for who knows when. I really wouldn’t know since I’m just stuck here in my house. What else, oh, he said Jubi wanted a break from dating. I feel sorry for her and all, but I guess that’s kind of a good thing since he won’t seeing other guys, I guess. Sigh, I really really miss her. I know she’s angry at me but I can’t help at all. I really miss her alot.

I really felt bad that I started to cry again, then Tooth reminded me how I should be strong and that I’m better than this. He even told me that I should look forward and not mope around like I always did, and I’m happy to tell you that I’ve been doing much better since last time. As soon as I get out of Sugar Rush, I’d definitely start to change my life for the better. Thanks to Tooth for reminding me.

I wanted to thank him for everything he’s done for me and for accompanying me too so I handed him one of my fruitcakes I haven’t sent for the feast. It looks like he’d like it though, though it does seem funny he was smiling abit awkwardly. Eh, I guess he never tried one before.

Also, I’ve made a promise to surrender every lethal thing I have, starting from my guns. I don’t think I will be needing them anyway, since I want to change for the better, but I told him I’d be keeping some of my knives since, after all, I still have to defend myself when someone’s out to get me. I know it’s still wrong to hurt others but if others want to hurt you, I guess it doesn’t hurt to try to stop them, right?

Thanks for everything Tooth. Once again, I really appreciate you coming to stop by my place. Hope we can play some more next time, especially when my house arrest is up.

I’m getting sleepy now so I think I’ll call it a day. Till tomorrow!

January 6, 2013

Sixth day of my house arrest and I guess things are going smoothly. It’s still a bummer that this arrest is in effect, though I can feel things are starting to get back to normal.

Anyway, Sweet Tooth was around and he showed me something cool today! He told me that he was actually a racer, but not a racer like me and the other guys. He said he’s an “RC racer”, which means a racer but instead of racing in their cars, they use a remote control to race them! Sort of like controlling their cars. I guess that’s cool and all, but there’s no better thing than to race while riding in your car, don’t you think? So anyway, he showed me his rad RC car, which actually looks like an ice cream truck more than anything. I kinda think it’s fitting, being a clown and all. I was really surprised when he showed that all his neat stuff he equipped in that RC car of his and it was really cool! I mean there’s a *lot* of weapons, bombs, missiles, you name it! I even think that his car has more bombs than all the cherry bombs and sweet seekers you can get from a single race! Man, I could totally say, if he were to be allowed to race with us, let’s just say you’d really have one heckuva challenge on your hands. The car *EVEN BREATHES FIRE*. How could it be possibly anymore destructive? Sweet Tooth wasn’t kidding when he said he had lots and lots of weapons at his disposal. Come to think of it, were he really adamant about killing me, then he’d have easily done so. I’m actually glad that we’re on good terms now, or who knows what might’ve happened to me if we were still enemies…

Anyway, we went on to talk about how his game had a roster too, which is pretty much like ours, actually. Some of them even seemed similar to our own roster characters too! One of them, Grimm, sounds so similar to Gloyd in that they’re both obsessed with Halloween! But you know what’s the biggest difference their game is with ours? Well, besides the karts of course, it’s that they’re all getting along just fine. I know I shouldn’t get jealous since our game is all that we’ve got, but I thought it wouldn’t hurt that our gang could all get along. I mean, really, President Vanellope’s rivalry with Taffyta just goes on and on, and most of us make enemies of each other quite easily. I wonder what’s up with us? Was it always a part of our code that we shouldn’t get along well with each other? Sigh, I probably would never know, but that’s the biggest reason why I admire his game. They actually treat their games as fun and bonding, unlike the most of us who sees our races as only competition and winning them’s what labels you as good or bad…

Anyway, after that, we had some ice cream together straight from the back of his ice cream truck. He really keeps all sorts of things there, from weapons to sweets like ice cream. I’d have to say it’s a really neat truck. Wish I could have some of those around, then I’d never run out of food to eat, I guess. He also shared to me how in other versions of his games, his truck actually transforms to a giant robot of doom! Just look at the possibilities he could do with it! He let me see his blueprint of that robot and I tell you, it’s the biggest thing I’ve ever seen! Even bigger than Mister Dinosaur! And the ice cream from his truck, it’s the best I had in awhile. Thanks a lot for the fun, Tooth, hope we can do this next time again!

Oh, and I met Soure earlier too. It’s actually been a long time since we last talked and I’m glad she visited me today. She looked really concerned about my situation and I really appreciate her trying to cheer me up. So I wanted to repay her by giving her some of my best fruitcake! I really think she’ll love it, especially since I made them myself. No one ever said no to my fruitcakes before and Sour Bill did like them alot, even though he was a harsh food critic, so there’s no reason for Soure not to like them! She hugged me to thank me and I hugged her back. I really hope she’ll enjoy them, though.

And get this, I got another visitor! His name is Icarus Licorice and he’s actually a gryphon! I think gryphons are sort of half-boy half-bird kind of being, but that only makes him a lot cooler since he can actually fly! I always wanted to fly around, actually. If only I had a pair of wings… So anyway, you know what’s cooler about him? Well how about learning that he’s a Kustom Kart-ineer! It’s someone who makes and designs karts! Can you believe it? I met him at the exact time I want to replace my ol’ kart with a new one! Okay, maybe not exact, but he did come at the right time when I’m just inside my house and I’m not busy! Anyway, at first he gave me some gold coins, but he changed his mind once he learned that I wanted to replace my old kart! I’m liking him already, I mean he’s so cool and kind too! Anyway, he pulled some sort of blue cube, and he told me he could create a kart with it, right there and then! It sounds totally awesome! I’m actually really curious how he put such stuff inside the cube! I’m so happy I’m finally going to have a new kart! Sigh, I hope Jubi would be around to see this…

Anyway, I didn’t want to have to see this but Ice was needed by those guards to leave. Sigh, I really really dislike those guards! I mean I’m having so much fun in my house and yet they’re taking all the good stuff away from me! I’m lonely enough as it is! Sigh, I guess it can’t be helped… I tearily told her to take care since she’s about to go… I’m really gonna miss my big sister… I’m feeling lonely enough as it is and I just feel lost without her and Flip to cheer me up…

Sigh, I hope they’re all gonna be okay. If anyone must take care, it’s them since they’re the ones away from my house and all.

That’s it for today I guess, I feel quite sleepy now. Till tomorrow again!

January 7, 2013

This day was actually better than my other days in house arrest! It’s actually been a week now, but I’m still managing.  You’ll all get to know why this day’s more special than the others in a moment. It’s actually one of the best I’ve had so far, along with Flip and Ice visiting me the other day!

Anyway, remember Sir Icarus right? The Kustom Kartineer? Well, you’d be surprised to know that he actually let me make a new kart! Isn’t that too awesome? The moment I heard that I was really so excited and happy that I’m getting to replace my old, worn out one! I mean , really it’s been a while since I’ve had it fixed and it looks like it ain’t going to be… Maybe it’s time that I actually got a new kart to replace it… So anyway, yeah, back to where we was. I was so surprised at all! Since Sir Icarus gave me coins I assumed he wasn’t up to letting me make a new kart, but he quickly proved me wrong when he actually allowed me to make one! So we went ahead to making it!

He pulled out a hard candy blue cube from his bag which he said grows to be the size of a doorway! It was really cool! I was so amazed at how the front side of the cube turned into a doorway! I never even knew something like that existed after all! So anyway, in we went, and we were greeted by so many fancy lights and other cool stuff! The inside was really so much like Beard Papa’s factory, and then some! It was so High Definition! I really didn’t believe my eyes when I first went there. It’s really better than I imagined it would ever be! I definitely feel this is waaaaay better than Beard Papa’s steamy factory with all the cool lights and cyber stuff going on!

Then came the big moment! Choosing my materials! I totally went straight for the control panel and picked them up one by one! It was much much easier than the other factory’s because you only needed to pick them up instead of sorting them from the trash! Isnt’ that the coolest? Granted it was still kinda difficult because there were so many ingredients and all, but I managed! So anyway, I pushed all the buttons, asking Icarus from help in the process because there were so many buttons here and there! In the end, I picked butter (of course! I *am* a butter themed racer, aren’t I?), gingerbread, sugar glass, jawbreakers, toasted bread, poptarts, some candy sprinkles, gumdrops, maple syrup (goes well with my theme too!) and a flapjack! I showed them to Sir Icarus and he gave me the go signal for baking my kart! It was so cool!

Next were the wheels! I went for them flapjack stacked wheels! They looked so awesome and fitting and seemed a lot sturdier than my old butter roll ones! So I pushed the wheel button four times to get them going and it fit perfectly on my kart! Then the weird part, Sir Icarus told me to stay still and flashed some sort of weird red light on me. It was kinda hard to keep still especially when I was still so excited about driving my new kart! Anyway, I managed to keep still and then the weird light kind of looked up and down my whole body! It felt sorta weird too, and the light was so bright that I had to close my eyes when it went up and down my head. I actually wanted to ask Sir Icarus what that was for but then he explained to me that it was actually for making the kart-seat, I think, not to mention the steering wheel too. Guess I wouldn’t have to worry about my hand slipping anymore!

Then the most epic part of the process! I actually get to choose how I build my kart! This make-a-kart thing of Sir Icarus is really so awesome! I mean in the factory, they were the ones who gets to decide how the kart should be built but in this one I get total freedom on how I would build it! So I told how I wanted it built, a sleek butter block for the body, poptart pedals, gingerbread spoilers, stacked pancake wheels, gumdrop tail lights, you name it!

Then the finale! I waited for the kart to roll outside the creation screen and it did! And I was so so *so* happy! It was really awesome just the way I imagined it! I kept jumping around and cartwheeling all over the place, and now that I think about it, I hope Sir Icarus wasn’t too annoyed with me. I mean I never felt so happy in my entire life ever since me and Jubileena shared our first kiss. I admit that was better but I never felt so happy like that again until now! Gone will be the days where I always mess up my racing! So anyway, I really was so happy that I hugged Sir Icarus so tight and thanked him endlessy. Even now I still feel I owe him much, after everything he did for a boy down in the dumps. Thank you so much sir Icarus, I really really owe you one and I’d do anything for you at all to repay you!

Oh by the way, he did mention he didn’t really know how to drive, so I promised him I’ll drive him around as long as I get out of my house arrest! I’m really excited to drive this baby ‘round the track! I’m definitely sure that I’ll be winning more medals with my new kart! Watch out, everyone! I’ll show you all the new me!

So anyway, after that, me and Sweet Tooth continued our talk. He actually told me there were older versions of him, I mean wouldn’t that be weird if you saw your older self? Come to think of it, I remember how there were other Sugar Rush consoles other than ours where the racers were teenaged instead of just nine. I wonder if an older version of me existed there… Anyway, he let me see how they actually looked like and I was in for a shock! I mean, no offense to him, but he grew up to look particularly nasty! Especially that bit when the older version of him was so fat it looks like his tummy’s gonna explode! Obviously I won’t be telling him that though, but still, it’s hard to believe someone as cool as him would grow up to look as nasty as that. Oh, and at least he still had that rad fire head of his though.  Speaking of which I wonder how Candlehead would react if she saw him. I don’t think they’d already met so I told him to get to know her more since she’s really into flames. I think they’d get along just fine.

Anyway, after that we talked about other stuff until we arrived at Pokemon. I was so surprised that he also had an egg! I thought I was the only one that got it; I mean it was strange someone just left an egg in front of my house! His egg was different though, mine’s white with a big yellow spot in the center, and his is purple with yellow spots. I wonder what it would hatch into? He said he wanted it to be a Magby, a fire type pokemon. I guess I don’t really mind what would hatch out from mine as long as it’s cute or cool-looking! So anyway, after talking a bit longer, mostly about battles and stuff, we’re gonna have a friendly pokemon battle once our baby pokemon’s fully grown! Watch out Tooth, I’m really gonna wipe the floor with ya, you’ll see!

Oh, and what else, havent’ seen Flip lately, but she did promise that we’d be having a lot of fun soon enough the next time we meet. I really hope she comes sooner though, I’m feeling lonely and bored again when everyone’s gone. I’m really looking forward to her visit!

I guess that’s all for today! Till tomorrow!